Freefall (The Indigo Lounge Series, #5) (28 page)

She nods. “The detective who was handling my case called and told me.” She laughs, but it’s a bleak shadow of a sound that makes me want to bare my teeth. “I think he was convinced it’d bring me some sort of closure.”

There is no closure. Not when something this precious is ripped from you.

I turn her away from me so she doesn’t see my regret of what she has to live with for the rest of her life. “Besides Leo, was there anyone else there that you knew?”

A new tension tightens her spine. When she remains silent, I glide my hand to her nape and massage until she sighs. She knows without me having to insist that I’m waiting for an answer.

“My psychology professor was there that night.”

I sense something more. “And?”

“And in relation to what happened to me, I can’t say whether he was involved or not. Leo is the only one I can state with any accuracy who meant me any harm that night.”

“Every one in that godforsaken place meant you harm. You were taken there for the sole purpose of being taken against your will,” I snap.

She flinches and I tug her into my arms. “Dammit. I’m sorry, kitten.”

She rests her head against me for a minute, then she steps back and reaches for the soap. “My turn.”

I allow her the mundane task of washing my body, and we leave the bathroom a few minutes later, clean but still tarnished with our dark pasts.

My arms open to her the moment we’re in bed, and her readiness to crawl onto me helps me contain the rattling cages.

I slide my hands up and down her soft body, unable to get anywhere near enough to touching her. The distance I sensed in her earlier today is gone, for now. I bury my face in her hair and breathe deep.

When I sense her disinclination to further our talk, I want to respect her need for an end to the subject, but I can’t let it go. Not yet.

“Tell me about your professor. Did he see you?”

Again she tenses. “Yes. He was the one who took me down to where Leo was. But I don’t know whether he was involved personally.”

I grip her hair and angle her face to mine. “You were drugged. How would you know?” Her eyes cloud over and I feel like a big shit. “Keely, I hate to state the obvious, but he knew you were there. He knew what would happen to you when you were taken to the east wing. And he still let it happen. Whether he was involved or not, he was culpable.” And now on my list. “What was his name?”

“Elliot Harding.”

The way she says his name makes my senses burn. “What aren’t you telling me, Keely?”

She blinks a few times before she says, “During my first semester, I thought Harding was coming on to me. He would ask me to stay after class, or ask me to come to his office. He always had a legitimate reason and he didn’t do anything sleazy, like stand too close or leer down my top. But...something in his eyes made me feel uneasy, like a subliminal promise of filth and pain that felt a little too, I don’t know...raw?”

“Kitten, let’s dispense with the graphics, okay?”

Her eyes widen at the violence in my voice and she swallows. “Okay. Well...anyway...I confronted him about it one day.”

“And?”

“Let’s just say, by the time I left his office, I felt like a piece of fossilized shit. He didn’t raise his voice, or threaten me in any way. But I knew if I dared to repeat my suspicions to anyone else, I would be finished.”

“But you were right to trust your instincts and confront him then.”

The look she gives me is full of self-recrimination. “I was right. But what good does that do me now? Deep down, I knew going into that basement would end badly. But I went anyway. For god’s sake, would you ride an elevator with a guy who calls himself
Moriarty
?”

“Yes. Because I’m better than Sherlock.” My joke falls flat when the corners of her mouth turn down.

“I wasn’t. I lost three days of my life because I ignored my instincts.”

I flip us over so she’s lying beneath me and slide my fingers into her hair until she has no choice but to direct her attention to me. “This is why you tried to throw yourself in the ocean,” I seethe. “You think killing yourself is the answer?”

Her mouth quivers before she firms it. “Since there’s only one way to answer that definitively and I’m still alive, I guess I don’t know.”

I kiss her hard, and roughly, trying to infuse her with fuck knows what. All I know is that I can’t let her think ending her life is okay. Never mind that I may have contemplated the same path. Never mind that I forsook that path because living was a far better punishment than dying.

I kiss her until she moans, and her nails dig into my back in a plea for either oxygen or fucking. I don’t grant either. Not until she’s out of her frantic mind.

