and been between them, his eyes level with her waist. It was hard not to think about how she’d respond to that. He also could have grabbed her by the ankle and yanked her in. It was equally appealing.
An awkward silence fell between them, and Phillip waited.
She’d approached him, so the ball was in her court.
She cleared her throat. “So how’ve you been, Phillip?”
He cocked an eyebrow. “Seriously?”
“W…Well…you know, how are things…with the band?”
She looked down at her lap.
He pushed back from the side of the pool. “You didn’t
come over here to ask me about Fury. What do you want, Steph-
anie?” He refused to make idle chit-chat when he couldn’t get
the image of Clive Richards pawing her out of his mind. Stepha-
nie heaved an exasperated sigh.
“You know, I thought we could do the mature thing. Try to
smooth things over privately so we aren’t remembered as the two
assholes that ruined the wedding.”
He laughed heartily and shook his head. Steph looked as if
he’d slapped her.
“Smooth things over? There’s nothing to smooth over, love.
It’s ancient history. I think we should just try to avoid each other this week.”
Steph paused and drew in a long breath. He anticipated an
argument, anger, or some other emotional outburst. Instead, she
simply nodded and climbed to her feet.
“You’re absolutely right, Phillip. It’s old news.”
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He watched her gorgeous backside as she bent to pick up
her shoes, and he wanted to call out to her to come back. Some-
how, he suppressed the urge and let her leave.
It seemed like only yesterday when she’d shut him down in
a similar fashion and he’d been too devastated to see straight.
When he stumbled out of her hospital room, he’d hopped in his
Aston Martin nearly plowing down several paparazzi as he sped
to the market. He’d bought a bottle of Tullamore Dew and a car-
ton of cigarettes and drove back to the cottage. He’d sat by the brook for hours, drinking from the bottle and chain smoking. His thoughts were a hazy blur of a future without her.
He stumbled inside, knowing from experience that he was
close to passing out. He steadied himself on the doorframe of the master bedroom, and his eyes fell on the silk nightgown he’d
peeled off of Stephanie the night before. It lay on the hard wood floor as a taunting reminder that he’d never again hold her.
Tears sprung to his eyes, and anger clouded his vision. He
be damned if he’d shed one more fucking tear over her. She
couldn’t even be bothered to have a discussion about marrying
him. He’d been dismissed like an unwelcome servant. His last
memories of that night were cradling bloody fists and passing
out on the couch so that he didn’t have to lie on the sheets that smelled like her peppermint shampoo.
Daylight had seared through his closed eyelids, ripping him
from his restless slumber. He had sat up, and the room spun.
When normal vision had finally returned, he’d realized just how
much damage he’d done the night before. Overturned furniture,
broken dishes, red-tinged holes in the white washed walls all
brought back flashes of the previous evening. He’d looked down
at his own hands and saw they were bloody and swollen.
“Bloody hell.” He’d murmured, when he discovered that he
couldn’t close his right hand. He’d completely lost control and
what was worse, he felt his feral rage threatening to surface
again. He couldn’t be around people in his current state of mind.
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If he stayed, his sisters would come looking for him. Worse, Ad-
am or Cedric might show up. He knew he needed to get far away
from Stephanie, and he wasn’t ready to face the rest of Fury.
Phillip tossed his guitar case and luggage into the boot of
his car and slid in behind the wheel. As he pulled away from the cottage, his phone rang. He pulled it from his pocket and studied Stephanie’s name flashing on the screen. A cold numbness overtook him. He braked on the bridge and tossed his phone into the
brook.
He drove to the coast and parked his car in his storage gar-
age. His uncle’s place on Inishmore was the one private refuge
he was still had. Uncle Cal was the black sheep of the family, set apart by his crusty military exterior that didn’t mesh with the rest of them. It had been months since he’d been out to the isle, but the moment he stepped onto the rocky beach, he felt the weight
of the world slip from his shoulders. As he made his way up the
bank toward the tiny seaside pub, a mahogany Irish setter trotted up to him.
“Hey there, Fi.” He greeted her, rubbing her behind the
ears. He glanced up at the porch of the pub and saw his Uncle
Callahan leaning against the doorframe with his arms folded
across his barrel chest.
“Hiya, Boyo. Those golden locks of yours are lookin’ a wee
bit girly.”
Phillip didn’t smile. “Got a razor?”
An hour later, he sat at the bar rubbing his newly shorn head
and nursing a pint of Guinness.
Callahan shook his bald head as he made sweeping circular
motions on the bar with a cloth. “Well, you won’t have to worry
about being recognized. You look like a cancer patient.”
“Good. I need a change of pace.” Phillip rubbed his finger
across the shiny wood of the bar, refusing to look his uncle in the eye.
“So what brings you out here to No Man’s Land?”
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He took a long pull off his stout and smacked his lips as the
burnt barley flavor engaged his taste buds in a familiar dance. “I just needed somewhere to slow down.”
He stuck out his lower lip in a mock pout. “Ahhhh. The
rock star life got you down?”
Phillip said nothing and continued to pick at the label on a
nearby bottle of booze.
“What happened to your hands?” Callahan’s complexion
was rosy from drinking and his attention unflinching. “How
about that bruise on your jaw? Cat got your tongue, Nancy
Boy?”
Again, he had no response. Phillip cast his steely eyes up at
Callahan once, then back to his beer.
The corner of his uncle’s mouth lifted. “This is about a
woman, isn’t it?”
Phillip polished off his pint in one swig. Before the bottom
of the glass hit the bar, there was a fresh one in front of him.
Phillip spent the following three weeks in a booth at the pub
overlooking the sea poisoning his liver and writing songs. When
he wasn’t feeling creative, he took aimless walks on the craggy
beach with his guitar and Fiona the dog. He sat on the cliffs and played or just smoked. Once in a while he went out fishing with
Callahan on his boat.
