Reasonable Doubt 3 (19 page)

“Aubrey…” His voice was low.

“Yes?”

He circled his thumb around my clit, making it swell in pleasure. “Tell me that I own this.”

I shut my eyes as he increased the pressure, rubbing his thumb around and around.

“Tell me that I own your pussy, Aubrey.”

“Yes…” I writhed underneath his hand. “Yes…”

“Say it.” He prevented me from rolling over. “I need you to say it.”

Tingles traveled up and down my spine and I finally stared back at him. “Yes…You own it.”

He smiled and pressed his head between my legs again, devouring me—making me scream at the top of my lungs, but he didn’t let me cum.

Instead, he flipped me over. “Get down on all fours.”

I caught my breath and slowly obliged, and the next thing I felt was him palming my ass, kissing his way down my spine.

“I still haven’t claimed every inch of you…” he said, squeezing my cheeks harshly. “But I’ll save that for when I think you’re ready…”

I murmured as he slid into my pussy inch by inch, making me lean forward. He took the elastic out of my hair and pulled me back, whispering, “It’s going to feel just like this…Maybe even better…”

“Ahhhh…”

“And when it happens, you’re going to let me cum inside of you…” His other hand skimmed my sides and squeezed my breasts. “I want you to feel every last drop…”

“Andrew.” I gripped the sheets.

“Yes?”

I didn’t answer. I couldn’t.

He was slapping my ass as he pounded into me, giving it to me rough as he whispered my name.

I met him thrust for thrust, unable to let go of the sheets, and when I felt myself nearing the edge—coming close to it as he tortured my clit with his fingers, he denied me once again.

He pulled out of me, making me whimper, and then he made me face him once again. Immediately burying himself inside of me, he stared into my eyes—slowly sliding his cock back and forth, suffocating my screams with his mouth.

I felt his cock throbbing inside of me, felt my muscles clenching as he cursed against my lips and as we locked eyes again, we both came at the same time.

I fell forward against his chest, panting. “Andrew, I…”

He cut me off with a kiss. “I love you, too…”

We lay there connected for what felt like forever—him threading his fingers through my hair, me rubbing my hands against his chest.

“Are you okay?” he asked.

“Yes…”

He rolled out of bed and stood up to toss away the condom. “Come here.”

I couldn’t move. I was still feeling weak from my last orgasm.

He shook his head and slipped his hands underneath my thighs, picking me up and carrying me out of the room, checking each door we passed. When we reached the bathroom, he set me down on the floor.

“I don’t think I can stand up long enough for a shower…” I whispered.

He ignored me and turned on the water. “We’re not going to take a shower.” He picked me up and gently placed me into the tub.

Climbing in behind me, he grabbed an empty bottle and filled it with warm water. Then he gently poured it over my head.

He grabbed some shampoo from the ledge and squirted a few drops into my hair, lathering it to suds.

I heard him asking me questions, something about how I was feeling or if I wanted to talk to him about whatever I had on my mind, but as his fingers continued to massage my scalp, everything went black.

I woke up in bed alone.

There was no note from Andrew, and all of his clothes were gone.

I was starting to think having sex with him was all a dream, but I spotted his wallet sitting on top of my nightstand. I pulled the covers off of me and smiled once I saw that he’d dressed me in a silk slip.

I made my way out of the room and down the hallway where he was standing out on my balcony smoking a cigar.

“Since when do you smoke?” I stepped behind him.

“I don’t often,” he said. “Only when I need to think.”

I nodded and looked out into the night sky, but I suddenly felt him pulling me against him.

“Aren’t you going to ask what I’m thinking about?” He smirked. “Surely you have questions.”

“I do,
Liam
.”

“We can talk about it.”

“Now?”

“If that’s what you want…” He put out his cigar and walked me over to a chair, pulling me into his lap. “How long have you known about that?”

“A couple weeks…”

“Hmmm.”

I shook my head. “Do Bach and Greenwood know who you really are?”

“They do.”

“So, why do you have to hide it from everyone else?”

“Esteemed lawyer or not, no one wants to take on someone who has a history in the papers…It makes a high profile firm look bad.” He kissed the back of my shoulder.

“What was Emma like?”

He sighed, looking at me. “She was perfect…”

I thought of a way to change the subject, but he continued talking.

“She hated when I went to work, and she would beg me to come sometimes, so I’d let her…” His voice was low. “And then I wouldn’t get any work done because the park was right across the street and she always wanted to play…Always.”

“Did she follow you around at home?” I asked.

“She was my shadow. She would come sleep on the couch if I was up working, and if she saw me leave the room to take a call, she would cross her arms and look offended if I didn’t invite her to listen.” He let out a short laugh, but he didn’t say anything else.

“Can I ask you something?” I leaned against his chest.

“If I say no I don’t think it’ll stop you…”

“Where do we go from here?”

“What do you mean?”

“I mean…What happens now with us?”

He looked at me, confused. “
Us
?”

“Are we in a relationship? Are you going to stay with me, or are you going back to Date-Match?”

He stared at me for a long time. “I can’t stay in New York, Aubrey. I think you can understand why…”

“You had no plans to stay past tonight did you?”

“No.”

“And you leave in the morning?”

