Rescued & Ravished: An Alpha's Conquest (A Paranormal Ménage Romance) (37 page)

I’m going to die here.

The knowledge—the surety
of it—filled her with a strange calm.

I’m going to die. It’s okay.

It happens to everyone.

There was an animal grunting; she recognized it as Gunnar. He wasn’t far behind her. He never was.

But it won’t be on his terms. I won’t live the way he wants, or die the way he wants. I refuse.

It’s my death. All mine. And I’m going to choose it. It’ll be the way
I
want.

That’s my right!

She could hear the rushing of the sea, not far away; she’d been heading uphill, mindlessly, fearfully, but now it occurred to her that she must be near the sea cliffs. The ones she’d seen when she’d first saw the island, standing on the deck of Hunter’s boat.

And she knew what she was going to do.

She wiped her face, gulped for air, and staggered up.

And she ran again.

The wind off the strait was fresh and fierce. It tangled her hair—woke her up—numbed the pain of the bite.

It was a long drop. The sandstone cliff stretched far down below her, rocky and rough, dotted with bird’s nests. She could see common murres and Cassin’s auklets wheeling over the water below.

I was always too afraid to cliff dive. Thought it would kill me.

How funny that it turns out I was right.

There was a grunt, a hoarse, coughing snarl, the breaking and bending of seedlings and shrubs: bears appeared from the forest fringe behind her. It was dusky, and the sun was already low behind the spruce tops, but she could still tell which one was Gunnar: she saw the cold, pale points of his eyes.

“Hey,” she said, staring at his evil face. “I’m not yours.”

She slid a foot close to the edge.

I’ve never felt more alive than I do right now.

But I’m not afraid to die. On my terms.

Sorry, Mom. Dad. Big bro. Laila.

Hunter.

Dane.

I love you, too. I know that now.

The rough-furred black bear shambled toward her, growling warningly, flashing its teeth.
“Don’t do it. Don’t you dare”
was its message, she could tell.

“I said: I’m not yours.” A strong, brisk gust of wind blew her hair in her face.

The bear snuffled, horrified.

“I’m mine.”

She turned and dove.

She hit the water hard, but at just the right angle: nothing broke.

Still, the current was a mess—it was a cauldron of currents, really. Crosscurrents—trying to pull her in, trying to drag her out, drowning her.

It was cold, too, and there was a plume of blood from her thigh. Maybe a shark would…

Something else hit the water, hard.

It grabbed her. She fought it, as much as she could with no air and no strength; but it was powerful, and it towed her to the surface.

The air was freezing; breaking the water made her whine, wriggle, gasp. This wasn’t the plan!

“Drink this, Ginger! Swallow!”

It was something bitter—coppery. It was blood.

She got a mouthful of it, and a mouthful of salt water, too; but it went down, the whole bitter mixture.

It went down.

“Dane MacAlister wouldn’t run!”

It was obscene for him to be saying this—he, Hunter, who certifiably hated the man. He was MacAlister’s rival in all ways and all things, his challenger. But he knew MacAlister would never do that.

“Yet he has not appeared,” said Riona, flanked by the other elders in their shag cloaks. “He has not appeared to speak for himself or the girl he shelters.”

“The Mac an Tsaoirs aren’t here either. Something’s wrong!”

Gunnar skulked nearby, lit by the glow of the great, blazing bonfire set on the beach. “He has run. Perhaps those closest with him have aided the escape. Perhaps they have all run. No man may miss his own trial, or scorn the council in this manner. It is forbidden.”

“No! No way! He hasn’t left this island!” Hunter insisted; Riona gestured him quiet.

“We must declare them fugitives,” she said to the assembled bears on the sands. “Their rights are stripped. Dane cannot stand for Alpha. The Mac an Tsaoirs are banned from our Gathering. The girl’s life is forfeit.”

“No one will touch the girl.”

The voice was loud and strong, fearless—shocking.

There was a gasp and ripple in the crowd; it parted at its fringes to let someone in. Dane stepped through, soaking wet and carrying an equally drenched Ginger. She was unconscious, hanging limp in the firelight. The tide was coming in, loudly, behind them.

“Ginger! My God!” Hunter said, starting forward; Riona rose a restraining hand to him again.

“What has happened?” she asked, gazing at Dane with the girl in his arms.

“A trick! A trick to soften your judgment. It’s treachery,” hissed Gunnar; Riona silenced him with a look.

