Judged By You (Judge Me Series) (41 page)

“Sit still Sweet Cheeks
.” Cameron said grabbing my arms.

“When
did you become so caring?” It slipped out before I could stop it. I knew it was wrong, but I couldn't stop it.

“When I realised how much I hated the person I was.
And when I woke up, and everyone and everything I loved was gone.” Cameron swallowed hard.

My eyes held with his. I couldn’t look
away; he was hurt just like I was. All these years I thought I was the only one hurting and looking at him now, I realise that I wasn’t the only that was. This touched me in places it shouldn’t have. I was screwed. I pulled on my brave face before I responded.

“Well, it's
good that you care, makes you human learn from your mistakes and move on.” I tried to sound confident, but I wasn’t sure it came out that way.

“Maybe I can't move on Savannah.
Maybe I don’t want to move on.” Cameron stepped closer to me.

I tensed as he took my hands in his.

His eyes looked from my eyes to my lips then back again…….

I closed my eyes and held my breath.

This was not happening.

“Is everything alright
?” Damon voice broke.

Cameron let go of my hand as Damon came into the kitchen. He looked between the two of us
then at the towel covered in blood on the bench next to me.

“Shit
, are you okay Savannah?” Damon came round to me as Cameron stepped back.

“I slipped and smashed my beer. I hurt my elbow and Cameron was just helping me
.” I looked down at my swinging feet. I couldn’t look into his beautiful eyes, I felt guilty.

“Look at me
,” Damon tipped my chin, so I was looking at him. “Are you okay?”

“Yes
.” I looked in his eyes. All my other thoughts vanished, and it was me and Damon again.

Cameron cleared his throat as he cleaned up the mess he has made with the first aid kit. He never looked at
me, I wanted to thank him silently. I couldn’t if he wasn’t going to look at me again. This left me with speaking to him openly.

“Thank you Cameron
.”

“You
’re welcome. I will just get the dust pan and sweep that glass up.” Cameron excused himself from the kitchen to get the dust pan before I could argue.

One of Damon’s hands cupped my neck while the other rested on my thigh.
He was studying my face, he looked hurt. I have to explain what he saw. I couldn’t do this anymore.

“Damon….”I swallowed hard.

“What is it savannah?”

“Cameron was
that person I was talking about.” I watched as his face, waiting for a sign.

“The
person you thought you loved?” He asked quietly.

“Yes.
He wounded me, you healed me. There is so much of my past with Cameron that is coming back to haunt me and I don’t know how to stop it.” I said on the verge of tears.

“You can't stop it Savannah, but you do have to fight it
.” Damon says calmly.

I leaned in until our lips were lightly touching. My eyes closed
on their own, and my breathing accelerated. I needed him to kiss me, I didn’t want this to change anything between us.

“Tell me that
I'm the only one you want Savannah.” He breathed.

“Damon, you’re the only one I want
,” A tear ran down my cheek. “I love you.”

His mouth found
mine, I open instantly as our kiss got needy and passionate.  I could hear the sound of broken glass being swept up, but I didn’t stop kissing Damon. I needed him. And the way he kissed me said the same. I felt his hands grab my thighs, and I was being lifted. I wrapped my legs around his waist as he exited the kitchen and made his way to my room. When I looked over his shoulder, I saw Cameron watching us.

“Thank you
.” I mouthed to him.

He smiled brie
fly before nodding “No problem.”

Chapter 19

We were all fingers and lips once we got into the bedroom. I was desperate for his touch, for his kiss, for his love. I needed him. Damon set me on my feet our lips never leaving each other
. We stated to remove each others clothes in an almost rushed manner. I push Damon’s pants down with my foot as far as I could, before grabbing his hard length. I Could wait anymore I needed to touch him there. He moaned into my mouth as I stroked him in a perfect rhythm.

Our lips broke apart briefly, I was able remove my pants
, and Damon got his the rest of the way off. Once we were both standing naked he grabbed behind my thighs and lifted me, my legs wrapping around his waist while he put against the door to support. I reached between our bodies and lined his hard cock up with my wet entrance. With once swift motion, I was impaled on his length.

“Fuck
, Savannah.” He groaned.

I whimpered.

Damon hit my sweet spot over and over, my nerves were getting ready to fire off, and orgasm was fast approaching. My nail bit into his shoulders as he continued to pound me hard. From this angle his cock hit my cervix with even thrust, it was painful slightly but extremely pleasurable.

“Oh
, god.” I moaned as my orgasm hit.

“Savannah
.” Damon grunted before finding his own release.

I slid down the door as Damon lowers us to the floor. I can feel his length jerking as it continues to empty inside of me. I grab his face between my hands and kiss him long and hard.
Our tongues worked together until we were both swallowing each others groans of pleasure. Damon was still hard and inside of me.

“Did
I hurt you?” He asked when our lips broke apart.

“Not at all
.” I whispered.

“You feel so good
.” Damon groaned resting his head against mine.

“So
do you. I love you.”

Damon lifted his head to look into my eyes.
One of his hands came up and brushed a stray hair off my face. “I love you too Savannah.”

Damon slowly pulls out of me, I winced.

“You sure you’re okay?” Damon sounded concerned.

“Yes,
I'm OK. That orgasm rocked me,” I said with a blush.

