Mother of Darkwaters: Book one of the Vessel series

Mother of Darkwaters – Book one of the Vessel Series.

Tony C. Skye

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Warning of Content: Sexual content and suggestive themes, violence, alcohol and drug usage, language, content may not be suited for younger children. Other content may be offensive to some readers.

Table of Contents

Prologue
    

Chapter 1:
Lost Within 

Chapter 2:
The Library 

Chapter 3:
Connections

Chapter 4:
Dear Diary  

Chapter 5:
The Black Stormy Sea   

Chapter 6:
Union

Chapter 7:
When Tomorrow Comes

Chapter 8:
The Red Key         

Chapter 9:
Veeeek-tor-riahhhh         

Chapter 10:
Blasphemy

Chapter 11:
Lesson for Today

Chapter 12:
Assuming  

Chapter 13:
Friends      

Chapter 14:
Chemistry 

Chapter 15:
Interlude    

Chapter 16:
Stones       

Chapter 17:
Revelations         

Chapter 18:
Boundaries

Chapter 19:
Confessions        

Chapter 20:
Date Night

Chapter 21:
Cold Realities     

Chapter 22:
When it Snows   

Chapter 23:
Welcome Home   

Chapter 24:
Family Bonds     

Dictionary:
Language of Lilith

Prologue

   My name is unknown to me. I am not even sure if I've ever been given one to begin with. I cannot tell anyone how old I am strictly from a birthday perspective. I have seen many of them, but none of which I could call my own.

   I am completely unsure of whether or not I have ever been born; at least, within the sense of the term involving a biological existence. It is quite obvious to me that my existence had to have started somewhere - in some place - within a specific frame of time. Especially, as I contemplate the concepts of eternity. Because I know I cannot be eternal. I would know
that
much about myself...surely.

   How long is someone of my particular structuring supposed to live? How do we die? I have never met anyone else like myself. Nor, have I even heard of such a predicament in which I currently find myself.

   Does someone like me just cease to exist as if a switch has been flipped? Is there some unseen clock counting down my right to be? Is there any warning when this date with my permanent departure approaches? Or will I just not wake up anymore? So many questions…too many.

   I suppose for today, I will choose to live as I always do. I will try to help this person I have awoken inside of. Or at the very least, I will try to figure out why I am here. You might think after so many times I would have all of this figured out by now. And after so many different lives I could somehow become tired and bored of everything. Frustrated sometimes - never bored.

   I am this person I am inside of today. I could be here for one sleep-cycle or a thousand of them. There's no rhyme or reason to the madness. I have tried to find mathematical, lunar, seasonal, and yearly patterns. In the end it seems, overwhelmingly, that there is no pattern to be had.

   And while I do become frustrated within this regard; I could not, however, ever become bored. For every new body brings on new experiences. Yes, they are somewhat similar. But never identical. Every life is unique in its own way. And in this respect, I am both cursed and blessed. I am able to experience so much of this extraordinary existence within these people's lives. But it is definitely not all grandeur either.

   These experiences can be frightful - downright horrifying at times. And some experiences are extremely sorrowful. So much so, I have been forced to grieve more times than I really care to tally. Then there's always those really interesting moments. The ones in which I have awoken inside of a person experiencing some kind of extreme physical trauma. There's really no way to describe what it's like to fall asleep with a smile on your face, only to wake up screaming in agony as you’re being carted away by strangers into some random hospital. These experiences, most definitely, I would be inclined to categorize into the realm of the cursed.

   But there is another side to this crazy coin of my existence. Imagine for a moment, you go to bed and fall asleep. The next time you open your eyes, you are laughing so hysterically that you must hold your belly and ribs from the pain of it all. Your jawline and cheeks are sore. And then it all begins to sink in. You have no idea why you are laughing. You don't know where you are, what you look like, how old your body is, or even if you are male or female. You know absolutely nothing about these first five to ten seconds.

   To top things off, you are sitting inside of a strange room full of people in whom you have never met in your life. Every single one of them is looking at you with expectant eyes. You have no idea what they are waiting for you to say or do. And your mind is a complete blank. A big fat goose-egg of a zero. Yes, that's me right now.

   On the bright side, I didn't wake up screaming in grueling agony this time. That's always a plus. It's quite a moment to have someone yell, 'Clear!', and then have your whole being flooded with electricity because of some brief malfunction of a heart monitor. It's just too many goodies for one bag.

   And as crazy as all of this may sound, there is an even greater downside than all of the previous. I wake up inside of a body, but do not get the benefit of their memories. Not completed ones anyway. The memories are always fragmented. I may have a memory of this person's day yesterday, but not today. Or today, but not the last five years. Or even five years ago, but nothing prior to or afterwards. This is always a puzzle I am faced with.

   I do not understand why this happens. I only know that it does. It may be due to my intrusion into this person's life. I am just not sure. And this particular peculiarity brings up another puzzle altogether. Where does the person go in whom I have awakened inside of?

