Authors: Sarah J. Maas
“Princess,” Quinn said again. She got to her feet, legs wobbling.
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e blackness in her vision grew with each blow from the pain, and she swayed. Distantly, as if she Âwere underwater, she heard Lady Marion say her name, reach for her, but she wanted her mother's cool touch.
Her mother turned in her seat, face drawn, her golden earrings catching in the light. She stretched out an arm, beckoning. “What is it, Fireheart?”
“I don't feel well,” she said, barely able to get the words out. She gripped her mother's velvet-Âclad arm, for comfort and to keep her buckling knees from giving out.
“What feels wrong?” her mother asked, even as she put a hand to her forehead. A
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icker of worry, then a glance back at her father, who watched from beside the King of Adarlan. “She's burning up,” she said so
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ly. Lady Marion was suddenly behind her, and her mother looked up to say, “Have the healer go to her room.” Marion was gone in an instant, hurrying to a side door.
She didn't need a healer, and she gripped her mother's arm to tell her as much. Yet no words would come out as the magic surged and burned. Her mother hissed and jerked backâÂsmoke rising from her dress, from where she had gripped her. “Aelin.”
Her head gave a throbâÂa blast of pain, and then . . .
A wriggling, squirming inside her head.
A worm of darkness, pushing its way in. Her magic roiled, thrashing, trying to get it out, to burn it up, to save them both, butâ“
Aelin.
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“Get it out,” she rasped, pushing at her temples as she backed away from the table. Two of the foreign lords grabbed Dorian from the table and swept him from the room.
Her magic bucked like a stallion as the worm wriggled farther in.
“Get it out.”
“Aelin.” Her father was on his feet now, hand on his sword. Half the others Âwere standing too, but she
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ung out a handâÂto keep them away, to warn them.
Blue
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ame shot out. Two people dove in time to avoid it, but everyone was on their feet as the vacated seats went up in
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ames.
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e worm would latch into her mind and never let go.
She grabbed at her head, her magic screaming, so loud it could shatter the world. And then she was burning, a living column of turquoise
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ame, sobbing as the dark worm continued its work and the walls of her mind began to give.
Above her own voice, above the shouting in the hall, she heard her father's bellowâÂa command to her mother, who was on her knees, hands outstretched toward her in supplication.
“Do it, Evalin!”
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e pillar of
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ame grew hotter, hot enough that people Âwere
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eeing now.
Her mother's eyes met her own, full of pleading and pain.
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en waterâÂa wall of water crashing down on her, slamming her to the stones,
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owing down her throat, into her eyes, choking her.
Drowning her. Until there was no air for her
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ame, only water and its freezing embrace.
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e King of Adarlan looked at her for a third timeâÂand smiled.
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e Valg princes enjoyed that memory, that terror and pain. And as they paused to savor it, Celaena understood.
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e King of Adarlan had used his power on her that night. Her parents could not have known that the person responsible for that dark worm, which had vanished as soon as she'd lost consciousness, was the man sitting beside them.
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ere was another one of them nowâÂa fourth prince, living inside Narrok, who said, “
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e soldiers have almost taken the tunnel. Be ready to move soon.” She could feel him hovering over her, observing. “You've found me a prize that will interest our liege. Do not waste her. Sips only.”
She tried to summon horrorâÂtried to feel anything at the thought of where they would take her, what they would do to her. But she could feel nothing as the princes murmured their understanding, and the memory tumbled onward.
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Her mother thought it was an attack from Maeve, a vicious reminder of whatÂever debt she owed, to make them look vulnerable. In the hours a
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erward, as she'd lain in the ice-Âcold bath adjacent to her bedroom, she had used her Fae ears to overhear her parents and their court debating it from the sitting room of their suite.
It had to be Maeve. No one Âelse could do anything like that, or know that such a demonstrationâÂin front of the King of Adarlan, who already loathed magicâÂwould be detrimental.
She did not want to talk, even once she was again capable of walking and speaking and acting like a princess. Insisting some normalcy might help, her mother made her go to a tea the next a
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ernoon with Prince Dorian, carefully guarded and monitored, with Aedion sitting between them. And when Dorian's
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awless manners faltered and he knocked over the teapot, spilling on her new dress, she'd made a good show of having Aedion threaten to pummel him.
But she didn't care about the prince, or the tea, or the dress. She could barely walk back to her room, and that night she dreamt of the maggot invading her mind, waking with screams and
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ames in her mouth.
At dawn, her parents took her out of the castle, headed for their manor two days away.
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eir foreign visitors might have caused too much stress, the healer said. She suggested Lady Marion take her, but her parents insisted they go. Her uncle approved.
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e King of Adarlan, it seemed, would not stay in the castle with her magic running rampant, either.
Aedion remained in Orynth, her parents promising he would be sent for when she was settled again. But she knew it was for his safety. Lady Marion went with them, leaving her husband and Elide at the palaceâÂfor their safety, too.
A monster, that was what she was. A monster who had to be contained and monitored.
Her parents argued the
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rst two nights at the manor, and Lady Marion kept her company, reading to her, brushing her hair, telling her stories of her home in Perranth. Marion had been a laundress in the palace from her childhood. But when Evalin arrived, they had become friendsâÂmostly because the princess had stained her new husband's favorite shirt with ink and wanted to get it cleaned before he noticed.
Evalin soon made Marion her lady-in-waiting, and then Lord Lochan had returned from a rotation on the southern border. Handsome Cal Lochan, who somehow became the dirtiest man in the castle and constantly needed Marion's advice on how to remove various stains. Who one day asked a bastard-Âborn servant to be his wifeâÂand not just wife, but Lady of Perranth, the second-Âlargest territory in Terrasen. Two years later, she had borne him Elide, heir of Perranth.