“Yes.” He tried to kiss my hair, but I moved away. “So, was this some type of way to get your Aubrey fix before you went home? Say all the right things so you can feel better about yourself when you leave?”

“I wanted you to know that I loved you before I went home.”

“And to get some pussy on the side, of course.”

“Of course.” He smirked, but I didn’t return his smile.

“I told you not to get my hopes up, Andrew.” I stepped back. “And you did it anyway.”

“What do you want me to do, Aubrey? Move in with you? Fucking propose?”

“I want you to stay…And if you can’t stay, I want you to leave…Now.”

“Aubrey…”

“
Now
,” I said. “We can still be friends, but I don’t want to—”

“Stop.” He pulled me close and pressed his mouth against mine. “We’re more than friends…We always were. I just can’t be with you right now.”

I opened my mouth to protest, but he kissed me again and again, whispering as he cupped my breasts, “I would really prefer if we spent the rest of night in bed and not arguing…”

To suspend proceedings: to suspend the business of a court, legislature, or committee indefinitely.

Weeks later…

Aubrey

I stood on my toes backstage—tilting my head toward the ceiling, rehearsing the final move of the production one last time. I should’ve been happy and smiling—overjoyed at the fact that I was about to debut in the leading role in a New York Ballet Company production, but I wasn’t. Far from it.

I felt alone, and I knew no amount of applause or accolades would take those feelings away.

I was still hanging onto my last few moments with Andrew: The early morning sex in the shower, the sex against my door, the sex in the town car on the way to the airport. (And there was also the final romp in the airport’s bathroom…)

He told me that he loved me each time—that he didn’t want to leave me, but he left anyway.

Our relationship was now relegated to talking on the phone every night—recapping our days, getting off on each other’s fantasies in between, but it wasn’t enough. And I knew it wasn’t going to be enough for me for too much longer.

I needed him here.

“Forty minutes everyone!” A stage hand slipped past me. “Places in forty!”

I took a deep breath and walked to a mirror that hung near the wing. Staring at myself, I looked over tonight’s costume—a glimmering white visage that looked like it’d been plucked from a dream: Sparkling crystals adorned every inch of the leotard, the tutu was freshly fluffed and sprayed with glitter, and my feathered headband was far more defined and layered than the one I’d worn in Durham.

“Aubrey?” A familiar voice said from behind.

“Mom?” I spun around. “What are you doing backstage?”

“We wanted to come and tell you good luck in person.” She nodded at my father.

“Thank you…”

“We also want you to know that despite the fact that we still wish you’d pursued law school, we’re very proud of you for pursuing your own dreams.”

I smiled. “Thank you, again.”

“And we are also very,
very
honored to have you as our daughter because you’re such an inspiration to all the college students who will be heading to the polls in this year’s election—students who have similar dreams and ambitions regarding careers in the arts.”

“What?”

“Did you get all that?” She turned to the reporter behind us who was shutting off his device. “Make sure you use that last part as a sound bite for the next commercial.”

“Seriously?”

“What?” She shrugged. “I meant every word of that, but it’s also good to get it on tape, don’t you think?”

I didn’t bother with a rebuttal.

My father stepped over and hugged me, posing for an unnatural photo-op, but when the photographer walked away he smiled.

“I’m happy for you, Aubrey,” he said. “I think this is where you belong.”

“You’re just saying that because you think me being here means I won’t mess up the campaign at home.”

“No, I
know
you being here means you won’t mess up the campaign at home.” He laughed. “But I’m still happy for you.”

“How reassuring…”

“It’s true,” my mother chimed in. “We’re excited for you.”

“Ladies and gentlemen we are about to begin our show in exactly one hour!” Mr. Ashcroft bellowed. “If you are not a ballerina, a danseur, or a stagehand please find your way off my stage. Now!”

My parents embraced me—holding onto me for a long time. As they pulled back, they took turns kissing my cheek before they walked away.

I adjusted my headband one last time and checked my phone. Sure enough, there was an email. Andrew.

I turned off my phone so I wouldn’t have to continue messaging him. I needed to focus.

All the rehearsals and dance lessons I’d taken over the past twenty-two years had brought me to this moment. In thirty-six minutes, my every move would be on display for one of the biggest audiences in the dance world.

It would draw critiques from the staunchest critics—the most advent admirers of ballet, and the papers would run early reviews that could make or break the remaining production run. But right now, in this moment, none of that mattered.

This was my dream, I was finally living it, and I could only make sure I was the best I could possibly be.

“Are you ready, Miss Everhart?” Mr. Ashcroft placed his hands on my shoulders. “Are you ready to show this city that you belong here?”

I nodded. “Very much so, sir.”

“Good, because I’m ready for them to see that, too.” He clapped his hands above his head, signaling the rest of the dancers to circle us.

“Ladies and gentlemen, it is officially opening night,” he said. “You’ve worked hard for months, logged every necessary hour and then some, and I do believe that tonight’s execution of
Swan Lake
will be the best execution this audience will ever see.” He paused. “If it isn’t, I’ll make sure you pay for it at tomorrow morning’s rehearsal.”

There were groans. We knew he wasn’t kidding.

“I’ll be sitting in the balcony at center stage, and I will not give you one clap, no inkling of applause, if the show is anything less than perfect. Are we clear?”