Authors: Daniel Alarcon
Lost City Radio
A NOVEL
Q.E.P.D.
Javier Antonio Alarcón Guzmán
1948â1989
It is the people who are executed and the people who make up the firing squad; the people are both vague randomness and precise law. There are no tricks, nor can there be.
âCARLOS MONSIVÃIS
They took Norma off the air that Tuesday morning becauseâ¦
Of course, he'd heard Norma's voice before. In 1797, the ownerâ¦
If Norma were honest, she might remember Rey's disappearance asâ¦
Years ago, a lifetime ago, it went this way: onâ¦
Norma is not a mother. Not in any sense, notâ¦
Elijah Manau was a rosy-cheeked man from the capital,â¦
She had held it in her hands, glanced over theâ¦
When he was still a young professor, as the warâ¦
Manau arrived in the city and inhaled. Its odor wasâ¦
For Norma, the war began fourteen years earlier, the dayâ¦
During the summer of the eighth year of the war,â¦
The portrait was spread on the coffee table, its frayedâ¦
The government had not survived nearly a decade of rebellionâ¦
There were rules, of course, even that first night. Theâ¦
It was two in the morning when they climbed intoâ¦
T
HEY TOOK
Norma off the air that Tuesday morning because a boy was dropped off at the station. He was quiet and thin and had a note. The receptionists let him through. A meeting was called.
The conference room was full of light and had an expansive view of the city, looking east toward the mountains. When Norma walked in, Elmer was seated at the head of the table, rubbing his face as if he'd been woken from a restless, unsatisfying sleep. He nodded as she sat, then yawned and fiddled with the top of a pill bottle he'd taken from his pocket. “Go for some water,” he groaned to his assistant. “And empty these ashtrays, Len. Jesus.”
The boy sat across from Elmer, in a stiff wooden chair, staring down at his feet. He was slender and fragile, and his eyes were too small for his face. His head had been shavedâto kill lice, Norma supposed. There were the faint beginnings of a mustache above his lips. His shirt was threadbare, and his unhemmed pants were knotted around his waist with a shoestring.
Norma sat closest to him, her back to the door, facing the white city.
Len reappeared with a pitcher of water. It was choked with bubbles, tinged gray. Elmer poured himself a glass and swallowed two pills. He coughed into his hand. “Let's get right to it,” Elmer said when Len had sat. “We're sorry to interrupt the news, Norma, but we wanted you to meet Victor.”
“Tell her how old you are, boy,” Len said.
“I'm eleven,” the child said, his voice barely audible. “And a half.”
Len cleared his throat, glanced at Elmer, as if for permission to speak. With a nod from his boss, he began. “That's a terrific age,” Len said. “Now, you came looking for Norma, isn't that right?”
“Yes,” Victor said.
“Do you know him?”
Norma didn't.
“He says he came from the jungle,” Len continued. “We thought you'd want to meet him. For the show.”
“Great,” she said. “Thank you.”
Elmer stood and walked to the window. He was a silhouette against the hazy brightness. Norma knew that panorama: the city below, stretching to the horizon and still farther. With your forehead to the glass, you could see down to the street, to that broad avenue choked with traffic and people, with buses and moto-taxis and vegetable carts. Or life on the city's rooftops: clothes hanging on a line next to rusting chicken coops, old men playing cards on a milk crate, dogs barking angrily, teeth bared at the heavy sea air. She'd even seen a man once, sitting on his yellow hard hat, sobbing.
If Elmer saw anything now, he didn't seem interested. He turned back to them. “Not just from the jungle, Norma. From 1797.”
Norma sat up straight. “What are you telling me, Elmer?”
It was one of the rumors they knew to be true: mass graves, anonymous villagers, murdered and tossed into ditches. They'd never reported it, of course. No one had. They hadn't spoken of this in years. She felt something heavy in her chest.
“It's probably nothing,” Elmer said. “Let's show her the note.”
From his pocket, Victor produced a piece of paper, presumably the
same one he had shown the receptionist. He passed it to Elmer, who put on his reading glasses and cleared his throat. He read aloud:
Dear Miss Norma:
This child is named Victor. He is from Village 1797 in the eastern jungle. We, the residents of 1797, have pooled our monies together and sent him to the city. We want a better life for Victor. There is no future for him here. Please help us. Attached find our list of lost people. Perhaps one of these individuals will be able to care for the boy. We listen to Lost City Radio every week. We love your show.