“No one will touch this girl,” Dane repeated, his voice steel.

There was a silence: no sound but the rolling waves and the brittle stir of driftwood. The bears on the beach looked at each other, at Dane, at Hunter; at their elders, confused.

“Why,” asked Riona, calmly, the bonfire gusting, “shall no one touch her, Dane? She has no right to be here. She is human.”

“No,” Dane answered, his eyes pure gold. “No one will touch her, because she’s one of us.”

Between a Boss and a Beast

(Alphas of Storm Isle: Part 4)

By Sophie Chevalier

Ginger knew what guilt felt like.

It hurt. It was painful, really, more than anything else. It was a load of rocks in your chest.

The only cure was forgiveness—assuming you could get forgiveness. If you couldn’t, if there was no absolution, then it hurt even worse. Pure, unleavened guilt.

Raw, unrefined, uncut, unprocessed guilt.

And that was exactly what she wanted Dane to feel.

It was morning. Sunny. She could hear that the Mac an Tsaoirs were up—the children were already getting loud—but she stayed rolled in her quilt in the bed loft, facing the unfinished wood of the wall. It didn’t seem worth it to get up.

A spoon was being banged on the table downstairs; the baby started to cry. One of the toddlers shrieked. She could hear Eimhir trying to hush them.

There was a smell of food, but it turned Ginger’s stomach. If she’d been faced with a spread of nothing but chocolate cake, chicken samosas, and strawberry éclairs, she still wouldn’t have been able to touch it.

It wasn’t because she wasn’t hungry. She
was
hungry.

But she was hungry for meat.

She was hungry for fish, wet from the river; for venison so fresh that it steamed; for winter-killed elk, sharp and cold.

She’d never wanted these things before, and she hated wanting them now. She hated Dane for making her want them. For making her a monster—something less than human.

The sounds of the family having breakfast downstairs were cheerful and normal, but they left her cold. It was a family of animals, and now she was an animal too.

She closed her eyes, but didn’t doze. Gradually the meal downstairs finished; she heard the back door open and close, and then the sounds of the toddlers thumping and tussling on the deck outside.

What time was it?

Well, what did it matter, anyway?

“Ginger?”

Someone was coming up the loft ladder: Catríona. Ginger didn’t stir. It’d been days since she’d given much evidence she was even alive.

“I brought you food.”

She forced herself to answer that. “I’m not hungry, Cat.”

“Yes, you are. Sit up.”

“Alright. I am. But not for breakfast food.”

Cat sighed. “Sit up, Ginger—please. It’s hot. I made it specially for you.”

Stiffly, Ginger pulled herself into a sitting position, running a hand through her dirty, mussy hair. The borrowed T-shirt she was wearing—a souvenir from some fishing competition of Angus’s—smelled unwashed, but that was her fault.

“Here. Buckwheat porridge, with jam and oats.”

Catríona set it in Ginger’s lap, on top of her folded-back quilt. It was in a pretty blue breakfast bowl, one chipped on the lip. Maybe one of the children had played with it.

“Thank you,” Ginger said automatically. The jam swirled into the porridge—thick, purple, and seedy—smelled sweet and hot. “What kind of… what variety is this? On top?”

“Boysenberry. Eat up.”

Ginger took the spoon, but it felt foreign in her hand. A flash of what she
really
wanted—cold, thundering water, with pink-and-blue salmon running the current—blinded her.

“It’ll all pass, Ginger,” Catríona said quietly. “All of it. You’ll be alright.”

“I don’t want to be alright. I want to be me.” Tears stung her eyes.

“You’re still you, honey,” Catríona soothed. “There’s just a new side to you, that’s all. You’ll learn it, and you’ll be fine. I promise.”

“I can’t go home. I’m from the city. You said bears can’t live there.”

Catríona hesitated. “Dane does it.”

“I’m not Dane!”

“You’re his woman, that’s—”

“I am
not
!” Ginger exploded, almost upending the porridge bowl. Her eyes flashed. “I am
not
his woman. No.”

“Alright,” Cat clucked, undisturbed. “Shhh… Listen,
mo muirnín
, you’ll get through this. We all want to help you. The first step to feeling better is eating this breakfast. Just focus on that.”

“Funny,” Ginger muttered bitterly, “because a few days ago, everyone here wanted to kill me. Now they all want to help?”

“The porridge, love.”

