Judgment (28 page)

Events unspooled as Peers felt himself slip into the skin of experience — as if he’d been there, and this was happening now. Cool, wet air kissed his skin, and he felt hard rock underfoot. He was inside the mountain’s heart, down a corridor the Mullah had excavated and hidden. He must be inside a human mind (or at least steeped in the weak, underdeveloped mental network that had so surprised the Astrals on arrival) because somehow Peers, even now, five years removed from the events before him, felt certain that they were alone. There were no aliens here. They’d beaten the Astrals, and found the Ark first.
 

“It’s this way,” said a voice.
 

Peers looked over his shoulder. As the memory solidified, it was becoming impossible to tell reality from artifice. He was here, now. In a biblical mountain’s ancient cave. And now was two years after Astral Day, not the seven he’d so recently believed.
 

It’s not real,
Peers told himself. But the Cameron Bannister who’d spoken — a bit younger and less weathered by experience — looked plenty real. Peers was a member of his party. As solid, true, and in the moment as the others. Just like Cameron, the Meyers (one emaciated, half-dead), and Piper. Just like Lila, carrying a toddler because she’d chosen exploration over the more perilous option of staying behind in the shuttle. Just like Jeanine, Christopher, and Charlie. There was another girl, too: someone Cameron didn’t recognize — tall and athletic-looking, pretty despite her dirty face and hands, wearing plain shorts and an old tee, blonde hair pulled back into an unraveling ponytail.
 

“Are you sure?” Piper asked.
 

Cameron looked back at the group, and Peers could see false certainty climbing onto his lips. No, he wasn’t sure, but he was unwilling to admit it.
 

Two-year-old Clara, shoving out of her mother’s arms to balance on chubby little toddler legs, answered in a curiously adult voice.
 

“He’s sure.”
 

Cameron nodded at the girl, and Peers felt some odd sense of understanding pass between them as if she were reading his mind as faithfully as (or more faithfully than) he was reading it himself.
 

They found the Ark at the short passage’s end. It seemed to glow even in the gloom. Throbbing as if overfilled. Peers could sense electrical menace in the air as if someone, somewhere, was violently angry.
 

“There,” Charlie said, pointing. “That’s where the key goes.”
 

It seemed almost too obvious. Cameron was carrying a different satchel, but its purpose was the same. His hand slipped beneath the flap and removed the ceramic key, then he stood frozen with trembling hands.
 

“Go ahead,” said the blonde, seeing him hesitate.
 

“Something’s not right.”
 

“This is what we came here to do,” she said.
 

Cameron turned to Charlie, but Charlie only said, “Grace is right. Let’s get this over with.”

“So you feel it too,” Cameron said, interpreting Charlie’s
Let’s get this over with
as meaning they all felt the same odd sense of sickness that Peers felt in his gut. It was like stepping into a place that’s borne witness to murder. A horrible deed hung in the air like a corpse dangling unseen from a hook above, its tongue black, body bled dry, eyes desiccated so they dangle from their optic nerves like tiny piñatas.

Charlie said nothing. He looked at Christopher, who turned to Jeanine.

“Who brought this here?” Cameron said. “Why is it unguarded? The Astrals can fly so much faster than we can. Why aren’t they here yet?”
 

“You remember what we talked about, Cameron,” Charlie said. “It’s not a bomb, but it’s still going to go off if you don’t turn that key.”
 

“Why have they stopped chasing us now that they’re zeroing in on this archive? They could take the key. They could start it up themselves.”
 

“It’s about choice. We decided it’s about choice.”
 

Cameron’s face firmed. The key slipped back into the satchel. He licked his lips, bug-wide eyes staring at the golden chest.
 

“Whatever this does, I don’t know that I want it unlocked. I can feel it.”
 

Something slid from the Ark’s upper corner and dropped to the floor. It looked like a tiny drop of light, like a leak not entirely contained. The drop formed a tiny pool, and the pool shot into the group’s center, scattering them like roaches. They moved back, toward the small chamber’s edges. Peers lost track of some of the party as he himself, falling for the illusion, staggered back as well. And then in the room’s center, the tiny pool spread. Twin geysers seemed to spew upward, and the spray became the shimmering shape of a human. A moment later the shape became a solid man, dressed in black with coal-colored hair, a prominent nose, and hawklike eyes. In the middle of his forehead, a dripping red wound the size of a golf ball.
 

Cameron staggered back, tripping over a protruding rock. The black-jacketed man came forward, his eyes hard, his face running red with seepage from the open wound.
 

“What is it, Cameron?” The man had an accent that Peers, who’d spent most of his life in the UK, easily placed — Irish through and through but tempered by time away from the homeland. “Didn’t you hear what Charlie said? It’s about
choice
, isn’t it?”
 

Cameron fumbled at his side, drawing a gun.
 

“Oh, but you already did that, didn’t you?” The specter indicated his head wound. “Got me from behind, like a coward. Are you sure it was the right choice, Cameron?”
 

Peers saw the absurdity yet wasn’t surprised when Cameron still raised his weapon.
 

“You wouldn’t have gotten to these people if it weren’t for me,” the man said. “It was thanks to me that you accomplished your father’s little mission. Nobody cared who Cameron Bannister was; you could have shouted it from Dempsey’s roof, and nobody would have given a damn. No. But you were able to use me just fine, weren’t you? Because
everyone
, by then, cared who Morgan Matthews was.”
 

“You’re not real,” Cameron said, crab-walking back to his feet, weapon still raised.
 

“I’m not, am I?” the Irish man said with slow, almost drawling disbelief. “But I wouldn’t have been in there if I weren’t.” He ticked his thumb toward the Ark. “The fucking aliens just stuffed a bunch of other people into my box, and that after I’d taken the time to make myself known. But if
you
didn’t put
me
in there, who else would have?”

