Phantom (3 page)

Oh, thank God,
she thought, as she felt the familiar, comforting sense of their minds entwining. Stefan’s lips curled into a smile beneath hers.

I thought I’d lost you,
she thought,
that I wouldn’t be able to reach you like this anymore, either.
Unlike with the telepathic connection they’d shared, she knew the thoughts weren’t reaching Stefan as words but as images and emotions. From him, she felt a wordless, steady stream of unfailing love.

A throat was cleared pointedly behind them. Elena reluctantly released Stefan and turned to see Aunt Judith watching them.

Stefan straightened with an embarrassed blush, the slightest look of apprehension in his eyes. Elena grinned. She loved that he’d been through hell—literally—but was still scared to upset Elena’s aunt. She put her hand on his arm, trying to send a message that Aunt Judith now accepted their relationship, but Aunt Judith’s warm smile and greeting said it for her.

“Hello, Stefan. You’ll be back by six, won’t you, Elena?” Aunt Judith asked. “Robert’s got a late meeting, so I thought you, Margaret, and I could go out for a girls’ night together.” She looked hopeful yet hesitant, like someone knocking on a door that might be slammed in her face. Elena’s stomach knotted with guilt.
Have I been avoiding Aunt Judith this summer?

She could imagine that, if she hadn’t died, she might have been eager to move on with her life and chafed at the family that wanted to keep her home and safe. But this Elena knew better—knew how lucky she was to have Aunt Judith and Robert. And it seemed that this Elena had a lot of making up to do.

“Sounds like fun!” she said cheerfully, pasting a bright smile on her face. “Can I invite Bonnie and Meredith? They’d love a girls’ night.” And it would be nice, she thought, to have friends around who were as clueless about what had been going on in this version of Fell’s Church as she was.

“Wonderful,” Aunt Judith said, looking happier and more relaxed. “Have a good time, kids.”

As Elena headed out the door, Margaret ran out of the kitchen. “Elena!” she said, wrapping her arms tightly around Elena’s waist. Elena bent and kissed the top of her head.

“I’ll catch you later, bunny rabbit,” she said.

Margaret motioned for Elena and Stefan to kneel down, then put her lips right next to their ears. “Don’t forget to come back this time,” she whispered before retreating inside.

For a moment, Elena just knelt there, frozen. Stefan squeezed her hand, pulling her up, and even without their telepathic connection, she knew they were having the same thought.

As they headed away from the house, Stefan took her by the shoulders. His green eyes gazed into hers, and he bent forward to brush a light kiss upon her lips.

“Margaret’s a little girl,” he said firmly. “It could just be that she doesn’t want her big sister to leave. Maybe she’s worried about you going off to college.”

“Maybe,” Elena murmured as Stefan wrapped his arms around her. She inhaled his green, woodsy scent and felt her breathing slow and the knot in her stomach loosen.

“And if not,” she said slowly, “we’ll work it out. We always do. But right now I want to see what the Guardians gave us.”

I
t was the little changes that surprised Elena the most. She had expected the Guardians to bring Fell’s Church back. And they had.

The last time she’d seen the town, probably a quarter of the houses had been rubble. They’d been burned or bombed, some fully destroyed, some only half-gone, with police tape dangling dismally across what was left of their entrances. Around and above the ruined houses, trees and bushes had grown and stretched strangely, vines draping over the debris, giving the streets of the small town the look of an ancient jungle.

Now Fell’s Church was—mostly—the way Elena remembered it. A picture postcard–perfect small Southern town of deep-porched houses surrounded by carefully tended flower gardens and big old trees. The sun was shining and the air was warm with the promise of a hot and humid Virginia summer day.

From a few blocks away came the muted roar of a lawn mower, and the smell of cut grass filled the air. The Kinkade kids in the house on the corner had dragged out their badminton set and were batting the birdie back and forth; the youngest girl waved to Elena and Stefan as they passed. Everything took Elena back to the long July days she’d known all the previous summers of her life.

Elena hadn’t asked for her old life back, though. Her exact words had been:
I want a
new
life, with my real old life behind me.
She’d wanted Fell’s Church to be the way it would have been now, months later, if evil had never come to town back at the beginning of her senior year.

