It Takes Two to Tangle (6 page)

“Oh, of course,” Frances blurted. “Writing with the left hand does tend to make a muck of one's hand and wrist. How thoughtful of you to consider the fate of your brother's garment.”

“It's a kindness to his valet, actually. The man almost wept when he saw what had happened to the shirt I wore last time I wrote. To say I ruined it is an understatement; I don't think it'll even be suitable for dustcloths.”

As nimbly and dispassionately as a maid or valet, Frances slipped his cufflink from its moorings and turned back the light fabric of the sleeve, once, twice, to the middle of his forearm. Tendons played under his skin as he flexed his hand at the wrist. The back of his hand grazed hers, and she pulled away a little too quickly, self-conscious.

A second of awkward silence followed. Henry broke it by saying, “Thank you.”

Frances only nodded, her throat closed on a reply. Where his bare hand had grazed hers, the skin tingled, eager.

Gingerly, Henry dipped the pen and began to scrawl the alphabet in large, untidy capitals. The edge of his hand slid through the ink of the first letter he drew, smudging paper and skin.

“Try angling the paper to the right,” Frances suggested. “Your hand will travel down in a line, rather than across what you've just written. Yes, exactly. That will save your cuffs from now on.”

His hand flexed on the pen as he drew another letter, almost sideways. The hairs of his arm were fine, bleached gold against his sun-darkened complexion.

“How is it you know so much about writing with the left hand, Frances?”

“In the likeliest way you can imagine. I was inclined to use my left hand as a girl.”

“You don't anymore?”

“No, my governess was adamant that I use my right. I resisted making the change, but she triumphed in the end. She had the ruler, and I the lashings, you see.”

Henry's hand stilled, and he stared at her. Frances smiled. “Don't feel bad for me. I assure you, I made her job as difficult as I possibly could. I can be quite stubborn.”

“I believe your determination, but you don't strike me as the disobedient type,” he said, studying her face. “Or as someone who once favored her left hand. So you were sinister as a girl, were you?”

“I am still sinister,” she said. “I frighten everyone I meet. You must be extraordinarily brave to sit so close to me.”

Teasing to cover the import of the moment. Not since Charles was alive had a man chosen her company. Yet here she sat in a chair pulled as close to Henry's as space would permit, their hands bare, not even inches apart. It might have been miles, though, for all that she could not bring herself closer. He had only chosen her company for the sake of another.

Her hands became busy trimming a pen, shaving away bits of the quill with a penknife until the nib point was whittled so fine as to be useless.

“You know,” Henry said, sitting back and holding up his work to the window light, “I think that's a bit better. The angle of the paper helped. Here, see what you think.”

His fingers brushed hers as he stuffed the paper into Frances's hand. She bobbled it, grazing her skirt. “Damn it.”

Henry lifted his eyebrows. “Good thing you're my fellow soldier, or I'd be shocked by your language.”

“Oh, stop,” Frances muttered. “I told you, it's a borrowed gown, and I mustn't get ink on it.” She laid the paper down on the desk and smoothed the fabric tightly over her thighs. “No, I don't think I did.”

She looked up to see him studying her oddly. “What? Did I?”

“No,” he said, still looking at her in that strange way. “You look very well.” He shook his head, then gave her the paper again, holding it tight at the edge until she grasped it.

She could see on the paper the effect of her hard-won, palms-being-smacked experience. Though Henry's letters were still large and unformed, they grew tidier and less blotchy as they marched down the page.

“I think you've got the idea,” she said. “Only lay in the right kind of quill, and you'll find it much easier.”

He nodded and took back the paper, laying it on the desk again. “I'm glad to know it. You're a good teacher.”

“Oh.” She waved a hand. “Well, thank you. I actually
was
a teacher once, during my scandalous youth.”

“A palm-smacking governess?” His head tilted, as though he were trying to imagine it.

