In a Lonely Place (2 page)

Dix stepped forward to match her smile, to take her hand. Except for that first moment, he hadn’t shown anything. Even that wouldn’t have been noticed. “Hello, Sylvia,” he said. She was tall standing, as tall as Brub. He held her hand while he turned to Brub, a prideful, smiling Brub. “Why didn’t you tell me you were married?” he demanded. “Why hide this beautiful creature under the blanket of your indifference?”

Sylvia withdrew her hand and Brub laughed. “You sound just like the Dix I’ve heard about,” she retorted. She had a nice voice, shining as her pale hair. “Beer with us or whiskey as a stubborn individualist?”

He said, “Much to Brub’s surprise. I’ll take beer.”

It was so comfortable. The room was a good one, only the chair was gaudy, the couch was like green grass and another couch the yellow of sunlight. There was pale matting on the polished floor; there was a big green chair and heavy white drapes across the Venetian blinds. Good prints, O’Keeffe and Rivera. The bar was of light wood— convenient and unobtrusive in the corner. There must have been an ice chest, the beer was damp with cold.

Sylvia uncapped his bottle, poured half into a tall frosted glass and put it on an end table beside him. She brought Brub a bottle, poured a glass for herself. Her hands were lovely, slim and quiet and accurate; she moved quietly and with the same accuracy. She was probably a wonderful woman to bed with; no waste motion, quietness.

When he knew what he was thinking, he repeated, “Why didn’t you tell me you were married?”

“Tell you!” Brub roared. “You called me up seven months ago, last February, the eighth to be exact, told me you’d just got in and would let me know soon as you were located. That’s the last I’ve heard of you. You checked out of the Ambassador three days later and you didn’t leave a forwarding address. How could I tell you anything?”

He smiled, his eyes lowered to his beer. “Keeping tabs on me, Brub?”

“Trying to locate you, you crazy lug,” Brub said happily.

“Like the old days,” Dix said. “Brub took care of me like a big brother. Sylvia.”

“You needed a caretaker.”

He switched back. “How long have you been married?”

“Two years this spring,” Sylvia told him.

“One week and three days after I got home.” Brub said. “It took her that long to get a beauty-shop appointment.”

“Which she didn’t need,” Dix smiled.

Sylvia smiled to him. “It took him that long to raise the money for a license. Talk of drunken sailors! He spent every cent on flowers and presents and forgot all about the price of wedding.”

Comfortable room and talk and beer. Two men. And a lovely woman.

Brub said, “Why do you think I fought the war? To get back to Sylvia.”

“And why did you fight the war, Mr. Steele?” Sylvia’s smile wasn’t demure; she made it that way.

“For weekend passes to London,” Brub suggested.

He stepped on Brub’s words answering her thoughtfully. He wanted to make an impression on her. “I’ve wondered about it frequently, Sylvia. Why did I or anyone else fight the war? Because we had to isn’t good enough. I didn’t have to when I enlisted. I think it was because it was the thing to do. And the Air Corps was the thing to do. All of us in college were nuts about flying. I was a sophomore at Princeton when things were starting. I didn’t want to be left out of any excitement.”

“Brub was at Berkeley,” she remembered. “You’re right, it was the thing to do.”

They were steered to safe channels, to serious discussion. Brub opened another beer for the men.

Brub said, “It was the thing to do or that was the rationalization. We’re a casual generation, Dix, we don’t want anyone to know we bleed if we’re pricked. But self defense is one of the few prime instincts left. Despite the cover-up, it was self defense. And we knew it.”

Dix agreed, lazily. You could agree or disagree in this house. No one got his back up whatever was said. There was no anger here, no cause for anger. Even with a woman. Perhaps because of the woman. She was gentle.

He heard Sylvia’s amused voice as from afar, as through a film of gray mist. “Brub’s always looking for the hidden motive power. That’s because he’s a policeman.”

He came sharply into focus. The word had been a cold spear deliberately thrust into his brain. He heard his voice speak the cold, hard word. “Policeman?” But they didn’t notice anything. They thought him surprised, as he was. more than surprised, startled and shocked. They were accustomed to that reaction. For they weren’t jesting; they were speaking the truth. Brub with an apologetic grin; his wife with pride under her laughter.

“He really is,” she was saying.

And Brub was saying, “Not a policeman now, darling, a detective.”

They’d played the scene often; it was in their ease. He was the one who needed prompting, needed cue for the next speech. He repeated, “Policeman,” with disbelief, but the first numbing shock had passed. He was prepared to be correctly amused.

