Paulson’s body jerks, and he groans with the pain in his abdomen.
‘I can’t tell you that.’
‘Jesus Christ, Paulson. This is no fucking time for games.’
‘It’s an ongoing investigation, Doyle. Give me something I can deny or not. A yes-no question.’
The sirens are louder now, just blocks away, probably trying to fight through the traffic.
‘Okay, uhm . . . let me think . . . uhm, an operation. It went south. An intelligence leak.’
‘I couldn’t comment.’
No denial.
‘And the outfit involved, the crew that got away because of the leak. You know who they were.’
‘You do too, don’t you, Doyle?’
Doyle almost can’t bring himself to utter the name.
‘Kurt Bartok.’
Paulson coughs. ‘No comment. Now get the fuck out of here.’
Doyle looks down the street. He can see flashing lights bouncing off the buildings.
‘I’m staying with you.’
‘I can tell you got other things to do, and I don’t need you, so go!’
‘You saved my life.’
‘And now I’m saving your ass. Don’t worry, I’m not jamming you up. Last time I checked, I was a sergeant and you were a DT Second Grade, so take this as an order to
leave. Go, will ya!’
Doyle stands and looks around, sees the approaching RMPs and an ambulance. Before he leaves, he performs one last act.
Reaching down to Paulson, he takes his free hand and shakes it firmly.
He’s out of time.
He’s pacing up and down in Spinner’s apartment, trying to think, and all he can hear is a tiny voice telling him he has no more time.
Bartok has found him once, he’ll find him again. And next time he won’t miss. In a period of less than one day, Doyle has twice washed the blood of others from his hands. It’s
only a matter of time before they’re covered in his own.
The cops will be searching for him too. They’ll want to know why he was talking to IAB, and why he booked the scene when Paulson was shot. If they haven’t done so already,
they’ll check the hotel and discover that he’s abandoned it and gone into hiding. At some point, either the cops or Bartok will have the presence of mind to look here, and then
it’ll be too late for him to do anything.
So concentrate, goddamnit!
Okay, what do we have? Somehow Kurt Bartok found out the identity of the guy who’s been terrorizing me. He gets Sonny Rocca to approach the killer with an offer. Bartok will keep his
identity under wraps in return for . . .
For what?
What use is this guy to Bartok?
Doyle knows the answer. It’s something he should have realized a long time ago, but even now he finds it hard to accept.
Bartok was just doing what he always did. It was second nature to him. The value of the killer to Bartok was his information.
Because the killer is a cop.
Much as Doyle doesn’t want to believe it, it’s the only glue that can hold all the pieces together. Bartok’s commodity was information, most of which came from cops. He already
had at least one Eighth Precinct cop in his pocket – Paulson confirmed that much.
Suppose the crooked cop finds something out about another member of service. Not necessarily that he’s a killer – this is probably way before Parlatti is murdered. Just a juicy
tidbit of information that maybe could be used as leverage. Dutifully, the dirty cop passes it on to his unofficial employer, Kurt Bartok, and Bartok files it away in his vast mental storehouse.
Only later, when the killings begin, is Bartok able to slot the data into the right place and see it for what it really is: a pointer to a man who is slaughtering and persecuting his own
brothers.
What Bartok has now is the perfect opportunity for turning another cop. It’s not something he’s going to ignore. So he sends Rocca out to talk to the cop, to make him that offer.
Only the cop doesn’t fall for it. He bounces Rocca back with instructions to Bartok to go fuck himself.
Now Bartok doesn’t know what to do. Nobody’s ever called his bluff like this before, but he doesn’t want to give up this chance of gaining another source of his precious
data.
Which is where Spinner comes in.
To Bartok, Spinner is just a pawn. Expendable. His only use is to put pressure on the cop. Bartok calls Spinner in to give him the name, but he lets the cop know about it, hoping that this time
he’ll cave in.
Only he doesn’t. What he does instead is to track down Spinner and eliminate him. Whether Spinner actually learned the name or not is irrelevant. The point is that the killer
believed
he knew it.
And still Bartok doesn’t give up. He sends Rocca back yet again, this time with the message that he’s going to hand the killer’s name directly to the victimized cop, Doyle. It
seems a win-win situation to Bartok, because he gets either the killer or Doyle as a new addition to his stable.
