Mr Lynch’s Holiday (11 page)

They could hear the radio on in the kitchen, Aggie’s high-pitched voice singing along, missing every note. There was a lingering smell of bacon in the hallway, though there’d been none at breakfast. She’d set down a plate of eggs, announcing ‘Ash Wednesday’ as she did, and Dermot’s stomach had rumbled a blasphemous response.

The lino was loose on the lodging-house stairs and he cursed as he slipped a step. He turned back to Matty, coming down behind him: ‘How is it you never fall?’

‘I know which one to miss.’

‘Would it hurt them to put in a light bulb?’

‘It’s the third from the top.’

‘Or, God forbid, nail down the lino?’

‘I just step over it.’

‘I don’t know what use he is at all. She may as well run the place by herself.’

‘There’s no point getting aerated.’ Matty opened the front door. ‘You’ll be gone soon enough.’

After mass they walked up to the Vaults with the black smudges still on their foreheads.

‘So, not long now, is it?’

‘No. Three weeks. A gay bachelor no more I’ll be.’

‘You’re the lucky one.’

‘I don’t know,’ replied Dermot, but he smiled as he said it. ‘The honeymoon itinerary keeps expanding. I tell her we’re only there for a week, but her family seem to have made it a point to scatter as widely as they can across the country. She
has an aunt in Donegal and a sister in Cork. I’m to meet them all, apparently.’

‘You’ll be kept busy.’

‘I will.’

‘I still say you’re the lucky one.’

‘I am. I know. I am.’

‘She has looks and brains too, so she has.’

Dermot smiled.

‘What?’

‘You make her sound like a racehorse.’

‘I didn’t mean to.’

Matty looked embarrassed and Dermot felt bad for him. ‘No, you’re right. She’s a great girl. I don’t know what she’s doing with me at all.’

Matty grinned. ‘Neither do I.’

‘That’s enough of that. Some of those younger lads chasing her, Brylcreem boys. Flash Harries. They weren’t her style at all.’

‘Showering her with diamonds, were they? Now why would she want that?’

‘I don’t think there were many diamonds. All talk those boys. The patter, you know? She’d have you screaming, the way she sends them up.’

‘Well,’ Matty drained his glass, ‘you’re moving up in the world. Away from the old stamping ground. Soon there’ll be no one left at all.’

He got the bus into town and waited for her in the Kardomah by Snow Hill. He was always five minutes early and she was always five minutes late. He’d say: ‘You’re not a truly late person. There’s a consistency there. Always five minutes. Why don’t you leave five minutes early?’

And she’d say: ‘Why don’t you leave ten minutes late?’

The truth was he liked the wait, the anticipation of her arrival. He’d look out the window and what he saw was a kind of chaos, an abstract pattern of faces and wheels and legs and bags and hats and umbrellas until the moment when it all came together, the split second when she emerged from the crowd and everything snapped into place. The world complete.

There was something dramatic about her entrances. Her hair blown from being on the bike, her face glowing, a slight breathlessness as she swept through the café. He always stood to greet a lady, but with Kathleen it was never courtesy or manners, it was an involuntary response. His legs straightening of their own accord, propelling him up to hold her, to catch her somehow. She kissed him on the cheek and he held her close for a moment, before she pushed him gently away.

‘People are looking.’

‘They should. Good God, we’re a handsome pair.’ He whispered, ‘Can you imagine the children we’ll have? People will weep when they see them.’

She laughed and they sat down.

‘Did you get the train tickets organized?’

‘I did, yes. And the boat. And the hotel for the first night. You’ve nothing to worry about.’

‘I was having these funny thoughts cycling in.’

‘Were they about the hotel? The honeymoon suite? A night of romance and passion?’

‘They were not!’

‘I don’t know that I’m interested, then.’

‘Do you remember Audrey Hepburn in
Roman Holiday
?’

‘Was that the one with Bogie?’

‘No. That was
Sabrina
.
Roman Holiday
had Gregory Peck. They were in Rome. On holiday.’

