“Peaches and I had a wonderful ride this afternoon,” I say. “And that new filly, she's really something.”
“Gibby.”
“Yup. And then . . .”
“Focus,” he says, ripping a hunk off the cornbread and jabbing it in the clover honey. “Why was LeRoy up to Jessie's place?”
“Mr. Buster's gone missin',” I say, sliding a sliced tomato into my mouth that's sprinkled with dressing all the way from Italy. “The sheriff came by to talk to Miss Jessie about his disappearâ”
“I heard there was some to-do up at the Malloy place,” Grampa interrupts. His eyes look like the deposit slot down at the bank. “Don't be gettin' any ideas on using your powers of meticulous perception to go snoopin' around in this matter, hear? And don't talk with your mouth full.”
“Why shouldn't I go lookin' for Mr. Buster?”
“Just don't,” he barks out like the drill sergeant he used to be.
For what seems like close to eternity the only sounds are the far-off motors on the water and forks scraping against the tin plates cowboy Grampa loves so much because they remind him of stars at night that are big and bright deep in the heart of Texas.
Finished eating, he dabs at his mouth with his paper napkin. Says nicer, “Ya still wanna get the board out after we clean up these dishes?”
“A course I do, Charlie.” I lay my hand on his whisker sprouts, rub 'em to let him know I forgive him using his hut-to voice. “Ya know, ya couldâ”
“Shhh. Hear that?”
“Eeee . . . eeee . . . eeeeeee. Eeee . . . eeee . . . eeeeeee.”
“Cooper's Hawk,” Grampa says with a lot of know-how, because not only is he a whiz at whittling, he watches birds, and can tell the call of a red-throated loon from a common loon without even looking up. “Look, there he is.”
The hawk's caught a breeze above the cottage next to ours. Something squirming in his mouth. I know, I know, it's all part of God's grand design, but I just can't stand seeing that kind of helplessness, so I lower my eyes down to the Flemings' gray cottage. They were our neighbors for years and years, but they moved to town after Miz Comfort Fleming broke her hip when she fell on the slippery pier. They lease out their place now to strangers for extra money.
When Grampa mutters, “Useless,” he isn't referring to the hawk. He means Mr. Willard DuPree, the most recent next-door renter who moved in right after Christmas, which is sort of a peculiar time to show up in Cray Ridge 'cause there's not much going on around here then. But Mr. Clayton Fleming told Grampa that Willard paid cash for a year in advance, so that was fine with him. Grampa does not fancy our neighbor one iota. First off, Willard smokes hemp. Even worse, he doesn't have a job, from what I can tell. In fact, most days our neighbor does nothing but lie around in the “contemplating” hammock he's slung up between two yellow-woods. Right this minute, I can see his behind pushing through the knotting and scraping the top of the grass that should've been mowed two weeks ago. This sort of
Indolence: Inactivity as a result from disliking work
can really get under the skin of a man like Grampa, whose calluses have calluses.
“Eat,” Grampa says, lighting up with his Zippo. “You're startin' to look like a bedpost.”
I take another sneak peek next door. Lord. Grampa would have an apoplectic fit if he knew that Willard has been attempting to teach Clever and me how to play strip poker, which I've come to believe doesn't have so much to do with cards as Willard taking the opportunity to show off his pecker that he has named Lord Sparky. Clever is dazzled. I suspect that the two of them might be having hot sex, which I think doin' before you're married is a lot like eating supper before sayin' grace. Contrary to common sense. But Clever, she dropped out of school in the ninth grade, so she is not entirely educated.
Grampa's stacking up his dirty dishes on one end of the picnic table, his cigarette dangling from his lips. “Ya feelin' all right? Ya seem on the distracted side lately. More than usual.”
(Oh, if he only knew. Considering how he feels about him, my grampa's going to be thrilled to the nub when he finds out Mr. Buster is not missing, but dead. I can barely rein myself in from letting him in on the secret!)
“Stop frettin' about me and start sayin' your prayers, Charles Michael Murphy,” I shout. “I got a feelin' I may go down in Scrabble history tonight.”
