They both nodded back. Rich wouldn't look at me.
“We were asking your husband some questions about Zachary Archer,” Updike said. “But he ran out of answers.”
“That's because this doesn't have anything to do with him,” I said.
I crossed to stand beside Rich and felt his urge to step away. His face barely masked the confusion I knew was there.
“What do you want to know?” I said.
“After we talked to you at the yacht club yesterdayâ”
Rich stiffened.
“âwe looked aroundâ”
Updike nodded to the officer, who produced a bag. I watched as the cop reached in and pulled out what appeared to be two wet rags. A guttural sound gurgled in my throat.
“You recognize these, then?” the young officer said.
Everything in me recoiled as, with an obviously perverse kind of pleasure, he unrolled my bra and camisole.
“We fished these out of the inlet, under the gate at the yacht club.” His eyes glittered. “I take it they belong to you.”
“All right, you made your point.” Rich jabbed his chin toward the cop. “You got something to say, say itâor get out.”
Detective Updike put a hand up to the junior officer and looked at Rich. “We're almost done here. Mrs. Costanasâthese are yours?”
I clamped my knees together. “Yes,” I said.
“And how did they end up in the water?”
“I kicked them in.”
“You want to explain that?”
I tried to harden. This man was a jerk, and I hated him. “No, I do not,” I said. “But I will. They fell out of my hands when I was trying to get the gate open, so I shoved them off the dock with my foot. I was upset, and I wanted to get out of there.”
“Upset becauseâ”
Rich's arm twitched against me.
“Because while I was on board the boat with Mr. Archer, someone came out of the dark and snapped pictures of us. I gathered up my clothes and in the process I knocked over a candle, which set the boat on fire. Zach told me to go, so I ran. And that was the last time I saw him.”
“So there was someone else on the boat with you two.”
“Yes, but I don't know who it was.”
“So there are photographs of the scene,” the officer said.
“There were,” Rich said. “I saw them.”
I wanted to die for him.
“And where are they now?” the young cop asked.
“I burned them,” I heard myself say.
Boy Cop looked disappointed, and I wanted to grab his throat.
“How did you get the pictures?” The detective looked from one of us to the other, like someone choosing between two half-rotten melons.
“They were delivered to me at the fire station,” Rich said. “I don't know who and I don't know why. I brought them straight home and
confronted my wife.”
Boy Cop grunted.
Rich turned on him. “Would I be upset if something happened to the guy? No. Am I glad he's disappeared? Yeah. But do I think my wife did anything to the dudeâyou gotta be kiddin' me.” Rich dragged his gaze to me. “She's in love with him, okay? If she knew where he was, she'd probably be with him. Nowâyou got anything else? 'Cause I gotta tell ya, I'm sick of you bein' in my house.”
The detective stood up. “That's it for now. Mrs. Costanas, don't leave town.”
I found my professor voice again. “I wasn't planning to.”
“You either,” he said to Rich.
He started for the door and I followed him, determined that he not spend an unnecessary minute in our home. He stopped, his face now so close to mine I could see the nicotine stains on his teeth.
“One more question. The secretary at your collegeâ” He consulted his pad. “Sebastian Young. He said you borrowed his master key to get into Archer's office yesterday.”
I closed my eyes.
“What were you looking for?”
“I wanted to return some books, which I did,” I said.
“Did you find anything you'd left in
there
?” Boy Cop asked.
“Get out!”
I whipped my head toward Rich. He started across the floor, teeth set into a grind, eyes menacing.
“I don't need an escort,” Updike said. He nodded Boy Cop out and followed him.
When they were gone, I leaned my forehead against the door. I didn't hear Rich make a move, not even as I turned to him and tried to see him through pained tears.
“Thank you,” I said.
“Don't even start. I did that for our kids. I don't want them knowing anything about this.” He sucked in a ragged breath. “Do you hear me this time? Don't tell them anything.”
“I agree.” The professor voice had been replaced by a thin plea. “I was going to tell
you
what happened at the yacht club yesterdayâ”
“You went back thereâand to his office. You said it was over, and then you went looking for him.”