But the killer is always just that one step ahead. Being a cop, he may already know about the bad relations between Rocca and Bartok. He’s also had several opportunities to sound Rocca out
about his employment prospects. So he makes Rocca a counteroffer, and it’s bye-bye Bartok.
Doyle stops pacing. He puts his hands over his eyes, the enormity of the truth shocking him to his core.
A fellow cop! Jesus Christ.
He wants to look for reasons to reject it as fact, to find alternatives, but he knows that nothing else will fit.
It explains so much: how the killer knew Doyle was at the boxing gym, and which was his car; how he knows Doyle’s wife and child, his address, the car that Rachel drives; how he knew
Joe’s pool-night routine so well.
And there’s something else, too. When this guy phoned Rachel, pretending he was a doctor at Bellevue, he put on a fake Indian accent. The only reason for doing that is because there was a
danger of Rachel recognizing his voice.
This isn’t just any cop.
This is a cop close to home.
So who?
And why is he doing this to me?
Which cops have I hurt so badly that he would go to such lengths to get back at me?
Marino? Sure, he hates my guts, but would even he stoop to this? Killing other cops just to isolate me? What kind of perverted justice is that?
Doyle collapses onto a chair, his head still in his hands. Around him are the noises of a building come to life: televisions, slamming doors, footsteps in the hallway, barking dogs, crying
children. But he is oblivious to them all. He doesn’t move for a long time. He just sits and thinks, replaying recent conversations a thousand times each in his head. Looking for signs.
Looking for hate. Looking for reasons.
And when his brain can take no more, he experiences utter despair. Sadness overwhelms him.
Not because the answers evade him.
But because they come to him. In a form more shocking than he would have believed possible.
He has work to do. He has people he must speak to.
If he is wrong, he may be putting their lives at risk.
That’s if he can stay alive long enough to get to them.
The house is situated near the New Croton Reservoir in Westchester County, about twenty-two miles north of the city. The body of water used to be known as Croton Lake, which,
back in the mid-nineteenth century, fed a distributing reservoir located in mid-town Manhattan. Today’s users of the New York Public Library on Fifth Avenue might be surprised to learn that,
a century and a half earlier, their ancestors were promenading above them and delighting in the view of the moonlight bouncing off glassy waters.
The property is a huge two-story affair in white clapboard, with not a neighboring building in sight. A perfect vertical line of chimney smoke betrays the stillness of the crisp air. Christmas
lights are strung like icicles along the eaves, and a ghostly plastic snowman looks out from a window, a friendly smile on its big moon-like face. Somewhere in the many acres of woodland beyond the
rear of the property, an animal or bird screeches. It’s a quiet, peaceful place, so different from the frenetic bustle of the city.
Doyle steps onto the wooden porch, sucks in an icy breath that stings his windpipe, then thumbs the doorbell.
A light comes on inside, and a shadow looms through the glass pane of the door. The door opens, and a woman peers at him through the porch screen. She seems surprised – shocked even.
‘Cal!’ she says.
Doyle wishes he could find a smile for her, but he can’t.
‘Hello, Nadine,’ he says.
She leads him through a paneled hallway. Ornamental plates on the walls. A pendulum clock beating out the house’s pulse. A tastefully decorated Christmas tree in one
corner.
When he shambles into the light, she sees what a wreck he is.
‘My God, Cal. What happened? Did you take up boxing again?’
‘Yeah. Only now I fight three at once, just to make it a challenge. Is Mo in?’
‘Not yet. It’s just another lonely night.’
Another lonely night. She could have been saying, Oh, for some male company to keep me warm on this bitter winter night. But this is Nadine the Siren. She makes men read such things into her
words.
She adds, ‘He’s driving up later, but he won’t get in till after ten. Believe it or not, he’s actually taking a day’s leave tomorrow. I think he really needs it.
He’s looking pretty tired lately.’