Then I flip us back around, tuck her into my side, and pull the covers over her body.

“Go to sleep, kitten.”

She exhales in astonishment. “Mason. You can’t leave me like this.”

“I need you to have something to look forward to tomorrow. Even if it’s only the prospect of being fucked to within an inch of your life.”

I snap my fingers in a timed sequence and the room darkens.

Her arm jerks around me, then her hand heads south to grip my rock hard cock. Her body undulates against mine and I thicken in her hand.

“God...Mason, please. I need you.” Her voice quivers with her need and I almost waver.

“I’m not in a good place right now, baby. Let’s get some sleep. I promise I’ll give you double of everything you need in the morning.”

Although my whole body is on a razor’s edge of need, I infuse enough steel in my voice for her to heed my request. She strokes me a couple more times, before her hand reluctantly returns to curl against my chest.

Sleep isn’t on my churning horizon anytime soon, but I fake it until she settles, soft and pliant around me and her breathing deepens.

In the darkness, I let my furious growl lose.

The name Elliot Harding pounds through my brain until it fuses into my neural pathways.

“Seven, switch to silent computronic mode,” I murmur. A green light blinks from the device on my dresser to signal compliance. “Commence full search. Subject: Elliot Harding. Professor. UCLA, California. Full history - financial, medical, academic. Current location. Cross reference with Leo Brummer, same parameters including next of kin. Also search for dwellings with extensive underground development in Hollywood Hills, California. Specific dates of interest, first half of 2009. First report by zero six hundred.”

The green light blinks three times to signal message received.

I exhale and tangle my legs with Keely’s. She murmurs softly in her sleep, and I’m about to pull her even closer, bask in her warmth, when another device lights up, this one right next to me on the bedside table.

Cassie’s name is backlit in blue neon on my phone and the tiny sense of peace I felt a moment ago vanishes. I let it buzz, not trusting myself to be civil to a woman whose only sin against me is the blue blood that runs through her veins.

I was indifferent to Cassandra McCarthy long before I married her for the sake of consolidating our families’ financial power. Unfortunately, it took three years of mind-fucking cruelty for me to recognize that I was punishing her for being a carbon copy of my mother.

But more than detesting her for taking what I doled out like a meek, pearls-draped, upper class lamb, I detest her for giving me the son I grew to love more than I’d ever believed I was capable of loving another human being. She tore open a heart I didn’t want to believe I possessed and filled it with hopes and dreams, magic and endless possibility, for a senselessly brief time.

The day I lost Toby was the day I came within an inch of killing my ex-wife.

I divorced her the day after I buried my son, for her own sake as well as mine.

That compulsion hasn’t abated.

She knows better than contact me. So I know she has a good reason for contacting me now.

I wait for the beep that tells me she’s left a message. It never arrives. I place the phone back on the beside table. Three calls in one day. Three calls with no messages.

My ex-wife has either grown brass balls.

Or something is very wrong.

Keely

I
’m not sure what wakes me. All I know is that I’m lighter than a cirrus cloud and soaring just as high, even though I’m weighted down by a heavy limb.

Mason’s scent hits my nostrils and memory rushes back.

I told him. Another human knows what happened to me six years ago.

I wait for my stomach to turn, for the hot poker of shame to stab me in the heart, because let’s face it, the Sodom-sized hell visited upon me wouldn’t have happened if I hadn’t been following the dictates of my pussy. The bundle of nerves between my legs had altered my reality for all time, and for as long as I live, I’ll have to bear the consequences of that, so yeah...shame. I wait for it to drown me.

Nothing happens. I’m still floating. A little heavier than I was a moment ago, but I’m a happy, shame-free cloud.

A happy, shame-free,
horny
cloud.

Slowly, I open my eyes. The room is dawn-dark, so I know we haven’t been asleep longer than three hours. I turn my head and watch a softly-snoring Mason. He’s lying on his side, as if he fell asleep watching me. The thought tightens my chest and, I dance away from the warning light flickering on inside me.

He’d been a handy confessor. More than that, he’d received my burden with no outward judgment.

For that, he deserves a reward. And I know just the thing.

