It’s about my father, Jeremiah. It’s about Waverly who set Ashley’s death in motion. It’s about Samuel who actually killed Ashley. And in the end, it’s about the message I carry with me. It’s about the principle of keeping the world the way it is without all the corrupt politicians and people groping for power. It’s all about bringing people to their basic instincts and keeping them there as we were meant to be…and I’m going to make a show of it.
I stand in the doorway on the front porch as I watch Taylor walk away, a rifle strapped to his shoulder, heading toward one of the trucks at the end of the driveway. He’s doing exactly as I want, and so are the greyskins that surround him. Sure, they look at him; they take notice. There is a desire, conscious or not, to rip him to shreds and feed off his blood. But those that are standing, stand silently. Those that are walking, keep moving. No hand reaches for him, no jaw chomps at him. Taylor opens the truck door and gets in. When he turns over the ignition, a few heads look up, but that is the extent of their interest in him. Taylor doesn’t look at me before driving off. His lack of hesitation is reassuring.
I close the door and go back into the kitchen. I think about getting another mug of coffee, but decide against it. I place the mug in the sink and make my way to the wood stove and open the iron door. The fire is getting hotter.
Behind me, I hear a door open. It’s not the front door, rather one of the bedrooms. My other prisoner has awoken from his slumber. I don’t turn when he enters the kitchen because I know he isn’t going to attack me or try to escape. He won’t because I don’t want him to.
“Have a seat,” I say, staring into the orange flames.
I hear the wooden chair scrape the floor as he pulls it out from the table and sits in it.
“Today you will be leaving for Elkhorn,” I say. “You’re going to work closely with my father and help make sure he gets to Anchorage within the week.” I smile again, thoughts of amazement entering my head. It has all worked out so perfectly. “Waverly is already in Anchorage. Samuel is there too. You will help make sure my father reaches Shadowface’s bunker. That’s where I will meet him at the end of it all.”
“What if he’s not at Elkhorn?” His voice sounds thick and tired. I fear he is still too weak to carry out the plan.
“He is there,” I say. “That’s where he’s been staying since the attack. He leaves every now and again, but he always returns.”
“How do you know?”
Questions…
Do I explain to him that when I control the mind of a person or greyskin that I can see through his eyes? One or two greyskins attacking Elkhorn showed me enough to know that my father was still there.
“I control you,” I say. “That doesn’t give you the right to question me.”
“You might control my actions, but you don’t control how I feel,” he says.
“But your actions supersede your feelings,” I say.
“For now,” he says. “But I’ll never stop trying to disobey you. Someday my feelings will supersede my actions.”
I turn and look at him. His body is strong, but his month-old injury makes him seem frail. Though he is healing, he is not completely back to normal as I would like. I close my eyes and travel into his mind, letting myself feel the emotions within him. Anger, frustration, love and dedication for another. I try to tamper with his anger and instead make him feel a sense of pride for what I am having him do. But his sense of pride is like a volume knob that is stuck and refuses to turn. It’s as if he’s trying to block me from entering his mind fully. When I open my eyes, I can feel my jaws tense, fear overtaking me because I don’t have complete control. I can dominate his actions. I can make him do anything I want, but I can’t control the way he feels inside. I don’t know why he is different than Taylor and the others.
“You are stubborn,” I say. “What is it that drives you?”
“You have no right to do what you’re planning.”
“Ah, stop talking.”
He closes his mouth immediately.
“Honestly, I wonder if I should have let you bleed out in the street. I told Waverly to aim for your heart, but lucky for you she was a poor shot.”
He stares at me silently.
That truly is the only fear that I have. I told Waverly to aim at Ethan’s heart and pull the trigger, and she did as I asked. But she missed his heart. Instead, she was an inch or two off. It’s a stark reminder of my plan. I may tell Taylor what to do. I might have Ethan do a certain task, but that doesn’t mean they will succeed. It only means they will try their hardest.
“It doesn’t matter,” I say. “You will do as I’ve planned. Just another week and my mother, my father, Waverly, myself, and
you
, Ethan, will all be dead.” I turn back and stare into the fire. The coals are starting to burn my face. “It will be a good day.”
The light above my bed turns on as it does every morning when they want me to wake up. Most of the time I’m already awake, counting the seconds before the light finally shines onto my face, inevitably causing me to squint. But this morning I was in a deep sleep and I wish I could turn off the light. If I don’t get out of bed, an alarm will start buzzing right next to my ear and I definitely don’t want to start my day off with a headache. Not again.
I sit up straight on the bed and stretch, then my toes hit the cold floor. It isn’t cold because it’s almost winter—the rooms are usually very warm down here—it’s cold because it’s polished metal. Everything in the room is polished metal, though most of it has been painted a glossy white color so I don’t have to stare at my reflection every time I open my eyes.
I walk from the bed to the other side of the room where there is a faucet and sink. To my left there is a toilet. And right in front of me is a small mirror. I turn on the faucet and let the warm water pool into my hands. I splash some of it on my face, but it does little to wake me. I don’t know why I’m still tired. I slept well last night, though I’m not sure how. Maybe I’m starting to get used to this place. I don’t want to get used to it. I don’t want to be here. Every day is the same. I wake up. I get ready. I eat breakfast with Amber. I meet with Peter.
Normally, this place would feel safe and secure. With all the guards, I know there isn’t a greyskin that can get near me. I have a comfortable bed, clean clothes, and everyone treats me nicely which feels strange considering that I’m being held here against my will. But my sense of safety vanishes every time I’m with Amber. The things they do to her…it makes me angry, and I can’t help but feel like it’s my fault.
