Old Filth (11 page)

“He's off in the car. Visiting.”

“On his own?”

“Yes. On the motorways. I've told him he's not rational yet. She'd have never let him. He doesn't know what he's doing. He's answering every letter return of post and ticking them off on a list, every one hand-done and different and she's scarcely cold. There was a green one—”

“Green what?”

“Letter. From Paris. He threw it in the bin. It upset him. He wrote out an answer and they say he was up the street with it in his hand before the postman was hardly gone.”

They both regarded the wall.

Garbutt knew she had read the letter in the waste-paper basket. He would not have read it.

“You know, he's never once called me by my name. She did, of course.”

Garbutt finished his coffee, upturned the mug and shook the dregs out on the grass. “Well, I can't see we can do much about it. He's the Law. The law unto himself.”

“I tell you, we'll both be out of a job by Monday and who else is he going to kill on the road? That's what I care about.”

“He might make it,” he said, handing her back the mug. “There's quite a bit to him yet.”

 

Nevertheless, on the Thursday afternoon Filth found the gardener hanging about the garage doors.

“I've had her looked at,” said Filth, “I seem to be having to tell everybody. She's a Mercedes. I'm a good driver. Why have you removed all the ivy?”

“It was her instructions. Not a fortnight since. Sir Edward, you're barmy. It's too soon. You're pushing eighty. She'd say it was too soon. You haven't a notion of that A1.”

“Is it the A1 now? I must look at the map. Good God, I've known the Great North Road for years. I was at school up there.”

“Well, you'll not know it now. That's all I'll say. Goodbye then, sir.”

 

Filth looked up the seaside town of Herringfleet where Babs hung out and was surprised. He'd thought it might be somewhere around Lincolnshire, but it was nearer to Scotland. Odd, he thought, how I could still find my way round the back streets of Hong Kong and the New Territories with my eyes shut and England now is a blur.

Whatever was Babs doing up there? Where would he stay if she couldn't put him up? There seemed to be no hostelry in Herringfleet that the travel guides felt very happy about.

But he went on with his plans, polishing his shoes, looking out shirts. He loved packing. He packed his ivory hair brushes, his Queen Mary cufflinks from the War and, rather surprising himself,
Betty's Book of Common Prayer
. Maybe he'd give it to Babs. Or Claire, if he ever found her. He folded two of Betty's lovely Jacqumar scarves, packaged up some recipe books and then, in a sudden fit of panache, swept a great swag of her jewellery from the dressing-table drawer and poured it into a jiffy bag. He put the scarves and recipe books into another jiffy bag and sealed both of them up.

On Friday morning early, Mrs.-er standing on the front doorstep with a face of doom and Garbutt up his ladder at work on ivy roots and not even turning his head, he made off down the drive and headed for the future.

 

His eyesight was good. He had spent time on the map. The day was fair and he felt very well. He had decided that he would proceed across England from left to right, and somewhere around Birmingham take a route from South-West to North-East. Very little trouble. His visual memory of the map was excellent and he plunged out into the mêlée of Spaghetti Junction without a tremor, scarcely registering the walls of traffic that wailed and shrieked and overtook him. He admitted to a sense of tension whenever he swerved into the fast lane, but enjoyed the stimulation. Several very large vehicles passed him with a dying scream, one or two even overtaking him on the driver's side although he was in the fast lane. One of these seemed to bounce a little against the central reservation.

Filth was intrigued by the central reservation. It was a phenomenon new to him. He wondered who had thought of it. Was it the same man who had invented cat's-eyes and made millions and hadn't known what to do with them? He remembered that man. He had had three television sets all quacking on together. Poor wretched fellow. Death by cat's-eye. Well, that must be some time ago.

Lorries in strings, like moving blocks of flats, were now hurtling along. Sometimes his old Mercedes seemed to hang between them, hardly touching the road. Seemed to be a great many foreign buggers driving the lorries, steering-wheels lefthand side where they couldn't see a thing. Matter of time no doubt when they'd be in the majority. Then everyone would be driving on the right. Vile government. Probably got all the plans drawn up already. Drive on the right, vote on the left. The so-called left, said Filth. Not Mr. Attlee's left. Not Aneurin Bevan's left. All of them in suits now. Singapore still drives on the left, though they've never heard of left. Singapore's over, like Hong Kong. Empire now like Rome. Not even in the history books. Lost. Over. Finished. Dead. Happened.

