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Authors: Kylie Quillinan

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Muse (Tales of Silver Downs Book 1) (29 page)

"No, you have come this far with me but I must go on from here alone."

"Pish," Owain said. "We're going with you."

And that was that. I didn't have the strength to argue further, not today when I must face Ida and could well lose my life.

"Where do we start?" Rhiwallon asked. "How do we find her?"

"I can find her." I was suddenly strangely confident. "If she knows me better than anyone else, then I also know her."

This was what I had forgotten all along: I knew Ida. I had created her. She knew nothing but what I had given her.

As we left the inn and strode down the street, smoke curled up from chimneys to linger in the air. I tasted it on the back of my tongue, sweet and thick, filling my lungs and nostrils with its pervading presence. A plump orange cat sunning itself on a doorstep glared a challenge at Bramble as we passed but she barely deigned to look at it.

We reached a corner. Ahead, the road looked much the same. To the left, a birch tree, bright with new leaves, sheltered the path, and I knew.

"This way."
 

I followed the branching path past the birch tree and it felt right. A deep certainty centred in my bones.
 

Soon enough we stopped in front of a cottage. It was prettily presented with whitewashed walls and a thatch roof.

"This is it," I said.

"How do you know?" Rhiwallon asked.

"I just know. I feel it. She's here."

Owain stared at the front door, a furrow between his eyebrows. "What now?"

"We go in," I said. "She already knows we're here."

As we approached the door, it opened, seemingly of its own accord. Bramble stopped, sniffing the air.

"Like I told you," I said. "She knows."

I didn't need to call out, to ask where she was. Unerringly, I led my companions through the front passage, across the kitchen, and down the hallway.

We found her in a sunny back room with serviceable wooden chairs and a long workbench. The room was still and quiet, and despite the chill morning, the hearth was empty. Ida sat on a chair, hands folded in her lap, her gaze fixed on the doorway as we entered. Sunlight danced over her blonde hair and her plain white dress. She was simply waiting.
 

Ida's eyes met mine and she gave a small smile.
 

"Diarmuid," she said. "You come at last."

"You knew I would."
 

"Of course."

"Do you know why?"

The small smile became dazzling and I understood, briefly, why so many did as she requested.

"You want to destroy me. I know you, Diarmuid. I know your lofty goals of educating the simple man, teaching him compassion, honour and nobility beyond what his poor mind can comprehend. That's why people never understand your tales. Don't you know? They can have no possibility of understanding the concepts you try so hard to instil in them."

Ida's words cut through me and yet it was a distant hurt. It seemed so long ago that my biggest problem was that nobody liked my tales.

"What about you?" I asked. "Do you understand those concepts? Honour, bravery, loyalty. Surely you know of these from my tales?"

Ida tittered, covering her mouth with a delicate hand. Beside me, Owain gave a small sigh and I stiffened. Could Ida turn him on me? She hadn't looked at him once. Her attention, as far as I could tell, was solely on me. I resisted the urge to step away from Owain. If I could not trust him, then I could trust no one.

Ida's eyes, wide open and summer-sky blue, were fixed on mine. "Diarmuid." Her voice was coy. "What do you hope to achieve with such a question?"

"What do you know of the world?" I asked. "The world is dirty, dark, messy, filled with blood and hopelessness and death and despair. Why would you want to leave my head to live in the world?"

"Oh, dear Diarmuid," she gasped, laughing again. "I know so much about the world and it's all thanks to you. Every tale you told, I heard it. Every lesson you tried to teach your hapless audience, I absorbed it. But your mind, dear Diarmuid, although a fascinating place with all of your agonies and tortured thoughts and hopeless dreams, is not nearly as good as being out in the world. You merely told tales. I bring them to life."

Behind me, Rhiwallon hissed.

Owain shifted his feet and I felt like a traitor even as I tensed, wondering whether he would attack me.
 

Bramble stood, ears alert, her eyes suspicious.
 

"You could hear my tales?" I asked.

"Not just your tales, my dear, but your every thought," Ida said.

