How to Pursue a Princess (10 page)

He laughed, a rueful tone in his voice. “Moya, Moya!”

She stiffened. “What’s so funny?”

“You, trying to explain away the passion that flares between us. It is real, Moya, no matter what you say.”

“It doesn’t matter what does or doesn’t flare between us. I must marry a wealthy man, and I must take this step with my whole heart.”

“You are an honorable woman to protect your heart for your intended, but this path you are set upon
does not suit you. Thoughts of your future bring you here, to a little nest where you can hide.”

“I just wished for some quiet.”

He reached over to pick up her hatbox from the desk and looked through the contents. “Woolen socks. A servant’s?”

She nodded.

He ran a finger over the neatly hemmed edge of the pillowcase and then replaced the hatbox, his gaze moving to the napkins pooled by her side, her needle and thread tucked into the top fold. “You like to sew.”

She nodded. “I love to sew. I’m very good at it, and it’s calming.”

Concern darkened his green gaze. “You shouldn’t have to search for calm.”

It seemed as if the prince could read her mind, which made her even more uneasy. To hide her expression, she bent to scratch Feenie’s ear. “Why are you here?”

“Because it pains me to see you distressed.”

Suddenly restless, she straightened. “I’m not distressed.”
Not yet.
“I’m fine. Truly I am.”

“Moya, do not lie to me. I can see what you are and are not.” He sighed. “You don’t understand how this is. All of my life, I have known that when I finally met the woman I was meant to spend my life with, I would know it in an instant.” His dark green gaze locked on her. “That woman is you.”

This magnificent, bold, sensual prince wished to spend the rest of his life with her? A woman he barely
knew? She shook her head. “It’s impossible. You don’t know me well enough to wish to spend a day with me, much less a lifetime.”

His brows drew down. “I do, too.”

“Oh? Then what’s my favorite color?”

His gaze slid to her gown. “Blue.”

Blast it!
“What dance is my favorite?”

“The waltz,” he said without hesitation.

He must have noticed that I enjoyed dancing it last night.
“When’s my birthday?”

He opened his mouth, then closed it. “I don’t know, but when I find out, I will never forget.”

“Humph. How did I get the scar on my knee? How many sisters do I have? When’s the last time I read—”

“Hold!” He took a deep breath. “I may not know the little details, but I know the important ones. You are a kind person, Moya. Very. It shows in your eyes and the way you treat others and worry about them, too. You love your family enough to make the greatest sacrifice of all—to give up your happiness for theirs. I know, too, that you are beautiful, with hair of fire, and a laugh that makes me ache with desire.” He spread his hands. “What more do I need to know?”

“Wulf, that’s— Oh dear.” She pressed her hands to her hot cheeks, her heart galloping in an odd way. “That’s very kind of you, but— No. I can’t accept that.”

“I am always hones—” Surprisingly, his face reddened. “I am honest when I can be.”

“What does that mean?”

“Moya, what must I do to convince you that I am serious in my pursuit?”

“We haven’t known one another long enough to engender the feelings you think you have.”

“I do not
think
anything: I know. And it is difficult to watch you sacrifice so much. I am very tempted to fix your problems, but—” Wulf shook his head and wondered if perhaps he’d been hasty in hiding his wealth.
But I must. She must choose me on my own merits.
“
Nyet.
It cannot be.”

Lily stiffened, her eyes now ablaze. “I never asked you to ‘fix’ my problems. This is
my
obligation and no one else’s.”

He eyed her uneasily. “You are ruffled like a threatened dove. I said I was
tempted
to help you, not that I was going to.” If he were truthful, had he not been determined to secure her affections without the trappings of wealth, he would have done just that, and without consulting with her, either. Looking at her now, he realized that it would have been a mistake of the first order.

Her eyes were a frosty gray. “I would no more ask a stranger to assist me with such a personal matter than I’d invite the king of England to tea.”

Knowing the king, the overweight sovereign was much more likely to want brandy than tea, but Wulf wisely held his tongue. “Moya, please, I did not wish to upset you. I was trying to tell you something good, something wonderful—that I am in love wi—”

“No! Don’t say that!”

