Authors: Fiona Brand
Susan's jaw tightened. “I don't want to hear you mention him againâ
it's finished.
He hasn't found us for four years. He won't find us now.”
The snort of a horse drew Dani's attention. She stared at the scene unfolding in the paddock immediately adjacent to the house.
Carter was outside with Galbraith and two tall bay horses. She watched as Carter swung smoothly into the saddle. Dust plumed from restless hooves as the animals paced out of an open stock gate, hard-packed muscle rippling beneath satiny skin. Two dogs trotted alongside, tongues lolling. Dani blinked, spellbound. The scene was idyllicâlike everything on Galbraithâand, like the endless rhythm of the sea dragging the sand from beneath her feet, it was steadily undermining her resolve. She was used to cutting ties, the idea of holding on made her dizzy.
Dazed, Dani realized that, like Susan, she didn't want to leave. She wanted to stay so badly it hurt.
Susan tugged at her plait. “You just wait, you'll change your mind about boys one day.”
For a heartthrob like Carter Rawlings? She'd rather live in a soap opera.
She might be young, but ever since she was six years old and
he
had broken into their house for the first time, she had known that men spelled more trouble than she ever wanted to take.
In her limited experience, if you could lose them you were lucky.
Present day, Jackson's Ridge, New Zealand
T
he sun was high, the air rippling with heat, the breeze hot and dry as it rustled through native manuka trees and flipped a strand of hair loose from Dani Marlow's plait. As she slid from the seat of her tractor, she noted the direction of the breezeâa southerlyânot the drought-breaking northerly she and every other farmer on the East Coast needed. They'd had a dry year, followed by an even drier summer, and the disastrous weather had desiccated the soil, killed most of the grass and undermined Galbraith Station's already shaky financial position.
Properties all up and down the coast were selling at rock-bottom prices, and the sharks were queuingâmost notably a fancy out-of-town syndicate that, rumor had it, was determined to turn the small farming community of Jackson's Ridge into an upmarket golf course and beach resort.
The Barclays, who owned a block just up the coast, were contemplating selling after a fire burnt down their barn and decimated their maize crop. Another neighbour, old Mr. Stoddard, had rung just last night to let her know that instead of the extension on his mortgage he'd requested, the bank had sent him a letter advising him that his interest rate was going up. He was hanging on, but at seventy years of age, he had better things to do than watch his cows die of thirst and fight a bank that no longer had any confidence in his ability to service his loan.
Dust whirled, peppering Dani's eyes as she crouched down to check the underside of the tractor. It didn't take a diesel mechanic to diagnose what was wrong with the ancient Fergusonâaffectionately labeled the Dinosaur. The oil sump was leaking.
Muttering beneath her breath, she straightened and walked to the small trailer coupled to the rear of the tractor and extracted a new bolt with its accompanying nut and washer from the “breakdown” toolbox. Shoving the wisp of hair behind her ear, she grabbed a wrench, a socket and a rag streaked with oil from the last breakdown, crawled beneath the Dinosaur and turned on her back.
For the third time in a month the same bolt had worked loose, jolted out by the bone-shaking ruts and potholes of Galbraith Station's fast-disintegrating stock roads. Each time she'd gone into town and bought a slightly larger bolt, the metal of the sump, warped with constant flexing and worn thin by extreme age, had disintegrated enough that the bolt had shaken loose. The sump itself was about to expire, but because the tractor was so old, obtaining another part would be close to impossible. She had two options: get an engineer to manufacture a part, which would cost a small fortune, or buy a new tractor, which would cost more money than she could raise this yearâor the next.
Oil slid down the backs of her hands and her wrists as she pushed the sump back into place and lined up the bolt holes. With a deft movement, she slipped the bolt through and held it in place as she awkwardly reached around the solid-steel chassis to slide the washer and the nut onto the shaft of the bolt, straining until the thread caught and the nut wound smoothly on.
Clamping the wrench around the nut to hold it still, she began the delicate process of tightening the bolt, a quarter turn at a time with the socket in the confined space, careful not to stress the tired metal by screwing the bolt in too tightly. Long seconds later, arms aching, she loosened off the wrench and the socket, set the tools down in the dust and simply lay in the shadows beneath the tractor, the tautness of her muscles turning to liquid as she let herself go boneless.
