Find Me (28 page)

Monday, March
2, 4:00 A.M.

Hide!

Sarah grabbed her pillow and ran.

Hide.
Mommy will find you
.

Don't listen to the sounds.

Don't let the voices get you.

The blood on the floor stopped her. She couldn't cross the room without stepping in it. It grew and grew, crowding her into a corner until it traced a path around her feet. She screamed!

She had to run.

She slipped, fell into the blood, but quickly scrambled up. Rushing past the kitchen table, she stalled. Her feet seemed to sink into the wooden floor as if it was mud. She blinked. Told herself not to look. But she couldn't close her eyes. Something stared at her from the table… something that shouldn't be there.

"Daddy?"

Big fat droplets of blood spilled over the edge of the table. What was wrong with her daddy? Sarah climbed into a chair.

She opened her mouth to scream again but no sound came out. She could only stand there and stare at her daddy's head on the table. Where was the rest of him?

"Sarah!" the voice wailed.

Terror sent goose bumps over her skin. She had to hide.

Hurry! Up the stairs. To her mother's room. She climbed as deep into the closet as she could go, curled into a ball, and hugged her pillow.

Find me, Mommy. Find me!

Sarah!

Sarah bolted upright.

A weight shifted beside her. Suffocating… warm.

Someone was next to her!

Sarah scrambled out of bed.

She stumbled.

She gasped for air.

"What happened?"

The voice.

The body moved.

Sarah blinked.

Conner.

She blew out a breath.

Just a dream.

Another nightmare.

"Sarah, you okay?"

"I'm fine." She staggered to the bathroom. Washed her face. Buttressed her trembling body against the sink.

Shit.

She hated those fucking dreams.

She was okay now.

She dried her face. Peed. Then washed her hands.

Pausing at the door, Sarah braced for facing Conner.

Talk about awkward. It was bad enough that he
knew
about her past. The nightmare would only reaffirm his concerns.

Damn.

Deep breath. Just do it.

She sauntered back into the room.

He sat on the side of the bed, the sheet tugged over his lap. "You sure you're okay?"

"Yeah, yeah." She climbed into bed and crawled under the covers. She didn't want to talk about this with him. He'd already succeeded in making her feel completely vulnerable; completely unable to resist him.

"Are we going to talk about this?"

"Nope."

No questions. She did not want any more questions.

He already knew too much.

"I was wrong before." He leaned against the headboard, propped one muscled leg on the bed.

She closed her eyes. Refused to look at him. To be tempted. No matter what he said, the words would only be a lead-in to talking about her past.

"You do what you have to do to survive and I had no right to question your tactics."

Opening her eyes, she admitted defeat. She might as well get this over with. He wasn't going to let it go until he knew the whole story. It would be in her best interests to play off his concerns. "It's not as bad as it sounds." Okay, so that was a stretch. "I never really knew what was going on. I played in the butcher shop during the day. I wouldn't have known the difference between animal blood and human blood." It was all the other stuff… the body parts… that scared her but she wasn't going into that. "I was usually in bed. When I heard the sounds, I hid. My mother told me to hide when I got scared and she would find me. She always did…"

"Always?"

"Except that once." Like in the nightmare she'd just had. "She was filling an order for Jimmy Dean and my dad was the main ingredient."

Suffocating silence.

And finally, "So you got counseling? Like jerkwad said."

Sarah sat up. She stared a moment at his semierect penis and then looked into his eyes. "I did it all. Alcohol, sex, drugs, mostly prescription.
Sex
, cigarettes, more sex, more booze." She puffed out a blast of disgusted air. "And finally I decided that I shouldn't punish myself for my mother's mistakes. And yes." She plopped back onto her pillow. "I've had several shrinks. This one seems to have stuck. Though I don't know why. I never follow her advice. Otherwise I wouldn't be here right now."

He scooted down next to her. "That really sucks."

"No shit." Why didn't he just shut up? He pulled her into his arms. "You did good, Sarah Newton." He pulled her closer. "Real good."

She closed her eyes and blocked the echo of his words.

Not real.

She couldn't trust him.

Or his sweet words.

Public Safety Office
, 11:05 A.M.

"Don't even try it," Kale said to the man he'd known his whole life, Deputy Rodger Boyd. "We're going in."

"You can go in," Rodger said, stepping into his path. "But not her."

"So shoot me." Kale walked around the determined deputy, Sarah right behind him.

No one was stepping on her toes today.

If August got in his way, Conner would beat the hell out of the guy.

The crackle of the deputy's radio warned that he was informing the chief.

Kale didn't care what they said. Sarah had as much right to be here as anyone else. She was a part of this investigation. He'd gotten word half an hour ago from Karen Brighton that the next briefing would start at eleven.

