A pencil on the desk rolled back and forth in time with the
Triton’s
roll; glasses and decanters clinked in the racks; the bright light coming through the skylight made strange shadows dance from side to side across the cabin. And Ramage knew Bowen had given him some clues to the problem, but not enough to provide the answer. And in fifteen minutes he had to take over the watch on deck from Southwick.
‘Well, Bowen, this imaginary man we are talking about is, of course, you; but I am not a well-meaning friend, a parson, priest or doctor. I’m commanding the
Triton
and responsible to God and the Admiralty for the lives of the sixty or more men in her and for every sliver of wood and ounce of iron of which she’s made.
‘In a week or so we’ll be in the West Indies,’ he continued.
‘The
Hannibal
recently lost 200 men from yellow jack. In the
Raisonable
frigate, thirty-six of her crew – one man in three – went over the standing part of the foresheet on a voyage of 300 miles. Yellow jack, a couple of broadsides from a French frigate, a mast going by the board in a squall – this could happen to us, and you’d have thirty men to attend to. And you’d be drunk. One more drink would be too much to pull you round,’ he said angrily, throwing Bowen’s phrase back at him, ‘and a thousand wouldn’t be enough.’
Once more Bowen’s hands were pressing his temples. The authoritative air of the man of medicine had vanished; he was staring at the deck, a crumpled, liquor-stained and liquor-sodden apology for what had once been a man.
And, facing him, Ramage felt a desperate helplessness. Did the man need sympathy? No – he had that from the ‘well-meaning friends’. Harshness? Presumably he’d had that from his wife. Discipline? There’d be no one to enforce it.
Yet there’d been the clues. The drinks in the morning and the secrecy. Bowen admitted he thought that was when the illness started. The secrecy, the shame, and yet underlying it all Ramage sensed there would still be a remnant of pride.
But where to begin? Damn the man; he had enough to think about without doctoring a doctor. Well, what set a man off drinking to excess? In a social sense – let’s start there. Two types of drinkers – those who get drunk during the course of an enjoyable evening; those who arrived at a reception already half-drunk. Why? Because they were too shy to arrive sober: they needed a drink or two to give them courage to meet strangers. Was that a clue? Professional men – was the pattern the same?
‘Bowen,’ he said, ‘give me an honest answer. Did you begin drinking heavily because you imagined you were losing some of your skill?’
Bowen nodded. ‘A run of unsuccessful operations. Several patients died. Two were friends. I lost confidence; I needed a drink each time.’
‘Think now; is that really how the drinking began? Because you lost confidence in yourself?’
The man refused to look up.
‘Yes, that’s how it began,’ he said softly. ‘To begin with, one drink was enough to restore the confidence. Then it needed two. Then three. But between each bout more of my confidence was gone – I think that was the trouble.’
‘Right,’ Ramage snapped. ‘Now we know the cause: you lost your confidence. Why?
Were
you making mistakes?’
‘I don’t think so.’
‘Don’t
think
. You must know by now.’
‘No, I wasn’t making mistakes. I was trying too hard. I was expecting myself to perform miracles. I tried to cure people other doctors had given up.’
‘So you know now you were deluding yourself; it wasn’t that you’d lost your skill.’
‘Yes,’ the surgeon said miserably. ‘I know
now
, today, but it’s too late.’
‘Oh no it’s not!’ Ramage exclaimed. ‘For your sake, it’d better not be.’
But what to do now? Yes, the man still had some pride left. And common sense told Ramage that pride was the most important clue.
That was why he hated ordering the flogging – it gave a proud man an overpowering sense of disgrace and merely made a bad man worse. Pride made a good seaman – pride at being the first to reach a yard up the ratlines, at turning in a neater splice, making a better shirt than the purser sold.
‘Bowen,’ he said quietly, ‘I believe that four years ago you were among the best of the doctors in London.’
The man nodded but still looked at the deck.
‘For that reason I’m glad to have you as the surgeon in the
Triton
. My life might well depend on your skill, just as much as the life of any – and every – man in the ship’s company. But we aren’t in the Channel now, where constipation and rheumatics or “shamming Abraham” are all you have to prescribe for. We’ll soon be in one of the unhealthiest spots in the world.
‘This ship will arrive there with a greater advantage, medically speaking, than the present flagship: a fine surgeon.