Two dragons, Machiavellis, each carrying a dozen or so motor-cars on its back, like obscene, louse-laden animals, hemmed him in on either side of the middle lane. Surely the one in the fast lane was breaking the law? Both seemed impatient with him, though he was doing a steady sixty-five, quite within limits.

He could feel their hatred. One slip and I'm gone, he thought with again the stir of excitement, almost of sexual excitement, “One toot and yer oot,” as the bishop said to the old girl with the ear-trumpet. Wherever did that come from? Too much litter in old brains.

Ah! Suddenly he was free. The lorries were gone. He had turned expertly eastwards—with some style, I may say—and into Nottinghamshire.

He found himself now on narrower two-way roads broken by enormous, complicated country roundabouts. Signs declared unlikely names. Fields began, the colour of ox-blood. (Why is ox-blood darker than cow's-blood?) Clumps of black-green trees' stood on the tops of low hills. Streaming towards him, opening out before him, passing him by, were old mining towns all forlorn. Then a medieval castle on a knoll. Then came an artificial hill with a pipe sticking out of its side like a patient with nasty things within. Black stuff trickled. The last coal mine.

Black stuff wavered in the wind. Never been down a coal mine, thought Filth. There's always something new. (But no. Over. Finished. Gone. Dead.) Better stop soon. Seeing double. Need to pee. Done well. One of these cafés.

But now there were no cafés. They had all disappeared. “Worksop,” said Filth. “Now, there's a nasty name. Betty would be furious—
Worksop
!” She hated the North except for Harrogate. “Why ever go to ghastly Babs? You're mad. She's mad. I met her after you did.” (Oh, finish, finish, finish.)

He came upon pale and graceful stone gates leading to some lost great estate with the National Trust's acorn on a road sign. He turned in and drove two miles down an avenue of limes. Families shrieked about. He found a Gents and then returned stiffly to the Mercedes in the car-park. People ran about taking plants from a garden shop to their cars to plant on their patios. If I had ever loved England, he thought, I would now weep for her. Sherwood Forest watched him from every side, dense and black.

On again, and into the ruthless thunder of the traffic on the A1; but he was in charge again. Bloody good car, strong as a tank, fine as a good horse. Always liked driving. Aha! Help! Spotting a café he turned across the path of a conveyor of metal pipes from the Ruhr.

A near thing. The driver's face was purple and his mouth held wide in a black roar.

Shaken a little, Filth ate toasted tea-cake at a plastic table and drank a large potful of tea. The waitress looked at his suit and tie with dislike. The man at the next table was wearing denim trousers, with his knees protruding, and a vest. Brassy rings were clipped into all visible orifices. Filth went back to the car for a quick nap but the rhythmic blast of the passing traffic caused the Mercedes to rock at three-second intervals.

“On, on,” said Filth. “Be dark soon.”

And, two hours later, it was indeed pretty dark and he must have reached Teesside. There was no indication, however, of any towns. Only roads. Roads and roads. The traffic went swimming over them, presumably knowing where it was going. Endless, head-on, blazing head-lights. It is only an airport now, he thought. My spacious lovely North. We are living on a transporter. Up and down we go.
We shall chase you up and down
. That swine Veneering liked
Midsummer Night's Dream
. Silly stuff, but you can't help quoting it. Forest of Arden. Forest of Sherwood. Gone, gone. Finished. Dead. Like Garbutt's ivy. Betty would have been in a fury. “You could have been in
Madeira
by now, in a nice, elderly hotel. And you go to Babs on Teesside. And here's a place called
Yarm
. What a name!
Yarm
.”

“You wouldn't think so if we were in Malaysia.”

“Don't be silly, Filth.”

“Or the dialects. Malay lacks consonants.”

“
Yarm
seems to lack everything.”

“Oh, I don't know. Rather a fine-looking town. Splendidly wide main street. Shows up the Cotswolds.”

“Well, don't stop, Filth. Not now, for goodness sake. You've only half an hour to go.
Get
there.”

