Sara laughed out loud, both with relief at having the electricity restored, and at the sheer outrageousness of having an electrical panel hidden inside the ceiling and discovered by a French-speaking Italian in a four-hundred-year-old castle.
“Bueno!”
she declared, clapping her hands. “Is that right? Is that Italian?”
Ash said behind her, “Close enough, I think.
Buon giorno
, Pietro, Signor Contandino.
Grazie!
”
He was wearing loafers with no socks, rumpled khakis, and a blue silk robe. He went on in a rapid, easy stream of Italian as he took some bills from his pants pocket and paid the men, but that was all Sara understood. She quickly occupied herself with making the coffee, trying to appear at ease and un-self-conscious, trying not to look at Ash.
Pietro conversed easily with Ash while his father packed up the ladder and dropped cigarette ashes on the kitchen floor. Then he came over to her. “Do you know Tom Cruise?” he asked.
Sara, turning, found him much too close for comfort. She braced her hands against the counter and leaned back to give herself some breathing room, smiling uncertainly. “No, I'm afraid not.”
He shrugged. “Ah well, it is no matter.” He smiled at her. “You need fixing again, you ask for Pietro. I come . . .” He snapped his fingers twice in quick succession. “Like that.”
Sara, her bright smile frozen in place, replied, “Yes, I will. Thank you.”
She didn't completely exhale until they both had left the kitchen, and the door was firmly closed behind them. “Wow,” she said. “He's . . . larger-than-life, isn't he?” And she glanced at Ash. “An Italian family of handymen living in the Loire Valley?”
“It's a long story,” Ash replied. “Suffice it to say, every small town has its eccentrics, whether they be in America or a village on the Loire. And by the way,” he added with a raised forefinger, “do
not
call Pietro. He is a walking Italian cliché, and will try to bed you quicker than . . .” He broke off with a sudden realization, staring at her, then gave a soft, embarrassed exhalation and a shake of his head. He turned to leave. “I think I'll go upstairs and finish the shower I started last night.”
Sara said, without knowing why, “It will take a while for the water to heat.”
He hesitated, and turned back to her. “So it will.” The coffeemaker began to gurgle and hiss. “Would it be all right, do you suppose, if I joined you for breakfast?”
She said, “Let's eat on the terrace.”
She busied herself with gathering fruit and cheese and hard rolls from the bread box and jams from the cupboard and a fresh round of butterâwhich had survived the lack of electrical cooling just fine in the insulated refrigeratorâsurprised at how familiar she had grown with this kitchen in such a short time. She could hardly remember the layout of Dixie's kitchen. When she returned home, would she constantly be turning to the left instead of to the right to look for silverware?
She thought she should probably make an offer on the Peterson house as soon as she set foot on North Carolina soil. And yet, whenever she made up her mind to do that, she kept hearing Ash's voice, demanding, But what will you
do
?
Damn him, anyway.
They carried the tray of food and coffee to the terrace, and Ash went out of his way to be helpful. He never ate breakfast. He could only tolerate coffee if it was mostly cream. This morning-after encounter was, predictably, awkward.
Finally they sat at the stone table with plates filled and coffee poured and Ash said, his eyes calm and steady, “Sara, do I need to say anything?”
She burst out almost before he was finished, “I really wish you wouldn't.”
“Because it seems as though there are things that need to beâ”
“No, there aren't. Honestly.”
“All right, then.” He hesitated, his gaze unflinching, seeing far too much as he looked at her. “You're Daniel's widow,” he said. “I respect that. I wouldn't want you to think I would ever take advantage.”
She felt heat creep into her cheeks, and she had to shift her gaze away. “I don't,” she said. “I mean, I would never . . .” She foundered, feeling flustered and confused and oddly guilty, even though she had done nothing to feel guilty about. She sighed and looked at him apologetically, her face still hot. “I've had a wonderful time these past few days,” she said. “But . . . it's probably a good thing I'm leaving now.”
He nodded, and then he shifted his gaze away.