Images from a shower with Sarah… more sex… another shower… flashed like a steamy movie trailer. He tucked it away for savoring later.

Maybe she was right and he hadn't been living his own life. But today was as good a day as any to start. Or maybe he'd started last night.

He passed several other deputies en route to his destination, all of whom stopped and stared at him.

Fuck 'em. He'd known these people his whole life. If they didn't trust his actions, then tough shit.

He burst into the conference room where the chief, the mayor, Kale's fellow councilmen. and the fed were already gathered.

"Sorry we're late," Kale announced. Before anyone could get past the shock of his and Sarah's appearance he dragged out a chair and waited for her to sit. He didn't take his eyes off August. "If we missed anything, we'd like to be brought up to speed."

Kale settled into the chair next to Sarah.

"Kale." The chief was the first to speak. "Don't make me have her hauled out of here by force."

"If she goes," Kale cautioned, "I go. And when I go, I'm going straight out there to those reporters and tell them everything I know." He surveyed the table. "And everything you don't know."

Sarah stared as if she didn't recognize him.

Maybe she didn't. Whatever she thought, he wasn't that go-along guy all the time.

He'd assured her that the people in this village were God-fearing, compassionate folks. By God, he intended for these people to live up to his promise.

Mayor Patterson rose from his chair. "Conner, if you persist in this behavior—"

Special Agent Lex Asshole August held up a hand. "He's right. She should stay."

The chief's jaw dropped.

As did Kale's. What the hell was this guy up to? Sarah had warned him not to trust anything August did or said.

The mayor stood there with his own mouth hanging open for another three or four seconds, before resuming his seat.

No one else said a word.

Chief Willard heaved a sigh. "Well, let's get to it then."

He reviewed the details Kale had already shared with Sarah. She didn't ask any questions. As the chief spoke Kale noticed a timeline had been arranged on the white board usually reserved for community activities requiring law enforcement assistance.

A picture of Valerie, as well as one of Alicia, was accompanied by dates, times, and events. Next to each entry was a list of the persons related in some way to the victim. Beneath all that information were crime-scene photos and the few evidentiary details.

"This morning"—the chief moved on to more recent news—"we swept the scene again." He surveyed those present. "We got lucky."

Kale tensed. They found something? Next to him, Sarah perked up.

Lex August leaned forward. "We found a single boot print in probably the one thawed spot of ground in the whole area."

The chief shook his head. "You'd think the fool stumbled all over the woods looking for that one place to step."

Sarah leaned forward. "Boot? What size?"

August's gaze met hers. "Ladies', size eight. The same as yours."

Tension whipped through Kale. He wanted to rearrange that perfect smile so bad.

"You now believe the unsub is a woman," she said, her gaze never leaving August's.

"That's a possibility." The fed's attention didn't waver. He seemed to be devouring Sarah with his eyes.

It was as if everyone else in the room had vanished. Kale's fury just kept building.

The chief raised his hands. "Before we go getting too excited and making any announcements to the press, there are a few things we need to do."

August turned to the chief. "I'll start the interviews. The list is compiled and prioritized."

"The rest of us," the chief explained, "will divide up into teams and start tracking down leads. One team will run down anyone in the area who is prescribed propranolol, the beta blocker discovered in Alicia's tox screen. That'll take a while since it's a pretty common drug. Another team will get a list of anyone local who competed against Valerie Gerard in that fourth-grade spelling bee, kids and parents, brothers, whatever. And the local competitors in any competitions Alicia Appleton participated in."

"Now that," Deputy Brighton noted, "will take some time."

A rumble of agreement went around the room.

"I want every name," the chief reiterated. "Narrow down those results by anyone who wears a size eight boot." He gestured to the fed. "Agent August has the male equivalent in case we're dealing with a younger male. We'll meet here to compare notes at midnight. No one sleeps until this is done."

The group stood and filed out of the room, a new sense of urgency in their movements.

August rounded the table. "I assume you'll accept my apology for yesterday." This he said directly to Sarah despite Kale standing right next to her.

Sarah didn't know what Lex was up to, but one thing was certain, he never apologized… and meant it. "For what? Telling the truth? Not a big deal." She stared straight at him, let him see the delight in her eyes. "Just remember, it works both ways."

Lex adjusted his tie. "I suppose I was feeling a little territorial. You were here first and it has been a while since we've worked together." He glanced briefly at Conner. "How have you been?"

"I've been great." She reached for her coat and pulled it on, then slung her bag on her shoulder.

"Excellent." He smiled that million-dollar smile that had first tugged at her heart strings. "It'll be nice working with you again."

Next to her, Conner shifted. If the glower on his face was any indication, he still wanted to beat the hell out of Lex.