Excerpt dated (approximate Earth date)
March 30,2275.
My concern about my memory grows.
Things that happened many years ago... these are clear to me. I can remember every word that was spoken, every nuance of every moment from ten, twenty, thirty years past. I can remember exactly what it felt like to run as a child, to fall and skin my knee. The twinge of the pain can be re-created in my mind with utter clarity.
I cannot remember what I had for dinner last night.
I have had to drink rather heavily in order lo maintain some of the more sensitive entries in this journal, because I have not wanted my... associate... to be aware of some of the things I write. The problem is that I think it's starting to take its toll upon me. That and age...
... and the mirror.
I look in the mirror and I see reflections of a man I do not recognize... and yet, unfortunately, do. The image of me in my dreams...
My dreams...
Durla and his dreams. Now there is a subject...
It takes a great deal of effort for me to recall what happened at a ministry meeting yesterday. Durla was there, that I recall. He was in one of his wild-eyed moods, speaking once more about dreams that had come to him, images in those dreams, and he was presenting blueprints and descriptions of new and greater weapons.
The others looked upon his work and marveled at Durla the Visionary. That is what they call him: the Visionary. One of the greatest seers in the history of Centauri Prime. When he was elevated to the office of prime minister, he started claiming that he had been guided by his dreams for years. When he was a mere member of my personal guard, such statements would have garnered laughter. Now ... now the others make appreciative noises and exclamations of amazement, and speak of the exciting time in which we live, that such a prophet walks among us.
It is ridiculous. Nonsense.
Except... those things that we produce tend to work. Or at least our scientists are able to make them work. The Centauri Republic is being crafted in Durla's image. Odd. It gives me a strange feeling of nostalgia. I see his designs for weapons, for ships... and I get the same chill I did when I saw the Shadow ships crossing the skies over Centauri Prime. Black and fearsome things they were, and to look at them was like staring into the very heart of madness. I wonder about these dreams, and their origins, but it is pointless to inquire. Durla would not understand, nor would he care.
No, two things occupy Durla's thoughts: his endeavors to build up our military might, and his desire to bring down the saboteurs who continue to frustrate and thwart him. They have done so in small ways and have not been able to truly stop the progress. For every munition factory they manage to destroy, there are five others. They can no more stem the tide than a coral reef can impede the ocean. But they are a presence and an irritant nonetheless, and Durla continues to be angered by their activities.
These matters will come to a head sooner rather than later, I fear. I do not like to think about whose head they may come to.
My memory...
I saw a lovely young woman walking the corridors the other day. I spoke to her, smiled at her, feeling for a moment like the Londo of old. Then I realized that she was Senna, the young woman whom I took as my ward some years ago. I had not seen her in quite some time. She remains without husband, and without interest in acquiring one. Instead she occupies herself by acting as an occasional nursemaid for some of the children of Centauri ministers and such. She is quite popular with them, so I understand.
Dinner!
Dinner the other night was with Vir. I recall now. I do not remember what we had... but he was there. Senna was there, too. They spoke quite gregariously with one another, I seem to remember. One would have almost thought I was not there at all.
Sometimes I think I am not.
C
HAPTER 3
Milifa, of the house of Milifa, burst into Durla's office, unable to contain his excitement. "Is it true?" he asked before Durla could open his mouth. "Is what I've heard true?"
Durla leaned back and smiled. Milifa was a man who virtually radiated strength. Remarkably charismatic, powerfully built, he was the head of one of the most influential houses in all the Centaurum. Even his excitement was carefully channeled, his dark eyes crackling with intensity as he said again, "Is it true?"
"Are you going to give me breathing space to tell you, my friend? Or will you simply keep asking?"
Milifa took a step back and a deep breath. "Do not toy with me on this, Durla. I warn you."
Virtually any other person who spoke the words "I warn you" to Durla would have been subject to harsh treatment. But from Milifa, Durla was willing to take it. "Yes. It is true," he responded.