   If they are still here I do not feel them. I can't hear any thoughts which are not my own. I do not feel any odd or strange internal tugging, per se. Are they still here, but asleep? Or are they helplessly locked away while I live out their lives – doomed to only watch from behind the glass which silences their screams?

   I really hope the latter is not the case. It would do more than freak me out a little. This is why I tell myself that they have just fallen asleep. Fallen asleep inside of the mind in which they no longer seem to be able to cope. And this is how I choose to believe. It's my own macabre way of coping about my own twisted and confusing existence.

Chapter 1 

   Lost Within

   “Jules?”

   An older man's voice speaks out into this room of confusion in which I now sit. His hair is black with sporadic silver streaking. Wrinkles of wisdom highlights underneath his dark brown rounded eyes; or at least, this is my take on wrinkles. It beats saying,
wrinkles which are proudly announcing your impending death old man
.

   The older gentleman of around sixty years has darkened skin. It is obvious he must spend a lot of time outside. And his tall masculine frame suggests that he may indeed be in decent shape for his age. His mouth moves subtly as though he is going to speak again, but has decided against it. He is staring at me. Come to think of it, the entire room's patrons are following his lead.

    A strange hand finds my left shoulder. My body twitches in response. A woman who seems to be in her mid to late fifties kneels before me. Deep blue eyes accent her full lips. She has long red hair. It drapes around her sporty athletic frame like a beautifully adorned weeping willow tree. Her skin has such a soft white glow about it, almost angelic.

   This red-haired angel slightly nods towards a doorway to my left. Her lips move.   

   “Frank, get her some water,” her words quietly come forth. I notice the older gentleman heading to the area in which the woman has directed. I attempt to look, but cannot move my head.

  
What's going on? Am I paralyzed? No, I can't be. I was just holding my belly in a fit of laughter.

   The woman speaks tenderly, ”I know it’s all confusing, baby. Laughing is good.” Her hand leaves my shoulder to wipe the water coming from my eyes. Such a gentle touch she has - so much comfort to fill my emptiness.

  
Oh no. I recognize this feeling…Grief.

    That's just great. And for a brief misguided moment I thought my biggest problem at hand was going to be figuring out why I was laughing. Well, I suppose I did.

   I absolutely loathe grieving. It is so chaotic and painful. One minute your emotions are flooding over like the gate of a dam has been breached. And in the next, your mind is completely blank with utter exhaustion. Your will for being is gone. There's no desire to eat, shower, or even to take a breath. The simplest objectives now seem to be too difficult to manage. Or more times than not, remedial everyday tasks have lost their importance altogether.

   I do know that grieving properly is a must. No matter how much I don't like it. I've attempted to short-cut my way through it before. Let's just say the results were a tiny bit more than destructive. It's not a scene in which I care to revisit anytime soon.

   “Here you go sweetie,” the woman takes the water-filled glass from the man she addressed earlier as Frank. She places it into my unsure hands and helps to mold them around its curvature before standing up. She takes a small step back while watching me with concerning eyes.

   I feel the gigantic thirst inside of my throat. My tongue is thick and dry. I just don't feel like lifting the heavy burden. I'm so tired. But I must. I know better than to neglect this body I have awoken inside of.

   I force trembling hands to lift the relentless weight of water to my crackly lips. I gag down as much of the clear fluid as I can stomach. Dehydration is one less thing to think about. And you can take my word for it, less is better in this situation.

   With her hands folded into a position of reverence, the beautiful woman addresses the mysterious faces within this enormous gathering room. Her voice soothes, “Okay everyone. We all thank you for being here today. We appreciate your kind words in this terrible time. You all mean so much to us.”

   Those lovely blue angelic-eyes look at me before scanning the room of faces once more. She continues, “I believe Julia needs some rest. She's had a long day. In fact, I think we all could use some much needed rest.”

   Like he had been waiting for his cue, Frank walks over and opens two large wooden doors. He stands to one side to bid the guests farewell. One by one these strange faces appear in my view. Some people touch me. Some kiss my forehead or cheek. And others nod as a sign of their respect for me.

   The assembly line is almost comical as each one says something or another to me, moves to the red-haired woman and hugs her, and then shakes Frank's hand on their way out of the large Victorian-style entryway. I, also, took this opportunity to mentally note one of the guests calling the red-hair woman by the name of Martha.

   Frank and Martha. What a cliché. I wouldn't be surprised to find a field of corn, wheat, or cotton in the backyard. And it's probably connected to a fence surrounding a cattle grazing arena.

  
Yee-Haw!  

   Okay, maybe that isn't fair. I'll reserve judgments until I look for myself. Odds are on the high side, however, that there is an apple begging to be shoved into a pig’s mouth for dinner. After all, that's just good 'ole fashioned down home cookin'.