Authors: Gaelen Foley
When Lucien suddenly lifted his hand from the rifle case, he was grasping a ten-inch steel bayonet.
She was still holding her breath when the big Frenchman’s hand slithered down from Lucien’s throat and fell limply onto the pavement.
He was dead.
Lucien wiped his brow and rose, leaving the bayonet sticking out of Bardou’s chest. For a second, he stood over the body, looking down at it, his chest heaving; then he lifted his gleaming, silvery stare and looked at
She let out a cry that was half a sob and ran to the gate, fumbling to let him in. She could hardly see through her tears. The moment he stepped through, he caught her up hard in his arms and held her tightly, cupping her head against his chest.
She sobbed incoherently and held him for all she was worth.
“Shh,” he whispered. “It’s all right now.”
She could hear his heart still pounding from his exertions. “You’re alive,” she choked out, looking up at him. “You’re all wet.”
He kissed her forehead, then caught her face between his hands and stared at her, his fierce, primal victory blazing in his eyes.
She pulled him down to kiss her, and she didn’t care who saw. He was alive and he had saved her life. She ended the kiss, her hands shaking with the aftermath of shock as she clung to his lapels.
“Lucien, you have to stop
“Oh, is he?” He glanced at the scrawny viscount, released her, and began stalking slowly toward
“Well, er, you know—it was just a thought. There you are. I’m sure he’ll be in excellent hands here.”
“Lambkin,” she whispered, holding him tightly.
cast Lucien a look of terror, backing away toward his carriage. He let out a nervous little laugh. “Perhaps I’m not the, er, best guardian for Harry at this . . . time. Of course, my name is on the will, but if Harry would be happier—that is, I’m sure I only want what is—” He glanced at Bardou’s crumpled body, then at Lucien again and gulped. “—best for my little nephew. I’ll drop by and check on him—”
“Leave,” Lucien growled.
“Love to!”
hugged Harry to her, calming him. As
Defeating Bardou might have been the harder task, but for getting Harry back from
“He can’t help it,”
Harry blinked and turned to Lucien, his finger in his mouth.
“I’m all wet, Harry.”
The boy started fussing again and reached for Lucien more insistently. Lucien’s gray eyes mist briefly as he relented, taking Harry into his arms with obliging care. “There’s a brave little fellow,” he murmured, his voice gruff with emotion.
“Come inside,”
Lucien slipped his other arm around her shoulders. Together, their arms around each other, they walked back toward the warmly lit portico and went into the house.
Then
He had been fondly nuzzling Harry’s temple, but at her words, he stopped and turned to her with a look of concern, handing the child back to her. “What’s happened?”
“I’m not sure. All the fireworks and cannons seemed to confuse his wits. I’m fairly sure he thought he was back at the war.”
Lucien stared at her. With a nod, he started to go into the house when a sudden clattering of hoofbeats sounded from the street behind them.
“Lord Lucien!”
“There he is!”
“My lord, you’re alive!” Marc and the other young rogues came riding up to the gates and swung down from their horses.
Lucien waved to them, but she knew he was anxious to go to Damien. “Tell them to see to Bardou and to notify the constable. Marc knows the procedure.”
nodded. He leaned down and kissed her cheek, then went inside and climbed the stairs to see if he could help his brother. She followed him as far as the entrance hall, bringing Harry in from the cold night air. Her nephew had settled down to quiet sniffles, resting his head on her shoulder. She rubbed his back as she waited for the young men to join them. Peg walked over to her and caressed Harry’s head, then glanced into her eyes.
“Bad salmon, eh?” Peg asked softly, giving her a chiding look.
Her eyes widened in sudden alarm, and a scarlet blush filled her cheeks; but when Peg smiled knowingly, tears misting her eyes,
“Oh, Peg, I love him so much,” she choked out. “I couldn’t help it!”
“Dearie,” Peg scolded, laughing softly. The old woman embraced her and Harry both in her motherly arms. “I thought you’d never find the right one.”
