Authors: Cristiane Serruya
George’s mouth slackened open and Calista turned white as a sheet as they recognized the surname.
Sophia’s evil smile grew as she saw the terrified look on their faces.
No home, no money. No one will want your company anymore. You’re going to pay for what you did, you bastards, for the rest of your lives just as Ethan wished.
After a few minutes of polite conversation in French, Sophia ended the call.
“You are taking a big gamble, Sophia,” Calista said, trying to mask the trembling in her voice.
“You’re bluffing,” George scoffed, irritated. “Eva wouldn’t do any—”
“Maybe.” Sophia sighed dramatically, enjoying their nervousness. “Maybe not. But I wouldn’t be so sure. Anyway, you wouldn’t want me to disclose to the police the other information I have. Tell me, George, how have you been earning money recently? Your job, what would you call it?”
Calista answered for him, “Prostitution is no crime. I can sell my body as much as I want. Besides, I like to fuck, don’t I, George?”
So crude!
“Hmm. You’re right. Prostitution is not a crime here,” Sophia nodded, slowly. “You value yourselves and your constant companions quite highly, don’t you? Oh, I must commend your PR skills. She is quite the promoter.”
“Well, we’re very experienced,” George ogled her. “You should visit our house. The first fuck is free—”
“Your
former
brothel, you mean,” Sophia cut him shortly, taking out sheets of paper from the envelope, photos and two menus with head shots, sex practice specifications and their prices, and spread them on the table. “If more than one person is available at a premise for paid sex, then the so called house is a brothel. For your information, to run a brothel is against the law.”
Ashford Mansion.
Monday, April 18
th
, 2011.
10.31 a.m.
Sophia alighted from her new bulletproof black Mercedes and looked over the house Ethan had been raised in.
Occupying a grand corner plot with an enormous garden surrounding it, Ashford Mansion was among the finest and largest properties in Chiswick, with its elegant detached Grade II listed family house.
Ethan has described something completely different.
“The garden needs tending,” she mumbled, eyeing the overgrown weeds and the leaves scattered everywhere.
But then, his reference of it was of coldness and pain.
Zahira and her assistant followed Sophia as she inspected the house Ethan had grown in.
She opened the front door and her steps echoed in the empty marble hall.
They took all the furniture. Well, good riddance.
The hall opened into a grand reception room that lead to an indoor pool that resembled the Roman baths with large painted murals depicting couples in graphic and degrading sexual acts. Sophia gagged and stepped back.
Oh, Ethan.
She looked at Zahira’s assistant and said, “Please, dear, get rid of this as soon as possible. Before even starting any other work. Tomorrow. I don’t care how. Splash them all over in white, or black if you think it’s better. I don’t want anyone seeing these murals. I want this place transformed in two pools, one for the babies and children and the other for the teenagers. It’s a good place for inside exercise. See if it can be enlarged to put a small work-out space.”
Sophia couldn’t hear Ethan’s childish giggles or imagine him there. It was a wasted and hollow place for indulgent and immoderate sybaritism.
“What do you think, Zahira?” she asked after wandering through the house in a stunned and shocked silence.
“It’s a great property. It doesn’t need many changes except… a
cleansing
.” Zahira held Ethan in high regard and Sophia felt she was horrified too as her usual lively chatting diminished to just pointed remarks. “We can use the backyard building as a daycare house. It’s big enough for twenty or even thirty babies and maybe thirty toddlers. Whenever the weather is good we can take them for outside play and exercise on that beautiful, center garden. On the main house, we can have the older ones as they need more attention. Sophia, this property is so big that it can house many children and provide them with all the physical and psychological assistance they need and bridge their way to adopted families.”
“I’m sure you’ll be able to secure permission for further extension work to create a basement space for indoor sports activities and office space above the garages.” She locked the door and breathed in deeply, relieved to be out of the house. “Zahira, I want you personally in charge of this.”
“Don’t worry, Sophia.” Zahira looked around as they walked to the car. “I can already see children coming back to life in these superb garden. We will need very few modifications.”