Just outside Yarm he saw a signpost which amazingly, for he had not been here before, he recognised. Standing back on a grim champaign behind the swishing traffic stood the Old Judges' Lodging, now a hotel. Once the Circuit judges would have lived there throughout the Quarter Sessions. No wives allowed. Too much port. Boring each other silly. Comforting each others' isolation with talk. Every evening, like cricket commentators between matches, discussing their profession. Finished. Gone. Dead. Hotel now, eh?

“Ha?”

Sign for Herringfleet.

Babs.

What a dire town. And not small. How to find 25 The Lindens? Here was the sea. A cemented edge of promenade. A line of glimmer that must be white sandy beach. Long, long waves curving round a great bay, and behind their swirling frills, spread into the total dark, was the heaving black skin and muscle of the ocean. Sea. How they had hated the sea in Wales. The cruel dividing sea. How could Babs ever choose this?

He had stopped the car on the promenade where, looking blank-eyed at the sea, were tall once-elegant lodging houses now near-slums, bed-and-breakfast places for the Nationally Assisted, i.e., the poor. No lights. The rain fell.

“The Lindens? What?” shouted a man on an old bike. He got off and came across and stuck his head through the window. The smell was chip fat and beer and no work. “The Lindens, mate? (Grand car.) Just over to your right there. You'll not miss it, pal.”

It was a terrace of genteel and secretive houses on either side of a short street bordered by trees. The trees were bulging with round gangliae from which next year new sprouts would shoot like hairs from a mole. Revolting treatment. What would Sir say? Number 25.

At the top of steep stone steps there was a dim light above a front room and another light in a window beside it. A gate hung on one hinge. There was a sense of retreat and defeat. He remembered laughing, streetwise, positive Babs in the Oxford tea-shop.
We'll go to bed. We have before
. Laughing, wagging her cracked high-heeled shoe from her toe.

It was so quiet that Filth could hear the beat of the sea two roads away, rhythmic, unstoppable. “Too soon,” it said. “They were right. This is histrionic nonsense. You've arrived too soon. You're in shock. You'll make a fool of yourself. There's nothing here.”

 

Suddenly, at the top of the steps, the front door was wrenched open and a boy ran out. He came tearing down, missing several steps, belted along the path towards Filth at the gate. One hand held a music-case and with the other he pushed Filth hard in the stomach so that he fell back into the hedge. The boy, who was wearing old-fashioned school uniform, vanished towards the sea.

Badly winded, Filth struggled out of the hedge, dusted down his clothes, picked up the fallen parcel of presents, looked right and left and gave his furious roar. The quiet of the road then re-asserted itself. The child might never have been.

But the front door stood wide and he walked uneasily up the steps and into the passage beyond, where, as if he had stood on a switch, a torrent of Chopin was let loose in the room to his right.

“Hello?”

He stood outside its open door.

“Hello there? Babs?”

He knocked on the door, peered round it. “It's Teddy.”

The music stopped. The room appeared to be empty.

Then he saw her by the back window, staring into the dark. She was wearing some sort of shawl and her hair was long and white. She seemed to be pressing something—a handkerchief?—into her face. Without turning towards him further, her voice came out from behind her hands, clear and controlled. And Betty's.

In one of her very occasional cynical or bitter moods which Filth had never understood, and which usually ended in her going to London for a few days (or over to Macao from Hong Kong), Betty had said, “Look, leave me alone, Filth. I'm in the dark. Just need a break.”

“I'm in the dark, Teddy-bear,” now said Betty's voice inside this crazed old creature. “You shouldn't have come. I should have stopped you. I couldn't find the number.”

“Oh, dear me, Babs. You're ill.”

“Ill. Do you mean sick? I'm sick all right. D'you want tea? I make it on my gas-ring. There's some milk somewhere. In a cupboard. But we don't take milk, do we? Not from our classy background. I'm finished, Teddy. Broken-hearted. Like Betty. You'd better go.”

(Like Betty? What rubbish—never.)

“I can't stay more than a few minutes,” said Filth, realising that this was absolutely so, for the room was not only ice-cold and dark, but there was an aroma about. Setting down his parcels on a chair piled with newspapers, he touched something unspeakable on a plate.