Authors: Dean Koontz
“No.”
“You don’t like Almond Joy?”
“You were going to kill me.”
“Not with poison candy.”
“It’s the principle of the thing,” I said.
“You don’t take sweets from men who threaten to kill you.”
“That’s right.”
“Well…more for me.” After he had enjoyed a bite of the Almond Joy, he said, “So there’s only option three. This is where I figured we would wind up. Which is why I had to trust you and tell you my situation. I can make you very rich.”
“What happened to ‘Every man for himself’?”
“Son, I like you, I do, and I see my best option is co-opting you, but I wouldn’t in a million years give you a piece of my cut. I’m surprised I offered you half of the candy bar.”
“I appreciate your honesty.”
“If I’m to trust you, then you’ve got to have good reason to trust me. So from now on, only truth between us.”
Because he smiled at me so sincerely and because it would have been rude not to reciprocate, I returned his smile.
In the spirit of frankness that the chief encouraged, I felt it necessary to say, “In all honesty, I don’t believe that Utgard Rolf is the kind of generous fellow who would share
his
cut with me.”
“You’re right, of course. Utgard would kill his own mother for a thousand dollars. Or maybe it was five thousand.”
He ate more candy, and I digested the proposition that he had made to me.
After what seemed enough time for serious consideration, I said, “So, supposing I have a price—”
“Everyone has a price.”
“Who would meet mine?”
“The men backing this operation have some of the deepest pockets on the planet. They have a contingency fund. At this late hour, with so much on the line, if you join us
and
share what your agency knows or suspects, tell us the reason you were sent here, and if you feed them false information, you can be a very rich man, too, living in a wonderful climate under a name no one will ever discover.”
“How rich?”
“I don’t know the size of the contingency fund. And I would have to speak with a representative of our financiers, but I suspect they would consider you so valuable to this enterprise that they would find twenty-five million for you.”
“What about my partner? Annamaria?”
“Do you have a thing for her?”
“No. We just work together.”
“Then you tell us where she is, we kill her tonight. We put the body through a meat grinder, dump the sludge at sea, gone forever.”
“Let’s do it.”
“That was quick.”
“Well,” I said, “I don’t see an alternative, because I’m not giving her a piece of
my
cut.”
“No reason you should.”
“In the right part of the world,” I said, “twenty-five million is like a hundred million here.”
“Live like a king,” the chief agreed, finishing his candy. “So, my new rich friend, what’s your name?”
“Harry Lime,” I said.
He held out his hand. I reached across the table and shook it.
I was not thrown back into the dream. Evidently, it happened only on first contact with one of these conspirators.
The chief said, “I’ve got to go talk to the money man, close the deal. I’ll be back in five minutes. One thing he’ll want to know.”
“Whatever. We’re partners.”
“How the hell did you do that?”
“Do what?”
“How did you pass the dream to Utgard and me? The dream, the vision, whatever you want to call it.”
“I don’t know exactly how. You triggered it, I think. Because you’re the people going to make it come true.”
Wide-eyed, a third Hoss Shackett sat before me now, neither the hard-case sadist nor the charming politician. This chief possessed a capacity for wonder that neither the baby-killer nor the baby-kisser shared.
This chief might have had the ability to commit a selfless act or an uncalculated kindness, because wonder admits to the existence of mystery, and the recognition of mystery in the world allows the possibility of Truth. The other two wouldn’t let this chief surface often. I was surprised that they had not already drowned him forever.
He said, “What are you, anyway? Some kind of psychic? I never believed in psychics, but what you put in my head, that was for damn sure real.”
Recognizing that we live in a distressed culture where anything like a conspiracy theory will be embraced by more people than will the simple and obvious truth, I tried to make it easier for Hoss Shackett to accept my otherness:
“The government has a drug that facilitates clairvoyance,” I lied.
“Sonofabitch.”
“It doesn’t work with everyone,” I said. “You have to carry a certain combination of genes. There aren’t many of us.”
“You see the future?”
“Not really, not directly. Things come in dreams. And they’re never complete. Just pieces of a puzzle. I have to do police work, just like you, to fill in what’s missing.”
“So you saw Magic Beach in your dream, and the nukes.”