“Nothing so formal as that. My good memory meant I was just the girl to help the squire's young son brush up on his Latin or teach the village children the names of every flower in the field.”

Henry looked surprised, and Frances added, “Don't credit me with any great charity. I thought it my duty to help, yes, but I also dearly loved to be right.”

His mouth made a wry curve. “Loved, past tense? I think not.”

He bent his fair head over the paper and
skkkriiiikkked
another line. A fine spray of ink dotted his face, and he squinted, dropping his pen to grope in his waistcoat pocket for a handkerchief. “Right now, for example, you are perishing to tell me why I can't draw a neat line for anything.” He rubbed at his face. “Go ahead. I'm ready to hear it.”

Frances pursed her lips. “You're quite wrong.”

“Oh?”

“Yes. I first wanted to tell you that cotton rag would clean your skin much more effectively than that slippery silk.”

He emerged from the handkerchief, face still smudged. “My apologies, then.”

“Not necessary.” A grin broke across Frances's face. “The writing was a close second.”

Henry snorted, crushing the ruined silk square in his hand, and she took out her own handkerchief of cotton lawn. “May I try this?”

He shrugged. “All right. I'd rather not look like I've been splashing in ink, even if that's the case.”

Frances smiled, but his words were dim in her ears.
She
might
touch
him
again.
She held her breath, wondering why it should seem so important. Maybe because it was so rare, actually being invited to touch another person. She watched her hand, feeling as though it belonged to someone else, someone with the right to learn the shape of this intriguing man.

The hand reached up, stroked the frail fabric across Henry's forehead, down the strong bone of his cheek. Over the bridge of his nose, then down, to rub over the stern curve of his mouth, work it into softness. Then his chin, with its stubborn point. His neck, and just a slight rub under the edge of his cravat. She could feel the faint catch of stubble against the light fabric, the leap of muscle and tendon as he shifted under her touch. Beautiful as a statue, yet beautifully warm and human.

By the time she was done, her breath came a little faster. At the nape of her neck, between her breasts, a faint sheen of perspiration had formed. Underneath her stays, her skin felt sensitive and abraded, her nipples hard.

Henry's throat worked, and he turned his head away. “Thank you,” he said in a choked voice. His skin looked flushed.

Frances folded the ruined handkerchief. “You're quite clean now.” A brisk voice to banish the trespass of the honey-slow moment.

“Thank you,” he said again, more quietly. He turned back to look at her, those vivid blue eyes searching her expression. “It seems you were right again, just as you love to be.”

She stilled under his scrutiny, and after a few endless seconds, he pulled in a deep breath and picked up his quill again. “You'll probably be right about my abysmal handwriting too, then.”

Back to normal, then. She shrugged, trying to dispel shivers of want. “I'm sure I will be,” she said crisply.

He stopped in the middle of drawing a ramshackle letter
K
. “Is your own writing clear, Frances? Is it possible to learn to write well with the hand that feels wrong?”

“Yes, with enough practice. Probably you won't even have to be slapped across the hand, since you have a more pleasant incentive.” That was
one
way of describing Caroline.

“Will you show me?” His blue eyes looked deep into hers. “I want to know this will work.”

A simple enough request, but Frances understood what it meant. Every day, she realized, he must encounter something that had changed because of his injury. Losing an arm meant losing so much more: independence, comfort, even the easy courtesy of one's acquaintances, as they had seen yesterday.

Frances knew this well, for she had once lost too. Not a limb, but a whole person. A whole family. The finest part of herself.

Oh, she knew the sick dullness of loss. And anything she could help Henry gain, she would, even if it earned her nothing but his gratitude.

“All right,” Frances agreed. “I'll write something.”

She selected a quill, dipped it in the ink, then wiped the nib. She drew each letter deliberately, rounding it into a perfect feminine copperplate, loops and vowels as open as the model script in a writing primer. Bearing no resemblance to the writing in the letter she'd sent.

HENRY
IS
TOO
DEMANDING.

