Jazz Moon (9 page)

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Authors: Joe Okonkwo

12
Shall I?
By Benjamin Marcus Charles
 
The door looms shut.
It drips red,
Like the bruised
Insides of my thighs.
Try the window.
It is sealed.
Through it the moon
Hangs far and lazy
In some other sky,
Cowering from the
Sting of ancient verses
That revel in the
Mirth of condemnation.
 
Open the door.
No. The red will singe my hands,
Make them unfit for love
And me unworthy.
But you got love running through you!
It runs through you, and through you, and through you.
Kiss his pretty lips,
His pretty hips.
 
Shall I open the door?
Taste the moon?
It shines like an epiphany,
Writes over the red
With ink that sings peace.
 
The melody sways me,
Slays me,
Persuades me.
Drink the wine.
Taste the moon.
Open the door.
Sing, peace.
13
I
t was still raining. He had followed Baby Back to a brownstone on 140th Street. People drifted in and out while jazz thudded through its windows. Baby Back had gone inside ten minutes before. Something festive was transpiring.
A rent party,
Ben thought.
“Well, hello.”
A young man sat behind a small folding table in the vestibule. He wore a chic suit with a green carnation in the buttonhole. His slicked-back hair gleamed. Makeup glazed his lips, cheeks, and above his eyes.
“What can we do for you tonight?” he said in a voice part girlish alto, part gritty baritone.
“Just want to go in.”
“Two meters, jack.”
Ben handed over the two quarters. “This a rent party, right?”
The young man laughed. “You ain't hip to this jive, is you?”
“What jive is that?”
“Go on in and you'll see. But don't touch the displays.”
“Displays?”
“Yeah. They bite.”
The stink of reefer ambushed Ben. The rumble of conversation and jazz commingled. There were sofas packed with guys and chicks consuming liquor. Dusky light. A side table stacked with fried fish, fried chicken, cornbread, chitterlings, collard greens, pigs' feet. A small band. A bar in the corner crammed with bottles of bootleg and a stockpile of teacups. And Ben understood what that
displays
business was all about when he saw, in the center of the room, a man and woman fucking on a small raised stage.
This was no rent party. It was a
buffet flat
. A house featuring a cafeteria-style variety of naughty offerings from which guests could take their pick.
People loitered and drank and carried on and devoured the action on the stage. Ben couldn't pull his eyes away. He liked the woman's pretty face. She had a big, shiny spit curl plastered to her forehead like that Josephine Baker girl who had just made a splash over in Paris. But he fell in love with the man's dark brown, sweat-slicked body.
“You better step to the bar if you plan on staying.”
A woman's voice, but he turned to see a burly man in a suit. A short crop of hair flowered above a mean face.
“Only gonna be here a few minutes,” Ben said. “I'm looking for someone.”
“Don't matter. Step to the bar now or get the fuck out.”
Something didn't gibe. Woman's voice. Big man's body. Then Ben realized: It was a manly woman who liked women. A
bulldag-ger
. She coerced him to the bar. He bought a whiskey.
“Hey, like I said, I'm looking for someone. You see a tall cat carrying a trumpet case?”
“What I look like? The fucking Bureau of Missing Persons?” She marched away, then turned back. “And don't touch the displays!” She headed to the door to bulldoze newly arrived customers to the bar.
Ben set his sights on the stage. He wasn't aroused at all—until he tuned the woman out and zeroed in on the man. He made himself look away. He eyed the stairs, went up to the second floor to search for Baby Back.
Another bar. Another table cluttered with food. More people on sofas. And another stage: one guy and
two
chicks this time.
“Go on, get your hambone boiled, jack!” someone yelled out.
“Yeah! Look at him knockin' that pad!”
There wasn't enough room on the sofas. A woman in a full-length beaver coat roosted on the arm of a chair. A man in overalls stood and ate while watching the action. Serious cats played cards at a table in a corner. The game ended, money changed hands, and Ben saw a sinister flash of metal as one of the losers opened his suit jacket. Across the room, a guy handed some dollar bills to a chick in a white dress. She jammed them down her brassiere, piloted him to a room, shut the door. Other prostitutes worked the crowd, some allowing men to fondle them right there, others escorting their quarry into private rooms. Reefer cigarettes were being passed around and a bunch of folks knelt over a coffee table sniffing up cocaine as Ethel Waters's “Shake That Thing” bumped out of a phonograph.
But no Baby Back.
Ben went to the third floor. The display: two women getting snug. One with big breasts with dark aureoles, the other with perky breasts as small and pretty as figs. They fondled each other, each sticking fingers and tongues in places that made the other growl. Several guys flanked the stage, drooling. Every now and then men in suits patrolled the room to keep the droolers in check.
But the main audience on this floor was women. Some in flapper dresses and makeup, others in men's suits and sporting short hair. A few in dresses reclined on the laps of those in suits. The woman in white from the second floor was there, chatting up a suit who took her by the hand and steered her into a private room.
A second stage on the other side of the floor housed a three-piece, all-female gutbucket band with a dark black girl singer in a blond wig.
“Don't send me no men,
I don't need the hassle.
Got me a woman
Cleanin' my castle.
 