One night, Callahan’s old Navy buddy, Bones, came to vis-
it. He was a tattoo artist from Dublin. and he was overjoyed at
Phillip’s drunken suggestion that he ink him up. Phillip wanted
something Celtic over his heart. Bones nodded and drew up a
design. When he explained its meaning, Phillip swallowed hard
and nodded. Callahan said nothing, but poured him a shot.
About halfway through the tat, his uncle spoke. “Here,
Wanker. You won’t be able to take the pain without another drop
of the creature.”
Hours later, Phillip stumbled to the water’s edge, guitar in
hand. He looked down at his blackened and bloody chest.
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“Stephanie.” He slurred and attempted to launch into his
latest creation. He was too drunk to find the fingering for the
first chord. He stood and turned to head for a warm place to pass out, when he stumbled over his own feet and tumbled into the
water. Fiona, who had been napping on the porch, started bark-
ing, and moments later Callahan and Bones were dragging him
from the sea.
“Go put on some coffee for this young lady.” Callahan in-
structed Bones, who made himself scarce. As Phillip lay on his
side choking up salt water, Callahan grabbed him by his shirt
collar and pulled him to his feet. “Listen to me, you silly bastard.
You need to crawl to that lass on your hands and knees. Tomor-
row.”
“She doesn’t love me. I asked her to marry me, and she said
no!’
“Then ask her again, lad. It’s painfully obvious you’re in
love with her. Your entire life, you’ve never given a single
thought to anyone but your spoiled fucking self. Until now.”
“She’s killing me. I can’t see her.”
“Listen to me. You need to quit being an ignorant little git.
Anything worth having is worth bleeding for. I realize you’ve
been coddled your entire life, but I’m not afraid to be the one to tell you to grow the fuck up.”
“Screw you, Callahan.”
“You’re doing a pretty good job of screwing yourself when
you could be off screwing your lady. Maybe she didn’t want a
pampered little pussy for a husband who spends more time look-
ing in the mirror than looking at her.”
“Up yours, Cal! Steph’s my whole world. You have no
fucking idea.”
“Well, well, I guess even ‘the charmed one’ Phillip Kersey
can’t always get what he wants. Welcome to the human race,
Boyo.” Callahan released his grip, and Phillip went sprawling
back onto the rocky ground. “You know I love you, but I want
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you gone tomorrow morning. Pack your shit and go. If you can
manage to step down from your pedestal, go beg that girl to take you back. She must really be something.”
As his uncle headed for the pub, Phillip called after him.
“Help me up!”
Without a pause in his stride or a second glance, he whistled
for Fiona, who trotted after him. “Help yourself up.”
As hung-over as he was, he was gone on the first ferry be-
fore sunrise the following morning. As he drove toward Galaway
Airport, he thought long and hard about Callahan’s barbs. He
knew his uncle’s points were valid. His massive ego had allowed
him to assume Steph would say yes, though he’d never even told
her he loved her until the day he had proposed. In Galaway, he
purchased and activated a new cell phone and cringed when he
heard that his voice mailbox was full. Before his flight took off for London, he’d listened to every hang up and message he’d
missed. The concerned calls from Scot and his family members.
Angry calls from his manager, Bret, and the record label. Worst
of all were the messages from Steph. At first she sounded tired
and exasperated, then the messages progressed to teary pleading.
Then anger. After that she left nothing but hang ups.
As soon as his plane touched down in London, he was on
his way to Abbey Road Studios. He owed the band the apology
of a lifetime, and he knew right where to find them. His reap-
pearance was met with a mixture of anger and relief. He slapped
down the stack of songs in front of Bret and launched into a
well-practiced monologue about how he’d needed the solitude to
refocus.
“Well, you could have bloody called us.” David threw a
drum stick at his head. Phillip deftly dodged it and gaped at David.
“We need to get back to work before the studio rips up our
contract.” Bret remarked, putting out a cigarette. Phillip nodded.
“There’s just one more thing I have to do, then I’ll move a
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bloody cot into this studio and live here—I promise.” Nathan
rolled his eyes at Phillip’s oath of loyalty.
“We’ll believe it when we see it.” He lit up a smoke and
waved his cigarette in the air. “Alright, then. What’s so im-
portant that we can’t get right to it?”
“I have to talk to Stephanie first.” You could hear a pin drop
in the studio. No one looked at anyone else.
“Well, I just happen to know where you can find her.” Scot
chimed in as he plucked a few notes on his bass. “She and Chey-
enne are backstage at the Toxicity concert as we speak.”
Nathan gasped overly dramatically and played the first four
notes of Beethoven’s Fifth Symphony on his keyboard. Phillip’s
stomach hit the floor. It was like finding out his arch nemesis
had her in a tower with no doors. He thought about his uncle’s
words (anything worth having is worth bleeding for), and his
resolve didn’t falter. He hopped in the passenger side of Na-
than’s Ferrari, and they sped off toward the address Scot had
provided.
The loud splashing sound as someone dived into the pool
pulled Phillip back to present day. Cheyenne surfaced before
him, and the look she wore was homicidal.
“What the hell?” he asked, looking around to see if they had
an audience. Scot smiled and holding up two drinks, saluted him.
“I don’t know. You tell me ‘what the hell’.” She snapped.
With an eye roll, he started to swim away from her, but she
grabbed him tight by the wrist. “Did you say something to upset
Steph?”
Phillip bit down hard on the inside of his cheek. “I don’t
have to say anything to upset her. My very existence pisses her
off.”
“We’re here for Yara and David. Try to keep the drama to a
minimum.”
“Steph’s already informed me of my role and what my
place is here. I bow to her wishes.”
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She scoffed. “You are such an asshole. Steph always said