FORSAKEN: THE SYSTEMIC SERIES

Chapter 1

It wasn’t the words that indicated something was wrong so much as the way in which Claire said them.  After being married for nearly ten years, I could tell what was going on in her head or what sorts of emotions she was feeling just by the tone of her voice or the inflections in her words.  

So when I heard her yell, “
John, come quick!  It’s Paul!  Something’s wrong!
”  I could tell that things were bad before I even arrived on the scene.  Little Paul hadn’t just tripped and fallen down or gotten a splinter, it was something far more serious.

Just moments before Claire’s shouts, I had received the wonderful news that my best friend Ray’s wife Pam was pregnant.  My emotions went from ecstatic at hearing the news of the conception of my friend’s first child to terror as I was now faced with the fact that something was wrong with my brother’s young son.

At this point in our journey south from Chicago to Georgia following a pandemic that had decimated most of the nation’s population, maybe I should have been used to such instantaneous roller coaster rides of emotion, but I wasn’t.  We’d suffered through so many such wild swings after having to abandon our camp in southern Illinois, then being forced from our mountaintop retreat in Tennessee, and now having departed a cozy farm at which our elderly hosts had met a grizzly demise, I wasn’t sure how much more I could take.  It was stressful enough just trying to keep our group alive in this insane, post-apocalyptic world without having one emergency after another crop up.  And having lost several members of our group since departing the Chicagoland area about six months ago, I felt less than successful in my efforts.  Yet this sort of situation sadly seemed to be the new norm. 

The group as it stood now consisted of my wife Claire, my son Jason, my father Frank who was recovering from a gunshot wound to the arm and suffering what appeared to be a severe respiratory illness, Claire’s mother Emily who had been badly burned in our escape from Tennessee, my brother Will who was recovering from a gunshot wound to the butt cheek; his vegetarian wife Sharron, their children Sarah and Paul, a knockout looking gal named Joanna who had joined our group in southern Illinois, Joanna’s young son Shane, and my good buddy Ray – a former FBI agent – and his now pregnant wife Pam.

I was but a former freelance writer and stay-at-home father turned pandemic survivor and default leader of our ragtag bunch.  I hadn’t asked for the position, but I held it nonetheless. 

By the time I arrived on the scene to which my wife Claire had beckoned me with her concerned calls, a group of concerned family members had already clustered around little Paul who lay motionless on the ground.  Over the past week, Paul had been dealing with the same sort of respiratory illness my father had been combating.  Claire, who had been an occupational therapist in her pre-flu life and who the family often turned to for medical advice, and Paul’s mother Sharron, knelt beside the boy.  They were doing their best to revive or at least get some sort of response from the unconscious lad. His father Will, still on crutches due to the wound he had suffered to his rear end, was standing nearby, staring down helplessly, watching as the two women worked.

“Paul! 
Paul!
” Claire said as she squeezed the boy’s hand in hers and then released it to lift his left eyelid. Only the whites of his eye were visible. 

“I don’t think he’s breathing!” his mother cried.  “He was throwing up.  I just thought it was something he had eaten, but he kept on vomiting.  Then he said he felt tired and collapsed!”

“Can you find a pulse?” Claire asked her.

Sharron felt Paul’s wrist for a moment.  “I can’t tell!” she cried, tears rolling down her cheeks.  “I…I don’t think there is any!” she said, dropping his wrist and grabbing Paul by the shoulders and shaking him.  “
Paul. Paul!
” she continued to sob.  “
Paul!
 
Honey
,
can you hear me?
 
Answer your mother!”

But her admonitions were doing no good.

Claire allowed Paul’s eyelid to close and placed two fingertips on the side of his neck, just below his jaw.  “Jesus,” she said in exasperation. “I can’t find anything either.”

It was then I remembered a technique from yesteryear, something I’d seen in an old movie or on television one time.