“I want the refurbishment started as soon as possible. I want this to be a happy haven for children in need. And, Zahira, I don’t want this to be called Sophia Leibowitz Foundation House.” She shook her head pensively, stopping and looking back at the house. “I want a discreet gold matte plaque, praising Ethan, something simple… Mmmm.”
“Ashford Mansion for Children?” Zahira turned also. “Sounds a bit pompous.”
No, never.
She tilted her head to the side as a name rolled in her mind. “Over the entrance and on a small plaque by the door, it will say: ‘
Ethan Ashford Refuge for Children
.’ I will commission a white marble bust of Ethan to be put beside the main door, with an engrave: ‘
He made a difference
.’”
Chapter 37
Ells Hall.
Friday, April 22
nd
, 2011.
8.21 a.m.
Tickles woke up Sophia. Very slowly she raised the coverlet and stole a peek under it to discover Alistair, lying on his side, facing her slightly round belly, his nose almost touching it while he whispered and chuckled. He was so engrossed in what he was doing that he didn’t even notice that she was awake and watching him with an endeared smile on her face.
“’Morning, Handsome,” she whispered.
“Hey. Good morning. Sleep well?” He smiled up at her, delighted as a child playing with his favorite toy. “I was having a very nice chat with this little warrior here. Man stuff, you know.”
So sweet, Husband.
“No, I don’t. I’m a woman. I’ve always been fascinated with this man stuff. What is all that about?”
“Well, football, of course,” he chortled when Sophia scrunched her nose. He knew she hated soccer. “Then… Hmm… cars, horses, food, money, and sex and women. Not necessarily in that order.”
At her indignant gasp, he laughed out loud and threw the coverlet off them, pushing her on her back, ready to pounce.
Ah!
“Apologize, Husband.”
Sophia moved quickly and put her feet on his shoulders keeping him away. She tsked and said, “And restart your chat by teaching this little guy how to treat women with politeness and respect.”
With a naughty grin, he put a hand over his heart and said ironically, “Oh, my sincere apologies, my fair lady. I promise to raise our son like a gentleman. I’ll teach him to press his own shirts and to sew his own buttons. He will not be allowed to watch porn and will marry a virgin—”
Sophia laughed and pulled him down, pressing her legs on his shoulders. “Hmm, Lord Chauvinist, we’ll have to rethink these ideas of yours.”
“Maybe another time,” he lowered his head to kiss her. Looking at her from beneath his long black eyelashes, he said mischievously, “Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have pressing business that needs to be taken care of.”
“Be my guest,” Sophia breathed huskily, already hot for her husband’s caresses.
Their faces were a whisper apart making the world fall out of focus around them.
His forest-green eyes searched hers, and in her yellow-diamond ones, he saw himself mirrored inside her and amazed felt her soul linking to his. He could tell they had become one.
When their love making was over and Alistair tried to roll over, her arms tightened around him and she whispered, “Stay. I like your weight over me.”
He raised his head to look at her as he heard a strange tone in her voice.
“I love you so much, so much, Alistair Connor, that sometimes it hurts.” Sophia’s eyes were clear with joy. “A good hurt.”
“Good,” he said seriously, kissing her eyelids, “because otherwise this Alistair Connor would have to kill himself.”
That made her smile. “Then I’d have to poison myself.”
“I never liked the story of Romeo and Juliet. It seemed stupid,” he grunted and kissed the tip of her nose, rolling over and taking her with him.
She propped herself up on his chest. For a few minutes, she only watched his face and traced it with the tip of her fingers. Then she sighed and said, “We have to start living again. I want to go back to teaching after Easter.”
Fuck, Sophia. Already?
His hand moved to her head, but it landed gently on her back. Her hair had begun to grow in a few places, there was a smooth shadow coating her scalp. The skin was recovered nicely too but she was still annoyed by her appearance. He raised an eyebrow. “Do you want to go back to Atwood House?”