He laughed. “I see there's nothing wrong with your handwriting at all.”

Frances sanded the letters as carefully as she would an invitation for the queen, then set the paper aside. “As I said. You couldn't believe me without seeing it for yourself, could you? Is that because you're a solider or an artist?”

He narrowed his eyes, the look she now knew meant he was collecting details. “I've always been that way, so maybe it is an artist's curse. But I am curious, why do you speak so readily about soldiering? You seem to understand the life as many women do not.”

His words startled Frances, silencing her for a too-long moment. No one had asked her about her past since she'd come to London with Caroline. It was scarred over, but not truly healed. Most wounds she had unwittingly inflicted herself.

She mustered a reply. “Yes. My late husband, Charles, was a soldier. He died during the siege of Walcheren.” A quagmire. Pointless.

“I am sorry for your loss,” Henry said.

“You need not be. It was almost six years ago; I've had plenty of time to come to terms with it.”

This was quite true. Nearly six years was enough time to stop missing the man himself, whom she had long since grown past in years. Charles had died at twenty-two, and Frances would be thirty in a few more months.

“He must have been a marvelous man to deserve you,” Henry said. He really did have fine manners.

“He was far too handsome for me,” Frances murmured, “but I was more than willing to allow the imbalance.”

Her eyes flicked over Henry's face—hair like morning sun, eyes like afternoon sky. He resembled night-tinted Charles not at all, except that both were far too handsome for her.

Charles's face had not been the only imbalance in their marriage. For Charles, Frances had tipped so far from her center, she hadn't righted herself for years. In some ways, she still hadn't. But she'd found a new equilibrium instead.

Or had, until Henry started studying her with those clear eyes of his, making her think of
rolling
over
again. She knew from long months of watching the
ton
just how many secrets people betrayed without realizing.

She wondered what Henry saw in her now.

“After Charles died,” Frances said, tugging her eyes down to the safety of the paper on which Henry had been writing.
ABCDEFGHIJK
. Blot.
“I used to look over everything I had of his every day: a sketch of him, some letters. But I have not needed to for a very long time.”

It didn't bring him closer to look through his things, and it didn't send him farther when she kept them hidden away. Sometimes she didn't want him close at all; she only wanted to forget what she'd done to him.

But she couldn't forget anything, ever.

Henry's left hand tightened around his pen, then he laid it aside. “I am honored by your confidence.”

She gave him a tight smile and smoothed a lock of her hair trying to uncoil from its pins. If only it was so simple to tidy up unruly emotion. “I probably spoke out of place, Henry. Your wound is much fresher than mine.” Charles, after all these long years, awoke more guilt than grief.

Henry's clenched left hand unfolded, so close she could almost touch it. And so she did, just a brush over the back of his hand.

Their hands were freed from formal gloves, and Henry was warm skin under her skin—solid bone, sinew, all working perfectly together. To touch him was a wonder. A hand was a living miracle. She supposed Henry knew that better than anyone.

Again, she met his gaze. He was watching her closely as she traced lightly over his hand, his eyes deep and blue enough to drown in.

She sputtered for words, resisting the undertow. “Do you want to talk about it? Your injured arm?”

“No,” he said, but his eyes did not cool with this refusal. “Though I thank you for asking about it. It's a part of me now.”

He twisted his living left hand beneath her right—she thought at first to free it from her grasp. But he simply rotated it, placing his hand palm to palm with hers. Fingers wrapped around fingers, their sensitive pads awakening each other with pressure as light as the feather on a quill. The contact was simple, everyday, yet almost unbearably intimate.

And it was too uncertain; it could mean everything or nothing. A naked hand to a naked hand was a pact between business partners, a promise between friends, a beginning for lovers.

It was with Caroline he wished a beginning. And Frances had promised to help.

That was better than a pact, at least.

“Well.” She freed her hand, found a quill they hadn't ruined yet. “Let's write that letter. You can start again with
C
.”