Milifa sagged with visible relief. Durla had never seen the robust aristocrat so emotionally vulnerable. Even on the day that Milifa's son, Throk, had been killed, Milifa had managed to keep his rawest emotions in careful check.
"Four ... years," he said incredulously. "Four years since the safe house of the Prime Candidates was destroyed. Four years since my son and his friends died at the hands of those ... those ..." He trembled with barely contained fury.
"I cannot apologize enough, old friend," said Durla, "for the length of time it has taken us to apprehend one of these subversives. It is, frankly, an embarrassment. I do not know any other way to put it."
"An embarrassment, yes. Perhaps," Milifa said sourly, "your duties as prime minister have atrophied the skills you so adroitly displayed when you were minister of Internal Security."
"That is neither here nor there," Durla told him. He rose from behind his desk and came around it, clapping Milifa on the back. "He is being questioned even as we speak. Do you wish to come and see?"
"Absolutely," Milifa said. "After waiting four years to see the face of one of these bastards, I have no intention of waiting a moment longer."
Durla was pleased to see that the questioning was already under way. He was not, however, pleased to witness its lack of success.
The subject was strapped into an oversize chair, his feet dangling a few inches above the floor. He was rail thin, narrow-shouldered, and unlike most other Centauri of Durla's acquaintance, his hair was something of a mess. His head was lolling from one side to the other, as if attached to his shoulders by only the slimmest of supports.
Several members of the Prime Candidates were there, as well, looking particularly grim. Durla recognized one of them as Caso, a close friend of Throk's. Caso had suffered, to some degree, from survivor's guilt. A lung illness had kept him home in bed the day that the other Prime Candidates died in the explosion; had Caso not been bedridden, he would have died with the others.
"What is the vermin's name?" Milifa asked, standing just behind Durla.
"Lanas. Rem Lanas," Durla told him grimly. "He was found trespassing in one of our..." He paused, and then said, "... medical facilities, on Tumbor 2. He had counterfeit clearance identification on him. Quite well crafted, I might add. He was in the midst of endeavoring to rewire certain circuits that... if left unchecked... would have caused the facility to blow up. Fortunately, all he managed to do was trip an alarm. Our security systems have become increasingly sophisticated over the years."
"That is a fortunate state of affairs," Milifa said, "considering the alternative is leaving yourself open to being continually preyed upon by slime like... like this." His voice dropped lower on the last several words. He stepped forward and practically stuck his face into Lanas'. "Are you the one, slime? Are you the one who was responsible for killing my son?"
Lanas looked up at him without really seeing him.
"What's wrong with him?" demanded Milifa.
"Truth drugs, no doubt. Sometimes they take a while to reach full effect." Durla looked to Caso for confirmation. Caso, over the years, had apprenticed with some of the best interrogators in the Centaurum and had become quite skilled. He had personally requested the opportunity to handle the questioning of this latest subject, in the name of his departed friend. "How much longer, Caso?"
But Caso looked surprisingly uncomfortable. "Actually, Prime Minister, they should be at full effect by now. Before now, in fact. But he has been resisting all of our initial questions."
"Resisting?" Durla was astonished. "Are you certain you have administered them properly?"
"Positive, Prime Minister," Caso answered stiffly.
"And yet he resists? Increase the dosage."
"That may not be wise..."
Durla, feeling the quiet smoldering of Milifa next to him, said tightly, "On my authority. Do it."
Caso bowed deeply and put together another dosage. Moments later there was enough truth drug pumping through Lanas' veins to send a dozen Centauri pouring out every secret they'd ever held, all the way back to childhood.
Rem Lanas' eyes remained glazed. It was as if he was withdrawing completely into himself.
"I checked the records on this man," Caso said. "He was a worker on K0643."
"Was he now," Durla said. The excavation on K0643 had proven to be one of Durla's only unqualified disasters. He had been certain that there was some great source of weaponry there, but the entire excavation had been destroyed. There were wild rumors that techno-mages had somehow been involved... fleeting glimpses of them, but accounts of their numbers ranged from three to thirty. No one seemed sure of anything. He wondered if Lanas had been one of the workers who had been questioned. He leaned forward, and said, "What is your name?"
