Help Wanted (20 page)

The kiss was electric, making her want to experience how well Jim could send her body into a tailspin, but she wasn’t going to do it.

Placing her hand in the middle of his chest, she shoved Jim away from her “No, we aren’t going to do this. I can’t let you do this to me. I will have willpower when it comes to you.” Keira placed her fingers against her swollen lips and took a huge step back. “You need to leave. I have to be somewhere in an hour.” She was lying but Jim didn’t need to know that.

“Where are you doing? Are you doing to see Dante?” he accused. “I know how much you like him.”

“No, I’m not going anywhere with Dante. We are friends and nothing else. Why would you think I was seeing him?” Keira couldn’t believe how Jim’s mind was working. She had stopped going out with him because Kathy was a constant fixture between them, so why would she go and do something she was against?

“Dante likes you and I thought maybe he jumped in since he’s a born flirt.  If he tried to take you from me I wouldn’t let it happen. You’re my girlfriend not his. I’m never going to give up getting you back. I love you too much to lose you.”

Keira was dying to believe Jim, but she wasn’t dumb.  His life would never be his to give because of his former marriage. No matter how much he wanted to commit to her it wouldn’t ever be possible.

“Those are just words.  I can’t let you drag me into your problems. Please leave.” Moving away from Jim, she opened her door and waved him out.

“I’m not going to beg to be in your life.,” Jim snapped as he stormed past her.

Standing in the open doorway, Keira watched as Jim hopped on his motorcycle and took off without looking back at her. For a second, she instantly regretted her decision to toss Jim out; however, she quickly got herself back under control.

“I have to stay strong. I told myself a long time ago that I wouldn’t get involved with a man that I could lose myself too. I need to get myself back together and hopefully Jim can do the same thing for himself.” She closed the door.

Chapter Forty-One

“Keira, you have improved so much in the last couple of weeks. You aren’t the same woman who first came to see me,” Dr. Gearan said taking off his glasses. He placed them on the notepad by his chair. “I think you’re almost ready to go back up in the air. How does that sound to you? Are you ready to be a flight attendant again?”

“I’m more ready than you would ever know. I’m mad at myself that it took me so long to come to see you in the first place,” she confessed.

“You were suffering from a deep trauma. It can often combine guilt, depression and anger. Sometimes it can go into deeper things like: sleepless nights, digestive issues, heart problems and high blood pressure.”

“I never had those latter things, but I know I was having problems with trauma. I couldn’t even think about coming to see you until Jim talked me into doing it.”

“How is that relationship going?  You need all the support you can get while you’re going through counseling. The more people you have around you the better your sessions will go.”

“Everything is fine. I do have a lot of support from friends and family.  I wouldn’t know what I would do without them.”

Keira wasn’t going to tell Dr. Gearan about her breaking up with Jim. She wasn’t quite sure what he would tell her about it. Besides, she was trying her best not to call Jim as it was. She noticed him the other day going back into
Choppers
. She almost went over there to see him…almost.

“Keira, are you sure that you’re okay?” Dr. Gearan asked, watching her closely. “You seemed to space out for a few minutes there.”

“No, I’m fine. I was just thinking.”

“I hope it was about the group session my colleague runs on Mondays to Thursdays.  I think you might get some insight hearing from other people who have been through the same thing as you.”

Talking about her nightmares in front of a group of people she didn’t know? No, she didn’t think something like that was for her.

“Thanks again for the offer, but I’m doing just fine with you as my psychologist. I don’t mind coming to you now at all. In fact, I look forward to our scheduled meetings and after I leave I always have something to think about and bring to our next session.”

“I’m glad to hear that. I’m truly impressed at how fast you’ve come along. Are you still having nightmares?”

Her nightmares were making an appearance less and less now. Maybe she got them once or twice a week now instead of every night; it was such a huge improvement.

“No, I have to say they are almost gone thanks to you.”

“Don’t thank me,” Dr. Gearan smiled. “You’ve been the one doing all of the work. I only took you in the right direction.”

“When do you think you’ll give me the all clear to return to work?” Keira asked.