Cameron looked at Charlie, his skin paper-white. The ghost named Morgan advanced slowly in his strangely fine dress shoes, no hurry at all.
 

“There are no surprises in there,” he said, again indicating the golden chest. “It’s not the unknown that bothers you. It’s the
known
.” He touched his nose thoughtfully then cocked his head. “You already know what’s in your past, boyo. The only question is whether you’re sure you rid the righteous cause of a threat … or shot a man
in the back of the fucking head
who protected you and got what you needed to fulfill Daddy’s quest!”

“Ignore him, Cameron,” said Piper from halfway around the circle. But she, too, seemed drained of blood.
 

“Yes,
ignore me,
Cameron. Just like you’ve
been
ignoring me. Just like you’ve been ignoring Dan and Vincent and the others dead by your indifferent hand. Just like you turned your back on your father, before your actions killed
him
, too. Just like you’ve been ignoring the truth that you took a woman who lost her husband into your bed. How after you thought he’d returned, you kept right on fucking her.” The dead man put a splayed hand on his chest and affected a serpent’s smile. “Now, I’m not judge and jury here. But if I were, I’m not so sure you come out clean and washed when the balance is tallied.”
 

Jeanine Coffey was to one side, making frantic gestures. She seemed to want Cameron to circle the ghoul or at least slide the key in her direction. But Cameron could see only the man in black. He was swallowing, blinking, blind to everything else. His gun was still held up at the end of a trembling hand. Then the man walked forward and pressed the barrel of Cameron’s gun into the center of his chest.

“Come on, boyo. If you’re so sure you’ve done right, do it again. I’m just a jack-in-the-box. You know I’m not actually here; I’m just something you put into the file for later consideration. You watched me drip from the corner like snot. So if I’m not a man, why not do it again? Why not remind yourself why you did what you did in the first place, like a couple renewing their vows?”
 

Peers watched Jeanine gesture more wildly then start forward when Cameron’s foot kicked the satchel backward. It skidded two feet on the smooth floor, but there was no way Jeanine could reach it without moving into the open. Peers watched as the others started to creep forward: Christopher, Piper, even terrified Lila. But the blonde girl, Grace, was the closest, and Peers waited, knowing the key would be recovered, that they’d already been scared off. He kept his eyes on Cameron. Watched the dead man push him back farther.
 

“Do it, Cameron! You were righteous the first time. You never act rashly, do you? You always think first. And you’re also
so
good
at admitting when you were wrong, or that you don’t know.” The man gave a sinister little grin. “If you’re so sure it was right to kill me in cold blood, prove it to yourself. This is your chance to do it all over again.”

Cameron backed up. The dead man matched him, pressing him against the wall. Bits of blood and gore from his head wound dripped on Cameron’s fist as the gun pressed into his belly.
 

“Do it, Cameron! Show me that you’re a man! Show it to yourself!”
 

Cameron’s mouth was working, his breath coming hard. The man reached for the weapon with both hands, cocked the hammer behind the slide, gripped Cameron’s hand as if meaning to squeeze it down on the trigger.

“Do it.”

“Fuck you,” Cameron muttered.
 

“So you
do
have balls!” He laughed. “Then do it. Or are you second-guessing yourself? Do you have regrets? Because I’ll warn you, there’s a whole lot more where I came from … if, that is, you’re not quite as sure as you thought that you’ve always done right.”
 

He nudged Cameron again. “Do it, Cameron.”
 

“No.”
 

“Do it!”

Peers jumped as the gunshot echoed through the tiny chamber. Blood spurted from the man’s back, but before he fell and burst back into light, he smiled.
 

“One last regret for the road, then,” he said.
 

The man was gone.
 

Beyond him — between Cameron’s smoking gun and the Ark, which was beginning to leak light and shake on its platform — Peers could see what the man in black had meant when speaking of final regrets.
 

Grace was clutching her chest, bleeding from the gunshot.

The air began to fill with mist leaking from the archive.

And an appetizer’s worth of judgment followed.

They walked the hallways first. Cameron took the lead while Lila stayed back a few steps with Piper and her father, keeping a respectable distance from her husband’s emotional balancing act. They were in a strange place, in someone else’s home, in the middle of the night. They didn’t know where anything was, or where people stayed or slept. Yet they were on the trail of something that a panicky voice inside Lila — more a
knowing
than the usual kind of meaningless
worry
— insisted more and more convincingly was worthy of panic. Cameron made sense, logically speaking: Clara liked to explore, and the girl, from a young age, had always shown a healthy disrespect for the rules.
Of course
she’d gone wandering, and of course it was no big deal. But Lila could tell it somehow was. And
worse
, she knew Cameron and the others could feel it, too.
 

But Cameron was keeping his face straight and his steps reasonably paced. He wasn’t raising an alarm in deference to the hour and their status as guests. Still, tension hovered above their little troop like a storm cloud. If Cameron didn’t break his sensible mask and start panicking soon, Lila thought she might go ahead and do it for him, until someone tied her down.
 

The hallways were empty. Clara might have ducked into a room, but none were open other than their own, which they double checked before leaving. They found the kitchen (one of them, anyway; Lila got the feeling there were several), but Clara wasn’t there, either. The kitchen was fully stocked with snacks — and yet no boxes were disturbed, no cabinets open, no crumbs on the floor. They passed four marked public bathrooms, paired in two sets of men/women, and they peeked into each, calling Clara’s name in urgent whispers. Lila thought she heard noises over and over, but each turned out to be only nerves, and once she thought she’d seen a blue light beneath a door that looked like a control room or a broom closet, but when she looked back it was gone and Cameron was still striding ahead, feigning confidence. Her mind was playing games.