“What’s the second step, if this is the first?” Ginger forced a spoonful into her mouth. It was warm and thick and felt good going down, she had to admit.

“A shower,” Catríona said firmly. “It’s only cold water we’ve got, but it does the trick. And you need it, honey. Take it from a friend.”

The shower was outside, and as cold as the waters of Baffin Bay. Ginger had to bite back a shriek as the head rained floods down on her.

As fast as she could, she washed herself, able to hear the children playing on the deck nearby over the drumming of the water. It was a wooden stall, barely private, and the planks underneath were slick with fine moss.

She worked shampoo into her hair. How had she ever gotten into this? Would she ever go home? Was she doomed to spend the rest of her life like this? Living in Kootenay with Riona’s people? Living with the Mac an Tsaoirs on Cape Breton? Living with Hunter, tooling up and down the Pacific coast on his boat?—

Hold on.

She froze, the lather thick in her waves.

His
boat.

One of Eimhir’s children screamed; there was the sound of a tussle on the boards. Angus’s voice was telling them to break it up and play like nice cubs, or go inside; she could hear his heavy footsteps on the wood.

Why should I stay here? I don’t have to stay here. Is there any law on me to make me stay here? Now that I’m—like this? Bears can go where they want. Not like humans.

The children whined, but then they started to laugh. Angus laughed too.

I’m one of them. I’m free in their eyes.

I’m free and I can go. I’m going to go. Just go.

I can’t stand this anymore. I’ll go home.

Faster than she ever had, she rinsed her hair, soaped and washed her body, and ducked out.

It barely occurred to her to wear a towel; the human part of her only managed to remind her at the last second to wrap up. Her natural shame was almost totally gone.

“Catríona.”

“Ginger?” Catríona was making lunch, chopping carrots on the cabin’s messy, pan-and-dish-crowded pine counter.

“I want to go on a walk.”

Catríona looked up. Her eyes sharpened, but she didn’t speak. Then, finally: “Remember to take your amoxicillin.”

Amoxicillin. Amoxicillin-clavulanate. Bears, the Mac an Tsaoirs had explained, healed better and faster than humans, and more cleanly, too. Still, they’d insisted she take a course of antibiotics—in case Gunnar’s mouth was “full of poison,” as Eimhir had put it, tightly. The wound on Ginger’s thigh had closed, but it still tingled, and the places where his teeth had broken the skin were a raw, fishy pink. Catríona was on meds also, because he’d put his mouth on her too.
Bastard.

“Alright.”

“The pills are by the sink. Pour yourself a glass and pop one, hon.”

“Alright,” Ginger repeated, stepping to it. She filled a cup, placed the pill in her mouth, and downed it.

“Take my spare jacket.”

“Cat… no, I couldn’t. I’m already wearing your closet.” Her plaid shirt and thick, shapeless jeans were Catríona’s. She’d had to roll up the arms and legs because she was so much shorter. Only the Bean boots were her own.

“Take it. It’s that suede one, there.”

“I don’t…”

“It’ll give me piece of mind,” Cat insisted inflexibly. “Wear it. There’s a real chill in the air today.”

Ginger held back a sigh. “Okay. I will.”

“Will you be back for dinner?” Cat flashed her a concerned, brow-furrowed look.

Ginger hesitated. “I might be.”

“Alright. Don’t go too far. Stay in our territory.” She cut right through a fat, hard potato. “You’ll know where it ends now.”

“Okay,” Ginger said, terser than she’d meant to. Cat didn’t seem offended.

She strode to the cabin wall, took down Catríona’s spare coat—it was a soft, fawn suede, slightly worn, with big white borg lapels and huge pockets. She zipped it up.

“Back before dark, at least,” Cat said, just before she stepped out the door.

Ginger lowered and then raised her eyes. “Back before dark.”

And she left.

Catríona was right. She could tell she was in the Mac an Tsaoirs’ territory now, with all the new senses she had. She could smell where they’d rubbed on the trees, and not just Angus’s scent, but Cat’s and Eimhir’s—strong, omnipresent; proprietary.

It was strange, smelling everything like this—so acutely, so powerfully, so totally. She kept putting a hand over her nose to block out all the scents, but they still reached her, hundreds of them. The forest smelled damper and richer than usual; she could smell the fast musky heat of the squirrels and the cold dewy greenness of the ferns; she could smell the wet bark of the trees and the sharp stiffness of the needles. It was so distracting that she almost walked through a strand of spiny devil’s club.