She was hot, sweaty and tired, and every part of her ached. The summer had been the driest on record, and she'd been up since before dawn moving stock and checking water troughs. When she'd finished her morning round, she'd showered, changed and opened her physiotherapy practice, which occupied the old shearers' quarters. Her last appointment had been at three, after which she'd started loading hay onto the trailer and feeding out.
Even moving the cattle every day, rotating them from field to field, and grazing what was known as the “long acre”âthe roadside grassâdidn't allow her paddocks time to recover. Without rain, the grass couldn't grow, and there simply wasn't enough feed. She was already using her winter supply; when that was gone she would have to either start buying in feed she couldn't afford, or sell the entire herd, including the breeding cows.
She'd done the figures for selling early, and they weren't good. The cattle would be underweight, and the market would be low. The worst-case scenario was that she wouldn't make enough to cover the balloon payment that was due on the mortgage. If that happened, her half-brother, David, would lose the farm and his home.
The drought had already done its damage, and every day it continued the damage increased. Now, regardless of when it rained, they had already sustained a loss; it was only the magnitude of the loss that was in question.
Letting out a breath, she let her lids drift closed. She wouldn't sleep, but she was tired enough that the iron-hard dirt felt as soft as a feather bed. Slowly, inner tension seeped away, and her breathing evened out.
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A small sound disturbed the silence. Liquid trickled down her arm. Her lids flickered.
Oil.
The Dinosaur was still leaking, this time from somewhere else, which meant the sump and the bolt could be side issues.
“Oh yeah, you're going to die on me soon,” she muttered sleepily. “Just not yet.”
Give me a couple more weeks, then it won't matter.
“If this rust heap is terminal,” a low male voice murmured, “it better not be in my driveway.”
Dani's heart jolted in her chest. She hadn't heard a vehicle, but that wasn't surprising. The rising wind hitting the tall line of poplar trees along the roadside was loud enough to muffle most sounds and, despite her resolve, she
had
fallen asleep. If she'd been fully conscious there was no way her closest neighbour, Carter Rawlings, would have sneaked up on her.
Grabbing the tools, she crawled out from beneath the Dinosaur and blinked into the afternoon sun. Of course he
would
be standing with the sun at his back, putting her at even more of a disadvantageâas if she wasn't utterly disadvantaged anyway in faded jeans and a T-shirt, leather boots that were crusted with dirt, and her hair scraped back in a plait.
Rising to her feet, Dani studied her neighbour and ex-ex-ex-boyfriend who, evidently, had finally decided to return to Jackson's Ridge after yet another extended absence.
“Well, if it isn't Mr. Commitment, himself.” And if he said, “Hi, honey, I'm home,” she wouldn't be responsible for her actions. “Looking good, Carter.”
It was a sad fact that he
was
drop-dead gorgeous: tall and muscled with sun-bleached hair, a solid, nicely moulded jaw and those killer blue eyes.
Deftly, she stepped around him and replaced her tools in their box. “Long time no see.”
And wasn't that just typical? The Rawlings family had lived next door to the Galbraiths forever, but Carter had always been too restless to stay in Jackson's Ridge. Despite being neighbours for eighteen years, the time Dani had actually spent with Carter had been little. When Carter had turned thirteen he had gone away to boarding school. From boarding school, he had gone directly into the army, then the Special Air Service. From that point on he had become even more elusive, only returning home for brief stints to visit his parents when he had leave. And lately, over the past six years, depending on the state of their relationship, to visit her.
“I've been busy.”
“Evidently.” Almost a whole year busy. But for the first time since they'd started dating six years ago she'd had the luxury of not worrying about exactly
what
he was doing, and how dangerous it was. As far as Dani was concerned it had been a productive year.
“I rang.”
Dani wiped her hands on the rag and tossed it in the back of the trailer. “I got your messages.”
“You didn't reply.”
She cocked her head to one side and took a second look. Whatever Carter had been up to since he'd last climbed out of her bed and walked out the door hadn't detracted any from his appeal. Despite her detachment, her stomach did a funny little flip-flop. Her jaw tightened. She had been burned by Carter Rawlings a total of three times. As far as she was concerned, that was two times too many. The fact that the masochistic streak that kept her making the same mistake over and over was still in existence didn't make her happy. She was thirty, supposedly intelligent and independent. As far as she was concerned she had been inoculated
three
times. Somewhere there had to be a rule about that, and she wasn't about to break it.