‘But before you are a damned bit of good to me and to the ship’ – he spoke more sharply now – ‘
we
have to cure
you
. Or maybe you have to cure yourself. You’re popular with the men; Southwick and I know your professional record. You’ve nothing to be ashamed of – providing you keep off the drink.’
‘But I can’t,’ Bowen said with a shattering simplicity. ‘It’s no good me making any promises – I’d only break ’em. I promised my wife a thousand times, and since I’ve broken every promise to her, obviously I’d break one to you.’
Had Bowen unwittingly just prescribed his cure? Ramage said quickly: ‘There’ll be no promises, Bowen; simply an order. It may sound harsh, but remember this: I’m responsible for the well-being and efficiency of sixty men, apart from the safety of the ship and carrying out the orders I’ve received. If one man in this ship’s company suffers through your drunkenness…’ he left the threat unspoken.
‘The order is this, Bowen: during the next four days you’ll be rationed to a gill of rum a day, half at eleven o’clock, and half at supper-time. Southwick will issue it to you. For the four days after that you’ll have half a gill, issued in the same way by Southwick. Then no more: not one drop.’
‘Oh God,’ Bowen groaned, ‘you’ve no idea what you’re doing…’
Perspiration soaked the man’s clothes; it was dripping from his face. His hands trembled as they pressed against his temples; his eyes seemed glazed.
‘I’ve no idea what private hell you’ll be living in, I admit. But I know to what private hell you can send one of my seamen if you butcher him with an unnecessary or badly done amputation. Or kill him because you’re too drunk to give him the right treatment for yellow jack or scurvy or whatever it happens to be.’
Bowen’s whole body was shaking now and his eyes were focused on the cut-glass decanters in the rack behind Ramage.
‘My orders will be given to Mr Southwick in a few minutes. There’ll be a Marine sentry outside your door and you’ll not leave your cabin without getting my permission. On the other hand you won’t spend much time in your cabin: you’re to stand watch with Mr Southwick. In other words, you’ll only be in your cabin while I or Appleby are on watch.’
‘Very well, sir.’
Bowen stood up and Ramage saw a cunning look in his eye.
‘By the way,’ Ramage added quietly, ‘your cabin will be searched before you return to it. And my orders are that if you so much as sniff at the cork from a bottle of liquor, apart from your ration, you’ll be placed under arrest; put in irons, if necessary.’
‘But I’m the surgeon,’ Bowen protested weakly. ‘You can’t put me in irons like a common seaman. I’ll protest to the Admiral. I’ll demand that you be brought to trial…for oppression, for defiance of the
Regulations
, for–’
‘I can have you put in irons, Bowen: one Marine can carry out
that
order, and the devil take any
Regulations
. As for protesting to the Admiral – well, you’ll have been in irons for days before you get within a mile of the flagship. And even from a hundred yards away, you’ll find it hard to deliver your protest if you’re in irons. Now, get up on deck while someone clears the drink from your cabin!’
Bowen shambled out and Ramage, feeling like a man who’d been flogging a stray dog with a horse-whip, passed the word for Southwick, who came down with such alacrity he’d obviously been waiting anxiously to hear what had happened.
Nodding his head as Ramage related what had passed, he looked doubtful when he heard of the order, then nodded again when Ramage said the surgeon would be sharing his watch.
‘Aye,’ he said, ‘it may work the cure. If it does, you’ll have saved his life the same as fishing him out of the sea. It’s the loneliness that’ll be hard to bear. I think you’ve hit on it, sir: we’ve got to keep him occupied every moment he’s awake. I’ve been told he’s a great chess player.’
That remark seemed so irrelevant that Ramage snapped: ‘That’s a great help. Rum and checkmate in two moves.’
The Master grinned. ‘No sir, I meant that perhaps a few games of chess would help. D’you play?’
‘Badly. I just about know the moves.’
‘I’m not much good either; but maybe it’d do his self-respect a bit o’ good to beat the pair of us, because his self-respect’s all he’s got to save him.’
‘Is there a set of chessmen on board?’
‘Yes – I’ve a nice set I bought in the Levant years ago. Used to play a lot in my last ship – sorry, not the
Kathleen
, the one before that.’