Giving me a low-watt grin, he pulls open the screen door. “Don't forget to feed him,” he says, and him and the dirty dishes disappear inside.
I got leftover catfish and a slice of cornbread on my plate for Keeper so I set it down in the grass for him. This time of day a breeze likes to tickle the lake so the tips of the willows are etching smiles near the shore. My bangs are ruffling.
Our neighbor calls over in his shovey accent, “Is he gone?”
“Yes, Willard, he is.”
I attempted to write a
Welcome to Cray Ridge
story right after he moved in, but Willard dodged every single one of my questions, which I found odd since folks are usually quite enthused at the thought of seeing their name in the paper. What I eventually got him to admit was that his favorite color is gray and that he's from the New York area. That last part got me excited. I asked him if he knew Mr. Howard Redmond. Willard answered he might, but in his line of work he meets so many different people. “Ya don't say,” I said. “And what line of work might that be?” Ya ever see a turtle reverse into his shell? Like that.
Remembering my neighborly manners, I holler over, “How they hangin', Willard?”
Only the hawk calls back.
“Willard?”
Nothing but the breeze in the trees.
He probably fell asleep. Willard does that a lot after he smokes hemp. He also eats Mallomars by the ton.
“ 'Bout time,” Grampa says, when Keeper and I join him at the kitchen sink. Tied around his neck, he's got the Chief Cook and Bottle Washer apron that I gave him last Christmas. “Ya hear me? Do not go stickin' your nose into that tobacco farm's business.”
“And why exactly would I wanna go sniffin' tobacco plants?” I ask, rummaging my hands around the soapy sink water.
Grampa shoots me one of his inspecting looks and must like what he sees 'cause he goes back to humming along with the singer who he admires beyond sense, Mr. Johnny Cash, who I do not care for one bit. I prefer the Beatles eight days a week, but Grampa won't let me listen to them because he says those boys are nothing but long-haired goo.
Doesn't take us long to finish up, there's just the two of everything. He hangs his apron on the nail, and says like he does every night, “Pour a coupla glasses while I get us set up.”
Playing Scrabble is another one of the “stimulations” of my brain that Grampa tried out when I first got out of the hospital. When he was still hoping I could get
Q
uite
R
ight again. It's become a habit now. Every single night he gets out the board from the top shelf of the bookcase and we head out to the pebbly card table on the porch. At first I made words that looked like this:
Drg.
That's drag.
Or:
Whol.
That's wool.
So, of course, while I was still rehabilitating, Grampa whupped me good most nights. (Not to brag, but I believe I have turned that table on him but good.)
After getting down two of the leftover blue metal glasses we gave out last year at the pumps to folks using Premium, I top them off with his tart lemonade and follow him out to the porch. The last of the sun is skimming the top of the water. Soon the skeeters'll be out, which is why we have a screened-in. I pick the prickers out of Keeper's coat while Grampa takes the board out of the box, lights the brass lantern, and lets me blow out the match.
“I like your locket,” he says, jotting down our names on the score-keeping pad.
I had completely forgotten about it. I open it up to show him the pictures of Billy and me from long ago.
“How's he doin'?” Grampa leans back in the folding chair and lights up another.
“You should quit smokin'.”
“That right?”
“Yes, it is. I heard a New York City reporter, a Mr. Frank Reynolds, say on the television news that smokin' might cause cancer.” There is a lot of tobacco growing in Kentucky. Around here especially. Our colored folks count on getting paid to pick that crop so they can feed their babies, so I hope I misunderstood that report.
“Reynolds, eh?” Grampa inhales deeper than usual. “With a name like that you'd think he'd be all for lightin' up.”
That must be funny because he's apple-doll puckering.
“I gave Billy a star today,” I say.
Grampa wriggles his hand around in the Scrabble box, searching for just the right tile. “Has he been spendin' any time up at his daddy's place?”