“To make sure he
knows
it's over!”
“How many more clothes do you have to take off before he'll be convinced?”
He stormed up the steps.
A
t the moment, Dr. Sullivan Crisp felt almost nothing like a psychologist. And that, he told himself, was exactly what he wanted.
He'd picked the right place. The beach at Point No Point, the northernmost tip of the peninsula, stretched out before him like an endless playground strewn with oversized toys. It couldn't be further from the crowded too-adult world.
Here, the tossed-about driftwood of boys' forts, built long ago last summer, begged for reconstruction. Smooth rocks littered the sparkle-gray sand, silent to all but the youthfully savvy and sly, who heard their pleas to be skimmed or piled or collected in pockets.
Sully put his hands on his negligible hips and grinned. God had created a playland of scattered magical pieces for the putting together of puzzles. Here he could forget he was six-foot-two and forty-five years old and in self-imposed exile. He could be twelve, because in the world of twelve, possibilities were endless.
He jiggled the rocks in his pockets. Yeah. He could lounge in that log hollowed out into a weather-beaten chaise.
He did. And then he contemplated the pranks that screamed to be played on the plump woman who sat like a Buddha on her blanket a few yards away, reading her book in the cold.
Sully sagged against the ragged wood. He could do anything except forget why he was there instead of out fixing the world's psyche, one therapeutic method at a time.
“Maybe the psychologist needs a psychologist,” he said out loud.
Buddha Lady glanced up from her book and then back, the way people did when they didn't want to be caught staring at theâ unusual.
Sully adjusted the purple hat he'd picked up at Made in America, a funky shop down in Hoodsport, the day before. Had this woman never seen a middle-aged man in a tie-dyed ball cap? Maybe it was the scent of geoduck on him that got her attention. He'd just cleaned and marinated one, and she was downwind.
Or maybe it was merely the fact that he talked to himself. When you were used to bantering with people all day, it was hard to shut up.
Sully stirred in the log that cradled him like a frog in a hand. How many kites could you flyâhow much geoduck could you digâhow much tie-dye could you buy before you were healed enough to go back to the depressed, the bipolar, and the narcissistic, and enjoy yourself again?
“Holy crow, I can't even get the Game Show Network up here,” he said, for Buddha Lady's benefit.
She gathered up her blanket and her book and picked her way to a spot closer to the lighthouse. As Sully watched her, he saw Ethan Kaye appear at the edge of the bluff and shield his eyes with his hand. Sully could have kissed the man's L.L.Bean boots. He settled for untangling his long limbs from the chaise lounge log and loping up the sand to meet him.
It was only early March, but Dr. Kaye looked tanned. He always looked tanned. Probably the contrast of naturally olive skin with snowy white hair, which had been that color twenty-five years ago.
When Sully reached him, Ethan's round face smiled into creases Sully didn't remember, but the eyes were the same. Dark, direct, insightful as X-rays.
“Don't they feed you in Colorado?” Ethan said.
Sully grasped Ethan's solid hand. “You still look good, old man.”
“And you're still the worst liar I ever met.”
Sully squeezed his arm, clapped his shoulder, nodded repeatedly. What else did you do when you were looking at your mentor for the first time in five years, and seeing that he'd aged ten?
“How's Joan?” Sully said. “I forgot to ask you on the phone.”
“Still an angel,” Ethan said. “She's on a two-month European tour with her quilting club.”
Sully grinned. “You didn't want to get in on that action?”
“I'd take up knitting if I thought it would help my situation any.”
Sully tried not to visualize the venerable Ethan Kaye clacking needles.
“But I can't even get to Seattle, much less leave the country right now,” Ethan said. “Kevin St. Clair would be behind my desk before I had my seat belt buckled.”
The creases deepened. Watching Ethan's face had always been like reading a map of his soul. His was a transparency Sully could only aspire to.
“How's that going for you?” Sully said.