‘Oh, I remember!’

‘I was just thinking: imagine if we were going on honeymoon to Rome. Could you imagine that? Wouldn’t it be magical?’

‘We’re going on honeymoon to Ireland, Kathleen. It’s all booked.’

‘I know. I know. And that will be grand. It’ll be great to see everyone. I was just daydreaming. Just the idea of it. Can you imagine being in a place like that?’

Dermot smiled. ‘Well … it would be something, wouldn’t it? The history of the place.’

‘That’s what I was thinking. And the glamour. My God. The people there are so good-looking.’

‘So, day one, what would we do? I’d say we’d go to the Colosseum, what do you reckon?’

‘Oh, Dermot!
Ben Hur
! Do you remember that?
Spartacus
! Tony Curtis!’

‘I don’t know that we’d see him.’

‘I can picture you in a toga.’

‘I’m not sure about that.’

‘I think you’d look regal. Imperious. Like Larry Olivier.’

‘More like a Mint Imperial. Anyway, day two, what do you fancy? The Trevi Fountain or the Spanish Steps?’

‘Well, maybe day two we should go and pay our respects to His Holiness.’

‘Oh yes. His Holiness. I was forgetting him. He’d be most put out if we didn’t pay him a visit.’

‘So there’d be the Sistine Chapel and the Basilica.’

‘St Peter’s.’

‘Then we could do the fountain and the Spanish Steps the day after that.’

‘We’d be eating a lot of spaghetti.’

‘And driving around on mopeds.’

The waitress brought their coffees. Kathleen smiled.

‘Ah, well. If we squint, maybe we’ll be able to imagine Thurles as the Villa Borghese Gardens.’

‘You might be better off shutting your eyes altogether.’

‘It’ll be lovely anyway.’

‘It will. We can go to Italy another time.’

She laughed and he looked at her.

‘What? What’s so funny? Maybe we will.’

‘Maybe,’ she said.

‘You sound like you’ve gone off the idea.’

‘We were just joking about, Dermot.’ She reached across and squeezed his hand.

After weeks of rain, it was bright and blustery on the wedding day. Dermot’s older brother Joe came down from Liverpool to be the best man; the bridesmaid’s headdress blew off into a tree during the photos and the priest got Kathleen’s name wrong. Matty wished them well and bought them a gift even though Dermot had told him not to. It was a figurine. A shoeless child sat at a well. A funny thing really. The child’s expression somewhat sad, her eyes large. A faithful puppy nuzzling into her side. It sat on the dresser throughout their marriage, part of the sitting-room scenery, its provenance half-remembered, its strangeness gone.

His footsteps slowed to a stop. He closed his eyes and saw his mother in the kitchen. The blue dress she wore on Sundays to play the church organ. She would sing as she prepared the dinner. Dermot found the words were still there:

‘Hail, Queen of heaven, the ocean star,

Guide of the wanderer here below,

Thrown on life’s surge, we claim thy care,

Save us from peril and from woe.’

‘That’s nice.’ He opened his eyes. A woman was standing at her front door. It took him a moment to place her as the Swedish woman.

‘I’m sorry.’ He remained standing in the same spot. ‘I think it was the smell.’

‘Sorry?’

‘Roast lamb. It reminds me of my mother.’

‘Oh. Yes. One minute we are walking along a street, the next we are in another time and place, like we have fallen down a hole.’ She blew smoke from a cigarette. ‘It was lovely to hear someone singing though.’

He shook his head. ‘There’s something wrong with my brain. The things it decides to keep and the things it decides to lose. Like a maniac housekeeper in there.’

She smiled.

‘We’ve not really met in the best circumstances. I’m Inga, hello.’

He held out his hand. ‘Dermot.’

‘So, come in, please, help me eat this lamb.’

He was mortified at the suggestion. ‘Oh. No, no. Thank you, that’s very kind, but no.’ Did she imagine he just lingered around people’s doorways, sniffing the air and waiting for an invitation?