She cleans it real thorough,
I never complain.
She mops it so good,
It drives me insane.”
Where was Baby Back? And what would Ben do when he found him?
One last floor awaited exploration.
A guy in a seersucker suit and red necktie sat on the floor of the basement, next to a door, long legs spread wide, his feet shoeless and sockless. He smoked a reefer cigarette and smiled like the cat who had swallowed the canary, the eggs, the nest,
and
the tree.
“Heyyyyyy, mon. What you looking for?” he asked in a singsong West Indian accent.
“Uh . . . a guy. I think he—”
“A guy? Ain't we all? You let me know when you find one, mon, and if he got a cute friend, you tell him I'm available. Oh, you mean a specific guy? You think he might be down
here?
It's one meter to come in here, mon.”
“I already paid at the door,” Ben said.
“That was general admission. This here is a special exhibition.”
“And don't touch the displays, right?”
“I didn't say that, mon.”
It was darker than the other rooms. A saxophone whined. A bar sat at the back. The display: two guys—one black, one tan. The black one on all fours, the tan one topping him. Ben paid heightened attention to the one on all fours. He didn't seem to be in pain.
Small tables along the walls took the place of sofas. Only men in this room. They sat in twos or an occasional three, talking quietly and drinking. Only a few single guys and they scrutinized each new man who entered. Candles lit each table. Couples slow-danced in the empty space in the center of the floor. Cheek against cheek. Lips bruising lips. All to the moan of the sax and the clinking of teacups filled with bootleg liquor.
Ben didn't know if he'd discovered Sodom and Gomorrah or paradise, but he watched these men and felt like he'd come home. He bought a drink, found a table, and hadn't been sitting two minutes when he saw him: Baby Back, at a table along the opposite wall with two guys. He faced Ben's direction, but was too consumed in his conversation to notice him. Ben willed him to look over. It took ten minutes, but he did. Baby Back eyed him, frowned, then resumed his conversation. He looked over again, said something to his friends, then crossed the floor, weaving in and out through the dancing couples.
“Mr. Poet,” he said. “You ain't sitting with a whore this time.”
“And you ain't ignoring me this time.” Silence, then, “That hurt my feelings.”
“You hurt mine. When you walked out with that three-dollar whore.”
“Two,” Ben said.
“Come again?”
“She was a
two
-dollar whore. And I'm sorry.”
Baby Back analyzed Ben. A judge sizing up a defendant. “What's your story? I don't understand you. You don't make sense. You let me flirt with you right in front of your wife. You recite a love poem for me. And then you flaunt that whore in my face. What the fuck is wrong with you? You need to go to one of them head doctors.”
He nearly capsized two dancers as he clomped back across the floor to rejoin his friends.
Ben sedated himself with more alcohol to keep from crying.
It got late. The place began to clear out. He finished his whiskey, wanted another, but had run out of money. Baby Back and company headed to the door, laughing. He slapped one of his friends on his backside. And now Ben regretted his poverty because he needed more alcohol to buffer his pain.
He felt a hand squeeze his shoulder. It was warm, its weight good.
“I shouldn't have said that, about the head doctor,” Baby Back said.
“But it's true.”
Baby Back sat. “Mrs. Charles know you're here?”
Ben shook his head
no
.
“You think she'd believe it if she knew?” Baby Back said.
“I don't think
I
believe it. This place is a mess.”
They laughed.
“Looks like you've had a lot to drink tonight,” Baby Back said.
“I have a lot to drink
every
night. Trying to flush
this thing
out of me.”
“What thing?”
“Look around you.”
Baby Back did. Something caught his eye; Ben followed his gaze to the dance floor. Only two couples dancing now. One couple dipped each other and threw back their heads, laughing. But Baby Back watched the quieter, slower pair. You couldn't even call what they were doing
dancing
. They just held each other and swayed a little to the sax.
“They're sweet, ain't they?” Baby Back said.
“They look like . . . like they love each other.”
“They do.” Baby Back reached across the table, touched Ben's hand, pressed it. “Now why would you want to flush that out of you?”
Ben slid his hand away. “Where you from, Baby Back?”
His abruptness made the trumpeter wince. “South Carolina. You?”
“Georgia. How long you been up here?”
“Nine years. Had to get away from them goddamn crackers. South Carolina ain't no place for a colored boy. 'Specially one who . . .” He looked over at the sweet couple on the dance floor. The shorter man pressed his head against his tall partner's chest. His partner's hand cupped the back of his head. Both held their eyes shut. “Well. I had to go. Can I tell you something? Please?”
Ben lifted his eyes out of his empty glass.
“You're the handsomest, most charming man I've ever met,” Baby Back said.
“I don't believe you.”
“I'm really, really sorry to hear that.”
He took Ben's hand again, and kissed it. It felt so good, Ben shuddered. Baby Back kissed it again. And again. Then he pulled Ben up from the table and onto the dance floor. Now they, too, slow danced, Ben's head against Baby Back's shoulder, his forehead just touching the trumpeter's neck where the skin was warm, a little stubbly. He let Baby Back lead, let himself flow and float.
The sax player started a new tune and they returned to the table. They pressed hands again, their fingers skating across each other's palms.
“Recite me your best poem,” Baby Back said.
“You always ask guys to recite poems for you?”
“Just the guys I like. Now do like I said: Recite me your best poem.”
He wasn't smiling. There was no humor about him. He had issued a command and expected to be obeyed. His aggressiveness aroused Ben.
He took a breath.
“A single wavering jazz phrase,
dipping and cresting, dipping and cresting,
carving out melody as it sways
 
the room with an ebony haze.
But the horn player maintains, ‘I'm just testing
a single wavering jazz phrase.'
 
The blues in his sound enchants all my days.
Is he worth my blue soul's investing?
Carving out melody as he sways,
 
his desert-brown face captures my gaze.
I'm blinded. Inside my heart he's nesting.
Carving out melody as he sways,
 
the horn player drawls me into a daze.
He burns my knees with his rhythmic ways.”
The room was mostly empty now, only the sweet couple left dancing. A few people still drank at the tables. The black man and the tan man on the stage had gone. The sax whispered. Baby Back's knees pressed Ben's under the table.
“You can have that poem. If you want it,” Ben said.
Baby Back looked at him, shrewd, suspicious. “Yeah?”
Ben considered a moment. But only a moment. “Yeah. Take it. Please.”

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