Heroes In Uniform (140 page)

Especially when she didn’t want him to go.

Suddenly aware they were staring at each other – and chances were good his shrewd eyes saw more than she meant to reveal – she turned and shifted the basket.

“Would you like to come inside for a glass of lemonade?” She started toward the house and, after a moment’s hesitation, he followed. “I know it’s cool yet, spring comes slow here in Wyoming, not like Washington, but – ”

Her offhand manner might have been more successful if he hadn’t come alongside her and gripped the laundry basket, forcing her to stop and turn to him.

“I’ll carry that, Ellyn.”

She didn’t let go. “No need. I can manage fine.”

His mouth tightened, as he gave it a firm pull.

She released the basket, and resumed her route.

From behind her left shoulder, he said, “I know my showing up like this has to be a shock, since I haven’t been in touch and – ”

“You’ve been in touch. Cards every holiday. Presents for the kids at birthdays and Christmas.”
And in those first months their tearful questions about why Grif didn’t come
. “I would have thanked you – if I’d known where to write. I’m glad to be able to thank you now.”

He stopped to face her. She kept going.

“Ellyn, you have reason to be angry – ”

“Angry? I’m not angry,” she said as she opened the back door. She wasn’t sure exactly what she was, but it wasn’t angry. At least not much of it. Maybe she’d simply grown smarter, not so trusting. That was definitely a part of the new Ellyn. “How long has it been since you’ve been here at Far Hills, Grif?”

“Ellyn – ”

“It must be years and years.” She reached for the basket, and he handed it over. She opened the closet doors hiding the aged washer valiantly chugging through another load and the useless dryer.

“I would have said you hadn’t been back since you were best man for Dale at our wedding, but of course that was in Washington, so that wouldn’t count. So when was it? I remember the last summer you spent here was when you were fourteen, and Dale was thirteen, so that must be, what, twenty-three years ago?”

She was babbling. She knew it. He knew it. But she didn’t want to talk about any of the things he’d been taking aim at.

She transferred three rolled towels from the top of the dryer to the bottom of the basket.

Raising her head, she found him looking at her, his expression giving away nothing. When his lips parted she had no idea if he would pursue his topic or go along with hers.

“Last time I was back here was for Amy’s funeral, ten years ago. The time before that was when I came through right after I finished at West Point. I had just turned twenty-one, so you must have been eighteen or nineteen.”

Memories as clear and sharp as broken glass showered over her. She couldn’t escape the slicing shards.

A final whine and shudder signaled the end of the washer’s cycle, breaking the spell.

“Eighteen,” she said shortly, flipping the lid open and devoting all her attention to pulling out the wet tangle of dark clothes.

“This house was a wreck then,” he said. He looked around. “It looks great now. Lots of room for kids.”

“Marti started fixing up the old houses on the property a few years back.” He probably knew that, since he was Marti Susland’s nephew as well as owning a share in the ranch Marti had run for thirty-odd years. But even the new Ellyn was not above stating the obvious to keep this conversation in safe waters. “She rents a few to people she likes – and you know how generous Marti is, so I can’t beat the rent. Another reason to stay here.”

“Dale didn’t have insurance?”

For an instant, his directness nearly triggered her into answering as openly as she would have a year ago.

“Some,” she said instead. Before he could dig more, she drew a red herring across his path by adding, “‘Course, even with the low rent some folks would be reluctant to live out here, what with the ranch being cursed.”

He frowned. “What do you mean, cursed?”

“What does a curse ever mean? Bad things happen, so – ”

“You and the kids? Has something – ”

“No, nothing.” Soothing his worry was too old a habit to shed easily. “We’re not Suslands. And it’s the
Susland
Legend. Remember Marti telling us about it as kids?”

“That nonsense hasn’t died out?”

“Your family’s had more than its share of tragedies, and to some folks that proves the curse is real.”

“I don’t remember you taking the legend seriously.”

“That was before Marti did research and found out Annalee believed it.” Not sure herself how seriously she took the legend, she looked up as she put a final handful of wet socks into the basket. “Annalee was Charles Susland’s second wife. Remember?”