With spring approaching in Georgia, the days were getting warmer, but the mornings and evenings were often still cool and crisp.  This morning had dawned bright and beautifully sunny, but there was frost on the ground.  And now that it was evening, that same chill had begun to return to the air.  Therefore, I yanked the pocketknife I carried with me at all times out from where it sat in my coat pocket and pulled out its blade.  I dropped down flat on my belly beside Paul, nudging Claire out of the way.  Turning my head to the side so that I could see, I held the knife blade down directly in front of Paul’s nose about an inch away.

“What are you
doing
?” Sharron cried, frightened at seeing the knife held so close to her unresponsive son.

“Just wait!”
I hissed at her.

Suddenly a very fine film of misty haze glossed across the knife blade as I watched.  “He’s alive!” I said.  “He’s breathing!” I pulled the knife away and turned it so that the others could see the light film of condensation that had accumulated on it from Paul’s faint breath. 

I wasn’t sure what was wrong with him or what to do, so I just did what came naturally.  I put my hand on his chest, applied pressure and just began to rub my hand slowly over him while talking to him in the calmest voice I could manage with the chaos going on around me.  “Paul,” I said.  “Paul, wake up.  Wake up, Paul.  Come on hon’, you need to wake up.  Everything’s okay.  You need to wake up now.” 

I had no idea if what I was doing or saying would help at all, but it was all I could think of.  A child’s illness and the resulting helplessness a parent can feel is one of the most terrifying situations I’d ever encountered.  And it was even worse experiencing it in a world without the modern safety net of the local doctor or urgent care center there for advice or immediate medical attention.  There was no one to diagnose the situation, no one to prescribe the right medications in the right amounts, and no one there to say, “This is quite common in children this age, it’s just a mild case of…”   To which parents and loved ones could respond by sharing a collective sigh of relief.

Suddenly Paul’s eyes fluttered open.

“What…what happened?” he breathed softly.

“Oh, thank god!” his mother tilted her head up to the sky and began crying, taking his hand in hers.

Paul struggled to sit up but I used the hand I had on his chest to gently keep him on his back.  “Hold tight little guy,” I said.  “Just relax, there’s no hurry.”

With the boy revived, his mother now stepped in to take over.  She cuddled and rubbed and cooed and petted.

My job done for the moment, I stood and walked a few yards away, taking a moment to recover from the extreme emotions and adrenaline coursing through me from the incident and gravity of the situation, all the while wishing I had a cigarette to help calm my nerves. 

Will stayed with his son, along with most of the other mothers who wanted to be supportive but who mostly just got in the way of the parents trying to comfort not just their sickly son but one another as well. 

Dad and Ray joined me a moment later aside from the group.

Dad was coughing as usual.  He cleared his throat after a minute of hacking and said, “We need to find a place to settle down.”

I gestured to the spot we’d picked for the night and said, “I think this is as good a spot as any we’ll find tonight.”

Dad shook his head, “No, I mean permanently.  Like back in Tennessee.”

“What the hell dad?” I said in exasperation.  “I’m doing the fucking best I can here.  Sorry I can’t instantly find us the Che Chalet, but the pickings are kind of slim at the moment.  I thought I had us a good spot in southern, Illinois.  I thought I had us a good spot in Tennessee.  I thought maybe we’d found something back at Jonah’s farm.  Nothing is working out.  I’m sorry I can’t be a better freakin’ leader.  I’m not a post-apocalyptic lifestyle expert though.”

Dad stood silent, not looking at me. 

Ray was silent as well. 

I took a deep breath.  “Sorry,” I said.  “I’m just frustrated.  I’m frustrated, and I agree with you.  I want to find somewhere just as bad you do, but it seems like everywhere we try just blows up in our face.”

“It’s okay,” dad said, coughing again and spitting some phlegm out onto the ground.  “I know it’s hard on you.  It’s hard on all of us.”