My mind went numb. I had suspected Ida would remember the conversations we'd had but I never suspected she had been listening in on my thoughts. Could she still do that, even though we were now two separate beings? How could I defeat her if she knew my thoughts? As I stood speechless, Ida turned her attention to my companions.

"Diarmuid, you naughty boy," she said with another tinkling laugh. "You have brought all of these friends into my house and you haven't even introduced them. Let me see, who have we here?"

She turned first to Owain. "Oh my, such a strong man," she said with a simper. "A simple man, honest, hard working. Not much else to you, is there?"

Owain sighed again. I would have glared at him had I dared take my eyes off Ida.

Next Ida fixed her gaze on Rhiwallon. "You are an interesting one. Do they know the truth about you, I wonder? Do they know from what you run? No, I think not. I cannot imagine my Diarmuid would harbour one such as you if he knew the truth."

There was no time to wonder what she meant for Ida looked now to Bramble. My heart pounded and in my mind, I whispered
no, no, leave her alone
.

"Oh." Ida's tone was surprised. "Does he know?"

"Ignore them," I finally managed. "They mean nothing to you."

"Oh but they do." She arched an eyebrow at me. "For they mean something to you, don't they? Who would have thought you would find such a collection of friends. Such an
interesting
collection."

"They know nothing," I said, trying not to think about how much they meant to me. I willed my mind to be calm, blank, thought-less. "They barely even know why I'm here."

I wilted a little under the direct stare of Ida's cold blue eyes. "And why are you here, Diarmuid?" Her voice was steely. "Do you really come to try to destroy me, here in my own house?"

"Is this your house? Or did you charm it away from someone?"

Her chin jutted out and her eyebrows narrowed as she glared at me. My chest began to tighten and in just a few moments I could barely breathe. Choking as I fought to draw in air, I met Ida's gaze and she smiled, a slow, calm smile hinting at secrets only she and I knew.
 

Sweat trickled down between my shoulder blades. My feet wouldn't move. I tried to speak, to ask for help, to beg Ida to stop, but nothing came out other than a strangled gasp.

I couldn't breath.

Bramble whined and, somehow, I managed to tear my eyes away from Ida and look down at her. She stared up at me, her gaze showing me her kindness, her goodness and her wisdom. Suddenly I could breathe again. Bramble's doing? I had no way of knowing. I fell to my knees, sucking in deep breaths.
 

As I regained my breath, Ida continued to stare at me, sending more tendrils of power winding around me. I didn't dare look at her. It seemed she had no power over me unless I met her eyes. Now there was only one thought in my mind.
Run.
I fled and my companions were right behind me.
 

Her laugh followed us, trickling like water over stones. As we reached the front door, I heard her voice as clearly as if she stood beside me.
 

"Oh Diarmuid," she said. "What a silly boy you are."

The door slammed behind us and I ran. Rhiwallon and Bramble were at my heels but Owain soon lagged behind. I halted beneath an old oak tree whose skeletal limbs stretched up to the sky, waiting for spring's new leaves to cloak them. I was horribly aware of how close we still were to Ida. Could she control us from a distance or did she need to see us for her charms to work? Owain caught up, gasping for breath as he reached us.
 

I knew I should say something, thank them for going with me, even if we had failed, but there were no words in my head. I was empty, drained. I had nothing left. I had lost and Ida would continue to destroy Crows Nest, one life at a time.

"What do we do now?" Rhiwallon asked.

"Go home, I suppose." I stared at the houses around us, although I barely saw them. Houses looked the same everywhere we went. Stone or whitewash. Thatched roof. Herb garden. Vegetable patch. Raven sitting on a low stone fence, head cocked quizzically as it watched us. Chimney with a plume of smoke curling up into the blue sky. How could the sky be so blue on a day like this? Didn't it know that I had failed? That countless people would die because I couldn't stop Ida? Despair flooded my limbs, making them too heavy to move. I would stand here until my bones crumbled into dust. I had failed.

"That's it?" Owain asked. "You're done?"

"I tried. What more can I do?"

Bramble glared so fiercely that I had to look away.
 