“Not yet.” She stared at him and shrugged. “I’d like to live… away for a while. Here. Or in Scotland.”
He almost choked. “Here or in Scotland? Are you serious?”
“Yes and no, Lord Urban,” she smiled at his shock. “Here at Ells Hall, or Airgead, or somewhere else peaceful from Friday, after Gabriela’s school, to Monday morning and…”
Somewhere in London but not Atwood House. At least, for now.
Sophia didn’t remember much of what happened inside Atwood House, but her memories of the time during the dungeon were still with her. The terrible images came during the day. They came during the night. She could be lying in bed, thinking about her thesis or how she wanted to furbish the baby’s room and she would be transported back to that dark hell, her wrists and ankles bound. She could be in the shower and all of a sudden, instead of clear water she would see blood, dirt, and no amount of scrubbing would make her feel clean.
He had noticed that she spaced out, sometimes in the middle of a conversation, her eyes glazing, her hand gripping his so hard it hurt. And although she had healed physically, he was quite sure it would still take a time before she could find the courage to return to Atwood House. But she had never told him to sell it, only that she didn’t want to go back yet. “You don’t really want to sell Atwood House, do you?”
“Well. No, I don’t. I want to redo the TV room and the office and improve security. I talked with Carol about this before she left and she promised to send me her ideas. Valentina has already sent hers. And Liang is working on the security. I never rented my apartment on Eaton Square. We could live there until Atwood House is ready. If that’s okay with you.”
“Of course it’s okay with me.” Alistair’s hatred for what Uó, Alberto and Emma had done to her had not lessened after the trial and their life sentences in prison. The only thing that made it better was Sophia’s smiles. Maybe only when all the shadows in her eyes where gone, he could accept it better. Until then, he would do anything, everything, to ensure she found her happiness again. His broad hand ran over the smooth skin of her back, leisurely, the touch light and hypnotizing, trying to remove from her all the darkness that was still stuck inside. “And what else?”
She tilted her head to the side as if pondering his question and yet using the moment to gather her courage and fight off her tears. “Would you think me crazy if I told you that I’m quitting?”
“Quitting?” The rising panic in her voice made him croak the word. But it was in a smooth, light tone that he said, “You’re not a quitter. What are you planning on quitting?”
“My PhD and my position as the head of LO legal department,” she whispered and looked down as if ashamed. “I’m going to finish teaching my classes, but my dissertation… It’s not so important anymore, the title, I mean. I’ll publish what I’ve done so far and present it with the Cambridge Socio-Legal Group, if they accept me. Then I want to dedicate myself to my family and to my work at the Foundation. Am I crazy?”
Alistair wasn’t expecting that answer and for a long moment, he stayed quiet, thinking about what he should say. Whether he should support her decision, or whether he should encourage her to pursue her dreams until the end, showing her this was only a bad moment that was going to pass.
She raised her eyelids to search for a clue on his face but there was only astonishment imprinted there.
“Why?” he asked. “You are almost done.”
You can ask for a break.
“Sometimes you don’t even realize anything is wrong until something happens and makes you see you deserve better, makes you want more. In the grand scheme, the little things that are so important become invisible phantoms when they should be an indispensable part of the complete picture. Inadvertently ignored, they choose a different path for themselves, walking away, struggling alone through the day. Quietly and sad, at night, they go to sleep without knowing if they’ll be opening their eyes the next morning.”
Oh, Christ.
“Sophia,” he whispered, scared. “What are you saying?”
She laid her cheek on his chest and whispered, “When I was… alone, there, in the dark… I thought about all that I had missed and all I had achieved since I was a child. About my parents, my family, my childhood, my nonexistent teenage years, Gabriel, Gabriela, you and this baby. I thought about what I did during all those years; how I rushed my life, running away from my own shadow, afraid of loving and being loved because it hurt too much to lose those you loved. I understood that not loving and not being loved hurt so much more. I weighted the true happy moments of my life and they always involved persons and relationships, never money. I thought about… If I were going to die. There was nothing significant to be written in my… epitaph…”