But she hadn’t realized how jarring all the little changes would be. The small colonial-style house in the middle of the next block had been painted a surprising shade of pink, and the old oak tree in its front lawn had been cut down and replaced with a flowering shrub.

“Huh.” Elena turned to Stefan as they passed the house. “Mrs. McCloskey must have died, or moved to a nursing home.” Stefan looked at her blankly. “She never would have let them paint her house that color. There must be new people living there,” she explained, shivering slightly.

“What is it?” Stefan asked instantly, as attuned to her moods as ever.

“Nothing, it’s just . . .” Elena tried to smile as she tucked a silky lock of hair behind her ear. “She used to feed me cookies when I was a kid. It’s strange to realize she might have died of natural causes while we’ve been gone.”

Stefan nodded, and the two walked silently to Fell’s Church’s small downtown. Elena was about to point out that her favorite coffee shop had been replaced by a drugstore, when she grabbed Stefan’s arm. “Stefan.
Look.
”

Coming toward them were Isobel Saitou and Jim Bryce.

“Isobel! Jim!” Elena shouted joyfully, and ran toward them. But Isobel was stiff in her arms, and Jim was looking at her curiously.

“Uh, hi?” Isobel said hesitantly.

Elena instantly stepped back.
Oops
. In
this
life, did she even know Isobel? They’d been in school together, of course. Jim had gone out with Meredith a couple of times before he and Isobel started dating, although Elena hadn’t known him well. But it was possible she had never even spoken to quiet, studious Isobel Saitou before the kitsune came to town.

Elena’s mind worked busily, trying to figure out how to get out of this without seeming crazy. But a warm buzz of happiness kept rising up in her chest, keeping her from taking the problem too seriously. Isobel was
okay
. She’d suffered so much at the hands of the kitsune: She’d pierced herself in horrible ways and slit her own tongue so severely that even after she’d recovered from the kitsune’s thrall, she’d spoken in a soft slur. Worse, the kitsune goddess had been in Isobel’s house the whole time, pretending to be Isobel’s grandmother.

And poor Jim . . . Infected through Isobel, Jim had torn himself apart, eating at his own flesh. Yet here he was, as handsome and carefree—albeit mildly confused—as ever.

Stefan smiled broadly, and Elena couldn’t stop giggling. “Sorry, guys, I’m just . . . so happy to see familiar faces from school. I must miss good old Robert E. Lee High School, you know? Who would have thought?”

It was a pretty weak excuse, but Isobel and Jim smiled and nodded. Jim cleared his throat awkwardly and said, “Yeah, it was a good year, wasn’t it?”

Elena laughed again. She couldn’t help herself.
A good year.

They chatted for a few minutes before Elena casually asked, “How’s your grandmother, Isobel?”

Isobel looked at her blankly. “My grandmother?” she said. “You must be confusing me with someone else. Both my grandmothers have been dead for years.”

“Oh, my mistake.” Elena said good-bye and managed to contain herself until Isobel and Jim were out of earshot. Then she took Stefan by the arms, pulled him toward her, and gave him a resounding kiss, feeling delight and triumph passing back and forth between them.

“We
did
it,” she said when the kiss had ended. “They’re fine! And not just them.” More solemn now, she gazed up into his green eyes, so serious and kind. “We did something really important and wonderful, didn’t we?”

“We did,” Stefan agreed, but she couldn’t help but notice something hard in his voice as he said it.

They walked hand in hand, and without discussing it, they headed for the edge of town, crossing Wickery Bridge and climbing the hill. They turned into the cemetery, past the ruined church where Katherine had hidden, and down into the little valley below that held the newer part of the graveyard.

Elena and Stefan sat down on the neatly trimmed grass by the big marble headstone with “Gilbert” carved into the front.

“Hi, Mom. Hi, Dad,” Elena whispered. “I’m sorry it’s been so long.”

Back in her old life, she had visited her parents’ graves often, just to talk to them. She’d felt like they were able to hear her somehow, that they were wishing her well from whatever higher plane they’d ended up on. It had always made her feel better to tell them her troubles, and before her life had gotten so complicated, she had told them everything.

She put out one hand and gently touched the names and dates carved on the tombstone. Elena bent her head.

“It’s my fault they’re dead,” she said. Stefan made a soft noise of disagreement, and she turned to look at him. “It
is
,” she said, her eyes burning. “The Guardians told me so.”