Brub said, “Detective. I don’t know why. Everyone wants to know why and I don’t know.”

“He hasn’t found the underlying motive yet,” Sylvia said.

Brub shrugged. “I know that one well enough. Anything to keep from working. That’s the motto of the Nicolais. Graven on their crest.”

”A big healthy man reclining,” Sylvia added.

They were like a radio team, exchanging patter with seemingly effortless ease.

“My old man was a land baron, never did a lick of work. But land baroneering is outmoded, so I couldn’t do that. The girls all married money.” He fixed Sylvia with his eye. “I don’t know why I didn’t think of that. Raoul, my oldest brother, is an investment broker. That’s what it says on his gold-lettered office door. Investment broker.”

“Brub,” Sylvia warned but she smiled.

“Up and to the office by ten.” Brub proclaimed. “Maybe a bit after. Open the mail. To the club for two quick games of squash. Shower, shave, trim, and lunch. Leisurely, of course. A quiet nap after, a bit of bridge—and the day’s over. Very wearing.”

Brub took a swallow of beer. “Then there’s Tom—he plays golf. A lawyer on the side. He only takes cases dealing with the ravages of pterodactyls to the tidelands. The pterodactyls having little time for ravaging the tidelands, he has plenty of time for golf.” He drank again. “I’m a detective.”

Dix had listened with his face, a half smile, but he kept his eyes on his beer glass. His mouth was sharp with questions, they were like tacks pricking his tongue. Brub had finished and was waiting for him to speak. He said easily, “So you took the easy job. No investments or law for you. Sherlock Nicolai. And were you right?”

“No, damn it.” Brub wailed. “I work.”

“You know Brub,” Sylvia sighed. “Whatever he does, he does with both heads. He’s full fathoms deep in detecting.”

Dix laughed, setting down his beer glass. It was time to go. Time to put space between himself and the Nicolais. “Brub should have taken up my racket.” To their questioning eyebrows, he elucidated, “Like ninety-three and one-half per cent of the ex-armed forces, I’m writing a book.”

”Another author.” Sylvia mused.

“Unlike ninety-two and one-half per cent I’m not writing a book on the war. Or even my autobiography. Just trying to do a novel.” A wonderful racket; neither of them knew what a smart choice he’d made. Not haphazardly, no. Coldly, with sane reasoning. He stretched like a dog, preliminary to rising. “That’s why you haven’t seen me before. When you’re trying to write, there isn’t time to run around. I stick pretty close to the old machine.” He smiled frankly at Brub. “My uncle is giving me a year to see what I can do. So I work.” He was on his feet. He had meant to ask the use of the phone, to call a cab. But Brub wouldn’t allow it; he’d insist on taking him to the busline; he’d want to know where Dix was living. Dix didn’t mind a walk. He’d find his own way to town.

He said. “And I’d better be getting back on the job.”

They demurred but they didn’t mind. They were young and they were one, and Brub had to get up in the morning. He slipped the question in sideways. “After all Brub has to have his rest to detect for the glory of Santa Monica, doesn’t he?”

“Santa Monica! I’m on the L.A. force,” Brub boasted mildly.

He’d wanted to know; he knew. The L.A. force.

“Then you do need sleep. Plenty of work in L.A., no?”

Brub’s face lost its humor, became a little tired. “Plenty,” he agreed.

Dix smiled, a small smile. Brub wouldn’t know why; Brub had been his big brother but he hadn’t known everything there was to know. Some things a man kept secret. It was amusing to keep some things secret.

“I’ll be seeing you,” he said easily. His hand opened the door. But he didn’t get away.

“Wait,” Brub said. “We don’t have your number.”

He had to give it. He did without seeming reluctance. Brub would have noticed reluctance. Brub or the clear-eyed woman behind him. watching him quietly. He gave his telephone number and he repeated his goodnight. Then he was alone, feeling his way off the porch and down the path into the darkness and the moist opaque fog.

He walked into the night not knowing the way, not caring. He’d moved more than once during his seven months in California. He could move again. It wasn’t easy to find quarters, the right ones for him. He liked the place he had now; he’d been lucky about it. A fellow he’d known years ago, in college. Years, aeons ago. He hadn’t cared for Mel Terriss then; he’d cared even less for him on running into him that night last July. Terriss was going to pouches; under his chin and eyes, in his belly. He had alcoholic eyes and they were smearing the blonde with Dix. He didn’t get an introduction. But he blatted waiting for it and Dix had found the flat he’d been waiting for. He was sick and tired of the second-rate hotel off Westlake Park. It smelled. Terriss was telling everyone about being off to Rio for a year, a fat job to go with his fat head.

