Fight For My Heart (4 page)

“Oh NO!” I laughed pushing him away; I was not about to go there again knowing I was sore and couldn’t even stand.

“Come on, round two real quick before they come in here.” He smiled at me trying to climb back on the bed. “Think about it, I could have gotten you pregnant already.” I should have found what he said frightening by the way his eyes gleamed a bit at the thought.

“What! NO!” I screamed then the door opened again showing Cadence, Ant, Tony, Dom, and no other than Carmen…who looked extremely pissed too!

“What are you doing?” “I told you he won’t be faithful.” “I loved you.” “I knew it.” and “Damn he looks tasty” came from all of them.

“You son of a bitch! I asked Rico where you were, and that fucker lied to me. I knew you were hiding something from me!” Carmen’s voice had to have reached sound barrier status with how high it was. Damn I think we all winced a little bit.

I didn’t know what to say. I looked at Vincent, and he had his hands folded behind his head smirking like all was okay. I slapped his chest, and he rolled over onto me and kissed me. I didn’t care if anyone else was in the room. “Umm” was all that got out of me.

“I told you she wasn’t my fiancée,” he whispered kissing me again. I laughed until I remembered there were others in the room, and quickly shot up covering myself with a blanket. “Can you get out?” Everyone just stared for a minute, before Vin made a growling noise and then they quickly left.

He laughed and pulled me into his embrace until I fell asleep.

I woke up when my alarm went off and stretched out feeling for Vincent, but he wasn’t there.

I felt a note next to me and quickly read it:

Hey baby,

Sorry, I didn’t stay. I have some things to work on. Just know what happened between us meant everything to me. I’ll call you later. I know we just met, but please do not doubt me.

-Vin

I was dumbfounded with this letter. What did he mean by don’t doubt him?

That made me worry right there.

Weeks went by and I found myself throwing up. I spoke to Vin on the phone a few times, but with his training schedule we could never meet up again. I felt like he was pulling away from me; I mean we’re not even a couple, but he says all the right things to make you think we are. I don’t mention the sickness I’ve been feeling, because I’m too scared of what he might say or think. It had been more than a month since I saw him in the papers; I didn’t even realize how popular he was until a couple of weeks ago.

With those thoughts on my mind, I didn’t even see Cadence come into the room.

“Fuck this, we told you to watch out for that fucker, BUT NO you had to fuck him, right?” she angrily says to me. I can seriously tell that she’s pissed right now, but behind that I can see the disappointment.

I flinched at her voice and looked the other way.

Cadence then went to the bathroom; I knew what she would find, but didn’t care to tell her to stop.

“WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS?!!!” she screamed so loud I thought I may have to call Chris Brown. LOL, get it? Maybe not.

“I’m pregnant,” I told Cadence in a small voice. I didn’t want her to be mad. I was already mad at myself. I felt a pop; I could have stopped it. Shit, I could have even gotten on birth control. But, No I wanted to be independent and live for just a moment with Vin. My mind should have told me to pay attention that mistakes could happen. But, since it didn’t here I am, in this situation with my own self to blame.

Cadence didn’t want to hear me, but she did see all the different tests sitting on the counter, I mean, come on! I bought like thirteen of them. Yes, maybe I over did it, but all I kept remembering was Vin saying
“You’re pregnant already.”
Those are not words of comfort that you want to hear.

So here we are sitting at the clinic on campus. I should be in my Psychology class right now, but no, I was dragged here just to make sure. “So now I know why you have been mopping around the room for the past month.” Cadence thinks she knows what’s really been on my mind, but this is just the icing on the cake.

“We told you not to get involved with him! But, you didn’t listen, now look at what’s happened! I cannot believe you were so stupid!” She is basically yelling at me, and I couldn’t care less. I miss Vincent too much to care. How? Why me? After one time with him, I’m pregnant. I haven’t even been away from home a whole 2 months, and here I am. With no Vin, and a best friend/roommate that’s pissed at me.

“Look, it wasn’t my first time ever for goodness sakes. Plus, we used a condom. I didn’t know this would happen. You don’t think I’ve seen Vin in those magazines with Carmen? It hurts to know he wanted me to trust him, and this is what happens.” I’m basically crying at this point, damn hormones.