“But it’s true!” At her set expression, Wulf blew out his breath and raked a hand through his hair. His declaration was going horribly awry and he wasn’t certain why. Last night, watching Lily from across the room, he’d thought that the reason she was being so distant must be because she didn’t know how he felt. He had to tell her in plain language, so that there could be no misunderstanding: he loved her and wished to marry her. It was that simple.

Or so it had seemed at the time. On the ride here, he’d even been so foolish as to imagine how she’d react to his declaration, one most women dreamed about. None of the scenarios had included her facing him with icy fury. “Moya, please—I have obviously said something wrong, but you don’t understand. When I met you, it was like a thunderbolt. I just knew that—”

“That’s it.” She set the dog to one side and jumped to her feet, the pug watching her with an astonished gaze that mirrored Wulf’s own.

She marched up to him, her eyes blazing. “I don’t want to hear another word of these—these
feelings
you say you have. Never. Ever. Do you understand? I regretted ignoring you last night because I realized that you are a stranger to our ways and don’t understand the implications of many things you say and do. Our rules are complicated, and I can see how they might be difficult for someone new to our country to understand. But your
preposterous
tale that you have decided that I’m the one you wish to spend your
life with— No! I don’t need such a distraction in my life right now. I’ve got enough things to worry about as it is.”

He rubbed a hand over his beard, eyeing her cautiously. “So I’m never again to speak of my feelings for you?”

“Never. Not if you want me to continue to be your friend.”

His brows snapped down. “I wish to be more than friends, Moya. I’ve said—”

She threw up a hand, stopping him in his tracks. “You don’t get to decide this. I’m probably going to regret even being friends, but you’ve no one to guide you, and I can’t just leave you alone to struggle through the duchess’s house party without a mentor.”

Wulf sighed. “You are a stubborn woman.”

“So now you know yet another thing about me. If you want me to continue to speak to you and advise you on how to comport yourself, then you have to stop telling me this”—she waved a hand—“this story.”

“It is not a story,
but
,” he said firmly before she could interrupt, “I agree to stop speaking of my feelings since they make you uncomfortable.”
Damn it, I could name a dozen women who would welcome a declaration from me—two of them princesses of the realm, and all of them beauties. But not Moya. She stands here with her mouth thinned in disapproval. Damn it, why must I fall in love with such a
stubborn
woman?

He’d never been put so thoroughly in his place in his life. Part of him wanted to storm away, while
another part wanted to toss her over his shoulder and take her to his cottage and show her what he felt in a way she couldn’t deny.

But as he looked into her eyes, he realized that her pride would defeat him at every turn. Tata Natasha was right: love was far more complicated than he’d realized. And for the first time since he’d met Lily, he realized an astonishing, frightening fact—it was distinctly possible that, no matter what he said or did, she might not accept him.

The thought sent an ice-cold shiver through his soul. He’d finally found the woman he’d dreamed of, the woman destined to be his, yet she wouldn’t even let him discuss his feelings.
Bloody hell, what am I to do?

He frowned as he considered his options. Perhaps she’d already given him an answer by offering to help him navigate their bizarre societal rules. At least then she’d continue to speak with him, and that was something . . . wasn’t it? Perhaps mere talking could lead to something more, like a kiss.
A kiss would be nice.
His gaze brushed her plump bottom lip.
Very nice, indeed.

“Are we agreed, then?” She brushed an errant curl from her cheek. “I’m sorry if my outspokenness shocks you, but it’s best that we determine this right now. You distract me from my purpose in coming here to the duchess’s house party, and I can’t allow you to do that.”

He caught the note of wistfulness in her voice and hope bloomed anew. “It is I who should be sorry. You and I are passionate people; perhaps it is only natural
that we should find ourselves at cross-purposes now and again,
nyet?
” He smiled at her. “I do not wish you to stop speaking with me. Is unacceptable. I will do what I must to keep that from happening.”

Her expression softened and she offered him a shy smile that sent his heart thudding in his chest. “I wouldn’t like that, either.”