Damon
grinned; you could see the triumph in his eyes. Sex with Damon was always satisfying. I manoeuvred, so I was lying on the floor; I pulled Damon down to join me. I stretched my body out on the cold hard floor. We both lay staring at the ceiling, silence stretching between us. I heard voices down stairs and knew all the boys were home. I let out a loud sigh.

“Want
to talk about it?”

“Do
you want to hear it?” I looked towards Damon.

He rolled onto his side, propping himself up on one elbow. His naked body was on
show, and for my eyes only. I love it. I joined him by rolling, so we were facing. Just as, I was getting comfortable, Damon got up and held his hand out for me. I grabbed it, and he hauled me to my feet. Before I could ask what we were doing, he pulled the comforter back on my bed and jumped in. I laughed as I crawled up the bed and snuggled into his chest.

“Stephen went to jail for beating the crap out of someone because of Cameron’s mistakes. I blamed Cameron naturally. He should have thought about his actions before he done them, but he never and that ended up with my brother being put behind bars
.” I let out the breath I was holding when I finished.

“So how does that explain you and Cameron?
” Damon’s fingers stroked my naked back as he spoke.

“
Me and Cameron started dating when I was seventeen. He was always around when I was growing up and when I got older things changed between us. He was wild. He liked to party and have a good time, we got into fights more often than not, and Stephen would come to my rescue. Their relationship never changed between them because they wouldn’t let it. Don’t get me wrong, Cameron and my brother have had their share of fist fights over the years, but they always worked it out.” I kissed Damon's chest lightly before I continued.

“Anyway, I always thought Cameron was it for me, because no matter what I’d always go running back.
But after Stephen was sentenced, Cameron disappeared. He left me and Derek to suffer our loss alone.”

“Do you think Cameron was fee
ling guilty and hurting himself?” Damon asked quietly.

“Sometimes I did.
But then the thought of what had happened would come back, and I would get angry at him all again. He just left, he was there for the court hearing, my brother was sentenced and then he was gone.” A tear ran down my cheek. The whole memory replayed in my mind.

“I understand why you feel the way you do
.”

“What
do you mean?” I sat up searching Damon's face.

“He left you when you needed him, there was no goodbye. You always thought he would be there, and it turned out that he wasn’t.
And now he comes back into your life, and wants to pick up where he left off maybe, I don’t know,” Something flashed in his eyes. It only lasted a second, but it was there. “Your brother has moved past this so maybe you should too. You need to forgive him Savannah. Cameron loved you, and you loved him. Even in some dysfunctional way …….it was still loving.”

“I don’t love him anymore. I admit it took me ages to move past him, but I am happy where I am now. I love you, and I'm in love with you.
But yes, if Stephen can truly forgive Cameron, than I should be able to as well right?” Damon pulled me down on the bed next to him. 

“After a while you must let go of what lies behind you and move forward. If you don’t
, the past will destroy your future.” He kisses the side of my mouth.

And in that moment it hits me.
He is unquestionably right. If I let Cameron get to me, he will ruin everything that I have fought hard against in the past four years. He will ruin whatever chance I have with Damon. And right now, Damon and I are in the best place. I have to let it go because no matter how I look at it, Stephen was guilty, and Cameron should have been there for us all. But he was scared, just like we all were. He just handled it differently.

I love this man more in this moment than I ever thought possible.

“I love you Damon.” I stoke his cheek.

“I love you Savannah
.” He leaned in and kissed me quickly before pulling back.

“So do you have any skeletons in your closet you wa
nt to share since I shared mine?” I asked jokingly.

I looked at Damon who was deep in
thought, he was looking away from me. I grabbed his face and brought his eyes to mine.

“Do
you?” I was getting a little worried just with the way he was looking at me.

“Not yet, I just…… I want to enjoy you while I can. Please trust me Savannah. I love you
.” His tone was urgent. Something was seriously bothering him.

“Are you sure you don’t want to talk about it? I
mean, your kind of worrying me.”

“
I'm sure. It's not relevant right now. What is paramount now is how much I look forward to our future together. I want to be with you Savannah James.” He kisses my neck just below my ear.

“I want to be with you too
.” I whisper.

“Trust me
.” He whispers between soft kisses under my ear.

“I do
.”

“Good.
Let me love you.”

Than I did
.

I reach my hand around his neck and bring his lips to
mine; he opens instantly making this moment deeper. Over the next several hours, we explored each other inside and out. It was so intense and meaningful……. Every stroke, every touch, every kiss…… I would remember……. It was my future I was looking for, not my past.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

I woke around two in the morning,
dying of thirst. Damon lay next to me, wrapped around my body. As carefully as I could, I uncoiled myself from him and got out of bed. I searched around for my robe in the dark tripping over several items on the floor. I finally found it next to my short from that day, the envelope that was in the pocket fell to the floor. I picked it up and eyed Cameron’s name on the front. I needed to put the past to rest, and I knew it. I put the envelope in my robe pocket before putting it on.

I opened the door, being quite so not to wake Damon who was snoring softly. I closed the door behind me and tiptoed to Stephen
’s door, the crack in the door allowed me to notice he was sleeping soundly. I smiled to myself before heading down stairs to the kitchen. The light form the television filled the open living area. I walked straight into the kitchen to grab a glass of water. The refreshing beverage went straight down. I refilled my glass before turning to lean against the sink as I did a shadow appeared and I froze.