“Ohh, Taleah. Why? I mean I know he’s sex on a stick, but really? You just gave away all that for free?” HA! I know it’s not funny, but I giggle anyways. I mean whose life turns out like mine? I was basically a one night stand. Fucking lip tattoo. Yep! That’s what I’m blaming this whole situation on.

“What lip tattoo?” Shit, I really need to keep my thoughts to myself.

“Nothing, don’t worry about it.” I tell her patting her hand.

“Taleah Bryant!” the nurse yells.

Cadence and I get up and walk through the white lobby like were walking to our deaths, it’s clearly not that serious to look the way we must to everyone in the office, but it sure feels like it to me. I can hear the chants now “dead girl walking.” I really need to do something with my thoughts. We walk down a long hallway, and the nurse looks back at me and tells me to go into room 5. I go in and was instructed to pee in the clear cup looking things, how the fuck am I supposed to aim? I never understood this part, hmm, a thought for another day.

I pee, place to cup in the door, and return to the room.

“So, the weather is good, yeah?” I ask Cadence trying to break the tension between us.

“Do not start with the jokes, I’m still pissed right now,” wow, well this is going well.

The door opens, and the doctors comes in, after a routine checkup and me being poked and prodded by a machine, hands, and needles. I get the same answer I did when I peed on that stupid little stick. I’m absolutely pregnant. When they asked if I want to know the due date, I think I stopped breathing, but Cadence reminded me that would be an important piece of information. You know, just in case I forget I have to give birth at a certain point. With May 19th, we pack our stuff and leave. Yep life sucks alright.

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8 whole monthstillwemeetLilnugget

After we leave the clinic, we went to our respective classes; I was in a daze and didn’t realize I walked straight into Dom. Fuck my life. I have come to terms that what happened between him and I were for the best. We’ve tried to hang out a few time, but it’s just occurred. So I have mostly stayed away or had Tony come visit me in my dorm or we go to dinner. Our twin time is great, but Dom and I is a relationship that we have to learn how to turn into strictly friends, and that feat alone is harder than it should be.

“Hey Te, how yah been, what’s good and all that?” Hmm, he’s worried. Why?

“What did you do?” I ask him cutting straight to the point.

“Who? Me? Nothing, why do you ask?” He’s not looking at me. Matter of fact, he’s looking at everything except me.

I eye him closely trying to figure out what his problem is, when all of a sudden I’m pushed from behind. And, I slam straight into Dom yet again. “Bitch!” A girl behind me exclaims.

“What the hell?” I whisper to myself.

“Why are you with my man?” She yells at me again.

Oh, now I see why he looks guilty, like I actually care who he’s with, especially now. I turn around, smile at her and then continue on my way.

“Te!” Dom yells behind me, but I just keep going, I have other things to worry about right now, and he is not one of them. The bitch is lucky I didn’t get hurt, or I’d be on her ass quicker than she could blink. Stupid ass girl pushed a pregnant girl, I’m already a mama bear, look at me.

I sit in my dorm room, and think about what I’m going to do. I don’t think I’m ready for this, hell Vin hasn’t contacted me, come by or cared to keep his hands to himself seeing as he is all over Carmen every time I see him in a picture.

“Trust me” yeah, right I mumble to myself. He asked for something that I didn’t know him well enough to give away, yet I did it anyway. Stupid, stupid, I should have learned my lesson the first time I was lied to by Dom instead of falling for Vin’s words. Whatever, I need to get my shit together, and I have 8 months to do it.

I lay back on my bed as images of us together float through my mind. I can still feel him kissing my thighs. Oh lord, I need to stop already, this can’t be healthy for me.

Cadence comes bouncing into our room followed by Ant. They stop when they see me curled into myself with tears in my eyes. I don’t say anything, because I know I was a fucking dumb ass. I still blame that damn lip tattoo.

“Hey, umm don’t be mad, but Cadence told me about your little clinic visit. I told you to stay away from him; I know his family, and he won’t choose you. I know it’s probably messed up to hear me say that, but I’m just looking out for you kid,” Ant tells me sitting down on my bed. I want to be mad at him, but he did warn me, and I just let my fantasies get in the way. His family not letting us be together though?

“What do you mean about his family?” I ask.