‘Why not? Have you already had lunch?’ Her tone was almost abrupt.

‘Well, no, not yet, I was just heading back for … something.’

‘Is it roast lamb?’

‘I don’t know exactly what … I doubt it.’

‘Well, then, you would be helping me. I have too much. I’ll end up giving half to the cats.’

He found her directness quite unsettling. He had no desire to make conversation with a stranger, he had been looking forward to a little nap, but he saw no way now of refusing without appearing ungracious.

‘Well, in that case, thank you. I wouldn’t want the cats to be getting too fat now.’

The house was sparsely furnished. A wooden-framed sofa, an easy chair, a coffee table covered in books. She brought him a glass of water with a slice of lime floating about in it.

‘Take a seat, please, I won’t be long.’

He did as he was told and tried to look relaxed. Leaning against every wall were paintings in various states of completion. His heart sank. Eamonn had once tried to convince him that a cow cut in half was art. He’d told his son then that if that was art then he was welcome to it. He’d said if that was art, then so was his sock, to which Eamonn had said ‘Exactly’ and Dermot had wondered if his son was half-witted. Cautiously, he cocked his head to one side to look at one of the large canvasses. Some weeds sprouting up from the pavement. Why would anyone want to paint such a thing? He
thanked God he could at least see what it was; that was a start.

She walked in and saw him looking.

‘Do you like it?’

He said the only thing he could. ‘You do them well … the weeds. They look like them all right.’

‘Thank you. I suppose I don’t really see them as weeds.’

‘Oh, right.’

He waited to see if she would say what she really did see them as, but instead she said, ‘Come. We’ll eat outside.’

He’d grown used to the sun-drenched terraces of Lomaverde with their unvarying views of the horizon, but Inga’s garden was small and enclosed. Around the perimeter was a high fence, covered in an array of vegetation.

He smiled at the improbability of the place – lush and shaded. It seemed at odds with the woman herself. ‘You have a lovely garden.’ He walked over to some geraniums. ‘You’ve had more luck with these than I have this year.’

‘You enjoy gardening?’

‘I do. When we get the sun, which isn’t so often.’

‘Here it’s the water that’s the problem. I have to remember that it’s a luxury and try to be as sparing as I can.’

Dermot wondered if she was going to start on about recycling and global warming and all the rest of it, she looked like the type who might, but instead she disappeared back into the kitchen and re-emerged with the food. She carried out a large bowl of salad as colourful as her garden, followed by some bread, wine and, last of all, the leg of lamb.

‘Would you like me to carve it?’ It was the wrong thing to say, he knew as soon as he’d said it. The kind of thing Eamonn would jump on him for. Why would a woman need a man to cut the meat? Didn’t they have arms and hands just like him?

She considered the offer, then shrugged and handed him the
knife. ‘Why not? It’s nice sometimes to be served by someone else. When you live by yourself there are good things and bad things.’

He nodded. ‘My wife, she always felt the cold. Some years we had the heating on even in summer. I got used to the heat, I suppose, but not the lack of fresh air. That stuffiness – sometimes I couldn’t stand it. God help you if you opened a window though, she hated the draughts, so I’d go outside in the garden for five or ten minutes to fill my lungs. Now I sleep with my windows open and I feel the night air in the room around me and, well … it’s a fine feeling …’ He trailed off. It was the first time he had spoken of Kathleen to this stranger and it sounded like a criticism. ‘I miss her very much though,’ he added too loudly, and wished to God he’d gone straight back to Eamonn’s.

Inga pulled off a chunk of bread. ‘Is she dead or did she leave you?’

It was certainly a contrast to the small talk at Jean and David’s. ‘She’s dead.’

She nodded. ‘Was that recent?’

‘About seven months ago, but she’d not been well for years.’

‘I’m sorry. That must have been very hard.’ She paused. ‘My husband, he didn’t die, so I don’t have that grief. We divorced eighteen months ago now. Each day without him has been …’ she paused, searching for the right word ‘… a joy.’ He looked up at her sharply and she held his gaze for a moment before breaking into a wide grin. ‘I’m sorry, you look so shocked.’