Your biggest fans,
Village 1797
“Norma,” Elmer said, “I'm sorry. We wanted to tell you ourselves. He'd be great for the show, but we wanted to warn you first.”
“I'm fine.” She rubbed her eyes and took a deep breath. “I'm fine.”
Norma hated the numbers. Before, every town had a name; an unwieldy, millenarian name inherited from God-knows-which extinct people, names with hard consonants that sounded like stone grinding against stone. But everything was being modernized, even the recondite corners of the nation. This was all postconflict, a new government policy. They said people were forgetting the old systems. Norma wondered. “Do you know what they used to call your village?” she asked the boy.
Victor shook his head.
Norma closed her eyes for a second. He'd probably been taught to say that. When the war ended, the government confiscated the old maps. They were taken off the shelves at the National Library, turned in by private citizens, cut out of school textbooks, and burned. Norma had covered it for the radio, had mingled with the excited crowd that gathered at Newtown Plaza to watch. Once, Victor's village had a name, but it was lost now. Her husband, Rey, had vanished near there, just before the Illegitimate Legion was defeated. This was at the end of the insurrection, ten years before. She was still waiting for him.
“Are you all right, Miss Norma?” the boy asked in a small, reedy voice.
She opened her eyes.
“What a polite young man,” Len said. He leaned forward, rested his elbows on the table, and patted the boy on his bald head.
Norma waited for a moment, counting to ten. She picked up the paper and read it again. The script was steady and deliberate. She pictured it: a town council gathering to decide whose penmanship was best. How folkloric. On the back was a list of names. “Our Missin
g
,” it said, the end of the
g
curling upward in an optimistic flourish. She couldn't bear to read them. Each was a cipher, soulless, faceless, sometime humans, a harvest of names to be read on the air. She passed the note back to Elmer. The idea of it made her inexplicably sleepy.
“Do you know these people?” Elmer asked the boy.
“No,” Victor said. “A few.”
“Who brought you to the station?”
“My teacher. His name is Manau.”
“Where is he?” asked Len.
“He left me.”
“Why did they send you?”
“I don't know.”
“Your mother?” Norma asked.
“She's dead.”
Norma apologized; Len took copious notes.
“Father?” said Elmer.
The boy shrugged. “I'd like some water, please.”
Elmer poured the boy a glass, and Victor drank greedily, trickles of water running down the sides of his mouth. When he finished, he wiped his lips on the sleeve of his shirt.
“There's more,” Elmer said, smiling. “Have some more.”
But Victor shook his head and looked out the window. Norma followed his gaze. It was a colorless, late-winter day in the city, the soft outline of the mountains disappearing behind the fog. There was nothing to see.
“What do you want me to do?” Norma asked.
Elmer pursed his lips. He motioned for Len to take the boy. Victor rose and left the room without protest. Elmer didn't speak again until
he and Norma were alone. He scratched his head, then held up the pill bottle. “These are for stress, you know. My doctor says I spend too much time here.”
“You do.”
“You do too,” he said.
“What's on your mind, Elmer?”
“The show isn't doing well.” He paused, choosing his words carefully. “Am I right to say that?”
“Two reunions in six weeks. People don't want to be found this time of year. We always pick up in spring.”
Elmer frowned and put his pills away. “This boy, Norma: he's good. Did you hear him? He has a nice, helpless voice.”
“He hardly said a word.”
“Now wait a second, hear me out. This is what I'm thinking: a big show on Sunday. I know 1797 is touchy with you, and I respect that, I do. That's why I wanted to introduce you to him myself. He doesn't know anything about the war. He's too young. So spend the week with him, Norma. It won't be so bad.”
“What about his people?”
“What about them? They'll show up. Or we'll get a few actors and he won't know the difference.”
“You're joking.”
Elmer put his hand on her shoulder. His eyes were small and black. “You know me, Norma: I'm mostly joking. I'm not a radio man anymore, you forget that. I'm a businessman. If we don't find anyone, we'll send him home, bus ticket's on us. Or we'll give him to the nuns. Point is, he'll give the show a pick-me-up. And we need this, Norma.”
“What about the teacher?”
“What about him? The prick. He should be in jail for abandoning a child. We can call him out Sunday too.”
She looked at her hands; they were pale and wrinkled in a way that she never could have imagined. This is what growing old was, after all.
“What?” Elmer asked.
“I'm tired. That's all. The idea of getting some guy lynched for abandonmentâ¦It's not why I get up in the morning.”