“Finally, something we agree upon.”

She chuckled. “It didn’t take us long, did it?”

“Two days, but who is counting.” He grinned. “But I must ask for one thing first.” He captured her hand and placed a kiss to her fingers in a courtly, nonthreatening manner. “I must ask for your patience. I am not the sort of man to keep his feelings to himself, but I will try.”

“Thank you.” Her gaze locked with his and he became aware of the softness of her hand in his. He lifted her hand again, only this time he turned it over and pressed a kiss into her palm.

Instantly, her eyes turned smoky and her lips parted. Just as quickly, her cheeks blazed and she tugged her hand free and moved away.

It dawned on him that she hadn’t asked for any restrictions on his actions, only his words. He almost grinned, but wisely hid his jubilation.
Ah, Moya, already I have found a crack in the walls you build. If you forbid me to speak, then I will seduce you with something other than words.

Unaware that she was already bested, Lily clasped her hands behind her back and took some distancing
steps. “Now that we’ve settled this, I can spend my time doing what I came here to do: find a husband.”

“Someone like the Earl of Huntley?”

She didn’t seem able to meet his gaze. “Perhaps.”

“Do not deny that he is your intended target.”

“Target? I’m not shooting at him.”

“Yes, you are. With little cupid arrows of demure smiles and shy glances, hoping one will strike his heart so that he will wish to marry you and save your family.”

“It sounds horrid when you say it like that.”

“Nonsense. I honor your commitment to your family. How could I not? But this kind of love you talk about—one born of necessity—will not sustain you.” His gaze locked with hers, his voice deepening. “You deserve real passion, Moya. The touch of a man who makes you tremble.”

Her chin lifted. “If I marry a man I can honor and respect, the rest will come.”

“Perhaps and perhaps not. Sadly, if it doesn’t, you won’t even know what you are missing.” He moved closer to her, ready to prove his point.

Lily caught the look in his eyes and her pulse leapt in response. Before he reached her, she whirled to face the window. “It’s certainly bright outside. I do hope the weather holds, for the duchess has been talking about a visit to the folly built on the island in the lake.”

He stood so close behind her that she could feel his warm breath on her hair. “It is very sunny. I do not think it will rain.”

“Good, for it would be sad if we didn’t get to see the folly. I’ve heard it’s beautiful.”

Her thoughts were completely divorced from what she was saying. Was Wulf right? Was it possible that if she married an honorable and good man, one she respected and cared for, passion might never flare between them?

She rubbed her arms, feeling alone once more.
Never is a long time.
She didn’t wish for a passionless marriage, but how did one make certain that didn’t happen?

There had to be signs she could look for, clues to the ability for that passion to bloom. But would she recognize them? She knew so little about it.

She turned to look up at Wulf. He was a man of experience. Perhaps he would know. “May I ask you something?”

“You may ask me anything you wish.”

“How would I know if passion were possible between myself and a man?”

A slow smile curved his mouth, his eyes warming. “Ah, that is the question. Passion is not easy for some, and too easy for others.”

“That doesn’t help. Is there a test of some sort?”

“A test?” He looked surprised, but then he chuckled. “I hadn’t thought of them as tests, but I suppose they could be used so. For example, you might try this.” He brushed his fingertips down her bared arm, moving slowly.

Goose bumps lifted, and a delicious tingle raced through her.

His long fingers locked about her wrists and he tugged her forward until her chest rested against his. “Do you feel that? The tremor that passes between us?”

She could only stare up at him and nod. Her heart stuttered in an agony of anticipation, her entire body softening.

“That, Moya, is passion. And it is a rare, rare gift.”

Every word stirred her more; a wanton restlessness filled her. “Th-that seems to be a very effective test. I’ll have to remember it.” She tried to move away, but he held her firm.

“There is more. You should know it all.”

“Oh?”

“
Da.
A kiss, Moya. If it makes your heart beat like a caged bird, then you have passion. And if not—” He slowly shook his head.

“Those—” Her voice was so husky that she cleared her throat. “Those are good tests.”