"We travelled all this way with you," Rhiwallon said. "We stuck with you through those blasted tunnels and through cold, wet days on the road. We stood with you in her house. Because we believed you were going to stop her. You created something that should have never existed. We believed you when you said you would destroy her. And now you're running away."

"What would you have me do? I tried but you saw what she's like. You felt her magic worming its way into your head and under your skin. She will turn us against each other, twist us to her will. This is what she does, what she has done to the people here. What can I do against that?"

"Seems to me you could do more than run away," Owain said.

Shame raced through my limbs and coloured my face. "You felt her power. I could tell. It was working on you."

Owain shrugged and his face was open and guileless. "Yeah, I felt it. She wanted to control me. She nearly did."

"What stopped her?"

"You. You ran away before she fully had me. I followed."

I turned to Rhiwallon. "What did Ida mean when she asked whether we knew the truth? Who are you running from?"

Rhiwallon's face paled a little and she looked away. "That's my business, not yours."

"If Ida knows about it, she can use it against you. I'd say that makes it our business too."

"It's not," she said, fiercely. "You think everything is about you, Diarmuid, but it's not. This has nothing to do with you."

"P'rhaps you should tell us," Owain said. "Diarmuid's right. If she knows, she can use it."

She looked up at him for a long moment but it was Rhiwallon who looked away first.

"You'll judge me," she said. "I don't need that."

"I won't," he said. "You have my word."

There was another long pause before she spoke. "I'm carrying a child. I'm not sure whether the father knows. I don't have any way of contacting him, don't even know his real name. But if I can get far enough away, maybe he won't be able to find me. And he won't ever find out about the baby."

"Why don't you want him to know?" I asked.

Rhiwallon's face was calm and her voice held nothing but determination. "If he knows, he'll take the child. And I won't let him. It's as much mine as it is his. More, even, for he isn't the one who has to carry the babe for nine months."

"Why would he take it?" I asked and was rewarded with a withering glare.

"For a bard, Diarmuid, you really don't know much, do you?"

"What does that have to do with it?"
 

Before she could respond, Owain answered. "Because he's fey. The father."

Rhiwallon nodded, chin held high.
 

"So the beast…" I said.

She shrugged. "He might have sent someone, or something, after me. More likely, he's completely forgotten about me and moved on to the next poor girl who swoons at his pretty face and fancies herself in love with him."

"I thought the fey were trying to delay my journey." I felt like an idiot even as I said it.

"Maybe," she said. "Or maybe it was me they wanted all along. It doesn't matter now anyway. We got away, and now we've got your creature to deal with. Once this is all over, I'll keep moving. The further I go, the less likely he is to find me."

"I don't think you can run from the fey," I said. "The tales tell-"

Rhiwallon turned her back on me and walked away. "Thank you, Diarmuid," she said frostily over her shoulder, "but I think
your
wisdom is probably the last thing I need."

Despite all our days of travelling together, despite the frantic search through the land of the fey, nothing I knew about her was true. I had thought Owain was the one Fiachra warned me about, the one who wouldn't be what they seemed. Then I thought it was Bramble. Could it be that he had meant Rhiwallon all along?

Owain and I looked at each other, neither wanting to be the first to speak.

Bramble leaned into me, her body warm against my leg.

"Did you know?" I murmured to her. "Did you see through her?"

Bramble blinked at me. I leaned down to rub her ears and she gave a little sigh, leaning her head into my hand. At least I had Bramble. Bramble and Owain. These were my true friends right here.

CHAPTER FORTY
Brigit

I had guessed half of Rhiwallon's secret, but it had never occurred to me that the fey were involved in this too. The men we saw at the inn were clearly human but perhaps the one who had hired them was fey. I had never believed in coincidence or chance. If Rhiwallon was running from someone, and we happened across men searching for someone, the two were connected in some way, even if she wasn't the one they sought.
 

I wondered now at the time we had spent in the tunnels. Was that an attempt by the fey to capture Rhiwallon or, perhaps, her child? Or did the delay have some other role in Titania's plans? If she had nothing to do with Rhiwallon's abduction, she had given no sign of it but that might be a part of whatever game she played.

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