Renewed (Awakened #2) (23 page)

I walked out of the restroom and heard a commotion by the stairs.

What the fuck? Jennifer!

I ran over to find a drunk fuck who had pinned her against the wall, trying to put his diseased lips on the most precious form of art work God had ever created. I jerked him off of her, grabbing his collar with my other hand.

I had never wanted to destroy a human being more than I wanted to destroy him. Pounding him into this cement wouldn’t even come close to the thoughts swirling in my brain.

“Touch her again and I will put you through this fucking wall, you understand?” He nodded, looking at me. I dropped him and grabbed Jennifer’s arm. I had to get her out of here, fast! She didn’t belong here, and I was going to kill someone if I didn’t get some fresh air.

I made eye contact with Ayden, and he nodded. I slammed the door open, letting the cold air calm my crazy brain. I let go of her arm as I turned around, my eyes burning and my blood hot with anger.

“What the hell were you doing, Jennifer? I went to go piss, and when I came out you were gone. Then I find you being groped by that piece of shit!” I pointed back towards the club.

She didn’t say anything for a moment. “I was just going to walk back up to Kennedy and Ayden. I didn’t think anything about it. Stefan, it’s not a big deal. It happened, and you dealt with it. I’m okay, thank you.” She shifted the weight on her heels.

 
It happened, and I dealt with it? I was going to lose my fucking mind with her! I lit a cigarette and let the smoke try and calm my body down. I only smoked when I was pissed as shit, or I needed something to control. Now, I was pissed as shit!

“You are only okay because I came out at the right moment and stopped it. That would’ve been a lot uglier if I hadn’t showed up when I did.” Yep, she was fucking crazy. I started pacing...God help me! I wanted to kill him; the rage was growing more by the minute.

The door flew open and I stopped, ready to kill any bastard who walked through that door, but it was only Ayden and Kennedy. Kennedy walked over to Jennifer, holding her at
arms length
and rambling about something.

Ayden was watching me. “Dude, you okay?”

“I want to kill him.”

“I know you do, but it’s settled. Breathe, man. Everything is okay.” I took another deep breath and shook my balled up fists until they were loose.

“...but I’m starting to get tired, so I think I’m ready to call it a night,” I heard Jennifer say to Kennedy. I took a last drag off my cig and threw it in the sand pit before walking as close as possible behind Jennifer without actually carrying her, which is what I wanted to do. Ayden grabbed my keys and jogged over to my car, pulling it next to Kennedy’s.

Jennifer fell into the passenger seat and leaned her head back, closing her eyes. I grabbed her face and she opened her eyes, looking at me. I kissed her forehead. “Get home safe and take some Tylenol before going to bed. It will help with the fogginess.” I wanted to bring her back to my place to take care of her, but I had to trust she would be okay.

Kennedy thanked me, then got into her car and drove off. I seriously needed The Empire....twenty minutes ago.

I walked into The Empire, checked in and walked back to the Red Room. There were different rooms depending on what you wanted. The Red Room was the Dominant room.

I opened the door and found Scarlett kneeling in front of the door with her head bowed. I walked over to the desk that had all of our toys on it. The walls were red, and the dim light just intensified the color. Bonding material laid out across the desk with a bed in the center of the room, and swings and bars that hung from the ceiling.

“Good evening, Sir.” Scarlett whispered. She was a red head freak who loved to be tied up and whipped, exactly what I loved doing.

“Good evening, Scarlett.” She wore her hair down in loose curls that bounced off her double-D breasts which were perched high in a tight black corset. Stocking ran down her legs to her platform, black heels. Any man would enjoy the opportunity to belong to such an elite club. Before tonight, I’d valued my timed here. But after Jennifer, this room was a dark hole that only held me back and kept my secrets.

I pulled Scarlett over to one of the swings and lifted her up, sitting her in place and putting her hands and ankles through the leather cuffs. She couldn’t move.

“Safe word?” I asked, peeling my white shirt off.

 
“Red,” she breathed out. I could feel how hot and wanting she was from here.