With victory and the jittery aftermath of rage still coursing through his veins, Lucien walked down the dim corridor to Damien’s room. Bruised, bleeding, miserably cold and wet though he was, he felt none of it. He’d be sore tomorrow, no doubt, but for now, his aches and pains were entirely cancelled out by the exhilaration of his savage triumph. He did not want to think about how close that had been.
The terror he had felt when he had seen Bardou take aim at
It was only his poor, battle-scarred brother that worried him. He knocked softly on Damien’s door. “Demon, it’s me. Let me in.”
When no reply came, Lucien tried the door. It wasn’t locked. He opened it cautiously and looked in.
The room was dark. The only light came from the window, where the cold, wintry moonlight angled in, outlining his brother’s silhouette in silver. Damien was sitting on the floor, leaning against the wall, his elbows resting on his bent knees as he held his head in his hands. There was a pistol lying on the floor beside him. Lucien felt his blood run cold at the sight of it. Damien didn’t move or respond when he walked in and closed the door behind him. He took a few cautious steps into the room. Even when he picked up the gun and unloaded it, his brother still didn’t react.
“Are you all right?”
Damien didn’t look up, but when he spoke his voice was low and gravelly, quietly racked with pain. “I’m losing my mind.”
Lucien crouched down slowly beside him and studied him.
“What the hell is happening to me? You’re smarter than me, Lucien. Tell me what to do, because I’m lost.”
“Perhaps I should call the physician—”
“No. What for? To give me laudanum to calm me? Already tried it. Doesn’t work. It merely fills my brain with even worse visions than I’m already having.
Jesus.
” He leaned his head back against the wall and closed his eyes with a look of exhaustion.
“How long has this been going on?” Lucien asked.
“A while.” Damien was silent for a moment. “I swear I can see the face of every soldier I ever lost, and they want to know why I got to come home and they didn’t. Why I get a title and the nation’s thanks when all they got was a grave in the dust of
Lucien swallowed hard, shaken by his brother’s words.
Damien looked at him starkly, dried tears staining his rugged cheeks in the moonlight. “Do me a favor. If I do go completely lunatic, put me out of my misery. You’d do that for me, wouldn’t you? I don’t care how. Poison me; shoot me; just don’t put me in an asylum, because they really can’t cure you, and I don’t want people coming to look at me for their amusement, laughing at me. Anything but that.”
“Shh.” Lucien cut him off, putting his arm around him in a brotherly half hug. He held him like that for a long moment, his mind going back to when they were children and Damien would comfort him after the terror of one of his asthma attacks.
He leaned his head against Damien’s and willed him to be all right. “You’re not going mad. It’s just going to take you some time to get used to civilian life again. Lord, Demon, you were in nearly every major action that was fought. You can’t expect to come out of that entirely unscathed. It will pass.”
“I hope you’re right.”
“Do you want me to send for some of the chaps from your regiment?
“God, no. I don’t want them to see me like this.” Damien let out a low sigh. “What the hell am I supposed to do?” he asked in a stoic tone deadened by despair. “I’ve served my purpose, and now it’s done. There’s only one thing I know how to do anymore, and that’s kill.”
Lucien sat down on the floor next to him, watching his face in worry. “Maybe you should get away from
“Before I hurt someone, you mean?” He dragged his eyes open and looked at Lucien with a cynical smile. “Don’t worry; I’ll be all right. It’s passed now. I just need to get laid,” he added wryly. “Good night for it. I’m sure the girls are out in full force, ready for business.”
“Are you sure that’s a good idea?”
“Works better than the bloody laudanum.” He climbed to his feet and stood up straight, shrugging the tension out of his shoulders.
As Lucien rose stiffly, as well, he could almost see Damien donning his mental armor, becoming once more the famed colonel, proud as ever, totally in control of himself and the world around him, as though none of this had ever happened. It saddened him, but at least Damien seemed to be feeling stable again. Damien opened the window and inhaled a few breaths of the chilly night air. He avoided Lucien’s gaze. “Please tell Miss Montague I am sorry for frightening her.”
“No apology necessary.
“I didn’t want you to know.”