Hush (Witches & Warlocks Book 2)
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Authors: R. M. Webb
Hush
R. M. Webb
Copyright © 2015 by R. M. Webb
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First Printing, 2015
For Bill.
Thank you for teaching me to speak.
Thank you for making me comfortable being me.
Contents
Chapter One
My name is Zoe Tate and there was a time when I couldn’t speak. I’ve found my voice now and I know I should be grateful ‘cause that’s everything I’ve wanted for as long as I can remember. Except I’m not grateful. Not completely. Sure, I can speak, but I have to be very careful with what I say because my words are dangerous. And if that sounds melodramatic then that’s a-ok because I’m not exaggerating even one little bit.
Turns out, I’m not your typical introvert. Or I wasn’t your typical introvert. Come to think of it, I don’t think I ever actually
was
an introvert. The reason I couldn’t speak in the past had nothing to do with my personality type and everything to do with a series of spells put on me to keep me from knowing what I was.
Or am.
Shit.
I’m still struggling with how to word all this.
It’s all so new, you see.
I guess it’s best to use present tense. The spells kept me from knowing what I am. And what I am is a witch. I know, it sounds crazy. Believe me, it took quite a bit of convincing for me to believe it and I’m the one who had to live through all the crazy shit that finally helped me accept the truth. Magic is real. And I’m magic. How’s that truth for ya?
So, anyway, I used to think I was painfully shy, just this silly girl who wanted to speak but couldn’t because I over thought things, or I worried too much about how people would see me. It always felt like my words got stuck behind some barrier in my throat. Or my head. Or my heart. I was never sure which.
Thing is, that’s exactly what was happening. My words got stuck behind a barrier. Except, that barrier didn’t come from me, it came from a spell my best friend, Becca, put on me. Well, a series of spells, actually.
Magic dampened? Check
Afraid to speak? Check
Hard for other people to notice me? Check
Desperate to please my best friend? Check
I spent my whole life frustrated with myself for being so broken.
Speak, Zoe. You know what you want to say, just say it.
I can’t tell you how many times I had conversations like that with myself, mostly while blushing a furious and unflattering red and fidgeting with anything I could get my hands on, always while berating myself for being so broken.
But it turns out it wasn’t a matter of me being broken at all. All the times I hated myself for not being normal? Ya. Not my fault.
Forgive me if I sound a little bitter.
Becca hid my magic from me and I still don’t know why. I mean, I know she did it on an order from someone really high up the food chain in the whole magical underworld governing body. Yep. That’s right. Magical underworld governing body. Such a thing exists. But I still don't know why she got the order.
But the whole thing backfired on Becca because now my magic is awake. And the crazy thing is, I seem to have
all
the magic. Some witches get some form of light magic. Some get some form of dark magic. Some - like Becca - get this kind of neutral magic.
Me?
I can do it all. Except I’m not supposed to let anyone know about that because that’s some kind of big scary deal that somehow makes
me
a big scary deal. I mean, like, if I get upset I end up losing control of my magic and killing people. That kind of big scary deal. Noah says not to let anyone know about all the magic I have access to and I trust him. There was a brief time when I didn’t. You know, the time when I figured out he knew what I was but hadn’t told me about it yet, but I’ve realized how silly it was for me to hold that against him. What did I expect him to do? Hey there. My name’s Noah. And you are? Oh ya, and by the way, you’re a witch.
Ha.
‘Cause that’d go over so well.
Because I’m kind of a magical time bomb, they’ve got me holed up in Windsor Manor, this place I like to think of as a halfway house for the magically confused. It’s like a boarding school mixed with a reform school mixed with a hospital and I don’t know if I love it here or if I hate it here.
I love learning how to work magic. It’s like … I don’t know … finally getting to be myself after years of pretending to be something I’m not. Or I guess I should say being forced to be something I’m not. Each time I learn a new spell or find a new way to use my magic, it’s like I become more of the person I always thought I was supposed to me. More of what I was destined to be. How cool is that? I mean for real? Getting to grow into the person I was born to be? It doesn’t get much better than that.
But, I’m the oldest
student
here. It’s unusual for witches to come into their powers as late as I did. There are a handful of super young kids - witches and warlocks who started transitioning way early and needed intervention, but mostly I’m hanging out with teenagers all day. Kids who think they’re all grown up and understand how the world works, but don’t know how to write a check or why credit cards are scary.
It’s kind of funny. I used to love the way it felt to be surrounded by people, but I:
a.) never felt seen and
b.) never knew what to do with myself when I was seen.
