“When did you bail out?” Dors asked.
“After Biggest stopped pounding on me ... uh, on Ipan.”
They were relaxing beside a swimming pool and the heady smells of the forest seemed to
awaken in Hari the urge to be down there again, in the valleys of dust and blood. He
trembled, took a deep breath. The fighting had been so involving he hadn't wanted to
leave, despite the pain. Immersion had a hypnotic quality.
“I know how you feel, ” she said. “It's easy to totally identify with them. I left Sheelah
when those raboons came close. Pretty scary.”
"Vaddo said they're derived from Earth, too.
Plenty of DNA overlap. But they show signs of extensive recent tinkering to make them
predators."
“Why would the ancients want those?”
“Trying to figure out our origins?”
To his surprise, she laughed. “Not everyone has your same interests.”
“Why, then?”
“How about using raboons as game, to hunt? Something a little challenging?”
“Hunting? The Empire has always been too far from throwback primitivism to -- ” He had
been about to launch into a little lecture on how far humanity had come when he realized
that he didn't believe it anymore. “Urn.”
“You've always thought of people as cerebral. No psychohistory could work if it didn't
take into account our animal selves.”
“Our worst sins are all our own, I fear. ” He had not expected that his experiences here
would shake him so. This was sobering.
“Not at all. Genocide occurs in wolves and pans alike. Murder is widespread. Ducks and
orangutans rape. Even ants have organized warfare and slave raids. Pans have at least as
good a chance of being murdered as do humans, Vaddo says. Of all the hallowed human
hallmarks -- speech, art, technology, and the rest -- the one which comes most obviously
from animal ancestors is genocide.”
“You've been learning from Vaddo.”
“It was a good way to keep an eye on him.”
“Better to be suspicious than sorry?”
“Of course, ” she said blandly, giving nothing away.
“Well, luckily, even if we are superpans, Imperial order and communication blurs
distinctions between Us and Them.”
“So?”
“That blunts the deep impulse to genocide.”
She laughed again, this time rather to his annoyance. “You haven't understood history very
well. Smaller groups still kill each other off with great relish. In Zone Sagittarius,
during the reign of Omar the Impaler -- ”
“I concede, there are small-scale tragedies by the dozens. But on the scale where
psychohistory might work, averaging over populations of many thousands of billions -- ”
“What makes you so sure numbers are any protection?” she asked pointedly.
“So far -- ”
“The Empire has been in stasis.”
“A steady-state solution, actually. Dynamic equilibrium.”
“And if that equilibrium fails?”
“Well ... then I have nothing to say.”
She smiled. “How uncharacteristic.”
“Until I have a real, working theory.”
“One that can allow for widespread genocide, if the Empire erodes.”
He saw her point then. “You're saying I really need this 'animal nature' part of humans.”
“I'm afraid so. I'm trained to allow for it already.”
He was puzzled. “How so?”
“I don't have your view of humanity. Scheming, plots, Sheelah grabbing more meat for her
young, Ipan wanting to do in Biggest -- those things happen in the Empire, fust better
disguised.”
“So?”
“Consider ExSpec Vaddo. He made a comment about your working on a 'theory of history' the
other evening.”
“So?”
“Who told him you were?”
“I don't think I -- ah, you think he's checking up on us?”
“He already knows.”
“The security chief, maybe she told him, after checking on me with the Academic Potentate.”
She graced him with an unreadable smile. “I do love your endless, naive way of seeing the
world.”
Later, he couldn't decide whether she had meant it as a compliment.
Vaddo invited him to try a combat-sport the station offered, and Hari accepted. It was an
enhanced swordplay with levitation through electrostatic lifters. Hari was slow and inept.
Using his own body against Vaddo's swift moves made him long for the sureness and grace of
Ipan.
Vaddo always opened with a traditional posture: one foot forward, his prod-sword making
little circles in the air. Hari poked through Vaddo's defense sometimes, but usually spent
all his lifter energy eluding Vaddo's thrusts. He did not enjoy it nearly as much as Vaddo.
He did learn bits and pieces about pans from Vaddo and from trolling through the vast
station library. The man seemed a bit uneasy when Hari probed the data arrays, as though
Vaddo somehow owned them and any reader was a thief. Or at least, that was what Hari took
to be the origin of the unease.
He had never thought about animals very much, though he had grown up among them on
Helicon. Yet he came to feel that they, too, had to be understood.
Catching sight of itself in a mirror, a dog sees the image as another dog. So did cats,
fish, or birds. After a while they get used to the harmless image, silent and smell-free,
but they do not see it as themselves.
Human children had to be about two years old to do better.
Pans took a few days to figure out that they were looking at themselves. Then they preened
before it shamelessly, studied their backs, and generally tried to see themselves
differently, even putting leaves on their heads like hats and laughing at the result.
