Read Kresley Cole - [MacCarrick Brothers 02] Online
Authors: If You Desire
“How in the hell did you plan to end the marriage?” he demanded. “How?”
“I’m sure my father can manage something—”
“It will no’ bloody stop me, Jane. I dinna sign on for more. If our annulment does no’ go as planned, I will still leave you.”
Her heart went cold. Memories of loneliness and hopelessness washed over her.
He’d left her before without a warning. He would again, this time after telling her to her face that nothing would cleave him to her—even as she sat naked in a bed still warmed from him.
No longer would she open herself up to him. She couldn’t.
Self-preservation, Janey.
Hugh MacCarrick was the only man who could ever make her cry. False smile in place, she said with all honesty, “Of course you will leave me, darling. I never expected anything else from you.”
He shot her another disillusioned look, then strode away.
After his behavior the night before, this morning had already been grueling enough. But now to learn that Jane had definitely had at least one man was punishing for him.
He’d suspected she and Bidworth had been lovers, but to
know
…
The idea of Bidworth, or another man like him, taking her innocence made Hugh’s stomach clench, made him want to roar with fury. He felt this even as he knew he had no right to, no right to hate the fact that she’d welcomed another—or others—into her bed.
He’d said those things to Jane out of jealousy and because he’d been furious with himself—for one foggy moment when he first awakened, he’d been about to start the madness again. Even now, he found himself wishing he’d just gone ahead and taken her last night, or even this morning, when she’d looked so tousled and well-loved.
He’d taken his frustrations out on her, sounding like some inflexible old-guard Tory, and she hadn’t deserved it.
Jane was unique and independent, and she couldn’t be judged by others’ standards. She was twenty-seven and had a very healthy sexual appetite. Even as he understood this, the idea of her appeasing her needs with others maddened him.
Because he was obsessed with her. He wanted her to lavish that desire on him, wanted her all to himself. The idea of Bidworth trying to handle all her passion was laughable. After last night, Hugh knew that he was the man for it—even as he knew he could never allow himself to have her.
He’d given her a few hours to get over her pique, but now they needed to talk about what the hell they were going to do about their annulment. Hugh loped to her room, but found no sign of her. He made his way to the upstairs parlor. After dressing this morning, she’d sat in the window seat there for hours, gazing out at Vinelands as she had for the last two days.
He and his brothers used to do the same constantly. They’d first traveled down to this property at the suggestion of concerned relatives in the clan. Ethan had just received the injury to his face and would be able to heal in a more private setting; Court would have no one to fight….
They’d been there only a week before the Weylands had descended on the area.
From the lofty vantage of Ros Creag, the three brothers had sat and watched the goings-on at Vinelands. Always a huge fire burned outside, people
danced
in the yard, and singing and raucous laughter carried across the water.
Hugh, Ethan, and Court had gawked in confusion. Their existence had been dour, their home in the north of Scotland dark ever since the death of their father. They’d rarely spoken to their mother, Fiona, who couldn’t recover from the loss of her beloved husband Leith.
The day he’d died, Fiona had pulled at her hair, screaming at her sons, “
I told you no’ to read it! How many times did I tell you? It always wins!
”
Hugh shook himself, preparing to face Jane as he entered the parlor—the empty parlor. She wasn’t in the window seat. Excellent, she was avoiding him again.
Or would she have tried to leave, after his callous words this morning?
A sense of unease settled over him. He bellowed her name. Nothing. Just as he was about to go tearing through the house, some movement outside caught his attention. He glanced out the window, saw bairns piling out onto the front lawn at Vinelands, with some harried woman running after them. Adults alighted from carriages. Weylands were here?
Now?
Brows drawn, he strode forward to peer out.
And spotted a glimpse of Jane’s green riding skirt on the shore path to Vinelands.
He bounded down the stairs, then outside onto the terrace, disbelieving his eyes. As though she sensed him, she turned back, gave him a sarcastic salute, then turned away dismissively. Sprinting for the stable, he vowed he’d tie her arse to a chair before she did this again. He looped a bit on his horse, not taking time for a saddle, before charging hell-bent along the path.