She brought her cup to her lips with both hands and sipped the strong black coffee without meeting his eyes again. He buttered a roll, and left it on his plate. She reached for a tangerine at the same time he did; he withdrew quickly and her hand fluttered to her lap. It was all too much a 1940s romantic comedy and, despite herself, she smiled. Almost as though reading her mind, he did, too, and just like that, the tension between them was gone.
He said, “Halves?”
She nodded and he took up a fruit knife and sliced the tangerine. “What time is your flight tomorrow? Shall we drive in together?”
“That would be nice. My flight's at two.”
“Excellent.” He placed half the fruit on her plate. “I can get a 1:45 back to London. What a pity you didn't plan time to stay over in Paris. I would have enjoyed showing you around.”
She said, smearing jam on her roll, “You know you don't have any more time to spend showing me around.”
“I could make time.” He looked momentarily wistful. “It's been years since I was a tourist in Paris.”
She was tempted, for one wild moment, to cancel her flight and take him up on his offer. But it was just for a moment. “You know the world of international law is falling apart without you, and my guess is that if you had to spend even one more day relaxing, you would do yourself serious harm.”
He laughed. “No doubt you're right.” He peeled the fruit. “So what would you like to do with your last day in France?”
Her last day in France. There was a little catch in her chest when he said that, and she thought how incredibly predictable it was, that she should have fallen so completely under the spell of this place. She wondered if she would be another cliché, weeping all the way home on her flight back to the United States.
“Let's go down to the village.” She bit into her roll. “Maybe I'll see Pietro there.”
At first he seemed startled, and then he laughed. He said something in French that she did not understand and he refused to translate, and she threw the remainder of her roll at him.
It was a good morning, after all.
They took the car so that Sara could box up and send home the items that wouldn't fit in her suitcase. They visited some of her favorite shops and had lunch at an outdoor café. Some of the vendors were beginning to recognize them, and smiled at Sara and waved her over to show her their latest merchandise when she walked by. “You've been here less than a week,” Ash teased her, “and already you're their best customer. That's what we all love about Americans.”
He held her hand as they strolled the streets, and it seemed completely natural.
It was midafternoon when they returned to the château, and there was a black Citroën parked in the circular drive. When Sara glanced at Ash, his answer was a shrug, and he looked as puzzled as she was.
The woman who turned to meet them in the bright marble hall was slim, fiery-haired, and dressed in a deceptively simple jade green couturier dress that hugged her body like a second skin. Even before she turned, even before she felt Ash stiffen beside her, Sara knew who she was.
“Michele,” Ash said coolly. “What are you doing here?”
She smiled beatifically and spread her hands, palms up. “
Mon cher
, is that any sort of greeting? And after I have made a special trip just to meet your . . .” Her eyes were fixed on Sara and her smile didn't waver as she seemed to search for the word. “Friend.”
Inexplicably, Sara felt a flush creep up her neck. She wasn't certain whether it was because the way Michele said the word made it sound dirty, or because, next to her, Saraâwith her braided hair and cotton sundress and comfortable flatsâfelt dull and frumpy and completely American.
Ash said flatly, “Michele, may I present Sara Orsay. Sara, Michele Dupuis. Now, what are you doing here?”
There was in the distance the clattering sound of small running feet, and like a whirlwind, a little girl burst around the corner and raced toward Ash with open arms.
“Petit-papa! Je suis arrivé!”
Ash looked as stunned as though someone had struck him, yet he automatically bent and scooped up the child, resting her on his hip and kissing her hair. “Alyssa,
ma petite chou
!” he exclaimed softly.
“Comment ça va? Quel joli ruban!”
He tugged at her hair ribbon and smiled, although his eyes still held nothing but shock, and they were fixed on Michele's.
The child couldn't have been more than five or six, and she was adorable, with curly black hair tied back with a red ribbon, and big dark eyes. She wore a plaid skirt and kneesocks, like a school uniform. She chattered on in a stream of sweet, high-pitched French, playing with the buttons on Ash's shirt, and then she said, “But my English, she is very goodly, yes?”