So they could do something other animals could not: get outside themselves, and look back.
They plainly lived in a world charged with echoes and reminiscences. Their dominance
hierarchy was a frozen record of past coercion. They remembered termite mounds, trees to
drum, useful spots where large water-sponge leaves fell, or grain matured.
All this fed into the toy model he had begun building in his notes: a pan psychohistory.
It used their movements, rivalries, hierarchies, patterns of eating and mating and dying,
territory, resources, and troop competition for them. He found a way to factor into his
equations the biological baggage of dark behaviors, even the worst, like delight in
torture, and easy exterminations of other species for short-term gain.
All these the pans had. Just like the Empire.
At a dance that evening he watched the crowd with fresh vision.
Flirting was practice mating. He could see it in the sparkle of eyes, the rhythms of the
dance. The warm breeze wafting up from the valley brought smells of dust, rot, life. An
animal restlessness moved in the room.
He quite liked dancing and Dors was a lush companion tonight. Yet he could not stop his
mind from sifting, analyzing, taking the world before him apart into mechanisms.
The nonverbal template humans used for attract/approach strategies apparently descended
from a shared mammalian heritage, Dors had pointed out. He thought of that, watching the
crowd at the bar.
A woman crosses a crowded room, hips swaying, eyes resting momentarily on a likely man,
then coyly looking away just as she apparently notices his regard. A standard opening
move: Notice me.
The second is / am harmless. A hand placed palm-up on a table or knee. A shoulder shrug,
derived from an ancient vertebrate reflex, signifying helplessness. Combine that with a
tilted head, which displays the vulnerability of the neck. These commonly appeared when
two people drawn to each other have their first conversation -- all quite unconsciously.
Such moves and gestures are subcortical, emerging far below the neocortex.
Did such forces shape the Empire more than trade balances, alliances, treaties?
He looked at his own kind and tried to see it through pan eyes.
Though human females matured earlier, they did not go on to acquire coarse body hair, bony
eye ridges, deep voices, or tough skin. Males did. And women everywhere strove to stay
young looking. Cosmetics makers freely admitted their basic role: We don't sell products.
We sell hope.
Competition for mates was incessant. Male pans sometimes took turns with females in
estrus. They had huge testicles, implying that reproductive advantage had come to those
males who produced enough sperm to overwhelm their rivals' contributions.
Human males had proportionally smaller testicles..
But humans got their revenge where it mattered. All known primates were genetically
related, though they had separated out as species many millions of years ago. In
DNA-measured time, pans lay six million years from humans. Of all primates, humans had :
he largest penises.
He mentioned to Dors that only four percent of mammals formed pair bonds, were monogamous.
Primates rated a bit higher, but not much. Birds were much better at it.
She sniffed. “Don't let all this biology go to your head.”
“Oh, no, I won't let it get that far. ”
“You man it belongs in lower places?”
“Marian, you'll have to be the judge of that. ” 'Ah. you and your single-entendre humor. "
Later that evening, he had ample opportunity to reflect upon the truth that, while it was
not always great to be human, it was tremendous fun being a mammal.
They spent one last day immersed in their pans, sunning themselves beside a gushing
stream. They had told Vaddo to bring the shuttle down the next day, book a wormhole
transit. Then they entered the immersion capsule and sank into a last reverie.
Until Biggest started to mount Sheelah.
Hari/Ipan sat up, his head foggy. Sheelah was shrieking at Biggest. She slapped him.
Biggest had mounted Sheelah before. Dors had feeling its raw red fear, overrunning that
with an iron rage. Ipan's own wrath fed back into Hari. The two formed a concert, anger
building as if reflected from hard walls.
He might not be the same kind of primate, but he knew Ipan. Neither of them was going to
get beaten again. And Biggest was not going to get Sheelah/Dors.
He rolled to the side. Biggest hit the ground where he had been.
Ipan leaped up and kicked Biggest. Hard, in the ribs. Once, twice. Then in the head.
Whoops, cries, dust, pebbles -- Sheelah was still bombarding them both. Ipan shivered with
boiling energy and backed away.
Biggest shook his dusty head. Then he curled and rolled easily up to his feet, full of
muscular grace, face a constricted mask. The pan's eyes widened, showing white and red.
Ipan yearned to run. Only Hari's rage held him in place.
But it was a static balance of forces. Ipan blinked as Biggest shuffled warily forward,
the big pan's caution a tribute to the damage Ipan had inflicted.
/ need some advantage, Hari thought, looking around.
He could call for allies. Hunker paced nervously nearby.
Something told Hari that would be a losing strategy. Hunker was still a lieutenant to
Biggest. Sheelah was too small to make a decisive difference. He looked at the other pans,
all chattering anxiously -- and decided. He picked up a rock.
Biggest grunted in surprise. Pans didn't use rocks against each other. Rocks were only for
repelling invaders. He was violating a social code.