‘Very well, Mr Southwick. By the way, see that Bowen eats regular meals, even if they choke him. And we’ll make it part of the treatment – or punishment – that he has to play a couple of games of chess with you every forenoon, and with me every evening. It may bore him; but who knows, it may make us chess champions of the Caribbean!’
Late in the afternoon four days later Southwick came up to Ramage on the quarterdeck and, indicating the men at the wheel within earshot, said, ‘I’d like to have a word with you, sir.’
The Master looked worried: his usual cheerful face was – well, Ramage couldn’t be sure. Not angry, not depressed – puzzled, perhaps. The two men walked aft to the taffrail and Ramage raised his eyebrows.
‘It’s Bowen, sir.’
‘It’s always Bowen,’ Ramage said irritably, ‘but I thought he was looking a lot better this morning.’
Southwick brightened up. ‘That’s just it, sir! He didn’t come to me for his tot this morning, nor at four o’clock. I’ve just luffed up to leeward of him and his breath doesn’t smell of drink. I think,’ he said with something approaching awe in his voice, and pronouncing each word carefully in case Ramage missed the significance, ‘I think he hasn’t had a drink all day.’
Ramage stared at him; Southwick stared back. Both men seemed to be looking at some sea monster or ghost; at something they could hardly let themselves believe.
For a few moments Ramage wondered if this was the end of a nightmare which had begun three days ago. The day after his order to the surgeon, he, Southwick and the Marine sentry had ended up wrestling with a violent and screaming Bowen: a man temporarily insane. Even as they held him pinned to the deck in the wardroom he’d been screaming things which made Ramage’s blood run cold: a telescope in a rack over the doorway to Southwick’s cabin had become, in Bowen’s frenzied mind, a Barbary pirate’s sword which was whirling and twisting in the air without a hand to guide it but intent on disembowelling him. Then the moon-faced Marine had become a roaring lion and the wardroom a jungle in which Bowen was lost and about to be savaged. The deckhead and beams above had then suddenly become the upper part of a giant press that was slowly descending to crush him. The Marine’s red jacket became tongues of flame setting the ship on fire. And so it had gone on.
By the time they managed to calm the man down they were all shaking, not only from the effort of holding him but because they were completely unnerved: Bowen’s fears had been real enough to his tortured mind and his screams and frenzied yells of warning gave a terrible reality to his delusions. His shouts as the pirate’s sword swooped and twisted, missing him each time by only an inch or so, almost made it visible in their own imaginations as well as his. As they glanced up at the deckhead on which Bowen’s eyes had been focused, wide and staring, his hands fighting to get free to try to push it back up and prevent the press crushing him, to Ramage at least it seemed for a moment the deckhead was actually moving down. That night two Marines had guarded Bowen in his cabin and for his own sake Ramage had him secured in a hurriedly made strait-jacket. Next morning the delusions had gone and he remembered Southwick was to issue his drink and the Marines had to restrain him until the proper time.
After he’d had the drink he’d been all right for most of the afternoon, only becoming wild an hour before his evening tot was due. Later Southwick had made him march up and down the quarterdeck for the first part of the night and Ramage had kept him up for most of the rest, until the man was so physically exhausted he’d begged to be allowed to go down to his cabin to sleep.
Next morning he’d been ordered up on deck again and Southwick, with a dogged relentlessness, had made him talk.
Finally he’d brought the subject round to chess and, after provoking an argument about it, had made a contemptuous challenge that he’d beat Bowen at a game even giving him an advantage of a rook and a bishop.
That had made Bowen so angry he’d accepted the challenge – but only on condition Southwick gave him no advantage. At the change of watch both men had gone down to the wardroom for a meal without Bowen remembering his tot was due.
As Southwick related it to Ramage afterwards, the game had been vicious: the Master had found himself in difficulty within five moves. Faced with a disastrous defeat inside ten minutes, instead of the game lasting the intended hour or so, Southwick had used a trifling excuse to get up from the table, knocking over the chessmen as he did so. Bowen had been unruffled, started a new game, and within ten minutes Southwick was again facing checkmate.
Arguments, moves and counter-moves, mate and checkmates; games lost by Southwick with Bowen playing a rook and bishop short; successive games lost with Bowen not having a queen on the board either, had taken them up to supper-time. Then Bowen had demanded both his noon and evening tots together but received without argument only one.