“The same. St. Clair already has three peopleâall of them menâ lined up to interview for Dr. Costanas's position.”
“What about the other professorâwhat was his name?”
“Archer. We can't officially replace him until we get his resignation.”
“Hard to do when you can't find him.”
Ethan scowled. “Oh, St. Clair will find him. He's already reported him as a missing person to the police, not that they weren't already looking for him when his boat burned up. They've been all over the campus.”
Ethan
shook his head. The wind set a shock of hair up at the crown. Though rooster-like, it didn't disturb his dignity.
“I have no doubt Archer just took off,” Ethan said. “Left that poor woman to deal with this by herself.”
Sully peered at him. “So you see her as a victim.”
“I know it takes two.” Ethan shifted his gaze uncomfortably, and Sully smothered a grin.
Ethan had always been the soul of propriety. He still referred to women's forays to the restroom as “going to powder their noses.”
“So why is she âthat poor woman'?”
“Because I guarantee you she wouldn't have gone where she did without a lot of persuasion. And she's paying for it.” Ethan moved his eyes from a passing tanker back to Sully. “I told you she needs help. And you admitted on the phone you were getting restless.”
Sully took off the ball cap, shook it, put it on backwards. “I meant I wanted to get started on my next book, revamp the talk show, open up a clinic in Nashvilleânot take on a client.”
“I'm not trying to push youâ”
“Sure you are.”
“I thought while you were up here regroupingâ”
“I'm regrouped.” Sully rattled the stones in his pockets.
“I can see that,” Ethan said dryly. He pressed his lips together, eyes searching Sully's face. “All right, this was a bad idea. You have enough to deal with.”
“Holy crowâI supposedly still have four more weeks to âdeal,' and I'm dealt out.”
Ethan's eyes didn't move. “You were in a pretty serious situation.”
“Well, yeahâI mean, this is the first patient we've ever had commit suicide in the ten years the clinics have been open, but still, we have to look at it from the point of view that ultimately, it was his decision to take his own life. My people did everything they could.”
“As I understand it, you were right in there with them.”
“I took it all on at first, but at the end of the day, we have to let it go. Give it to God.”
“So you're basically over it.”
“If a patient gave me a âyes' to that question, I'd say, âThanks for playing, but that is incorrect.'” Sully buzzed from the back of his throat.
Ethan gave a half laugh. “You still using that game show shtick on your clients?”
“If something works for me, I stick with it.”
“I think it's job security,” Ethan said. “If they aren't crazy when they come in, they are before you're finished with them.”
“You done?”
“No. You haven't answered my question. You're over your patient shooting himself in his car outside one of your clinics?”
Sully squinted at the tanker, now a misty sliver. He admired Ethan Kaye's probity. He just didn't always like it.
“Like I said, I'm giving it a few more weeks. Making sure I don't show any symptoms of post traumatic stress. Meanwhile, I'm finding things to do. Speaking of whichâyou hungry?”
Ethan frowned. “Not if you're cooking.”
“Ouch. Come on, I've got geoduck marinating.”
“I hope you cook it better than you pronounce it. It's gooey duck, not gee-oh duck.” Ethan's smile spread, crinkling his eyes. “Let me take you to supper. I don't need your miracle cure for appetite.”
“That hurts, sir,” Sully said. “That really hurts.”
There were not one, not even two, but four vintage automobiles parked in front of the fish house Ethan pulled up to. Sully let out a long, slow whistle.
A 1967 silver Corvette Stingray. A cherry red '57 Ford Fairlane. A Camaro Supersport, 1966, blue. And a gold 1966 Pontiac GTO. Black vinyl top.
“I knew you'd like this place,” Ethan said. “They all come here.”
“They” were hard to pick out once Sully followed Ethan inside. The restaurant was dimly lit except for the candles in glass buoys, encased in fishnet, that reflected off the vinyl tablecloths. As far as Sully could tell, there was one of every kind of person drinking from plastic tumblers and licking their fingers as they ate fried onion rings, shiny with grease.