"Lanas. Rem Lanas." His voice was thick and distant.
"And are you part of an organization?"
Lanas' head teetered in affirmation.
"And what," Durla said with clear urgency, "is that organization? Tell me about it. Who is the head?"
"Minister... Durla."
A confused look passed among the Centauri in the room. Durla could feel Milifa's gaze boring through him, and he felt a faint buzz of danger. "Yes, I am Prime Minister Durla," he said, trying to discern whether the confused Lanas might simply be addressing him directly. "Who is the head of your organization?"
"Minister Durla," Rem Lanas said, this time with more conviction.
The blood drained from Durla's face.
But Caso looked suspicious, and said, "What is the nature of this organization?"
"Employment... workers... for excavation purposes..."
Durla put his face in his hands, partly out of frustration and partly to hide his relief. Such an absurd misunderstanding could have led to a world of trouble if left unchecked. "The Committee for Centauri Advancement," he said.
"Yes ... organization ..." Rem Lanas told them. He was half smiling, but it was such a disassociated look that it was clear he was thinking about something else completely.
Durla looked to Milifa, who seemed less than amused. "It's the association I created for the purpose of organizing Centauri workers for–"
"I do not care," Milifa said flatly. "I want to know about the bastards who killed my son. If he's one of them, I want all their names."
Durla nodded and turned back to Rem Lanas. "I am speaking of a terrorist organization. An organization created for sabotage. You are part of such a group, yes?"
Lanas nodded his head.
"Now we're getting somewhere," Durla said, smirking. Caso nodded approvingly. "How many people are in it?"
"All of them," Lanas told him.
"Don't spar with me, Lanas," Durla warned, becoming increasingly annoyed. He glanced up at Caso. "How is he able to do this?"
"I'm not sure," Caso said, looking a bit worried. "He should be unable to hold back anything. It should just all be spilling out of him."
"Lanas... who is the head of the organization?" Durla asked.
"The head?"
"Yes."
"The head... is our leader."
"Yes. His name. What is the name of the head of the organization?"
And his reply made no sense at all. "No. What is the name of the man on second base."
"Who?" Durla said, utterly flummoxed.
"No. Who is on first."
"What?"
"What is on second."
Durla felt as if he were losing his mind. In a harsh whisper he demanded of Caso, "This is gibberish. What is he saying?"
"I don't know!" Caso replied loudly.
"Third base," Rem Lanas intoned, as if by rote.
Durla was up off his chair with such force that he knocked it over. Caso was about to speak when an angry prime minister grabbed him by the front of his shirt and slammed him back up against the wall. "This is idiocyl" he said tightly. "What sort of game is this?"
"It's n-not a game!" Caso stammered, his veneer of Prime Candidate indifference wavering under the infuriated onslaught of the most powerful man on Centauri Prime. "It... it must be a fail-safe..."
"Fail-safe? What sort of–"
"Something planted in his mind. Imprinted. So that if he's being questioned or probed, instead of breaking through to the core of what we want to know, his mind automatically reverts to this nonsense. It becomes a loop that we can't get past."
"That's impossible!"
"No. It's not. I've ..." He licked his lips nervously. "I've heard techno-mages can accomplish such things..."
"Now it's techno-mages!" Milifa bellowed. "Drugs! Children's stories about techno-mages! What sort of government are you running here, Durla!"
Durla rounded on him, suddenly not caring just how powerful a house Milifa ran. He pointed a trembling finger at Milifa, and said, "The kind of government that could strip you of name, rank, and property with a snap of my fingers! So watch yourself, Milifa, and show some respect for who and what I am, before I make you less than who and what you are!"
Milifa, wisely, said nothing, but the set of his face made it clear he was not happy.
Durla, for his part, felt shamed. And the notion that this scrawny no one was playing games with him and shaming him in front of a long-standing ally infuriated him beyond reason. "Forget the drugs," he told Caso. "Now ... now we chat with him in the way we used to do these things."