Promises Under the Peach Tree (Harlequin Superromance) (10 page)

That had been devastating enough. But it had been far worse to imagine she’d played a role in pushing his mom over the edge when they’d argued.

“That wasn’t the main reason I didn’t get to New York.” Mack’s boots thudded heavily on each stair as if the weight of old grief dogged his steps even now. “If it had just been my mom...”

He trailed off and she guessed all the ways he might fill in the blank. Logically, she understood the aftermath of his best friend’s death had been traumatic. That she should have been stronger for him instead of expecting him to be there for her. She’d been selfish. Self-centered.

And eighteen.

“I know it was more complicated than that. I just meant—”

“Jenny miscarried Vince’s baby two days after the accident.” He hit the top step on the fourth-floor landing but paused before he opened the door. “I’d promised I wouldn’t share her secret back then because she was eighteen and scared to death, but she came to terms with that a long time ago. She wouldn’t mind me telling you now.”

Shock glued her feet to the floor. In all these years, she’d never guessed. Never suspected there might be something so...
significant
that had drawn Jenny and Mack together. Her picture of the past reshuffled like a deck of cards in an electric dealer, the placement of all the pieces shifting too fast to comprehend.

“I had no idea.” Even as new understanding dawned, finally giving her insight into everything that had happened since she left town, she also felt the sting of hurt that Mack had willingly chosen to keep her in the dark after all that they’d shared. He’d chosen Jenny over her. “I’m so sorry you had to bear that.”

“It felt like the right thing to do at the time, and it was a lot worse for Jenny.” He met her gaze evenly. Stoic even now. Until he blinked slowly. Shook his head. “But I can’t help remembering it today because I brought her to this same ER. The whole thing happened two floors down.”

CHAPTER SEVEN

“C
AN
YOU
TELL
me when the scratching started, honey?”

Later that evening, back at home and settled on her bed like she had the flu instead of “emotional issues,” as she’d overheard one of her nurses call it, Ally stared at her mother and wondered how to answer the question. Her bandaged arms throbbed with the fresh cuts and antiseptic ointment that was supposed to keep everything clean, but her mind was on the folder the hospital had sent her family home with, a folder full of information about counseling and live-in treatment centers for troubled teens.

Her mother had tried to hide it in her purse, but Ally had already looked up the places on her phone. The thought of living somewhere like that scared the hell out of her.

“Why do you want to know?” Ally was cranky and miserable because her life was only going to fall apart more from here. Yes, her arms would heal and she could hide the scars left behind.

But too many people would find out about the incident at the salon. It didn’t matter that her mother had taken her to a doctor outside of town to keep talk to a minimum. Sooner or later, rumors would spread. Worse, she had a referral to some psych doctor to “assess her condition further.” Translation? She needed her head examined. How would she ever pull off her plan to leave Heartache if she had a shrink looking over her shoulder and her parents breathing down her neck?

Now that Ethan wouldn’t be leaving town with her...she needed to go all the more.

“
Why do I want to know?
Because I nearly fell over when you told the doctor this wasn’t the first time you’ve cut yourself.” Her mother sat at the computer desk Ally had outgrown two years ago, her fingers walking over the old bulletin board full of dumb pictures from sophomore year she hadn’t bothered to change.

“Are you sure you’re not asking just so you can find a way to blame Dad for my problems?” Ally knew it was wrong to say. She also knew it would hurt her mom.

She’d talked to her parents once about her “moods” and her mother had said Ally could have the same genetics as Gram. In other words, she could have inherited the crazy genes through her father. She’d also overheard Gram say that Uncle Mack wouldn’t even have kids in case he passed on those genes.

Meaning...what? That Ally was a genetic misfortune? She’d adored Uncle Mack before that. Now...she didn’t much care what he thought of her.

“Does it make you feel better to lash out at me?” Swiveling on the hot-pink office chair to face the bed, her mom spoke softly.

Shame almost made Ally sorry she’d said it. She toed off the boots she’d worn to work and tugged a purple afghan over her feet.

“You and Dad get to lash out every day.” Every. Freaking. Day. “If you’re not yelling, you’re silent. And if you ask me, that’s worse.”

“I did not ask you.” Her mother folded her hands carefully on the top knee of her crossed legs. “I want to know when else you’ve cut yourself.”

“It’s not cutting. It’s scratching.” There was a difference. People who cut themselves were even more messed up than her. “And I can’t remember when I started.”

That was a lie. She remembered the exact date she’d first found relief by digging her nails deeper into her skin. She’d been frustrated over getting a B and then her parents had started arguing about the lack of quality family time taking a toll on everyone, and her lame grade had been in the eye of the storm. But she’d hurt her mom enough for one day.