She loved Marion's stories, and it was those stories she clung to in the quiet and tension of the next few days, when winter still gripped the world and made the manor groan.
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e Âhouse was creaking in the brisk winds the night her mother walked into her bedroomâÂfar less grand than the one in the palace, but still lovely.
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ey only summered Âhere, as the Âhouse was too dra
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y for winter, and the roads too perilous.
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e fact that they'd come . . .
“Still not asleep?” her mother asked. Lady Marion Ârose from beside the bed. A
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er a few warm words, Marion le
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, smiling at them both.
Her mother curled up on the mattress, drawing her in close. “I'm sorry,” her mother whispered onto her head. For the nightmares had also been of drowningâÂof icy water closing over her head. “I am so sorry, Fireheart.”
She buried her face in her mother's chest, savoring the warmth.
“Are you still frightened of sleeping?”
She nodded, clinging tighter.
“I have a gi
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, then.” When she didn't move, her mother said, “Don't you wish to see it?”
She shook her head. She didn't want a gi
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.
“But this will protect you from harmâÂthis will keep you safe always.”
She li
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ed her head to
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nd her mother smiling as she removed the golden chain and heavy, round medallion from beneath her nightgown and held it out to her.
She looked at the amulet, then at her mother, eyes wide.
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e Amulet of Orynth.
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e heirloom honored above all others of their Âhouse. Its round disk was the size of her palm, and on its cerulean front, a white stag had been carved of hornâÂhorn gi
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ed from the Lord of the Forest. Between his curling antlers was a burning crown of gold, the immortal star that watched over them and pointed the way home to Terrasen. She knew every inch of the amulet, had run her
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ngers over it countless times and memorized the shape of the symbols Âetched into the backâÂwords in a strange language that no one could remember.
“Father gave this to you when you Âwere in Wendlyn. To protect you.”
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e smile remained. “And before that, his uncle gave it to him when he came of age. It is a gi
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meant to be given to people in our familyâÂto those who need its guidance.”
She was too stunned to object as her mother slipped the chain over her head and arranged the amulet down her front. It hung almost to her navel, a warm, heavy weight. “Never take it o
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. Never lose it.” Her mother kissed her brow. “Wear it, and know that you are loved, FireheartâÂthat you are safe, and it is the strength of this”âÂshe placed a hand on her heartâ“that matters. Wherever you go, Aelin,” she whispered, “no matter how far, this will lead you home.”
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She had lost the Amulet of Orynth. Lost it that very same night.
She could not bear it. She tried begging the Valg princes to put her out of her misery and drain her into nothing, but she had no voice Âhere.
Hours a
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er her mother had given her the Amulet of Orynth, a storm had struck.
It was a storm of unnatural darkness, and in it she felt that wriggling, horri
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c
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pushing against her mind again. Her parents remained unconscious along with everyone Âelse in the manor, even though a strange smell coated the air.
She had clutched the amulet to her chest when she awoke to the pure dark and the thunderâÂclutched it and prayed to every god she knew. But the amulet had not given her strength or courage, and she had slunk to her parents' room, as black as her own, save for the window
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apping in the gusting wind and rain.
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e rain had soaked everything, butâÂbut they had to be exhausted from dealing with her, and from the anxiety they tried to hide. So she shut the window for them, and carefully crawled into their damp bed so that she did not wake them.
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ey didn't reach for her, didn't ask what was wrong, and the bed was so coldâÂcolder than her own, and reeking of copper and iron, and that scent that did not sit well with her.
It was to that scent that she awoke when the maid screamed.
Lady Marion rushed in, eyes wide but clear. She did not look at her dead friends, but went straight to the bed and leaned across Evalin's corpse.
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e lady-in-waiting was small and delicately boned, but she somehow li
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ed her away from her parents, holding her tightly as she rushed from the room.
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e few servants at the manor Âwere in a panic, some racing for help that was at least a day awayâÂsome
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eeing.
Lady Marion stayed.
Marion stayed and drew a bath, helping her peel away the cold, bloody nightgown.
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ey did not talk, did not try. Lady Marion bathed her, and when she was clean and dry, she carried her down to the cold kitchen. Marion sat her at the long table, bundled in a blanket, and set about building the hearth
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re.
She had not spoken today.
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ere Âwere no sounds or words le
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in her, anyway.
One of the few remaining servants burst in, shouting to the empty Âhouse that King Orlon was dead, too. Murdered in his bed just likeâ
Lady Marion was out of the kitchen with her teeth bared before the man could enter. She didn't listen to gentle Marion slapping him, ordering him to get out and
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nd helpâÂ
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nd
real
help and not useless news.
Murdered. Her family wasâÂdead.
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ere was no coming back from death, and her parents . . . What had the servants done with their . . . their . . .
Shaking hit her so hard the blanket tumbled away. She Âcouldn't stop her teeth from clacking. It was a miracle she stayed in the chair.
It Âcouldn't be true.
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is was another nightmare, and she would awaken to her father stroking her hair, her mother smiling, awaken in Orynth, andâ
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e warm weight of the blanket wrapped around her again, and Lady Marion scooped her into her lap, rocking. “I know. I'm not going to leaveâÂI'm going to stay with you until help comes.
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ey'll be Âhere tomorrow. Lord Lochan, Captain Quinn, your AedionâÂthey're all going to be Âhere tomorrow. Maybe even by dawn.” But Lady Marion was shaking, too. “I know,” she kept saying, weeping quietly. “I know.”
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e
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re died down, along with Marion's crying.
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ey held on to each other, rooted to that kitchen chair.
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ey waited for the dawn, and for the others who would help, somehow.