Trying not to react to the word
nukes,
I said, “Yeah.” I suppose I had known all along.
“But in the dream, you didn’t see me or Utgard?”
“No.”
“What you put in my head, the sea all red and the sky—it seemed like the nukes were going off right here on the beach. That’s not how it’ll be.”
“The dreams are fragmentary, sometimes more symbolic than full of real details. Where will the bombs be detonated?”
He said, “Where it matters. In cities. In a few weeks. All on the same day. We’re just bringing them ashore and distributing. The major seaports and airports, they’re blanketed with radiation detectors.”
In addition to lingering spirits of the dead, I once in a while see other supernatural entities, about which I have written in the past. Ink-black, with no facial features, fluid in shape, sometimes catlike, sometimes wolflike, they can pass through a keyhole or through the crack under a door.
I believe they are spiritual vampires and possess knowledge of the future. They swarm to places where extreme violence or a natural catastrophe will soon occur, as though they feed on human suffering, to which they react with frenzied ecstasy.
Now I realized why none of these creatures had appeared in Magic Beach. The suffering would occur elsewhere. Already, legions of those ghoulish entities must be swarming through the target cities, relishing the prospect of the death and misery to come.
As Shackett rose from the table, I said, “Good thing for me that I had a price. Sounds like, a month from now, this’ll be a country nobody will want to live in.”
He said, “How do you feel about that?”
I could not tell which of the three Hoss Shacketts regarded me at the moment.
Playing to the savagery of the sadist, to the megalomania of the politician, to the bitterness in both of them, I invented something that he would believe. Remembering my advice to Hutch, I strove not to let my performance become fulsome, to keep it subdued and real.
“They lied to me about the effects of the drug. They said it facilitated clairvoyance for twelve to eighteen hours. But they knew. One dose is all you ever need. They knew it would change me forever. I rarely have a night of restful sleep anymore. Visions, nightmares, more vivid than reality. There’s a thousand kinds of hell on earth that could be coming. Sometimes I can’t wake from them. Hour after hour in those horrors. When at last I wake up, my bed is soaked with sweat, I’m swimming in it. Throat raw from screaming in my sleep.”
Through all of that, I had met his stare, daring him to see any lie in my eyes. Evil men are often easy to mislead, because they have spent so long deceiving that they no longer recognize the truth and mistake deception for it.
Now I gazed at the ceiling, as if seeing beyond it a nation that had betrayed me. Line by line, my voice grew quieter, less emotional, even as my words grew more accusatory.
“They lied to me. Now they say that after I’ve served them for five years, they’ll give me the antidote. I don’t believe there is one. They lie not just for advantage but for sport. Five years will become ten. They can all go to hell.”
I met his eyes again.
He was silent, not because he suspected deception but because he was impressed.
He was, after all, a man who would sell out his country to terrorists, who could conspire to murder millions of innocents in a nuclear holocaust and to condemn millions more to death in the chaos that would follow the day of detonations. A man who could believe in the rightness of such a scenario was one who could believe anything, even my little exercise in science-fiction paranoia.
At last he said, “You’re a good hater, kid. That’ll take you a long way in life.”
“What now?”
“I go talk to the man, get our deal confirmed. Like I said—five minutes, ten at most.”
“My leg is half numb. How about unshackling me from the table so I can walk around while I wait.”
“As soon as Utgard and I get back with the polygraph,” he said. “We’ll have to unshackle you for that.”
As if I had anticipated that they would want to confirm the sincerity of my conversion by any means available to them, I did not react to the word
polygraph
. Lie detector.
“You have a problem with that?” the chief asked.
“No. If our situations were reversed, I’d play it the same way you are.”
He left the room and closed the half-ton door behind him.
The silence of tranquility lies light upon a room, but this was the silence of apprehension, heavy enough to press me down on the chair in paralytic stillness.
So saturated was the air with the stink of pine disinfectant that I could taste the astringent chemical when I opened my mouth, and the underlying scent of other prisoners’ vomit was not conducive to a calm stomach.
The concrete walls were not mortared blocks, but solid, poured in place, reinforced with rebar, as was the ceiling.
One vent, high in a wall, brought air to the room and carried it away. No doubt any sound that passed through the vent would diminish as it followed a long insulated duct, and would be stifled entirely in whatever machine exchanged the air.
