Rockstar's Angel (3 page)

Leo

I watch Tanya angrily strut away from me. I know I pushed her a little too far, but fuck me I couldn't help myself. Having Tanya back in my arms felt too good, and it all came back to me. Tanya and me, we were good. If she'd just give me the chance to talk to her, to understand why she's so pissed with me, I've a feeling we could be great together. Amazing even, but she needs to fucking let me in.

She sways her plump ass as she walks away. Tanya may act like she hates me, but she wouldn't be this angry if I didn't affect her. I felt her body shudder under me as we danced. She still craves me, as much as I crave her. That makes me feel fucking great. I still have a chance to make all of this right.

Another song begins to play as ours ends. The wedding guests fill the dance floor. I only want to dance with Tanya, and she doesn't look like she’s in the mood right now, so I leave the dance floor. I spot Maisy, Max and James standing near a table so decide to join them. I regret it as soon as Maisy spots me, giving me a look like I'm a dying puppy. Before anyone can say anything, Jessica comes bouncing over. "Erm Maisy, we need you a sec."

She rolls her eyes, the girls walking away hand in hand. I'm guessing that it's Tanya who she needs Maisy for. I've seen Maisy in action with Tanya. It's amazing how she can tame her friend. Max slaps a hand on my shoulder, I can see he's hiding a smile. "What happened, bro?"

I exhale loudly, running my hands over my face. "Fuck if I know."

"It looked like it was going well to me." James adds.

Max nods his head. "Yeah, the dance looked to be going well."

"It was. I thought she was finally letting me in, but as soon as the song finished, she left."

"I'm sorry man." Max hands me a drink from a waitress passing by with a tray. I don't miss how his eyes linger, watch her as she moves away. That probably would have been me if I wasn't so hung up on a certain girl. Who am I kidding? I've been hung up on her since the first time she walked in that small backstage area, with Kendal.

"I'm sure the girls will calm her down." James nods his head, over my shoulder. I turn to see what he's looking at. I spot Tanya surrounded by her girls, all patting and talking to her while she looks pissed. Kendal holds her in a hug, stroking her hair. I can't help but feel shitty that my drama is happening on my friend’s wedding day.

Jax wanders over, a shit eating grin on his smug face. Why wouldn't he? The bastard has everything he ever wanted. The only girl he's ever loved is back in his life, he has a son who's a carbon copy of him, and now he's expecting another. I can't help but feel jealous of him right now. Dude is like a brother to me, all of the guys are, but I really envy them all right now. I even envy Max! He has no worries, and Rhys has it pretty easy. Jax stops right in front of me, blocking my view of the girls beside the bar. He puts his hands in his pockets. Rhys stands beside him, giving me a slap on my shoulder. "I'm sorry about all of this shit, Jax."

To my surprise he laughs and shrugs his shoulders. "Only fair I guess. My shit was all happening at Rhys' wedding."

Max and Rhys laugh with Jax, but I'm not laughing at all. This shit isn't funny to me today. If this was any other day, or happening to anybody else, then I probably would be laughing too. I can't laugh when it comes to me and Tanya. We all start talking, my mind never straying far from her. Jax shifts a little, and I get my view back. I see Finley run over to Kendal, she sends him over to Jax. As Finley runs over to us, Tanya looks our way, locking eyes with me and frowning. I smile. "Damn stubborn woman."

"Who is?" Finley comes to a stand at Jax's feet, looking at me with his head tilted to the side. I'm not going to answer, because I'm not stupid. Finley isn't your usual four year old, not that I'm used to hanging with kids, but everyone can tell he’s something else.

I don't want to answer Finley, but that doesn't stop Max from blurting out the answer. "Tanya."

I grimace at the amused look on all the guys faces. Finley frowns. I know I'm in trouble, because the little guy loves the girls. "That's not nice, Uncle Leo."

Before anybody can do or say anything, Finley runs back to the girls who are still by the bar. Shit!

Jax shakes his head smiling, as Rhys and Max laugh. Fuckers!

Finley stops right in front of Tanya, she leans down so she can hear what he is saying over the  loud music. I know the moment that he tells her I called her a 'damn stubborn woman', because she turns to glare at me. Finley then repeats it for the rest of the girls, they all gawp, wide eyed between Tanya and me. She surprises us all and laughs, for Finley's sake I'm sure. She leans down, patting his head, then gives me the finger when Finley can''t see. I watch as she downs two shots, striding onto the dance floor, knowing I'm still watching her.

An hour later, I watch as she dances with some rich douche. I know she's doing this to get to me, and its working. I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do. I need to get Tanya to stop fighting me and fucking listen! I need to know why she's so damned pissed at me, but she won't even hear me out long enough for me to ask. If anyone has the right to be angry, it's me! It's her who wanted to keep us a secret from everyone four years ago, not me.

When she finally leaves the dance floor, I try and approach her. She won't listen to anything I have to say. She just continues walking away, as though she can't get away quickly enough. Just being in the same room as Tanya for this long is a rare thing. I need to take advantage. I thought that being together for a whole day would finally make her talk to me, but it's been the opposite.