She snapped the toolbox closed and fastened the lid. “I didn't see any point. We broke up.”
He muttered something short and sharp beneath his breath. “Why isn't Bill fixing the tractor?”
Dani wedged the oilcan between the toolbox and the side of the trailer so it wouldn't shift when she negotiated the rutted drive to the house. The last thing she needed was to lose a can of oil. As inexpensive as it was, replacing it would blow her budget for the week, and with the mortgage falling due in a fortnight she was literally counting every cent. In theory she couldn't afford to eat. “I had to let Bill go two months ago. There's a recession, or hadn't you noticed?”
Maybe not. By the shiny glint of his brand-new four-wheel drive, she deduced that drought, recession and bottomed-out stock prices or not, Carter was doing all right.
“I've noticed.” He jerked his head toward the tractor. “Why didn't you give Geoff a call?”
Geoff was the diesel mechanic based in town. He serviced most of the farm equipment locally. “Geoff costs forty dollars an hour. Fifty-five on a call-out.”
Carter walked around the Dinosaur. Distracted, Dani noted the stiffness of his movements.
“You're telling me you've been fixing the tractor yourself?”
And the farm bike and the truck. If she lost the farm, she could probably open up in competition with Geoff's Diesels and make some real money.
Dani made a production of looking around. “Can't see anyone else. Must have been me.”
Carter's stare was cold and disorientingly direct. “You're not going to make this easy, are you?”
Never again. “What's the matter? You got issues with women fixing machines?”
He stared at the tractor, then glanced back at Dani. “Yes.”
The word was bitten out, clipped and cold, as if he had every right to an opinion. An involuntary shiver worked its way down her spine. She'd been angry at Carter for monthsâno, cancel thatâ
years,
and in all that time, she'd never imagined that he could be angry with her.
“I heard about Ellen. I'm sorry.”
She fastened the lid of the toolbox with fingers that were abruptly clumsy. The loss of her adoptive aunt, Ellen Galbraith, still cut deep. Ellen had helped her through one of the toughest times in her life, when Susan and Robert had both been killed in a car accident; it had broken her heart to let her go. “She had a heart condition.”
One that had manifested almost overnight, but must have been brewing for years. Ellen had had a bad case of the flu and had simply never gotten well. Confused by the symptoms, but suspicious, their local GP had run a series of tests, but by the time Ellen had been diagnosed as suffering from heart failure, massive damage had been done. She'd had a bypass operation, which had briefly improved her condition, but four months after the initial diagnosis, she had caught another bout of flu and slipped away in her sleep just hours later.
Clamping her jaw against the ache at the back of her throat, Dani gripped the worn steering wheel, and swung up into the Dinosaur's seat. “I've got to go.”
He stepped toward the tractor, as if he was going to detain her, the motion faintly awkward.
Dani stared, arrested by the uncharacteristic clumsiness. “What's wrong with your leg?”
His gaze jerked to hers, and there was nothing lazy, intimate or even remotely friendly in the contact. For a moment she had the uncomfortable sensation she was looking at a complete stranger. “A gunshot wound.”
For a blank moment she didn't know what to say or how to react. Carter was in the Special Air Service. It was hard to miss that fact when his high-risk, high-adrenaline career had destroyed their relationship. But coming face-to-face with the reality of a gunshot wound was shocking.
She stared at his broad back as he limped to his truck, studying the way he moved, the kinks in his posture that told her Carter was fresh out of rehab and still healing. Ever since Carter had gone into the military she had worried about the dangerâwhether they were involved or not, Carter's well-being mattered. “When?”
“Four months ago.”
Her stomach tightened. Another piece of the puzzle fell into place. Two months ago she'd heard, courtesy of Nola McKayâthe owner of Nola's Caféâthat Carter hadn't just been away on an extended tour of duty, he had been missing in action. The news, delivered with a latte and the rider that he had been rescued, had shocked her, but still disconnected and numb with the grief of Ellen's death, it had taken her another week before she'd gotten up the energy to do a search on the Internet. Eventually she had found a report that a soldier was missing in action in Borneo. The wording had been brief and clinical and hadn't included any details. Like the high-security classification on Carter's career, the report closed more doors than it opened.