As he neared, Jane began racing for Vinelands as if for a friendly country’s border. But Hugh dropped from his horse to the ground and snared her around the waist in one fluid movement.
Swinging her around to face him, he snapped, “Never, never leave like that again!”
“Or what?” she asked, panting.
He clutched her slim shoulders. “Or I’ll tie your arse to a bed.” When had
chair
become
bed
?
“Not likely, you brute—”
“Brute? This brute’s tryin’ to protect you, yet you treat all this like it’s a game.”
“How can I not when you tell me nothing? You’ve given me nothing truly tangible to worry about! You and Father both said Grey isn’t in England, so how could he have followed us here?”
“Why take that risk?” Hugh said, loosening his hold on her shoulders. “Why’re there Weylands here now?”
“They like the quiet season.”
“You knew they were coming?”
She nodded. “Hugh, I need to go there. It’s important to me.”
“Why did you no’ just ask me to take you?”
She rolled her eyes. “I knew you wouldn’t let me. But I’m asking you now to come with me.”
Go with her? To the other side?
No’ bloody likely.
“I canna keep an eye on you among all of them.” He was so unused to being around groups of people, it made him constantly wary. Much less around
these
people. “And how would you explain us?”
“I’d tell them the truth.” Her chin went up. “We’re married. That’s all I’d say, for right now. In the future, I’ll explain what happened.”
“Too many people,” he insisted. He had no wish for Jane to know how utterly inept he was in social situations.
“This is my family. They’ll never say a word. You’ve never seen such a loyal family.”
“Jane, you’ve got to understand that your life is on the line.”
“Look me in the eyes and tell me that a day at Vinelands will put my life in more danger than staying at Ros Creag.”
Hugh opened his mouth to speak, then closed it directly. If Grey had somehow made it past the net into England, then he would have Ethan breathing down his neck long before he ever thought to approach Ros Creag. And if he somehow got past Ethan, Grey would have to traverse the lake by ferry, which could be seen from Vinelands.
Technically, Hugh deemed it safe enough. But the last social event he had attended as a participant, not just skulking in the shadows, had been the festivities the night before Ethan’s ill-fated wedding, and Hugh had never seen any of those guests again.
His next attempt was to be a day at Vinelands? A trial by fire? Damn it, he’d avoided this all those times in the past—yet now she expected him to voluntarily walk among the mad, carefree Weylands. He’d be more comfortable walking into a hail of bullets.
And God help him if Jane told her cousins about his behavior the night before. He shuddered at the possibility. A trial by inferno. “Does no’ matter. I’ve told you we’re returning. So that’s what we’re going to do.”
She bit her lip and gazed up at him with those big, green eyes. When he realized she was about to ask in a way he hadn’t yet figured out how to deny, he cut her off, snapping, “No’ a chance,” and dragged her toward the horse.
He was biting out Gaelic curses, she slapping at his grip on her elbow and kicking at his shins, when a voice cried, “
Jane?
”
They both faced forward and froze.
Twenty-five
“O
h, bloody hell.” The seventh circle of hell. That’s what Hugh looked like he’d ventured into as more and more of her family filed out of the house and approached them. Belinda was here with her husband and children, and Sam and her family had arrived as well.
She had to laugh evilly. “Too late to run. You’re snared,
I’m afraid.”
“Aye, and you’d best enjoy it,” Hugh muttered. “You go back to a locked cellar.”
“Jane!” Samantha cried again, her russet curls bouncing. “What are you doing here?”
“Aunty Jane!” five children called as they besieged her, trampling her to the ground as she laughed.
Belinda clapped her hands in delight. “But you said you couldn’t come this week!”
Then they noticed Hugh behind her, and everything went silent while jaws dropped. The children stared up at the towering Highlander in wonder. To break the awkward moment, Jane held up her hand, and as expected, Hugh shot forward to help her to her feet.
“What’s
he
doing here?” Sam asked, never one to mince words.
Hugh gave Jane an expression as if to say, “Indeed.”
“Well, he’s…we’re married.”
Sam’s jovial husband, a physician named Robert Granger, murmured to Sam, “Not four days ago, you told me she was marrying Bidworth.”