“Well let’s just say they are very wealthy and have been planning on Vincent and Carmen taking over one day. They families are very close; his mom is great, but his dad won’t let anyone ruin what they have planned. His dad thinks Vin just needs to sow his oats, so to speak; that’s why Carmen doesn’t care about him banging groupies, who hang around the gym or at the fights. She knows he will always be with her.”

“So I was just someone to pass the time? He never cared?” I squeak, aww damn I’m going to cry again. I don’t feel hurt; I’m more pissed, than anything else; I can’t believe I did this to myself. I don’t want a baby without a father. We don’t have to be together, but I want Vin in his/her life because, let’s face it I don’t want to do this alone.

“Don’t say that! You heard Carmen; he’s been different since he met you!” Cadence comes over and drops down to my side. “Will you stop it? She doesn’t need to hear that!” She yells at Ant. HA! He actually looks scared; he even falls off the bed.

“I need to see him” I look at Ant trying to convey how mixed up I feel.

“No, Taleah, you should just keep this all a secret. You do not want to go to his place. I promise you it won’t end well,” he looks at me apologetically. Like he knows something that I shouldn’t.

“NO! You take me there right now! I need to tell him and get this over with; I can’t live with this on my conscience. I have to get it out and let him know so he can decide what he wants to do with it.” I explain hoping that he understands.

He takes my hand and helps me up nodding he head he says, “Ok, but I warned you, let’s go.”

XoXoXoXo

We pull up to a high rise building, and I’m starting to rethink this whole thing. I know I should be feeling ok with my decision, but I’m anything but. I am shaking; my palms are sweating, and I can’t feel my toes.

All three of us walk into the building, Ant pushes the elevator button, and we enter the tiny space that’s taking me to my future. Ant hits the PH button which I’m assuming is the penthouse and up we go. My mind is racing with how I want to play this. I’m worried that I’m making a mistake, but it’s too late to back out. It’s been a month, and I still don’t know this man, who is the father of my baby. I don’t even know if I want to get to know him, all I do know is that this is a test that will send my life in a new direction for the next 18 years. SHIT! I’m only 19 how the hell am I going to do this?

The doors ding open; I take a breath, reach forward, knock on the door and wait.

A girl answers the door; she’s very pretty, and there’s an older gentleman standing behind her then I see Rico leaning against the bar, smiling at me like the cat that ate the canary, damn he is sexy, but back to the reason I’m here. “Hello? Who are you?” she asks me.

“I’m Taleah, I was hoping to talk to Vincent Santiago? I think he lives here. This is his friend and my roommate Ant and Cadence.” I explain still standing outside the door.

“Ahh, Taleah, I’ve heard about you” The older man steps forward looking me over. It’s then that I notice he has those same hazel eyes that caught my attention when I met Vincent. His father, I presume. The way he’s looking at me though is like he’s trying to place me somewhere or figure me out. “Sir, if Taleah could speak with Vincent that would great, it’s an urgent matter and needs to be discussed.” I hear Cadence tell the man.

“I’m sorry, come in come in, this is Carmen’s sister Erica, and I’m Marco Santiago, Vincent’s father.” Ahh, nail on the head. But, the way Erica is looking at me with hate I know she’s going to be a problem.

“You can go right up the stairs to Vin’s room the last door on the left, he should be there.” He gives me an evil smile. I probably should have taken the evil glint in his eyes for what I was going to walk into, but NO, I just wanted to get this shit over with so I could tell my father and Tony what the hell is going on next.

“Hey, Taleah wait up a second before you go up there. I need to talk to you.” Rico comes rushing up to me, blocking the stairs. Marco grabs Rico by the elbow and whispers harshly into his ear before directing us to continue up the stairs.

Ant leads the way; he obviously has been here before, holding onto Cadence’s hand and her holding mine, we make our walk up the stairs and down the hallway. This condo is nice, too. Furnishings are dark wood like cherry, paintings and pictures on the walls show a family friendly atmosphere. And I can already picture my little one fitting in nicely.

We stop at the door Vin’s father told us about; Ant turns to me, sweeps me into his arms and says “Sorry.” He then opens the door he steps to the side, and I see what he means. There on the bed is Carmen face down, legs hanging over the mattress and Vin giving it to her hard from behind.