Now that the directors here at Windsor Manor have removed the spell that made me unnoticeable - along with all the other spells that kept me under Becca’s thumb - I’m finally ... well … noticed. I’d always hoped that would mean I’d finally get to make the connections I used to crave. Turns out, not so much.
Here I am, surrounded by people younger than me, who are a little scared of me because of what I did. What I can do. What I can’t control.
I used to want to be seen…
Noticed…
Heard…
I sure got what I wanted.
If only what people see and notice and hear in me didn’t scare them to death.
*******
“Zoe?” Noah leans in and smiles. “You in there?” Some things never change, I guess. I still find myself getting lost in my thoughts.
“Ya, sorry.” I run a hand through my hair and make a pretty damned good approximation of the face Becca used to make. You know, the one where she looked all cute and her eyes almost sparkled? One of the benefits of having those spells removed is that a good portion of my awkwardness disappeared with them. “Just busy planning all the ways I’m going to make this trip difficult for you,” I say with a smile.
Noah laughs and it’s that laugh that sounds like home. That laugh that makes me warm and cozy and … not alone. “You’re diabolical.”
“That’s me. Wicked witch and all.” I say it jokingly, but part of me kind of really feels that way. Wicked. It’s as worrisome as it is exciting.
“Oh, ya, you’re the most wicked of us all.” He says it and I smile and laugh and I guess I must have done a decent job of hiding the fear and … what is it? Excitement? Am I excited to be a little wicked? Exhilarated? The feeling is intoxicating, like a naughty secret I keep just for myself. Regardless, whatever it is I’m feeling, I managed to hide it from Noah. He still thinks I’m horrified by what my dark magic can do.
Which I am.
For the most part.
We’re out for the day, walking hand in hand towards the coffee house near my old apartment. Noah’s touch still brings little pings of golden contact that make me feel all relaxed and wonderful. When I asked him about that, he told me it was kind of like my magic is greeting his magic. ‘Cause they’re so much the same. Which they are. But, I’d felt something similar when Luke - you know … Luke … the guy I thought was my boyfriend but really was in on Becca’s plan but who, in the end, might have had feelings for me after all? As if that’s not confusing.
Anyway.
With Noah, there’s little warm pings of contact and with Luke, there’s actually this rolling, ‘fog creeping up my arm’ feeling. Both sensations make me feel comfortable. All I can make out of that is that I guess my magic is like Luke’s magic, too.
Which isn’t that big of a surprise because according to what Noah’s told me, we - as in Noah and me - both have the ability to use all the forms of magic. Dark magic. Light magic. All the forms in between. Noah’s worked hard to strengthen his light magic and ignore his dark magic, and he’s trying to help me do the same. Which is why we’re here at the coffee house.
“You ready for this?” He asks as he reaches for the door, pausing to hear my answer.
“As I’ll ever be, I guess.”
The coffee shop is an overwhelming mixture of sounds and smells and people. In the past, this would have sent my senses into overload, but I’m learning to control that, too. Kind of.
A huge smile dawns on the barista's face as I amble up to the counter. She fluffs her formerly lavender hair - it’s a strange shade of orange now - and gives me a questioning look. “Whadaya think? I thought I’d go for a more festive color as we get closer to Halloween.”
Honestly, it’s not a good color for her. It washes her out and while the lavender made her look like a cute little pixie, the orange makes her look a little sick. But I prefer my coffee without spit in it so I’m not gonna be the one to tell her. I give her the compliment she’s hoping for and can’t help but smile when her whole demeanor changes when she turns to Noah.
He’s so hot, I’ve yet to meet a female who didn’t get a little melty when he’s around.
Noah orders our drinks because as frequently as we come here, I still don’t like coffee and haven’t cared enough to decipher the menu. Whatever it is that he orders me is huge and sweet and still bitter as all hell because all the sugar in the world can’t hide the natural ickiness of coffee. I take my place at a table in the middle of the crowded store and wait.
The whole goal here is get my senses into overdrive and then force me to calm down and keep things under control. This place is perfect because of how popular it is. There are people and conversations and smells and distractions galore. The coffee gets me all jittery and kind of upsets my stomach and I hate the way it tastes. All kinds of negative stimulus that I need to learn to ignore because it’s the negative stuff that feeds my dark magic.
Yay.
Noah reaches across the table and wraps my hand in his. Things are just so comfortable between us … no … comfortable’s not the word. There’s definitely a charge between us, some heat. I guess I could say
easy
. Things are easy between us. He laughs at my jokes, I laugh at his. I don’t have to try to be something I’m not because he seems totally content in everything I am.