Ash laughed, though it sounded strained, and he said, “Very goodly indeed, little one. “
Sara couldn't stay silent any longer. She said, smiling at the little girl, “Ash, you didn't tell me you had a daughter.” She didn't know why this should hurt her, but it did a little. She had told him all of her secrets, and he hadn't even mentioned his offspring to her. “She's darling.”
Michele came forward, her laughter light and tinkling. “
Mais chérie
, Alyssa is not Ash's child.” She looked at Sara with malicious amusement tightening the corners of her otherwise flawless eyes. “She is Daniel's.”
TEN
There are certain moments in every life in which a curtain seems to be drawn, forever separating what was from what will never be again. One of those moments had occurred when a police officer had stood dripping icy rain in the dark on Sara's porch. Another such moment was now.
It was now.
The air in the great hall didn't really suddenly evaporate; time wasn't really frozen, and the silence that echoed after those words didn't really last a lifetime. But it felt like that to Sara. She couldn't move; she couldn't breathe. All she could do was stare at Ash, and at the child he held in his arms.
Ash murmured several swift, light-sounding sentences to the little girl, then set her on her feet and spoke in the same deceptively pleasant tone to Michele. The words were in French, and his eyes, when he looked at her, could have frozen salt water. He finished in English, perhaps for the child's sake, but very politely, “Or I will wring your bloody neck.”
There was a flare of anger in Michele's eyes and a quirk of temper about her lips, which she purposefully subdued with a cool smile. She took Alyssa's hand with a shrug, and said,
“Très bien, ma petite, viens avec moi.”
And she led her off, at a deliberately casual pace, toward the kitchen.
Sara said the only thing she could manage, at that moment. “She called you âpapa.' ”
“It's a nickname.” Ash's face was tight, the muscle in his jaw knotted. “It means . . . it doesn't matter what it means.”
“Were you going to tell me?” Now her breath was coming back and her voice began to rise as she closed her hands into fists. “Were you
ever
going to tell me? Don't you think that's the kind of thing I might have been the tiniest bit interested in knowing? I mean, did you think it wasn't important enough to mention? Are you kidding me? For the love of God, Daniel had a
child
?”
By this time she was practically screaming at him, and, with a quick glance around, Ash grasped her arm and pulled her into one of the empty reception rooms. It was a display room, furnished in horsehair settees and Queen Anne chairs upholstered in ivory and gold damask with delicate tables and china clocks. It was as big as a hotel lobby, and the only light came from two tall, velvet-draped windows at either end of the room. Motes of dust, disturbed by their entrance, were captured in the thin rays of sunlight that penetrated the thick glass.
Sara wrenched her arm away as soon as he closed the door. “How dare you?” she demanded lowly. Every muscle in her body was tensed with outrage and her words echoed about the vast, cold room. “How the hell
dare
you?” But even as she spoke she knew her anger wasn't at Ash, but at Daniel.
Daniel
hadn't told her. And there was no way for her to know whether he ever would have.
Ash drew in a sharp breath. “Listen to me. The reason I didn't tell you was because it's not true. Alyssa is not legally Daniel's child.”
Sara stared at him, hardly believing her ears.
“Legally?”
He thrust a hand through his hair, his eyes a storm of anger and apology and regret and bitterness. “God, it's such a sordid story.” Another breath. “A woman contacted Daniel some years back with a two-year-old she claimed he had fathered when he last was in France. Daniel was adamant the child was not his and sent her away rather abruptly. I advised him to take a paternity test, just to circumvent any further complications, but he refused. He insisted he wasn't even in France at the time of the child's conception, and that the whole thing was just a scheme to get money.”
He compressed his lips tightly, gathering his thoughts, or perhaps unwilling to speak them. “And within the week the woman, the mother of the child . . .” He paused here, and turned away from her, his gaze fixed on the far window. “She committed suicide, I'm afraid.”