I see Tanya walk into the ladies room. She's already in a cubicle when I follow her in, but luckily it's just the two of us in here. When the cubicle door opens she freezes. Her gaze hardens and her spine straightens. God, she's fucking beautiful. "What the fuck are you doing in here?"

And such a beautiful mouth too. "I need to talk to you."

"Too bad, because I don't want to talk to you." She strides to my side, placing her little bag on the unit in front of a mirror, and starts to fix her make-up. She's acting like I'm not affecting her, but I can see her hands shaking slightly. I trace a finger along her arm, but she moves away. "Don't."

"Why not?"

She grabs her bag, facing me. "Because Leo, I hate you."

She may act like she hates me, but I know it's not true. She stomps past me. I don't want her to leave. I walk behind her, wrapping my arms around her waist. I feel her draw in a shaky breath. I smile into the back of her hair. I know she loves my arms, she used to tell me so over and over, while I held her tightly against me. I lean forward a little, whispering in her ear. "Please talk to me, angel."

Her body shudders under me. If I hadn't known from our earlier dance that I still affect her, then that would have been my answer. "Don't call me that."

I quickly turn her around to face me, wiping her shiny teared eyes with my thumbs. "Why? You're still my angel, baby."

I hold her face in both of my hands, and she closes her eyes. "Please, just let me go Leo."

I hate the pain that I hear in her voice. Why am I causing her so much pain? "Sorry, I can't do that, Tan."

She opens her eyes, the sadness I heard in her voice now reflected in her eyes. "I don't want you anymore Leo. Why can't you just leave me alone?"

I swallow down my hurt. "Stop lying."

She steps away from me, and my hands drop from her face. "Wow. You really want to fuck me, don't you?" I stare at her, shocked. Is that all she thinks I want? Sure that's what we were before. I have a pretty bad reputation from the band, but she should know me better. Besides, it was her that wanted to keep us a secret before. Why does she think I want that now? She laughs harshly at me. "Oh, don't act so shocked that I know, Leo. Don't you dare try to pretend that you want anything more from me. You just want a good fuck, like you always did. Then you can throw me away, so you can go play with your dirty little groupies."

I clench my hands at my sides. "That's not true."

"Oh, who's lying now?" Without another word, she yanks the door open, and storms out, leaving me stunned. 

Jax

I'm admiring my wife from across the room. Fuck me, I'm a lucky bastard. She's so beautiful and all mine. I can feel my cock begin to harden in my jeans, but it stops as I frown over at her. She's not smiling anymore, she looks worried. I look over to see what she's staring at. Tanya is storming out from the ladies room, no surprise there then. Ever since we came back we've all had to watch Tanya ignoring Leo. Not that it's easy on Kendal, she loves them both. I'm surprised when I see Leo walk out after her; I quickly look over to Kendal and see she's staring at him wide eyed. I hope to fuck they haven't done what it looks like they've done. Leo walks in my direction, his head down. He doesn't notice me until he almost walks into me. "Oh hey, Jax."

I clear my throat, looking back over at Kendal. She doesn't look very happy. "What was that about?" I nod my head in the direction of the toilets.

He huffs loudly, sitting down on the closest chair. "Fuck, I don't know. I wanted to talk, but she wouldn't let me say shit."

"You only talked?" Leo nods. I see Kendal begin to walk over. "Because the way you two stormed out of there, it didn't look like you were just talking."

"No, Jax I wouldn't do that. Not here. Not that she would even let me near her. Fuck! Look I gotta just go for a sec." He quickly stands, walking past Kendal, giving her a quick kiss on the forehead before he goes.

Kendal frowns over at me. "What's happened?"

"Nothing, just leave them to it."

"I'm worried about them."

I hold my arms out for her and she steps into them. "I know, but just leave them to it, yeah?" She sighs. I squeeze her tight. I don't want her worrying about anything when she has our baby growing inside her. I'm so fucking happy right now. I fucked up over not knowing about Finley, but this time I can be with Kendal all the way; which is how it should have been the first time. I tilt her head up so I can claim those plump lips of hers. Lips that look perfect when they are wrapped around my cock. "I love you so fucking much, baby."

She laughs, "I love you too Jax."

I sit down on the chair that Leo vacated, pulling Kendal down onto my lap, kissing her some more. When we come up for air I can see Kendal is still frowning slightly. "What's up, baby?"

"Tanya told me something when we were standing at the bar. Did you know Tanya and Leo were there the day I came over?"  She stops talking, looking down at her hands. She's talking about the day she came over to leave me, because she'd found out she was pregnant with Finley. I don't blame her for anything, but that doesn't stop Kendal from always feeling guilty.

"Yeah I did, but I was too busy thinking about you to worry about what they'd been doing."

She nods her head. "I hate seeing them like this Jax. They need to talk, but they always end up fighting. Tanya's too stubborn to listen."

Yeah, I feel for Leo. I had it bad getting Kendal back, Leo has it worse. He doesn't have the surprise of finding out he has a son he never knew existed, but at least Kendal spoke to me. She gave me a chance, we worked our shit out, I'll always be grateful for that. Tanya isn't giving Leo that chance. I grip my stunning wife tightly in my arms. "Look, don't worry about them today, babe. They'll sort their shit out on their own. Now stop worrying, you're gonna stress my little boy in there."