“Charles founded Far Hills Ranch in the 1800s,” he said as if answering a quiz.

“Founded it and got it cursed for cruelty to the Indian wife and children he deserted to take a rich, white wife – Annalee.”

He was watching her with an intensity that prompted her to concentrate on putting in the next load, while she kept the conversation on the Susland Legend. “After what happened with Kendra – ”

“Kendra? My cousin, Kendra Jenner?”

“Kendra Delligatti now.”

Of course he already knew Kendra and Daniel had married in January. Ellyn had told herself she wasn’t surprised – or disappointed – when Grif declined his invitation to the wedding, blaming the press of his work at the Pentagon.

“What has Kendra got to do with that legend?” he demanded in his old Grif-the-protector voice.

“Daniel tracked down Kendra and their son Matthew, and they’re a family, so people say that’s made amends for Charles Susland turning his back on his children,” said Ellyn. “Next, someone has to make amends for Charles turning his back on the Indians who’d befriended him. The third part – ”

“But Kendra’s okay?”

Oh, yes, Grif-the-protector was back in full force. As the oldest of the kids who had gathered each summer at Far Hills Ranch, he’d always taken on the burden of being the designated adult. As a quiet, skinny girl with a mop of wild hair who communicated better with horses than people, she’d benefited from his protection more than once.

“Better than okay. She’s happy.” She lifted the refilled basket. “I’m going to hang these clothes and I’ll be right back. Help yourself to lemonade – in the fridge – and there are cookies in the glass jar on the counter.” Another thought occurred to her. “But I suppose you have other people to visit. I’m sure you’ve been to the main house, but if you haven’t – ”

“No.”

“ – seen Kendra yet... No?” she repeated as his answer sank in. “You haven’t been to the main ranch to see Marti?”

“Not yet.”

“You
are
living on the edge. If she finds out you didn’t go straight to the home ranch...” She shook her head, the consequences too dire to spell out.

His grin flickered. “I wanted to see you first.”

Why
? The question roared in her head, but there was no risk that she’d voice it.

“Well, now you have, but I got a late start on the laundry and I need to get these things hung up so they’ll dry, and it’s not much fun for you to wait around. So, go see Marti. And I’ll finish the laundry.”

He moved ahead to open the back door for her. “I’ll carry the basket.”

“There’s no need for that. And Marti...” He followed her out and took the basket, this time using enough strength on his first attempt to overcome her resistance. “Grif – ”

“Go on up.” He titled his head in the direction of the path to the ridge. The railroad ties that had formed rough steps had rotted, but the path was passable, at least on good days like this. “Unless you want to stay here and I’ll hang these myself.”

She’d already started up the path, recognizing Grif’s never-to-be-budged tone. But at the incongruous image, she chuckled and tossed over her shoulder, “How would it look to have a major in the United States Army hanging up laundry?”

“Colonel,” he murmured absently.

“Colonel? You’ve made full colonel? That’s quite a jump in a short time.” She looked back at him, but could read nothing in his face.

“I suppose.”

At the top, she turned and faced him. “That must have been some assignment you got – the one you left Washington for so suddenly right when...” She took a breath and finished in a different direction. “Before we moved back here.”

“It was.” His quiet answer both filled in the gap she’d left and cut off the subject like a concrete wall at the end of a one-way alley. “Where do you want this?”

She gave up thoughts of trying to break through that concrete, and nodded to a stretch of unfilled clothesline. “Thanks, Grif. Now, why don’t you go see Marti and – ”

He ignored her, pulling out a pair of racing stripe pajama bottoms and shaking them out. “Ben’s?”

“Yes, but – ”

“He must have grown a foot.”

His tone – a crust of sadness overlaying awe – clogged her throat. She nodded, and swallowed. “Meg, too.”

He jammed a clothespin over the waist of the pajamas and the line. He looked over at the items she’d hung earlier, then at his handiwork, and frowned. “That’s not secure.”

“It works better if you pin each cuff to the line – the material catches more breeze that way and dries faster. But, really, Grif, this isn’t necessary.”