“Very good.” I grabbed the flogger and walked back over to her. Her eyes found mine and in that instant...I stopped. Her eyes were smoky and begging me to deliver the blows to her skin, turning it red with want and desire...but Jennifer’s face appeared on her head.

 
I couldn’t.

 
I couldn’t do this.

What the fuck was happening? I dropped the flogger and walked back over to the desk, pulling my shirt over my head.

“I’m sorry. Someone will be in here in just a moment to untie you,” I whispered as I walked out of the door.

“Something wrong, Mr. Long?”

 
“Scarlett is still tied up in there. She will need your assistance.” I walked out the door and got into my car, lighting a cigarette.

Fuck’s sake! What was wrong with my head? I sped all the way to my hotel and raced up the stairs to the penthouse, I had to burn off this energy...this sexual energy that was craving every part of Jennifer on me. This feeling was new to me. How do people deal with this shit?

I grabbed the whiskey and poured myself a glass, slamming it back and hoping it would clear my head. I needed her velvet skin on mine, I needed to find out how she tasted, how she moaned out my name when I had her tied up, begging for me.

Shit!

I slammed another shot of whiskey back and headed to my bedroom.

“Charles?” He came out of his bedroom with his laptop.

“Jennifer, here is what I know already.” I handed him a paper with some notes and a picture of her. “I want to know everything about her by tomorrow morning,” I said as I walked into my bedroom.

“Yes, sir,” he replied, both of us closing our doors.

I pulled off my clothes, leaving only my boxers on when my phone dinged.

U NEED ME TONIGHT? I NEED U.

I turned my screen off on my iPhone and tossed it on the bed,
Maddelyn
wouldn’t make Jennifer’s face disappear from my head, no matter what she did. Jennifer was the only one who could make my hard on go away.

I stuck my headphones into my iPhone jack and put them in my ears, letting John Mayer clear my head and let me get a couple of hours of sleep before I had to go into the office again tomorrow.

One thing I was certain of, Jennifer was mine, and it wasn’t going to take long before she knew that and I had her, all to myself. This was the woman I’d wished for growing up. She would be the one to renew me, to bring me back from this fucked up black hole I’d fallen into. Not only would she belong to me, but I would belong to her.

I already did.

Acknowledgements

I’d like to say a special thank you to everyone who joined me in this wonderful, sometimes frustrating, roller coaster I’ve been on for the past year.
 
At times it’s been rough but I can honestly say it’s all been worth it.
 
Bearing my soul and inner thoughts has been freeing and exhilarating.

To my family:
Thank you for supporting me and putting up with the long hours on my laptop and constantly talking about Jennifer and Stefan.
 
My everything is in you guys and I couldn’t do this without your love and support.

Melissa-
I met you through the love and passion for reading...and even though you live a little less than a million miles away, you are my soul sister.
 
Thank you for supporting me and helping me scream and yell at the frustrating parts and crying with me during the emotional parts.
 
You have been a rock in my life and will always be my person. You have an amazing soul and deserve all the good that this world has to offer, don’t ever give up on your dreams and live in the moment.

Jennifer, my editor, my anchor, my everything-
Like I haven’t told you enough, but you are a freaking superwoman! You have taught me so much about this industry and have always been my calming voice in this hurricane storm.
 
Thank you for helping me and sometimes holding my hand and walking me through all the steps-again. I can honestly say, I could NEVER accomplish this without you.

Anyone else I missed-
Thank you for helping make this book possible and thank you for all your help throughout this process.
 

To my fans-
This is for you!
 
Everything about Stefan and Jennifer is for you, the reader, to enjoy and fall in love with and obsess over.
 
Thank you for all your support and understanding.
 
I have the best fans ever!!!!

About the author

CN Watkins is the self-publisher of Awakened and Renewed. She lives in Oklahoma with her amazing husband, her beautiful daughter, two dogs, and a baby on the way. She enjoys spending time with her family, shopping, and spending time outside when she has the free time. She loves to write at night when the house is quiet so her ideas can flow freely.

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