I immediately felt guilty for losing my temper.  Here was poor dad, still recovering from being shot in the arm, plus being sick.  I had my diabetic wife doing her best to survive on her rationed insulin and diabetic supplies.  Poor Paul was passing out from sickness, exhaustion, malnutrition or some combination thereof.  Emily was recovering from being badly burned and still couldn’t walk.  Will was on crutches from the gunshot wound to his butt.  Just moments ago, I’d found out that Pam was pregnant.  And here I was feeling sorry for myself and getting angry because I couldn’t find a good spot for us to settle down.  I felt so selfish.

I looked at dad.  He was staring at me with a certain look on his face that I remembered from when I was a kid.  I knew exactly what he was thinking.

“You don’t even have to say it,” I looked at him, shaking my head and giving him a knowing half smile. 

“Say what?” he said, wanting to hear it straight from my mouth.

“What mom would have said if she was here.”

He smiled at me.

“If you don’t like it, stop complaining and
do
something about it, is what she would have said,” I nodded.

“Your mother was a smart woman,” dad said, turning to rejoin the others.  “And you take after her.  I know you’ll get us where we need to be,” he said confidently as he walked away.

After he was gone, I looked at Ray.  “I’m glad
he
knows it,” I said with some uncertainty.  “Just wish
I
did.”

Ray reached out and put his hand on my shoulder.  “We’ll be okay,” he said reassuringly, giving me a grin. “I know it too.”

“Thanks,” I nodded at him.

“Now let’s get things set up so we can get Paul and everyone else some food and rest.  Don’t forget, tomorrow’s a new day,” he said as he led us back to join the others.

Chapter 2

Jake opened his eyes and then immediately clamped them shut again.  The sun was bright…too bright.  He tried opening them again, and as soon as he did, he felt like he was going to vomit.

He rolled over on the floor and onto his side so that he could reach inside his right jacket pocket.  Fumbling blindly, and still without opening his eyes, he found a pack of cigarettes, fished one out solely by feel, found his lighter – also in his jacket pocket – and lit his smoke.  He inhaled deeply, eyes still shut, savoring the smoke, and then exhaled.  He inhaled deeply again, finally starting to feel the nicotine’s effects, then he tried re-opening his eyes.  This time he didn’t feel so nauseous, but he still felt like shit.

A minute later he’d managed to sit up.  He looked around the room.  Several other men were sleeping in various states of disarray.  A body draped across a dingy sofa across from him, someone slouched against the wall on the other side of the room, someone else passed out in a puddle of his own vomit near the door. 

Jake saw Ava sitting in a metal folding chair beside a card table near the window.  She was smoking a cigarette and looking outside.  Even at this hour of the morning, she looked good…damn good.  Her curvy Latina body had weathered the winter well, and she still had that soft brown glow about her skin that he found so attractive.  It complimented his pasty white flesh so nicely.

It’d been a rough ride from the south side of Chicago where they had begun their journey south together, but here in Atlanta, Jake was finally hitting his stride and finding the success that had so eluded him up to this point in their trek.

The flu had taken the Atlanta metro area’s population from right around 4.2 million to just under a million in a matter of weeks.  The further spread of disease from the rotting corpses and lack of sanitary services after the flu passed, paired with starvation, the disappearance of law enforcement, and lack of clean water, further reduced the population to about 400,000 after several more weeks.  And a combination of continued disease, starvation, and further violence from theft and looting in the months that followed had finally left the population at right around 150,000.  But many of those 150,000 people were some of her hardest core survivors anyone would care to meet.  They were the ones who were savvy enough or tough enough – or some combination thereof – not only to have outlasted the most devastating pandemic the world had ever known, but then outlast the deadly combination of factors that followed the disease as it swept across the nation.

Jake looked around at the roomful of various supplies stacked around him.  They were running out of space in their home base to keep all the loot they had been acquiring lately.  They’d hit several smaller supply dumps around Atlanta, and most recently a larger depot belonging to a downtown trader, a raid that had netted a laundry list of goods that included many of the new currencies in the post-flu age – cigarettes, alcohol, guns, ammunition, and of course, food.