When I turned to look at Mr. Sinatra, he was sitting in the third chair, bent forward at the waist, elbows on his thighs, his face buried in his hands.
I said, “Sir, I’m in a real pickle here.”
TWENTY-SEVEN
BECAUSE MY FETTERED ANKLE WOULD NOT allow me to go easily to Mr. Sinatra, he came to me. He sat in the chair that Chief Hoss Shackett had occupied, across the table from me.
In the ceiling, the light fixture was recessed behind a flush-mounted sheet of plastic. That panel was frosted, a blind eye.
The only place in the room where a camera could have been concealed was in the duct that provided fresh air. Through the slots in the vent grille, I could not see any telltale gleam of a lens.
Considering the brutal interrogations that the chief had surely conducted in this room and that he would soon conduct again, I did not believe he would have installed a camera. He would be concerned that it would accidentally—or by the intention of a whistle-blower—record crimes that might lead to his imprisonment.
For the same reason, I doubted that the room was fitted with listening devices. Besides, as far as the chief knew, I had no one to whom I could talk.
Mr. Sinatra had lost his cocky air. He appeared distraught.
Throughout his life, he had been a patriot, in love with America both for what she was and for her potential. The plot that he had heard described in this room had clearly devastated him.
In December 1941, after the attack on Pearl Harbor, “the Voice” had been drafted. But at his physical, he was rejected and classified 4-F because of a punctured eardrum that he had suffered during birth. Subsequently, he tried four times to enlist. He used every person of influence he knew—they were numerous—to get the army to reclassify him and to accept him for service, but he never succeeded.
Although he weighed 135 pounds in those days, he had been a scrapper from childhood, quick to defend himself or a friend, making up in heart and temper for what he lacked in size. He never walked away from a fight and would have made a good soldier, though he might have been a discipline problem from time to time.
I said, “When you were born in your parents’ Hoboken tenement, you weighed thirteen and a half pounds. Your grandma Rose was an experienced midwife, but she’d never seen a baby as big as you.”
He looked puzzled, as though he wondered if I was in denial of what I had heard from Hoss Shackett.
“The physician in attendance had never seen a baby so big, either. Your mother, Dolly, was under five feet tall, petite, and because of your size, the doctor had trouble delivering you.”
Frowning with impatience, Mr. Sinatra waved a hand dismissively, as though brushing aside the subject of his entry into the world, and he pointed to the steel door to focus my attention on what mattered.
“Sir, I’m going somewhere with this,” I promised him.
He looked dubious but remained attentive.
Because the circumstances of his birth were family legend, he knew what I told him: “The doctor used forceps, and didn’t use them well. He ripped your ear, cheek, and neck, puncturing your eardrum. When he finally got you out of your mother, you weren’t breathing.”
His grandmother took him from the doctor, rushed him to a sink, and held him under cold running water until he gasped for air.
“The doctor would likely have certified you as born dead. You entered the world fighting, sir, and you never really stopped.”
I glanced at my watch. I had a lot to achieve in five minutes, but Mr. Sinatra’s fate and my life depended on getting it done.
Because his parents had worked and because his mother had been a committeewoman for the Democratic party, with many outside interests, young Frank was a latchkey kid before the term was coined. From the age of six, he often made his own dinner—and sometimes had to scavenge for it when his mom had been too busy to go food shopping.
Lonely, almost desperately so at times, he drifted to the homes of other family members and friends. People said he was the quietest kid they knew, content to sit in a corner and listen to the adults.
“In your teens, your mother was in your life more. Always she was demanding. She set high standards, had a dominant personality.”
She belittled his hope of a singing career, and was not entirely convinced even after he became the most famous singer in the world.
“But, sir, you’re not like Elvis. You aren’t lingering here because you’re reluctant to face your mother in the next world.”
A combative expression hardened his features, as if, ghost or not, he would punch me for ever thinking that his beloved mother
might
have been the reason he lingered in this world.
“Your mom could be exasperating, contentious, opinionated—but loving. Eventually you realized that your ability to stand up for yourself arose from the need to hold your own in arguments with her.”
Mr. Sinatra glanced at the door and made a hurry-up gesture.