Grampa has affection for Billy and likes to keep track of
his
whereabouts, too. He believes that Billy should make up with his daddy, which I think Billy might be willing to do if only Big Bill Brown did not look at his son in a way that squeezes whatever gumption his boy's got left right out of him. Why ever does he do that? Even the most ignorant of us know that kin is the most important thing in life. If
they
don't love you and accept you for what you are, you might as well go hunting without a gun.
“Billy told me he was up to High Hopes just this week,” I report.
Grampa picks out his first tile. "Y.”
“I can't remember why.”
“No, I meant . . . what'd you get?” he asks, leaning across the board. I show him my
D
. “Low letter goes first. That means you.”
“For crissakes, I know that, Charlie.”
Nature's started up its nightly concert. This time of night the lake reeks of leftover gasoline and heat and . . . uh-oh. Hemp. I can tell Grampa is smelling it as well. His shoulders are book-ending his ears. Don't want him getting all crabby again, so I make my move.
“Double word . . . twelve,” he says, jotting it down. “Where's your briefcase at?” He reaches across the board and adds on an l-y to my d-e-a-d.
“I don't know.” I add on
m
and
n
on top and below the
a
, making it deadly man. “That's twenty-five points, right?”
Grampa takes a last pull off his cigarette and snubs it out on the heel of his boot. “Ya gotta be more careful with your things. That camera wasn't cheap.”
We got some cash from the Champion Bus people after their driver stalled out his bus in the middle of the road and Daddy ended up bouncing off the back of it. But Grampa's right, that's no excuse to be careless. He says he won't live forever, and that money will take care of me when he's gone. My stomach clenches badly when he brings it up, at dusk mostly.
Studying the board, I say, “I'll look for my camera tomorrow. ” Even though I know where the briefcase is, and that the camera's inside it, I don't tell him. See that? That's something I've perceived to be different in my mind recently. Like this afternoon with the sheriff? When I didn't tell him how I already found Mr. Buster dead on Browntown Beach? I think that shows that I'm getting more
R
ight already and it's a good thing. But I've also perceived something else
not
so good going on lately. Unsettling thoughts are creeping around up top. Nudging me, whispering how wearisome Grampa's bossy ways can be sometimes.
Wouldn't you just love to cut loose a little, Gibby? You're not a child, you're a grown woman!
Christ Almighty, that makes me feel ungrateful. All that old man has done for me, and here I am thinking these willful thoughts. I should be horse-whipped.
“I keep a close watch on this heart of mine. I keep my eyes wide open all the time,”
Mr. Cash bellyaches out from the parlor.
Grampa says, “As usual, that man is full of good advice,” while he searches the board.
“Do you think you and Miss Jessie would ever get married?” I've just laid down w-e-d.
He draws his hand up onto his chest with an agitated look. Swallows down some of the TUMS he keeps in his trouser pocket. (He's got a fondness for greasy hush puppies.)
“Ya know, one of these days I'll get
Q
uite
R
ight again and I'm gonna wanna start livin' by myself,” I say, glancing upward and winking at Mama. “And when that day comes, it'd be nice for me not to have to worry about you anymore.” After I move to my own apartment in Cairo, I wouldn't enjoy those walks in that wavy desert heat half as much unless I knew Grampa had some company to keep. “It'd be nice for you to be spoonin' with Miss Jessie in that big brass bed of hers, don'tcha think? She's quite fond of Scrabble. I asked.”
“Don't get your hopes up on
neither
one of them subjects,” he says, irritable again because loud from next door, Willard's favorite musical group is complaining about getting no satisfaction.
Grampa cups his hands and bellows, “Turn that caterwauling down, ya jackass.”
Willard obeys straight off because even
I
know that smokin' hemp is against the law. Willard knows full well that Grampa
could
turn him in to the sheriff, but not that he
won't.
“Grown men should know what's right and what ain't right in their hearts. Shouldn't need no laws or a blowhard like LeRoy Johnson to remind 'em,” is what my old cowboy lectures whenever the subject comes up.
Two lemonades and a bowl of strawberry ice cream later, Grampa is tallying up the score. “Two hundred twenty-seven to one hundred fifty-four.”