He didn’t even hesitate. “You’re right, I don’t. Sleep okay?”
“Yeah. Thanks.” Actually, she’d slept better than she had in a long time.
“Really?” he said. “No nocturnal wanderings?”
He was standing right beside her now, and for half an instant, she could have sworn he was leaning closer to smell her still damp hair.
“It was you,” he said. “I thought so. The blanket,” he explained. “It smelled like . . . well, like you.”
He had been smelling her hair.
Teri didn’t know what to say. “Should I apologize?” she asked. “I guess it really depends on whether the next thing you say is Teri, you smell great, or Teri, you smell like a barnyard.”
He laughed. “Trust me, you smell great.” He caught himself and began to backpedal. “I don’t mean that with anything other than the utmost respect and—”
“Stop.” Teri let her annoyance show. “I know how you meant it.” As a friend. As in no, she didn’t smell like a barnyard, so yes, that meant, by default, that she smelled great. God forbid he slip and let himself be attracted to her.
He surprised her by holding her gaze. “Okay,” he said. “Good. This isn’t the time or place to talk about this, but after what you told me yesterday, you’ll forgive me if I bend over backward a little to reestablish whatever amount of trust I lost when—”
“How could you think I don’t trust you?” she asked. “After what I told you?”
His gaze softened. “You know, I thought about it all night. What you told me. Christ, I even dreamed about it. I just keep picturing the way you must’ve looked when you were eight and I . . .” He shook his head, the muscle jumping in the side of his jaw. “Teri, God help me, I still want to hunt this son of a bitch down and kill him. I have a feeling I’m going to be ninety, and I’ll think about him, and I’ll still want to find him and tear out his throat with my bare hands.”
Teri didn’t let herself think. She just reached for him, and God, he didn’t push her away. He just held her. She wasn’t quite sure who was comforting whom.
“I’m so sorry,” she whispered.
“For who?” Stan asked with a forced-sounding laugh. “Him or me?”
He was trying to keep this from being too heavy, too intense.
She didn’t feel like answering. She didn’t feel like doing much of anything—besides standing there in the warm circle of Stan’s arms.
God, she was pathetic. One friendly, comforting hug, and she was ready to melt. Mike Muldoon had kissed her last night, and it hadn’t made her heart race even a quarter of the way it did when Stan so much as looked at her.
What would Stan say if she asked him to have breakfast with her? When the sun came up and they returned to the hotel after running the drill on the practice plane a few million times? What would he do if that breakfast was a private one, in her hotel room with room service and the curtains drawn and the bed right there—the centerpiece of the room.
He would eat his eggs, be polite and gentle as he explained why the two of them getting naked would be a particularly bad idea.
And then he’d try to set her up with Muldoon again.
God, maybe she should just do it. Get with Mike Muldoon. He seemed to want her. Stan sure wanted them together, that was clear. She wanted Stan, she really did, but if she couldn’t have him, Muldoon was certainly a good second choice. He was a nice enough guy. And he seemed to have no problem talking about one of her favorite subjects—Stan.
“If you ever need to talk,” Stan told her now, “just wake me, okay? I woke up with your blanket on me, and I immediately pictured you wandering the lobby all night long, dying for someone to talk to, while I snored.”
“You weren’t snoring. And I was in the lobby for only a few minutes.”
“I’m serious,” Stan said, pulling back to look at her. “Day or night, Teri. If you need someone . . .”
Gently he extracted himself even further from her arms, and she realized someone was coming up the stairs. Lots of someones. It was 0225 and the team was finally on its way.
“Did I thank you yet?” Stan asked her, his voice low. “For the blanket?”
She shook her head, wishing he hadn’t let go of her so soon. Wishing he hadn’t let go of her at all.
“Thanks,” he said. “Really. I don’t think anyone’s tucked me in like that since my mother died.”
Great, now she reminded him of his mother.
“Yo, Senior Chief!” It was Mark Jenkins, far too enthusiastic than he had a right to be, considering the hour.
Cosmo, Silverman, Jefferson, O’Leary, and Jay Lopez were with him, all considerably less thrilled. WildCard was next, dragging himself up the stairs, looking like death warmed over—which was pretty standard for him any time of day, come to think of it.
Mike Muldoon was last and then they were all there—except they weren’t. Stan noticed the same time she did.
“Where’s Starrett?”
Their team leader was missing. Sam Starrett, usually fifteen minutes early and tapping his foot for the others to show, had yet to arrive.
They heard him before they saw him, with the slam of a door as it was pushed open echoing in the stairwell. Then pounding feet—he must’ve been taking the stairs two at a time and running full speed.
“Everyone here?” he asked, when he was still a half flight away.
Teri stared. They all stared.
His was hair was down around his shoulders and he was only half dressed. He was barefoot, carrying his boots and socks, with his shirt unbuttoned and his belt undone.
Starrett glanced at his watch. “Oh-two-thirty,” he said. “On the nose. Let’s do it. Let’s go.”
Helga awoke to the sound of someone running.
Hard and fast down a long length of something—a hallway.
It was a sound that signaled danger, the need for flight, and she was up and out of her bed, heart pounding, before she realized she wasn’t sleeping in the Gunvalds’kitchen, on a pallet that Herr Gunvald had made, between her mother and father.
There was a crash—the sound of a door being smashed open, and she jumped, nearly diving beneath the bed.
But it wasn’t her door being forced. There were no voices shouting in harsh German, no dogs barking, no more noise at all.
Of course not. She wasn’t ten years old. She was a grown woman. No, she was an old woman.
And she was in a hotel room, with generic hotel furnishings and curtains. Generic and shabby. She’d come down in the world from . . . from . . .