I lean closer and touch his eyebrow. He shifts, but his eyes remain closed, so I kiss the corner of his mouth, linger on his sensual upper lip before I trail kisses along his jaw to his ear. He stirs beneath me, and I know he’s awake.

“You are the one I am lit for. Come with your rod that twists and is a serpent,”
I whisper the line from
To A Dark Moses
in his ear.

His jaw moves and I can tell without looking that he’s smiling.

“You wake me with talk of rods and serpents. Either you’re a celestial being come to deliver the end of days, or you’re a little horny. Which is it, kitten?”

I rub my aching breasts against his chest and revel in the quiver that rushes through my belly. “Hmm, the second one. And I’m more than a little horny.”

“You want me to do something about that, baby?” he croons into my ear.

“Yes, please.”

One hand spreads over my back and pulls me deeper into his body. The rod of his cock prods hard into my belly. “Yes, please, what?”

“Please, sir. Make the ache go away.”

His hand moves from my back to my hair and captures a sheaf in a punishing hold. He pulls me by the hair until my face hangs over his, and we stare deep into each other’s eyes. “Ask me again,” he commands tightly.

“I want you. So badly I hurt everywhere. Fuck me, sir. Please fuck me and make the pain go away.”

He shuts his eyes for a second. “
Christ
. You know how perfect you could be?”

Could be?
Something fragile cracks open and oozes fuck knows what inside me. “No, I don’t, because perfection is an illusion.”

His mouth twists without regret. “That is it. But fucking you isn’t.”

My senses leap a mile high. “No. Yes. Do it, please.”

His fist clenches until my scalp burns. “Fuck, I get so damn hard when you beg.”

I groan, and my eager hand slips down his hot torso to delve beneath the cover. He captures my wrist before I reach my goal.

“Did I say you could touch me, kitten?”

So that is the game we’re playing? Okay. I slowly circle my lips with my wet tongue and try to look suitably contrite, while impatience and need burn me alive. “I’m sorry, sir. Permission to stroke your cock, sir.”

“Permission denied.” He lets go of me and slaps his hand against the headboard. “Get up here,” he instructs, and lunges out of bed.

I raise myself on my elbows, alone and adrift in my confusion.

Like everything on the IL Indulgence, the furniture design is elegantly simple, but luxuriously comfortable. There’s nothing about the steel head board that promises me relief from the increasing ball of agony between my legs.

“Umm...why?”

“Keely,” he warns.

“I’m sorry...sir. I just don’t understand how the headboard will give me what I need.”

My mind zeroes in on what
will
, and I groan helplessly.

A smile splits his face that catches at my heartstrings. “You don’t trust me to give you what you need?”

“I do, but...” The plaintive note in my voice irritates me, but this is what he’s reduced me to. I clear my throat. “I don’t want it to be dragged out. Sir.”

He thinks for a minute, and his gaze gentles. “It won’t be. Not this time. I’ll make you come in under three minute. Does that work for you?”

I nod eagerly.

“Then get up on your knees and hold tight to the headboard.”

I comply with pathetically wanton enthusiasm. When he walks backward to the dresser, I hold my breath. I watch him open the drawer and pull out a familiar box. It’s the one he gave me yesterday that I never got round to opening.

Anticipation tingles up my spine as I track his return.

When he climbs onto the bed behind me, it takes supreme effort not to reach for him. But I’ve learned that compliance brings quicker gratification than defying my dominant lover.

“A little old-fashioned, but effective nonetheless.” He flips the box lid open and pulls out a long silver chain with knot in the middle and pegs at the each end.

My nipples tighten just from the sight of the clamps. My Pavlova-tuned cunt ripples and dampens in delight.

I can barely breathe when Mason unhooks the knot and ties the chain around my waist. The opposing textures of cold metal against my hot skin chases goose bumps over my body.

When the metal drapes over my hip, he holds one clamp to my lips. “Make this wet for me.”

Keeping my gaze on his, I suck the peg into my mouth and swirl my tongue around it. A faint flush darts over his cheekbones and feminine power fills me, even though I know it won’t be mine for long.