Biggest yelled, waved to the others, pounded the ground, huffed angrily. Then he charged.
Hari threw the rock hard. It hit Biggest in the chest, knocked him down.
Biggest came up fast, madder than before. Ipan scurried back, wanting desperately to run.
Hari felt control slipping from him -- and saw another rock. Suitable size, two paces
back. He let Ipan turn to flee, then stopped him at the stone. Ipan didn't want to hold
it. Panic ran through him.
Hari poured his rage into the pan, forced the long arms down. Hands grabbed at the stone,
fumbled, got it. Sheer anger made Ipan turn to face Biggest, who was thundering after him.
To Hari, Ipan's arm came up in achingly slow motion. He leaned heavily into the pitch. The
rock smacked Biggest in the face.
Biggest staggered. Blood ran into his eyes. Ipan caught the iron scent of it, riding on a
prickly stench of outrage.
Hari made the trembling Ipan stoop down. There were some shaped stones nearby, made by the
ferns to trim leaves from branches. He picked up one with a chipped edge.
Biggest shook his head, dizzy.
Ipan glanced at the sober, still faces of his troop. No one had ever used a rock against a
troop member, much less Biggest. Rocks were for Strangers.
A long silence stretched. The pans stood rooted; Biggest grunted and peered in disbelief
at the blood that spattered into his upturned hand.
Ipan stepped forward and raised the jagged stone, edge held outward. Crude, but a cutting
edge.
Biggest flared his nostrils and came at Ipan. Ipan swept the rock through the air, barely
missing Biggest's jaw.
Biggest's eyes widened. He huffed and puffed, threw dust, howled. Ipan simply stood with
the rock and held his ground. Biggest kept up his anger-display for a long while, but he
did not attack.
The troop watched with intense interest. Sheelah came and stood beside Ipan. It would have
been against protocols for a female to take part in male dominance rituals.
Her movement signaled that the confrontation was over. But Hunker was having none of that.
He abruptly howled, pounded the ground, and scooted over to Ipan's side.
Hari was surprised. With Hunker maybe he could hold the line against Biggest. He was not
fool enough to think that this one stand-off would put Biggest to rest. There would be
other challenges and he would have to fight them. Hunker would be a useful ally.
He realized that he was thinking in the slow, muted logic of Ipan himself. He assumed that
the pursuit of pan status-markers was a given, the great goal of his life.
This revelation startled him. He had known that he was diffusing into Ipan's mind, taking
control of some functions from the bottom up, seeping through the deeply buried,
walnut-sized gyrus. It had not occurred to him that the pan would diffuse into him. Were
they now married to each other in an interlocked web that dispersed mind and self?
Hunker stood beside him, eyes glaring at the other pans, chest heaving. Ipan felt the same
way, madly pinned to the moment. Hari realized that he would have to do something, break
this cycle of dominance and submission which ruled Ipan at the deep, neurological level.
He turned to Sheelah. Get out? he signed.
No. No. Her pan face wrinkled with anxiety.
Leave. He waved toward the trees, pointed to her, then him.
She spread her hands in a gesture of helplessness.
It was infuriating. He had so much to say to her and he had to funnel it through a few
hundred signs. He chippered in a high-pitched voice, trying vainly to force the pan lips
and palate to do the work of shaping words.
It was no use. He had tried before, idly, but now he wanted to badly and none of the
equipment worked. It couldn't. Evolution had shaped brain and vocal chords in parallel.
Pans groomed, people talked.
He turned back and realized that he had forgotten entirely about the status-setting.
Biggest was glowering at him. Hunker stood guard, confused at his new leader's sudden loss
of interest in the confrontation -- and to gesture at a mere fem, too.
Hari reared up as tall as he could and waved the stone. This produced the desired effect.
Biggest inched back a bit and the rest of the troop edged closer. Hari made Ipan stalk
forward boldly. By this time it did not take much effort, for Ipan was enjoying this
enormously.
Biggest retreated. Ferns inched around Biggest and approached Ipan.
If only I could leave him to the ferns' delights, Hari thought.
He tried to bail out again. Nothing. The mechanism wasn't working back at the Excursion
Station. And something told him that it wasn't going to get fixed.
He gave the edged stone to Hunker. The pan seemed surprised, but took it. Hari hoped the
symbolism of the gesture would penetrate in some fashion, because he had no time left to
spend on pan politics. Hunker hefted the rock and looked at Ipan. Then he cried in a
rolling, powerful voice, tones rich in joy and triumph.
Hari was quite happy to let Hunker distract the troop. He took Sheelah by the arm and led
her into the trees. No one followed.
He was relieved. If another pan had tagged along, it would have confirmed his suspicions.
Vaddo might be keeping track.
Still, he reminded himself, absence of evidence is not evidence of absence.