“I’m still a little concerned about the nightmares you’re still having.  I would rather they not be there at all. I want to be able to give the airlines a perfect bill of health when it comes to your return.”

Keira sighed, clasped her hands together and stared at them as an odd twinge of disappointment unexpectedly hit her. “Great…it might be another two months before I get my job back.”

“Don’t look so upset,” Dr. Gearan said leaning forward in his seat. “You’ll be back up in the sky before you know it.”

Unclasping her hands, Keira rested her back against the couch. “I’m not upset. I’m pissed at myself that I didn’t get over my fears sooner. I could be back at my job traveling to a new place instead of here with you.”

“How about we forget about the past and deal with the future? You want to get your job back and I’m here to help you achieve that goal. How about we see each other again on Friday? I have a cancellation and I can fit you in.”

“I’ll be here,” Keira said, standing up.

“Wonderful…I’ll tell my secretary to add you to the appointment book.” Dr. Gearan stood up and escorted her to the door.

“I’m looking forward to seeing you,” she replied and then left.

* * * *

I need to see you. Can you come by my house?

Jim

Holding the sheet of paper that she found taped to her mailbox in her hand, Keira read the note several times debating if she should go and see what Jim wanted. She’d just come from her session with Dr. Gearan not twenty minutes ago. She’d been finding ways over the past week to avoid having any contact with him and it hadn’t been easy on her part.

“I can’t pretend that he doesn’t exist. I’m going to run into him sooner or later. I might as well get it over with now. I just have to make sure he doesn’t get to me. I have to stay strong and make sure to not let him touch me or I’ll be a goner.”

Chapter Forty-Two

“I got the note you left at my house. What do you need to see me about?” Keira asked as she stopped next to Jim as he worked on his motorcycle in his driveway.

“I wasn’t sure you would show up since you’re done with having me in your life.” Tossing the rag into a bucket next to his prized Harley Davidson, Jim turned around to look at her.

“I never said that and you know it.”

“The only thing I know is my girlfriend thinks I’d rather be around my ex-wife than her. Kathy isn’t the woman I dream about every night when I go to bed…you are.” Moving close until he was in her personal space, Jim traced her jawbone with his index finger. “Have you forgotten about the first time we made love?”

“No, it’s burned into my memory. I’ve dreamt about it a lot since we broke up,” Keira admitted against her better judgment.

“Baby, we aren’t broken up. You’re still mine. I told you before, I’m not letting you go.” Easing his hands around her body, Jim slipped them underneath her short denim skirt and cupped her bare ass.

“Why in the hell aren’t you wearing any underwear?” He worked two thick fingers inside her until he was knuckle deep. “Fuck!” he growled. “I have missed the hell out of you.”

Jim nibbled at her neck while his other hand still held her butt. “You can’t tell me you haven’t missed this too. I know what we have is unique. You won’t be able to find this with another man. Hell, I won’t allow it to happen.”

Without giving her a chance to answer, Jim laid her down on the thick grass and replaced his fingers with the tip of his cock. Keira didn’t even know how he got his pants undone and at the moment she wasn’t too concerned about it.

“Tell me you don’t want this and I’ll stop. As much as it will kill me I’ll stop, but I’ve been thinking about being like this with you since you walked out of my house.”

“Yes! I want this,” she moaned pulling at Jim’s hips. Keira didn’t care that she was outside about to make love. The need to be with Jim was too strong for her to deny it this time.

Shoving her skirt until it was above her waist, Jim pushed her legs further apart and took her in one sure thrust. “Shit!” Jim hollered as Keira’s walls clamped around his cock. “You can’t deny us this anymore. We are meant to be like this for the rest of our lives.” The last of his words were smothered on her lips.

The last of Keira’s calm was shattered with the hunger of his kisses. Wrapping her legs around Jim’s waist, she pulled him deeper into her body. His hand unbuttoned her purple shirt, moving it away from her chest until her matching bra was exposed.  He didn’t waste a second before he eased the lacy cup of her bra aside and sucked a swollen nipple into his mouth. 