Stefan sighed and kissed her forehead. “The Guardians wanted to kill
you
,” he said. “To make you one of them. And they accidentally killed your parents instead. It’s no more your fault than if they had shot at you and missed.”

“But I distracted my father at the critical moment and made him crash,” Elena said, hunching her shoulders.

“So the Guardians say,” Stefan replied. “But they wouldn’t want it to sound like their fault. They don’t like to admit they make mistakes. The fact remains that the accident that killed your parents wouldn’t have happened if the Guardians hadn’t been there.”

Elena lowered her eyes to hide the tears swimming in them. What Stefan said was true, she thought, but she couldn’t stop the chorus of
myfaultmyfaultmyfault
in her head.

A few wild violets were growing on her left, and she picked them, along with a patch of buttercups. Stefan joined her, handing her a sprig of columbine with yellow bell-shaped blossoms to add to her tiny wildflower bouquet.

“Damon never trusted the Guardians,” he said quietly. “Well, he wouldn’t—they don’t think much of vampires. But beyond that . . .” He reached for a tall stalk of Queen Anne’s lace growing beside a nearby headstone. “Damon had a pretty finely tuned sense for detecting lies—the lies people told themselves and the ones they told other people. When we were young we had a tutor—a priest, no less—who I liked and my father trusted, and Damon despised. When the man ran off with my father’s gold and a young lady from the neighborhood, Damon was the only one who wasn’t surprised.” Stefan smiled at Elena. “He said that the priest’s eyes were wrong. And that he spoke too smoothly.” Stefan shrugged. “My father and I never noticed. But Damon did.”

Elena smiled tremulously. “He always knew when I wasn’t being totally honest with him.” She had a sudden flash of memory: of Damon’s deep black eyes holding hers, his pupils dilated like a cat’s, his head tilting as their lips met. She looked away from Stefan’s warm green eyes, so different from Damon’s dark ones, and twisted the thick stalk of the Queen Anne’s lace around the other flowers. When the bouquet was tied together, she placed it on her parents’ grave.

“I miss him,” Stefan said softly. “There was a time when I would have thought . . . when his death might have been a relief. But I’m so glad we came together—that we were brothers again—before he died.” He put a gentle hand beneath Elena’s chin and tilted her head up so that her eyes met his again. “I know you loved him, Elena. It’s okay. You don’t have to pretend.”

Elena gave a little gasp of pain.

It was like there was a dark hole inside her. She could laugh and smile and marvel at the restored town; she could love her family; but all the time there was this dull ache, this terrible sense of loss.

Letting her tears loose at last, Elena fell into Stefan’s arms.

“Oh, my love,” he said, his voice catching, and they wept together, taking comfort in each other’s warmth.

Fine ash had fallen for a long time. Now it settled at last and the small moon of the Nether World was covered with thick, sticky piles of dust. Here and there, opalescent fluid pooled against the charred blackness, coloring it with the rainbow of an oil slick.

Nothing moved. Now that the Great Tree had disintegrated, nothing lived in this place.

Deep below the surface of the ruined moon was a body. His poisoned blood had stopped flowing and he lay unmoving, unfeeling, unseeing. But the drops of fluid saturating his skin nourished him, and a slow thrum of magical life beat steadily on.

Every now and then a flicker of consciousness rose within him. He had forgotten who he was and how he had died. But there was a voice somewhere deep inside him, a light, sweet voice he knew well, that told him,
Close your eyes now. Let go. Let go. Go.
It was comforting, and his last spark of consciousness was holding on for a moment longer, just to hear it. He couldn’t remember whose voice it was, although something in it reminded him of sunlight, of gold and lapis lazuli.

Let go.
He was slipping away, the last spark dimming, but it was all right. It was warm and comfortable, and he was ready to let go now. The voice would take him all the way to . . . to wherever it was he would go.

As the flicker of consciousness was about to go out for the last time, another voice—a sharper, more commanding voice, the voice of someone used to having his orders obeyed—spoke within him.

She needs you. She’s in danger.

He couldn’t let go. Not yet. That voice pulled painfully at him, holding him to life.

With a sharp shock, everything shifted. As if he’d been ripped out of that gentle, cozy place, he was suddenly freezing cold. Everything hurt.

Deep within the ash, his fingers twitched.