As she took out another of Dale’s old shirts that she wore around the house, she used her peripheral vision to watch Grif remove the clothespin, turn the pajamas upside down and pin one cuff. He recognized the new problem immediately. She caught the inside of her cheeks between her teeth.

Trying to keep the unpinned pajama leg from flapping around, he stretched toward the basket for a second clothespin. He should have looked awkward, ludicrous, uncoordinated. Instead, the twisting, reaching motion pulled the knit of his shirt taut across long, ropy muscles in his back, and molded the fabric of his pants around the powerful curve of his thigh and the even rounder curve of his –

No longer tempted to grin, Ellyn jerked her gaze and thoughts from where they didn’t belong, grabbed a clothespin and moved in to help him.

He released the loose pajama leg to her hold, then reached over her shoulder to help keep it in place. With his other hand still on the first pin and with the pajamas in front of her, she was surrounded. She drove the pin home with more power than finesse, and quickly ducked under his extended arm.

“That’s how you do it,” she said once she’d gained some distance. “But, as I said, this isn’t the kind of duty you’re used to, Colonel Griffin.”

“Even a colonel can learn.”

As they both bent over the basket, she to retrieve the shirt she’d dropped there when she grabbed the clothespin, and he to pull out one of Meg’s sweatshirts, she glanced at him, found his eyes on her and looked away.

“You never learned to do laundry? I thought the army made men self-reliant.”

“I’ve washed clothes now and then, but nobody ever taught me the finer points. Mom did the laundry when I was a kid. When she got sick...” His next words were matter-of-fact. “My father could never be bothered with household stuff, so we sent everything out. My self-reliance comes in the form of finding the best laundry in the shortest amount of time in a new place. One good thing I learned from my father.”

A year and a half ago, and anytime in the eight years before that, she would have said that John Griffin Junior was her best friend. Now it struck her that in all the years she’d known him, stretching back to spending most childhood summers on this very ranch with him and the others, she’d heard him mention his mother maybe a dozen times, and his father half that. So exactly how well
did
she know him?

Certainly not well enough to have avoided being blindsided by his absence these past fifteen months.

She didn’t know how long she’d been mulling that while automatically hanging clothes before Grif’s voice cut into her thoughts. “Why aren’t you using the dryer.”

“Use a dryer on such a beautiful day? That would be a homemaker’s sin,” she said airily.

“I don’t remember you caring much about homemaking sins.”

He must have caught her reflexive wince, because he reached a hand toward her that she evaded by stretching up to secure the corner of one of Ben’s shirts.

“I didn’t mean anything critical, Ellyn. I just remember you not worrying about such things, so – ”

“Of course not. You’re right,” she said lightly. “I was never that kind of woman. A mouse to start, a bit of a tomboy later, then a haphazard housekeeper, and, as a wife – ”

Grif’s hand on her arm drew her around. “You’re talking nonsense – you know that, don’t you, Ellyn?”

“Just quoting Rose Neal Brindford.” And Dale, but Grif didn’t need to know that.

“Don’t. Your mother’s a – ”

She watched him bite back the word she could almost hear on his tongue. He turned away, and his big hand settled on the inside seam of the jeans hanging upside down. Even as kids, he’d always hated the way her mother criticized her. Hated it even worse if she criticized herself with her mother’s words. But that was a hard habit to escape.

“Ellyn.” She couldn’t take her eyes off his hand. In a motion she was certain was unconscious, his hand slid slowly along the inside seam of the jeans –
her
jeans. “There are some things we should talk about. Get clear.”

The caressing touch of his hand dropped lower along that seam – nearly to the point where the left leg met the right, to the point where –
Oh, lord
. She spun around, looking for something else,
anything
else to absorb her attention.

Marti and Kendra were right. She’d been alone too long. Living out here without any male companionship. Letting her libido get so desperate it rioted at the sight of a strong hand sliding down the seam of her jeans, toward – No!

“About why I’m here,” Grif was saying, “and...other things.”

This was
not
the time for her to try to talk to him about anything, not while images of a hand on a pair of jeans strobed through her brain and bloodstream. She needed something to keep him occupied while she got her mind on a different track...an
entirely
different track.