He could move again but he was damned if he would. He liked Beverly Hills; a pleasant neighborhood. A safe neighborhood. It was possible he could change his phone number. Terriss’ number. Get an unlisted one. He’d considered that before now. But Terriss’ number was as good as being unlisted. There was no Dix Steele in the book.

Automatically he walked out of the small canyon, down to the beach road. He crossed to the oceanside; he could hear the crash of waves beyond the dark sands. He considered walking back along the waterfront but sand walking was difficult and he was all at once tired. He turned in the direction of the Incline. There was no bus, no taxi, and no car stopped for him. He walked on, in the street most of the way because there was no sidewalk, keeping close to the buildings because in the fog he was no more than a moving blur. He was damned if he’d move or even bother to change his number. He didn’t have to see Brub and his woman again. He’d proffered his excuse before it was needed. He was writing a book; he had no time for evenings like this, gab and beer.

He walked on, quiet as the fog. It had been pleasant. It was the first pleasant evening he’d had in so long. So terribly long. He tried to remember how long. Those early days in England when he and Brub knew each other so well.

He hardened his jaw and he trudged on towards the yellow ring of fog light on the pavement ahead. He watched the light, watched it come closer as he moved silently towards it. He shut out thought, clamping it between his set teeth. It wasn’t until he reached the light that he saw the Incline looming slantly across. And realized that the house into which the brown girl had disappeared lay just beyond. He stopped there, in the shadow of the clubhouse. The club’s parking lot, wire fenced, empty of cars, lay between him and the huddle of houses. The pounding of the sea recurred in changeless rhythm and he could smell the salt far beyond the wire fence.

He had to walk up to the three houses; that was where the white lanes of the crosswalk lay on the highway. He smiled a little as he started forward. He was halfway past the fenced lot when the hideous noise of an oil truck, ignoring the stop sign, thundered past. A second one speeded after the first, and a third, blasting the quietness with thumping wheels, clanging chains. Spewing greasy smoke into the fog. He stood there trembling in anger until they passed. He was still trembling when he reached the huddle of houses, and when he saw what he saw his anger mounted. There was no way to know beyond which brown gate the brown girl had vanished. The gates of the first and second houses stood side by side. Abruptly he crossed the street and started up the Incline. He had been so certain she had entered the center house. And now he didn’t know. He’d have to watch again.

He was to the midsection, to the hump of the walk, before he was calmed again. He stopped there and looked out over the stone railing. There was a small replica of the Palisades on this other side of the railing. And here, just over the rail, was a broken place in the wild shrubbery, even the pressure of a footpath down the cliff. A place where a man could wait at night. He smiled and was easy again.

He walked on up the Incline, undisturbed when a car heading downwards splashed light on him. He wouldn’t move from Terriss’ flat. He was satisfied there. There was something amusing about Brub Nicolai being able to lay hands on him whenever he wished. Amusing and more exciting than anything that had happened in a long time. The hunter and the hunted arm in arm. The hunt sweetened by danger. At the top of the Incline he looked back down at the houses and the sand and the sea. But they were all helpless now, lost in the fog.

He went on, not knowing how he would get back to Beverly, not caring. He was surprised crossing to Wilshire to see the lights of a bus approaching. He waited for it. It was the Wilshire-L.A. bus. After he boarded it, he saw by his watch that it was still early, a little past eleven o’clock. There were only two passengers, working men in working clothes. Dix sat in the front seat, his face turned to the window. Away from the dull lights of the interior. Others boarded the bus as it rumbled along Wilshire through Santa Monica, into Westwood. He didn’t turn his head to look at the others but he could see their reflections in the window pane. There was no one worth looking at.

The fog thinned as the bus left Westwood and hurried through the dark lane framed by the woodland golf course. At Beverly you could see street corners again, as through a gray mesh. You could see the shop windows and the people on the streets. Only there were no people, the little city was as deserted as a small town. Dix kept his face pressed to the window.

At Camden Drive he saw her. A girl, an unknown girl, standing alone, waiting alone there, by the bench which meant a crosstown bus would eventually come along. At night busses didn’t run often. Dix pulled the buzzer cord but he was too late for Camden. He got off at the next stop, two blocks away. He didn’t mind much. He crossed the boulevard and he was smiling with his lips as he started back. His stride was long; his steps were quiet.