From she didn’t know where. She didn’t even know if it was safe to turn on the light—if she were someplace where there was a nightly blackout to prevent bombers in the skies overhead from targeting them here below.
She listened hard, but she could hear nothing. No sound of distant fighting. No drone of aircraft.
Nothing but the ticking of the wind-up alarm clock she’d brought and set next to the electric clock radio on the hotel bedside table—so that she’d be sure to wake up even if the power went out.
There were Post-it notes all over the room. They were stuck on every available surface. On the dresser, on the bedside table, on the lamp next to the bed, on the light switch, on the door.
Helga could see light through the crack under the door to the hallway. Keeping the chain on, she opened the door. Peeled one of the sticky notes that was posted right there by the lock and angled it to the light.
Don’t leave without your room key, notepad, and purse.
She plucked the note from the light switch by the door. It, too, was written in her own neat handwriting.
It’s safe to turn on the lights.
That was good to know. Helga closed the door and flipped the switch.
Welcome to Kazbekistan, said another. Thank you. Maybe. She hoped she wasn’t here on her vacation. Kazbekistan wasn’t the kind of country one went to relax.
World Airlines Flight 232 has been hijacked by terrorists. Possible GIK connections? 120 passengers on board. Oh, dear. And oh, yes. She remembered. She and Des had come here to make the terrorists believe there was hope of negotiating a settlement. But there wasn’t. U.S. Navy SEALs were preparing—probably right now—to take down the plane, although she couldn’t for the life of her remember the name of the CO or even the number of the SEAL Team. It wasn’t Six, was it?
List of major players in notepad. Thank you, dear self. That would help.
It would almost be funny if it weren’t so damned pathetic. Clearly she’d been having these little lapses in memory with some frequency, hence all the Post-it notes to aid her in moments just like this one.
She climbed back in bed.
Ah, here was an interesting one, right on the headboard. Senior Chief Stanley Wolchonock is Marte Gunvald’s son.
If she closed her eyes and focused, she could picture him. Light hair, broad shoulders, craggy features. Not exactly handsome, but not exactly not. He didn’t smile all that often, but when he did, his face became wonderfully warm and tremendously appealing.
And he had eyes just like Annebet’s.
Helga’s notepad was right there on the bedside table, and Annebet’s name seemed to jump out at her from the page.
“Annebet Gunvald,” she read, also in her own familiar hand. “Went to America after the war. Became pediatrician, died two years ago. Never married.”
Stanley had told her this late this afternoon. She remembered that now.
Annebet had never married.
Again.
She’d married once, though. To Helga’s brother, Hershel. Helga had attended the ceremony.
It had been a strange one, although possibly the nicest Helga had ever witnessed, both before and after. The rabbi—no doubt heeding Poppi’s grim wishes—claimed he couldn’t find the time to marry Hershel and Annebet until the following spring. And the pastor of the Gunvalds’church had been ready to perform the ceremony right then and there, until he heard Hershel’s name. Then, suddenly, he was also unavailable for a great many months. Anti-Semitic, Annebet had muttered angrily, but Hershel had merely moved on to the next possibility. But every church they approached, they were turned away.
The justice of the peace had been rounded up with a group of known communists five months earlier. No one had heard from him in nearly that long.
By then it was after midnight. Annebet, in true fashion, suggested she and Hershel simply jump over a broom—the way she’d read that slaves had done in the 1800s in America, when they wanted to be married. What did it matter what the government thought—since their government was currently based on a weird amalgamation of Danish beliefs and harsher Nazi rules. What did it matter what anyone thought, as long as Annebet and Hershel believed they were married?
In frustration, Hershel called upon a friend, a woman, a divinity student despite the fact that women were not permitted to be clergy.
This girl—a little slip of a thing—performed the ceremony. It was a beautiful mix of both Jewish and Christian traditions, ending with a crushed glass and a leap over a broom.
It satisfied the elder Gunvalds, as well. They welcomed Hershel into their home with open arms.
Helga’s parents, however, were livid when they found out.
“It’s not legal,” Poppi stormed. “They are not legally wed!”
Hershel and Annebet had gotten a tiny, drafty, one-room apartment in the city. They’d lived there together for a week, and Helga had never seen Hershel happier.
They’d returned to the Gunvalds to pick up the rest of Annebet’s clothes, and somehow the Rosens had found out that they would be there.
Helga’s parents had shown up in the horse-drawn wagon from the store—gasoline being so scarce by the summer of ’43 that few besides the Germans could drive.
Helga and Marte had watched from the barn’s hayloft as their two fathers met, face-to-face, looking as if they were about to have a tug-of-war with Hershel in the Gunvalds’yard. Or at least Poppi had looked that way. Herr Gunvald was calm. He was smiling, even.
Helga’s mother had sat stiff-backed on the wagon, and Inge Gunvald stood on the porch, wisely holding Annebet back, keeping her from the fray.
“How could you condone such a thing?” Poppi asked Herr Gunvald.
The bigger man smiled again. “Such a thing as love, you mean? Have you even stopped to look at them when they’re together—your son and my daughter?”
Hershel refused to let his father speak over him, ignoring him as if he were nothing more then a naughty child.
“This is not your business anymore,” he told Poppi. “You can’t kick me out of your house and then pretend you have any say in my life.”
“This is killing your mother.” Poppi spoke directly to him for the first time. “It’s not too late to forsake this folly and come home.”
Hershel laughed. “What, you mean desert my wife and the child she might already be carrying?”
In the loft, Marte turned to Helga, glee lighting her face. “They’re going to have a baby! We’re going to be aunts!”