“Sir, if I’m going to die here tonight, at least I’m going to help you move on from this world before I leave it myself.”
That was indeed my motive for this short session of straight talk. But I also had another.
Although Dolly’s steel will led to contention between them, Mr. Sinatra honored her without fail and took good care of her. Unlike Elvis’s mother, Dolly lived a long life. The Chairman was sixty-one when she died, and he had no reason to regret anything between them.
He had adored his gentle father, Marty, who died eight years before Dolly passed. If anything, his deep love for his dad should have made him rush away into the next life.
“No disrespect, sir, but you could sometimes be a bastard, hot-headed and even mean. But I’ve read enough about you to know those faults were more than balanced by loyalty and generosity.”
In sickness and in hard times, friends received his devotion, not just significant money sent unsolicited but also daily calls for weeks, to give emotional support. He was capable of reaching out to a deserving stranger and changing a life with a generous gift.
He never mentioned these kindnesses and was embarrassed when his friends spoke of what he had done. Many of these stories surfaced after his death; the number of them is both inspiring and humbling.
“Whatever waits beyond this world, sir, is nothing you need to fear. But you fear it, and I think I know why.”
The suggestion that he feared anything whatsoever annoyed him.
Acutely aware of how little time remained before Shackett would return, I said, “Almost died at birth. Lived in a bad neighborhood, they called you a wop. Walking home from grade school, you had to fight. Always had to struggle for what you got. But, sir, you got it all—fortune, fame, acclaim, more than any entertainer in history before you. And now what keeps you in this world is
pride
.”
My statement compounded Mr. Sinatra’s annoyance. With one cocked eyebrow and a gesture, he seemed to say
So what’s wrong with pride?
“Nothing is wrong with pride based on accomplishment, and your life was packed full of accomplishments. But justifiable pride can sometimes mutate into arrogance.”
Mouth tight, he stared at me. But then he nodded. He knew that in life he had sometimes been guilty of arrogance.
“I’m not talking about then. I mean now. You don’t want to move on to the next world because you’re afraid you won’t be special over there, that you’ll just be equal to everyone else.”
Although he resisted moving on, he wanted to make the journey, as do all of the lingering dead. He seriously considered my words.
I needed to channel him from polite consideration to a strong emotional response. I regretted what I was about to do, but his soul and my neck were on the line. Extreme measures were required.
“But it’s worse than that. You’re
afraid
to move on because you think maybe you’ll be starting over from nothing, with nothing, just a nobody, and all the struggle will begin again. You’re as scared as a little boy.”
His face knotted with offense.
“Your first breath was a struggle. Will it be again? To win any respect, you had to fight. You can’t stand the idea of being a nobody again, but you don’t want to fight your way to the top like you had to do the last time.”
He put up his fists.
“Sure, threaten to fight me. You know I can’t hurt a ghost, what courage does it take to threaten me?”
He rose from the chair and glared down at me.
“You want all the respect you won in this world, but you don’t have the guts to earn it again, if that’s the way it is over there.”
Never would I have believed that those warm blue eyes could have produced such an icy stare as the one with which he skewered me.
“You know what you’ve become in death? You’re a scared little
punk
like you never were in life.”
In anger, hands fisted at his sides, he turned away from me.
“Can’t handle the truth, huh?”
Treating him with such disrespect, when in fact I respected him, was difficult, and I was particularly afraid of revealing the falsity of my contempt by using the word
sir
.
I believed that I had in fact arrived at the reason that he lingered in this world, but I did not despise him for it. In other circumstances, I would have led him gently to accept the truth and to see that his fears were ungrounded.
Certain that Hoss Shackett would come through the door at any moment, I said witheringly, “Chairman of the Board, Old Blue Eyes, the Voice, famous big-shot singer, big cheese of the Rat Pack—and now all you are is another gutless punk from Hoboken.”
He turned toward me once more.
His mottled face, his dead-cold stare, his lips skinned back from clenched teeth, his head lowered like that of a bull that sees not one red cape but a hundred: As lingering spirits go, this one was as pissed off as any I had ever seen.
The steel door opened.
Chief Hoss Shackett entered. Utgard Rolf followed him, rolling a cart on which was mounted the polygraph.