Elmer grinned. “And why do you get up, dear?”
When she didn't answer, Elmer put his hand on her shoulder. “That's life, Norma.”
“Fine,” she said after a while.
“Good. Can he stay with you?”
“You want me to babysit?”
“Well.”
“Give me the week off.”
“A day.”
“Three.”
Elmer shook his head and smiled. “Two, and we'll talk.” He was already standing. “You do great things for this radio station, Norma. Great things. And we appreciate it. The people love you.” He knocked on the door, and a moment later, Len came back in with the boy. Elmer beamed and rubbed the boy's head. Len sat the boy down. “Here he is, here's my champ,” Elmer said. “Well, son. You'll be staying with Norma for a while. She's very nice and you have nothing to worry about.”
The boy looked a bit frightened. Norma smiled, and then Elmer and Len were gone and she was alone with the boy. The note was there on the table. She put it in her pocket. Victor stared off into the wide, alabaster sky.
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H
ER VOICE
was her greatest asset, her career and her fate. Elmer called it gold that stank of empathy. Before he disappeared, Rey claimed he fell in love again every time she said good morning. You should have been a singer, he said, though she couldn't even carry a tune. Norma had worked in radio all her life, beginning as a reporter, graduating to newsreader, redeeming the tragedies it fell on her to announce. She was a natural: she knew when to let her voice waver, when to linger on a word, what texts to tear through and read as if the words themselves were on fire. The worst news she read softly, without urgency, as if it were poetry. The day Victor arrived, there was a suicide bomber in Palestine, an oil spill off the coast of Spain, and a new champion in American baseball. Nothing extraordinary and nothing that affected the country. Reading foreign news was a kind of pretending, Norma thought, this listing of everyday things only confirming how peripheral we are: a nation at the edge of the world, a make-believe country outside history. For local news, she
relied on the station's policy, which was also the government's policy: to read good news with indifference and make bad news sound hopeful. No one was more skilled than Norma; in her vocal caresses, unemployment figures read like bittersweet laments, declarations of war like love letters. News of mudslides became awestruck meditations on the mysteries of nature, and the twenty or fifty or one hundred dead disappeared in the telling of it. This was her life on weekdays: morning readings of foreign and local disastersâbuses plunging off the mountain highways, shootouts echoing in the slums by the river, and, in the faraway distance, the rest of the world. Saturdays off, and Sunday evenings, back at the station for her signature show, Lost City Radio, a program for missing people.
The idea was simple. How many refugees had come to the city? How many of them had lost touch with their families? Hundreds of thousands? Millions? The station saw it as a way to profit from the unrest; in the show's ten years on the air, Norma had come to see it as a way to look for her husband. A conflict of interest, Elmer said, but he put her on anyway. Hers was the most trusted and well-loved voice in the country, a phenomenon she herself couldn't explain. Every Sunday night, for an hour, since the last year of the war, Norma took calls from people who imagined she had special powers, that she was mantic and all-seeing, able to pluck the lost, estranged, and missing from the moldering city. Strangers addressed her by her first name and pleaded to be heard. My brother, they'd say, left the village years ago to look for work in the city. His name isâ¦He lives in a district calledâ¦He wrote us letters and then the war began. Norma would cut them off if they seemed determined to speak of the war. It was always preferable to avoid unpleasant topics. So instead she asked questions about the scent of their mother's cooking, or the sound of the wind keening through the valley. The river, the color of the sky. With her prodding, the callers revisited village life and all that had been left behind, inviting their lost people to remember with them: Are you there, brother? And Norma listened, and then repeated the names in her mellifluous voice, and the board would light up with calls, lonely red lights, people longing to be found. Of course, some were impostors, and these were the saddest of all.
Lost City Radio had become the most popular show in the country. Three, sometimes four times a month, there were grand reunions, and
these were documented and celebrated with great fanfare. The emotions were authentic: the reunited families traveling from their cramped homes at the edges of the city, arriving at the station with squawking chickens and bulging bags of riceâgifts for Miss Norma. In the parking lot of the station, they'd dance and drink and sing into the early hours of the morning. Norma greeted them all as they lined up to thank her. They were humble people. Tears would well up in their eyes when they met herânot when they saw her, but when she spoke: that voice. The photographers took pictures, and Elmer saw to it the best images were slapped on billboards, pure and happy images hovering above the serrated city skyline, families, now whole again, wearing resplendent smiles. Norma herself never appeared in the photos; Elmer felt it was best to cultivate the mystery.