I softly rub her belly, there's a small hint of roundness already. It's amazing that part of Kendal and me is growing inside there, making a perfect little being. Kendal laughs at me. "How do you know it's a boy? For all you know we could be having a girl."

Yeah I know, I've already thought about that. I'm already dreading it.  If this baby is a girl there's no doubt in my mind she'll be as beautiful as her mother. That means bad news for me, I can just imagine the amount of teenage horny fuckers I will have to beat up. "God fucking help me."

Kendal bursts out laughing. She might think it's funny, but I'm deadly serious. At least if we do have a girl I'll have the support of her big brother Finley, and her uncle’s. Nobody's getting close to my baby girl. With that future headache in mind I've got my fingers crossed for a boy.

After a few more dances with my woman she goes over to talk to some of her friends. I spot Jessica walking off the dance floor and quickly go over to her. She can obviously sense my mood. She gives me a frown, looking around, probably searching for Kendal. "What's wrong?" she asks.

"Have a word with Tanya, will you? Kendal's worrying about her.  I want Kendal to enjoy today. I don't want her stressed."

She looks over to Tanya who's openly flirting with one of Kendal's cousins. Jessica frowns and nods her head in their direction. "Sure. I'll have a word with her. Those two need to be locked in a room and kept there until this shit is sorted." As she storms over to Tanya I think to myself that's not such a bad idea; well maybe as a last resort.

I turn around and spot Leo in a dark corner, not surprisingly he's glaring at Tanya. I march right over to him. "Listen up shit head." He snaps his head to me, looking shocked that I'm standing in front of him. "You and your fucking obsession over there are upsetting my woman on her wedding day."

He hangs his head, angrily rubbing at his face. "Fuck."

"I don't want her stressing about you. It's her day and if you haven’t already noticed, she’s  pregnant.”

I've been trying my best to make sure Kendal has nothing to worry about since she found out about  the pregnancy. I don't want this fucker’s drama upsetting her. "I'll stay away from Tan, don't worry."

"You two need to sort your shit out. It's fucking everyone else up." I leave him standing alone and go in search of Kendal. I want to make sure she has the best damn day of her life.

Leo

I watch Jax walk towards a happy looking Kendal. As soon as he reaches her he grabs her, and  kisses her. When they break apart she looks over at me, and her smile drops. She's worried about me. Jax leads Kendal away from the dance floor, his arm wrapped securely around her. That guy would wrap her in cotton wool if he could; he's so damn protective of her.

What he said is true. Tanya and I do need to sort out whatever this is between us. How am I supposed to do that when she won't fucking talk to me, or even listen to me!

I hear laughter and see Max and Maisy standing together. Maisy laughs again and an idea pops into my head. I walk over to them, looking straight at her. She gives me a sad smile. I try my best to ignore it. "Hey Leo, you OK?"

I don't have time to reply before Max steps in. "Well don't you look fucking happy. Cheer up, it's a wedding."

Maisy rolls her eyes. "Yeah, Max is really enjoying himself. I might even tell Jax just how much he's enjoying the waitresses."

Max stares wide eyed at her. "You wouldn't."

She laughs again, looking at me. "Max here bagged a waitress in the gardens. Classy, right?"

Max groans. If I didn't know better, I'd think there was something going on between these two, but they act more like best friends or brother and sister. I don't comment on Max's behaviour, it's typical Max. If I didn't want Tanya so badly, I'd have probably done the same.

"Mase, I need your help."

She takes a sip of her drink, frowning at me. "With what?"

I take a deep breath. "I need an address."

I see Max close his eyes and scrunch his face up. He knows who’s address I'm after. Maisy however doesn't seem to have caught on. "Okayyyy. Who’s?"

"Tanya's."

Her eyes go wide, they look like they're going to pop out of her head. "You don't know where she lives, she hasn't told you?"

I shake my head. "She won't even talk to me."

She slowly shakes her head. "Leo, if she hasn't told you, well, she obviously doesn't want you to know. I'm sorry honey, but I can't tell you. She'd rip me apart."

"What about her number?"

"I can't Leo, I'm sorry."

I step closer to Maisy and beg. "Please Maisy."

Max steps between us, placing his hand on my shoulder. "Leave it Leo, yeah?"

"I need to talk to her."

Max looks sorry for me now. Usually he rips me apart over this crap. "Leave it today, yeah? Jax will be pissed if you go upsetting Tanya, worse if it upsets Kendal."

I've already pissed Jax off.

Maisy looks at me, shielding herself behind Max. "I'm sorry I can't help, Leo." She steps closer to me, placing her small hand on my arm and speaking quietly. "Look, I'm going round on Thursday, I'll try and get through to her. That's all I can do, but she won't even talk about you with us. It's not just you, we're not allowed to mention your name."

That doesn't surprise me, it hurts to hear she doesn't even want her friends to mention my name. Jax is right, this shit is affecting everyone. Time to try harder. Tanya will hear me out one way or another.