She escorts him into a spacious living room. Its centerpiece is a colossal stone fireplace. A log fire crackles and pops and throws out its cozy glow. She gestures for him to take a seat in one
of two massive armchairs angled toward the fire, a lace-covered oak coffee table between them. As Doyle sits, she gets onto the other chair and curls her bare legs beneath her. Dwarfed by the
chair, and with the sleeves of an oversized woolen sweater hiding her hands, she looks like a child waiting to be read a bedtime story.
‘So,’ she says, ‘how did you know I was up here?’
‘I didn’t. I went to your Manhattan apartment first. Your neighbor said you’d traveled up here.’
‘You should have phoned me. I could have told you where we were. Saved you all the trouble.’
He doesn’t answer. He looks around at the antique furniture, the sepia photographs on the walls. ‘Last time I was up here, it was summer. The barbecue, remember?’
She laughs girlishly. ‘I do. You pushed Schneider into the swimming pool and then claimed it was an accident.’
Doyle shrugs. ‘I’d had too much to drink. Joe Parlatti and Tony Alvarez were up here too. Remember that?’
Her smile fades in an instant. ‘Listen, Cal. It’s always a pleasure to see you – don’t get me wrong, I think we’ve become real good friends, but . . . should you be
here? I mean . . .’
‘It’s okay, Nadine. I wasn’t followed. Nobody knows I’m here. You’re safe.’
He remembers giving a similar guarantee to Spinner, and look how that turned out.
‘I’m sorry, Cal. I didn’t mean to sound rude. It’s just that . . .’
‘Yeah, I know. A lot’s been happening. You’ve every right to be concerned. I just . . . needed to see you.’
She glances at the mahogany-cased clock on the mantle. ‘Well, like I say, I think it could be some time before Mo gets here . . .’
‘Actually, Nadine, I think maybe I need to talk with you first.’
She stares at him with those ice-blue eyes of hers. Christmas is all wrapped up in those eyes.
‘You must be freezing,’ she says finally. ‘Let me get you something. I make a mean hot chocolate. Marshmallows and everything.’
She starts to get up, but Doyle stops her with a raised hand.
‘No, please. Not for me. Can we just talk for a while?’
She sinks slowly back into the cushions. ‘Now you’ve got me worried. What’s going on, Cal?’
Doyle tries to find the words. He’s been trying to assemble them all the way up the Parkway.
‘I’ve been through a lot these past few days. I’m tired. Maybe I got this all wrong, but some things are bugging me.’
‘What kind of things?’
‘This guy. The one who’s been following me around, picking off my partners and my friends, threatening to hurt my family, doing everything he can to cut me off from people because of
some crazy idea he has that I wronged him in the past . . .’
‘What about him? Have they caught him? Do they know who he is?’
‘No. See, that’s the problem. They haven’t caught him. They haven’t got a name for him. They can’t find a shred of evidence that pins anything on any of the people
I’ve collared or had beefs with in the past. For a while now, I’ve been thinking that the job doesn’t really care about me. The shit I’m carrying around, there are some cops
who don’t care if I live or die. The longer I’m off the squad the better, far as they’re concerned.’
‘Cal, that’s nonsense. Sure, there are a couple of cops who won’t be sending you Christmas cards this year, but they’re not all like that. I know. I’ve talked to
them. Mo’s talked to them too.’
Doyle nods. ‘Yeah, I’m beginning to believe that. I’m beginning to believe that they really are doing their damnedest to catch this guy, or at least work out who might hold
such a grudge against me. Me too. I’ve been going through lists of perps in my mind over and over again. The most likely suspects are either dead or locked up or have ironclad alibis. The
rest . . . well, to be honest, I just don’t see it. I don’t want to sound like I got no modesty or anything, but I just can’t see any of these people hating me enough to do
this.’
‘Yeah, but Cal, you’re forgetting how people can change. The guy you locked up ten years ago is probably not the same guy today. He’s had time to brood. Maybe things happened
to him in prison that he blames on you. And then there’re the lunatics. The people who see you through their crazy eyes as someone who was responsible for a lot more than you did. They could
blame you for 9/11 – who knows with these people? Or maybe it’s a relative of a perp you put away – someone who sees himself as a victim of yours even though you’ve never
met him. There are a lot of possibilities, Cal. Maybe you just need to give it more time.’
‘Yeah. Mo said similar things to me.’
‘And he’s right.’