Our meetings have been strange, but the two of us are forced to eat breakfast together every morning. Today we will be at a table in a white room and we will talk while people observe us through a two-sided mirror to our side. The conversation won’t be as forced as it used to be.
There are always suggestion cards next to our plates at the breakfast table. When we started meeting, both of us were told to talk about what was on the card. The first morning, the cards instructed us to introduce ourselves—names, age, where we were from.
That first day felt so awkward. Neither one of us knew what was going on. Neither of us knew why we were there, or what the purpose of our meeting was. The conversation was simple and straightforward.
“My name is Waverly,” I said when Amber asked.
“How old are you?” Amber said, her fingers gripping the card tightly with a slight shake, her eyes not leaving it until she finished reading.
“Seventeen,” I said.
“Where are you from?”
“A place called Oakridge,” I said.
She looked up at me. She had bags under her eyes, and scrapes up and down her arms. I couldn’t tell if her pale skin was from lack of sun exposure or if it was her natural complexion. She was obviously malnourished, but weren’t we all?
“The card says that it’s your turn to ask me,” she said.
I swallowed and looked at my card, holding it in front of my face. “What’s your name?”
“Amber.”
“How old are you?”
“Twenty.”
“Where are you from?”
“Salem.”
I remember looking up from the card. “Where’s that?”
“Is that a question from the card?”
I was surprised by her coldness, but when I looked down at the card, I read a short paragraph explaining what I was supposed to do next.
It read:
Explain to Amber that you are supposed to shake hands with her. Tell her that the purpose of this meeting is so you can assess her future, and see what will happen during her day.
I told Amber what the card instructed and she didn’t act surprised as I probably would have. Perhaps her card had already briefed her on what was supposed to happen. Or maybe someone told her about me and what I could do before she came in for breakfast that morning.
Amber slowly held out her hand for me to grab it. I had been through enough of this already. It was only a few days after Mitch had forced me to shoot Ethan and leave him for dead. I had seen firsthand how devastating misinterpreting the future could be. I had messed up everything and others had to pay for it.
At first, I didn’t reach out for her hand. I let it hang in the air as Amber waited for me. A few seconds, maybe a minute went by before a voice called out over the intercom.
“Waverly,”
the voice said,
“you need to do as the card has instructed.”
I knew there was no room to argue. I would be forced to do it sooner or later, so I decided to just get it over with.
The vision was perplexing, but in another way it was so clear. I didn’t know how far into the future it could have been, but I saw Amber and my future self running through some tunnel with water rushing at their feet. Was it a sewer? It looked like they were being chased by something. Then Waverly saw the greyskins coming in their direction. I watched as the vision revealed that they would come to the end of the tunnel and push their way through a large, metal grate with spaces between the bars just big enough for them to squeeze through. They fell into a pool of water below and began swimming as hard and fast as their bodies would allow. Then, there were shots from above them. I saw Waverly dive under the water, but Amber didn’t have enough time. Bullets passed through her and she started sinking to the bottom. Then, the vision ended.
When I opened my eyes, I looked at Amber with bewilderment.
“What did you see?” she asked.
Then the voice over the intercom blared out again, chastising Amber for asking a question that wasn’t on the card. Amber wasn’t meant to know what I saw.
We ate breakfast in silence, and were ushered back to our rooms. A few minutes later, a man came into the room with two armed guards at his side.
“Hello Waverly,” he said. “My name is Peter. I have a few questions for you.”
Peter’s voice matched the one Amber and I heard over the intercom at breakfast. He seemed nice. His hair was well-kept and his clothes looked brand new. He appeared as though he had never experienced the hardships this new world had to offer. His face was clean-shaven and he wore thin rimmed reading glasses on the end of his nose. We sat in chairs across from each other as he took notes when I explained my vision to him. Of course, I didn’t tell him what I actually saw, because I think I saw an escape attempt. So, I made something up. I told Peter that I saw Amber getting into bed some night and that she forgot to brush her teeth, so she got up, brushed them, and went back to bed.
I didn’t know if the lie was good enough, but I simply shrugged at Peter and told him that sometimes the visions are completely useless. He explained to me that that was perfectly fine because we were working on developing my skill.
And that’s when I finally understood what I was doing there.
I remember the look on Peter’s face when I asked him the question I knew he wouldn’t answer.
“Does Shadowface plan to use me?”
Peter looked from me to his notes, avoiding my eyes. “I’m not at liberty to comment on that. I have a job to do and that’s to assess you and your ability as a Starborn.”
“Why doesn’t Shadowface just take my blood and kill me?”
Peter jotted down the last of his notes and looked up at me and smiled. “I would say we’ve had a good first day. Just remember to stick to the card tomorrow. In the future we may grant more loose conversation between the two of you but not until we’ve observed you more.”
He left me with no chance to ask more questions. Not that it would have been useful to try anyway.
But now, standing in front of the mirror a month later, I’ve come to understand what Peter is trying to do. Rather, I understand what Shadowface has ordered Peter to do. They are assessing me, sure, but they are developing me too. For the past month, they have forced me to hone my skill so that now I can pick an exact moment in the future to see. For the first few days, I simply lied to Peter about the visions because I kept seeing Amber getting shot in the pool of water as we tried to swim away, but the more I concentrated, the more I was able to veer away from that, and the less I had to lie. I was soon able to view what I wanted to see.
But that wasn’t a good thing.
At every breakfast, I would see Amber with a new bruise or a cut that hadn’t been there previously. I never understood what was happening to her, and there was no way for me to find out because the cards would never allow me to ask her. On several occasions, Amber would burst into tears at the breakfast table as we read each other the questions, and the next day there would be more cuts and bruises.