“Ally, I’m sorry that you feel like you can’t talk to me lately.” She wrapped her arms around herself, her face and body thinner every month. Clothes that fit her just two months ago were loose now. “I hadn’t realized how much my problems with your father are affecting you.”

“You want to get out of this house as much as I do,” Ally muttered, tugging the blanket higher toward her chin.

“Excuse me?” Her mom stilled.

“Nothing.” A wave of exhaustion came over her and she wanted nothing more than to burrow under the blankets. “I’m just tired, okay?”

Standing, her mom turned toward the window to pull the shade down and paused.

Ally heard the rumble of a car slowing down.

“Is someone here?” She didn’t need more well-meaning visitors.

Uncle Mack had shown up at the hospital with Nina Spencer. Then, when Ally had finally returned home, two of the hairdressers from the salon had been in the process of leaving cookies and balloons on the front porch when her mom had pulled up in the car. So embarrassing to have to face people from work with her arms all bandaged.

“It’s Ethan Brady.” Her mother pulled the shade. “I’ll tell him you’re not feeling well.”

“No.” Ally vaulted out of bed, her heart in her throat. “I’m fine. Is he by himself?”

Rachel Wagoner had told the whole hair salon that she had a date with him tonight. Was she sitting in the passenger seat even now?

“I don’t see anyone with him. But why don’t I just tell him—”

“I need to speak with him.” She dodged her discarded boots on her sprint to the bathroom and grabbed a hairbrush. Why would he come here? And why wasn’t he with Rachel? Good or bad, Ally wanted to find out for herself what he wanted. She just hoped he hadn’t heard about the incident at the salon. She’d gone out a back entrance with Nina when they’d arrive to take her to the hospital.

But it was a hair salon. Of course people would have been talking about it afterward. Rachel must have overheard something.

“Ally, you’re not well.” Her mom folded her arms and used the parenting voice.

She wouldn’t seriously try to stop her from seeing Ethan?

“Neither are you,” Ally shot back, her emotions a wild tangle while she searched for a mascara wand in the clutter of discarded hair ties and lip glosses around the sink. “You’re wasting away to skin and bones while everyone pretends not to notice. But you don’t let that stop you from going to work or talking to people.” Seizing the mascara from behind the faucet, she whipped out the brush and coated her lashes. “Why should I be any different?”

She’d never back-talked to her mother as much as she had in the past ten minutes. Ally didn’t know if it was blood loss messing with her judgment or if maybe the sedative they’d given her two hours ago was making her run off at the mouth. She should try to rein it in, though, because if her mother grounded her and wouldn’t let her see Ethan...

“I’m sorry, Mom,” she blurted, giving up on the makeup, since she already had a Bride of Frankenstein thing going on. Brushing past her mother on the way out, she stopped to lean her head on her mom’s bony shoulder. “Those meds must be making me loopy.”

The doorbell chimed before her mother could say anything. Ally yanked a red long-sleeved flannel off a hook by her bedroom door and slipped it on to cover the bandages. She felt light-headed by the time she hit the top of the stairs, so she went down slower. One ER trip per day was more than enough.

Her father reached the front door before she could.

“It’s for me.”

Her dad frowned.

“Are you sure?” He looked up the stairs, from daughter to mother, his face taking on that tense mask it always did when he looked at her mother lately.

Ally couldn’t deal with an argument about this, which did not involve them
at all.

“It’s fine,” she insisted for what seemed like the millionth time. “We’re just going to talk, okay? I’ll be right outside.”

Flinging open the door, she came face-to-face with Ethan through the screen. Or, face to chest. She tilted her chin up to meet his gaze in the dim glow of the porch light.

“Hey, Ally.” He made a half wave at her parents, who still stood behind her.

How awkward that her whole family had come to the door.

“Hey, yourself.” Her voice trembled a little and she hoped it was from exhaustion and not because she was still wildly crushing on him. Especially not if he was dating Rachel.

Swallowing down the dread, she pushed open the screen and met him outside, grateful she at least still wore her socks even though she had no shoes. The night air was cool, but the days were still mild enough that her mother left all the patio furniture out, from bamboo rugs in bright colors to hurricane lamps on the tables between Adirondack chairs.

“What’s up?” she asked as soon as her father—thank you, God—closed the door behind them.

Leaning against a porch rail, she used her thumbs to grab the buttons on each cuff of her shirt and anchored her sleeves over the bandages with a tight grip. If he hadn’t heard what happened, she sure wasn’t going to give it away.

“You tell me.” He joined her at the rail, except he looked out over the lawn toward her grandmother’s old farm while she kept her back to the rest of the world and a wary eye on her own house. She didn’t need her mom spying through the blinds.

“What do you mean?” She bit her lip, bracing herself in case he knew she’d been dragged out the back door of The Strand Salon in a flood of tears and scratches.