Keira was frantic with the need to keep Jim buried balls deep inside of her. Holding onto his shoulders, she met the smooth, steady rhythm Jim set as he held her bare ass in his hands.

“Oooooh…Yes…yes,” she screamed as she tore her mouth away.  The orgasms hit her hard, so hard that her eyes rolled into the back of her head. Her body went limp beneath Jim when she finally came down from her high.

Jim waited until he was sure Keira had reached her release before he thrust a couple of more times filling her with his seed. Once his heart finally got back down to its normal speed, Jim gently pulled his cock out of Keira’s wonderfully tight heat. He fixed her clothing and then his own before getting them both off the ground.

“I’m officially a super freak like Rick James sang about.” Keira laughed trying to shake off her embarrassment.

“There is nothing wrong with a woman being adventurous with the man she loves,” Jim said pulling her close.

“Have you been adventurous with other women in the outdoors before?” Keira wanted to hear what Jim was going to tell her and whether or not it would be the truth.

“Yes, I have. I’m not going to lie. A lot can happen when a person goes camping, but it was just something I did a long time ago when I was a teenager.”

“What else did you do when you were young and trying to have fun?”

“I’d rather do something else than talk about my rebel ways when I was younger,” Jim said as he took her hand leading her towards his house.

“I hate to see what is lurking behind that door,” Keira teased before Jim dragged her inside.

* * * *

 “These designs are amazing.” Keira flipped through the sketch book of ideas for the clothing and accessories Jim wanted to start selling at
Choppers
when it was reopened. “I can’t believe you can do this. Do you know how much this will cost?” She couldn’t believe how excited she was about these new suggestions Jim brought up to her.

“I have a friend who designs motorcycle gear and he’s going to do the helmets, leather jackets and gloves. I think having
Choppers
sell biker gear will draw up more business.” Jim leaned over Keira’s shoulder and planted a kiss at the side of her neck. “I’m glad you’re for this. I thought you might fight me.”

“Baby, I love you. I want you to succeed with your dreams. No, I know my father would have loved something like this. I’m surprised that he didn’t think of it himself, but I believe he was more into working on bikes than selling gear.”

“
Choppers
will be a huge success with my brilliant mind behind it.” Jim grinned, a teasing twinkle in his eye, and closed the sketch pad on the kitchen table. “We can talk about the rest of the designs later. I want to know what’s going on with you. Now are you going to tell me about how your meetings have been going with Dr. Gearan? Does he think you’re ready to get back on an airplane?”

“Dr. Gearan is very impressed with my progress. He thinks I need a few more sessions and I agreed to start seeing him twice a week instead of once.  I’m really hoping that I can be back at work before the end of the year is out. I missed interacting with my friends and the passengers on the plane.”

“Sweetheart, you’re a beautiful, strong and intelligent woman. I know that you’ll fly through these last couple of sessions and be back at your old job before you know it.”

Getting out of the chair, Keira moved around it and wrapped her arms around Jim’s neck. “Thank you for your vote of confidence. I have no doubt in my mind that I’ll get my spunk back. I feel like I’m half way there already.”

“Hmmm…I’m a little scared now. Maybe the old Keira might find a way to kick me out of her life since I’m just a blue collar man.” Jim teased, but Keira heard the truth in his voice.

“I hate to break the news to you, Mr. Russell, but you’re stuck with me. You won’t be able to get rid of me no matter what you do.”

“I’m glad to hear you say that because I want to ask you something,” Jim said.

“Oh, it sounds so ominous.”

“Do you think you’re up to an outing with Trevor? He wants me to take him to the zoo tomorrow and I want you to come along with us. I know the second time will go better than the first. I’ve talked to Trevor about us dating and he seems to be taking it better than he did the first time.”

Keira stepped back from Jim giving him a wayward look. “Are you sure? I still think Trevor isn’t too keen on us dating each other at all. I don’t want to pressure him into liking me.”

“My son is an important part of my life just like you are. I just think Trevor wasn’t having a good day and took it out on you.”