Jessica's Journal: A THERAPY Book of Poetry

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Authors: Kathryn Perez

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Jessica’s Journal

Copyright © 2014 by Kathryn Perez

 

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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, brands, media, and incidents are either the product of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously. The author acknowledges the trademarked status and trademark owners of various products, bands, and/or restaurants referenced in this work of fiction, which have been used without permission. The publication/use of these trademarks is not authorized, associated with, or sponsored by the trademark owners.

 

Table of Contents

 

Title Page

Poems

Masquerade

Labels

Dear Bully

White Crayon

Going Under

The Meeting

Love Plus Pain

Blood Words

Dreams

Faster than Falling

Infiltration

You Plus Me

Places

Into the Abyss

Buried

Melt into Me

THE TREE

HeartPrints

Hope

Love

Lines

Rafters Above

Fleeting moments

Stronger than Me

Therapy

Imperfectly Me

Quotes

A Preview of THERAPY: Ever After (a Novella)

Acknowledgments

About the Author

 

 

 

 

 

To my snowflakes.

 

 

Drowning in my thoughts

I wear a mask

I’m a façade

I’m okay, I’m strong

Masquerading lies

Beyond the layers

Behind the walls

Beneath the chains

There’s a broken child

Fighting a battle

A daily war

Confusion and pain

Playing tug-o-war

Love, hate

Yes, no

I really never know

Watching life go by

An outsider

Absence of self

Screaming in silence

Fearing this battle

One I’ll never win

Regrets and loss

I continue waging war on myself

Wishing for

Someone, anyone

To stop the fight

 

 

UGLY

NERD

PRETTY

FAG

SLUT

POOR

EMO

LONER

RICH

WEIRD

SKINNY

FAT

POPULAR

 

Labels

 

We are all given them

Handcuffed to our hearts

Burned into our minds

Judgment exhales into our inhales

Our spirits impaled

Our future cries

Why?

 

Labels

 

A writer?

A singer?

An Artist?

No, not you!

 

Our dreams are called names too.

 

UNREALISTIC

LAME

STUPID

IMPOSSIBLE

NAÏVE

 

You tell me to dream
YOUR
dreams

Labeled by
YOUR
scrutiny

Society

Demands normalcy from us

Normal…

Their favorite LABEL

 

Rip it off

Tear them down

Remove the illusion

Refuse the judgment

Unglue their sticky words from our skin

Torch the stigma

 

Labels

 

Now ashes at our feet

Unearth our dreams

Rise from defeat

 

 

Squeezing as hard as you can

You’ve ensnared me

Into your trap I fell

Your words hurt and berate me

Still I don’t know why you hate me

Every day you imprison me

Trapped inside your walls of anger

Sad and all alone

Confused and beaten down

Will it ever stop?

Am I forever bound?

Looking into your eyes

I realize…

You’ll never go away

Your words

Your hate

They’re here to stay

How do I escape you?

Tell me BULLY

What would you do if you were me and I was you?

 

 

Starving for more

Back pushed against the door

Looking for nothing

Hoping for something

Like a white crayon

Drawing upon white paper

Showing no results

All these years

Invisible…

Where did I go?

Where have I been?

Lost myself

All for him

Relenting

Spending myself

Treading the waters

Being pulled under

Holding my breath

Giving in

Breaking down on the inside

Looking for someone

Looking for more

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