‘No, no, not at all …’

‘You are, I’m sorry. Forgive me, I get out of the habit of talking to people and then I get it all wrong.’

He shrugged. ‘I get it wrong often enough, my son would tell you that.’

‘Sons and daughters like nothing better than telling their
parents off.’ She laughed. ‘And the incredible thing is that they know absolutely nothing.’

Dermot smiled. ‘So, you’re from Sweden?’

‘My accent gives me away.’

He shook his head. ‘No. I heard an accent, but I didn’t know where it was from.’ He hesitated. ‘If I don’t recognize an accent I tend to assume the person’s from Luxembourg. I don’t know why.’ He was silent for a moment. ‘I’ve never been to Luxembourg.’ He had no idea why he was making such admissions. He sounded like the village idiot.

‘I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone from Luxembourg.’

Dermot nodded. ‘I don’t suppose I have either.’

She laughed. ‘And you, your accent is Irish?’

‘Ah, now you’re showing off.’

‘OK, I confess, I’m cheating. I wouldn’t really be able to tell the accent. I can hear it’s not English, but it could be Scottish or – what’s the other one?’

‘Welsh?’

‘Scouse. But I know your name is Irish, so I took an educated guess.’

‘Like Sherlock Holmes.’

‘Oh, please, I hope I’m not like him. I never thought he was a nice man. Always so unpleasant to Dr Watson.’

Dermot was surprised. ‘Was that not because Dr Watson was an idiot?’

She laughed. ‘Poor Dr Watson. I always wanted him to solve the case, just to show Sherlock Holmes that you didn’t have to be rude and grumpy to be clever, but he always let me down.’

‘You were backing the wrong horse there.’

‘That’s the story of my life.’ She lit a cigarette. ‘Do you mind?’

He shook his head and she looked at him. ‘So, from Ireland and you live in England. We’re both immigrants, then.’

Dermot frowned. ‘I suppose so. I don’t tend to think of myself as that.’

‘Oh? You no longer consider yourself Irish?’

‘No, I do, I do, of course, but I don’t really think of myself as an immigrant any more. It seems a long time ago.’

‘You don’t miss Ireland?’

He thought for a moment. ‘I miss all kinds of things, but I’m not sure I’d ever find them by moving back. I know people who’ve made a big to-do about going back home, the prodigal returning, and the next thing you know you bump into them round the corner.’

‘It doesn’t work?’

He shook his head. ‘It’s like … they’ve held this idea of Ireland in their head for forty years, you know, the place they sing about in all the songs. They get there and it’s not the place they left, of course it’s not, it never was, and they’re not the people they were.’

She nodded. ‘I don’t miss Sweden.’

‘Did you not like it there?’

‘There are things about it I love, but also a lot of not so happy memories. It felt good to begin again somewhere new.’

‘A fresh start.’

She smiled. ‘When I first came here, my paintings were very simple, very clean. A sunset. The distant horizon. A white house against a blue sky. That’s all I wanted to paint.’

‘But not now?’

‘No. Not now.’

‘Now you like painting … wild plants.’

She laughed. ‘Weeds. It’s OK. We can call them that.’

‘You like painting weeds.’

‘Not just weeds. All kinds of things. The bits of Lomaverde that were not in the brochures. The weeds. The cats. The puddles by cracked pipes. The things that living places have. The things that cannot be designed.’

‘I’m afraid I’m not very artistic. I see those things and I want to fix them, to tidy them up.’

‘Of course. That’s normal. Most times I do too.’

‘That’s a relief. I was beginning to feel bad about pulling up the dandelions.’

She smiled at him. ‘Why feel bad? We pull them up, we concrete over them, but soon they are there again. They always break through.’

He took a sip of the wine she had poured for him. He had never been one for wine, but the taste was softer than he remembered.

‘They do,’ he said. ‘There’s something to be said for resilience.’