“I thought we were going to meet up this weekend.” He turned to rest a hip on the white wooden railing while he shook his head. “Don’t you remember? You said we’d make plans for—you know.” He glanced up at her house and lowered his voice. “The great escape.”

A smile played around his lips and Ally wondered if he really hadn’t heard about her meltdown. And what about Rachel?

“Unless...” He folded one arm over the other and crossed his ankles as he leaned back next to her. “You weren’t serious about that after all.”

“No.” Her head was close enough to his shoulder she could have tilted it an inch or two to the right and she’d be resting her temple against the gray cotton of his thin sweatshirt. “I was totally serious. I thought maybe I’d see you last night—”

Once she started that sentence she had exactly nowhere to go with it. She didn’t want to admit she’d been staring at him and Rachel for the better part of an hour, watching them laugh together while her heart broke.

“You must have left before I could talk to you. Didn’t you see everyone from school over by Davy’s truck?”

Should she ask about Rachel and risk looking jealous when he wasn’t even her boyfriend? Or just fake like nothing unusual had happened?

“I must have been distracted.” She kept her hands tucked behind her.

“How’s tonight?” Ethan jerked a thumb toward the truck in the driveway. “I’ve got some wheels. You want to...take a drive?”

Her heart raced. “Really?”

She kicked herself for sounding like a twelve-year-old goofball.

Ethan shrugged. “If we’re leaving town together, we ought to at least hang out first. Don’t you think?”

Ally had been waiting forever to hear him say something like that. How could a day that started out so awful turn out so amazing?

Too bad she didn’t have a chance in hell of escaping the house tonight. For a second she considered sneaking out after her parents were asleep, but she worried about the medicine she’d taken and the rawness of her arms that still throbbed.

“I would like that.” Her voice caught on the words, her emotions all tangled as she turned toward him. “But I can’t tonight because I’m...grounded.” It was the first thing that came to mind. “But I could tomorrow.”

“Grounded?” Ethan’s hazel eyes roamed over her. “Your life sure isn’t anything like I imagined, Ally.”

Was that good or bad? She was finally starting to get Ethan’s attention, but now she was lying to him about some things and keeping him in the dark about others. If only she’d waited to freak out about Rachel Wagoner’s stupid announcement, Ally might have been having the best day of her life right now.

“Believe me, it’s not the way I want it to be.” She edged closer, just in case he was thinking about kissing her. “But soon, I’m going to change all that.”

“If you’re going to dream, dream big.” Ethan reached and smoothed a strand of hair away from her cheek. “And I like how you dream.”

Ally’s mouth went dry at that small, barely-there touch. She swayed closer. Longing. Hoping.

“When can I pick you up?” he asked, surprising her out of her swoony moment.

“Hmm?” She blinked.

“Tomorrow. When do you want me to come by?”

“Um. Anytime after lunch.” Maybe by then she’d have slept off the sedative and today’s scary moods. She wanted to be able to focus on Ethan.

Maybe even snag that kiss.

“See you then.” He lingered for a second and she licked her lips.

Just in case.

“Yup, see you then.” She didn’t make any move to head inside, either.

A breeze stirred the scent of moonflowers twining down a nearby column. Stars filled the sky above the horizon. For a moment, she breathed in the scent of cinnamon gum as Ethan leaned closer.

“Night, Ally,” he said softly before he turned and stalked off into the night.

She leaned onto the rail with her elbows for a second until pain splintered through her sore arms. Straightening, she watched Ethan get into his truck and reverse out of the driveway. It should have been the happiest night of her life. Ethan had come over to ask her to go somewhere with him. He’d touched her.

Except that she hadn’t told him about the crushing weight on her chest that made her feel like the world was folding in on itself some days. She hadn’t mentioned that seeing him laughing with a classmate had sent her into the ER. It was the wrong way to start a relationship. Because this was
Ethan,
her crush.

Somehow, she’d find a way to make it work. By the time they left town together, they would be a couple and they would be old enough to be on their own. Ally couldn’t wait to start a new life far away from Heartache.

* * *

“S
O
I
CAN
put you down to make some sandwiches?” Nina’s finger hovered over the touchscreen keyboard on her digital tablet. She’d visited the Owl’s Roost diner on the outskirts of Heartache in the hope that she could get help with the Harvest Fest food. “That turkey, Swiss and pear combo sounds great.”

Rodney Baker had been running the Roost since she was a kid. He stared at her now as they sat in his office behind the kitchen. Just outside the door, the scent of bacon and sausage hung in the air while the cook shouted for waitstaff to pick up their orders. Beyond the kitchen, Gram sat in a corner booth visiting with Mrs. Baker, who was an old classmate of Gram’s.