From the side of her mouth, Sam answered, “That’s because she
was
.”
“Well, obviously
that
did not happen,” Jane said blithely. “So wish us well and meet my new husband.”
Hugh knew her cousins—barely—so she introduced Hugh to Robert, and they shook hands. If Hugh’s threatening look hadn’t deterred him, Robert would likely have bear-hugged him a welcome into the family.
Then she presented Hugh to Lawrence Thompson, Belinda’s husband, a prankster and a considerable wit with a ready laugh, who cradled his hand after Hugh shook it.
Seeing all of them lifted Jane’s spirits and made her realize how much Hugh’s awful words had hurt her.
I’ll still leave you.
Hugh eyed everyone with such a leery demeanor, so noticeably out of his element, that she couldn’t resist. She knew she had a diabolical gleam in her eyes when she faced Hugh and said, “I absolutely must catch up with my cousins and show off my new ring. In private.” He was subtly shaking his head. “Hugh, why don’t you get to know
the other husbands
—they like to drink scotch and sit on the lawn about this time of morning. Talk about the stock exchange and such.”
She hadn’t missed his wary glance at the children either. “Oh, and, children, your new uncle Hugh loves to buy presents and treats. You’ve only to tell him what you want!”
“Off of him now!” Robert exclaimed as he shooed bairns off Hugh. “Run along and play!”
Hugh wanted to fall down with relief when the last one made yet another request, released his leg, then scampered away. Jane really was going to do this—she truly was leaving him to deal with these men. She and her cousins had gathered up bottles of wine and strolled out on the dock without a backward glance.
“Don’t know what Jane was thinking, to set the hounds to you like that!” Robert flashed him a sheepish grin.
“But, finally, it’s just men.” He led them over to a set of wicker lawn chairs and, once seated, began pouring a round of drinks, though it was not nearly ten.
“So, what do you do, MacCarrick?”
Hugh reluctantly sat and accepted the glass, not knowing his way around this. “I’m…retired.” He’d never been forced to make conversation. Never spoke unless something needed to be said. In more than one way, he’d been perfectly suited for his occupation.
“That’s the way to do it, my boy!” Robert raised his glass—then drained it. “Retire, take a beautiful bride, and enjoy life.”
Lawrence worked on his drink more slowly, but not by much. “Are you and Jane starting a family straight away?”
Hugh shrugged. After seeing her happiness when all those bairns waylaid her, he had never been more keenly aware that he could never give her children.
Robert sank back with his second drink on his knee. “We waited, Sam and I, nearly three years to start.”
Waited?
So odd to hear these upper-class gentlemen speak of topics like this. “Waited” meant contraception.
Robert and Lawrence then mused on how their wives had behaved and looked when pregnant (“quite lusty” and “pleasingly plump”), how children changed a man (“didn’t know what I was about before them”), and other things Hugh tried his damnedest to block out.
He kept glancing over at Jane and her cousins deep in conversation, knowing she was telling them everything about last night. Each time she closed in to whisper to the two women, he cringed, feeling his face flush violently.
After a grueling hour of conversation Hugh barely heard, Lawrence suggested that the men target-shoot. Hugh ran his hand over the back of his neck, knowing he would have to miss. Though he had a powerful desire to impress Jane, to shoot as these people had never seen, he stifled it, aware how unwise it would be to demonstrate exactly what he excelled in.
A quick glance told him that Jane had shaded her eyes with her hand to see. Would she remember that he could shoot? She used to tag along with him on hunts all the time, had tromped with him over every inch of woodlands in the area.
Hugh recalled one of the first times Jane had accompanied him. Afterward, she’d bragged to Weyland about Hugh’s shooting: “Papa, you wouldn’t believe how he can shoot—so calm, and steady as a rock! He hit a duck at seventy yards at least in a stiff breeze.”
Weyland had eyed him with new interest. “Did he, then?” Hugh hadn’t understood why at the time. He’d had no way of knowing that Weyland was sizing him up for a lethal profession—one that had provided wealth to a second son who’d had none, and laid out the path to walk with death….