ROYAL (2 page)

He shoves the key in the ignition, cranks it to the right,
and grabs my right hand. He moves it to the black gear shifter. I can’t read
the letters or numbers. They’re all worn off. I only see a funny looking grid.

Royal’s hand grips mine as his truck roars to life.

“This is first gear,” he says as our hands move forward. He
pulls the knob down, my hand trapped under his, and it feels looser now. “This
is neutral.” He wiggles it back and forth so I can see, and then he brings the
stick toward us. “This is second.”

He goes through all the gears with me two more times, then
makes me show him on my own.

“Okay. I get it now,” I say.

“Shift into first,” he says. “Carefully take your right foot
off the brake and move it to the gas. Let the clutch out slow—”

The clutch is springy. The second I let up on it, it pops
all the way out and his truck goes lurching forward. It bounces to a stop and
the engine dies.

“Damn it.” I pound my fist on the steering wheel and curse
Derek under my breath. Why’d he have to go and get mono right now?

“Demi, it’s fine. Let’s try again. Shift into neutral. Stick
your left on the clutch and your right on the brake and start it up again.”

It only takes four tries before we’re barreling down the
side street that runs past my neighborhood. In the distance, a red octagon
comes into view.

“I don’t know how to stop. How do I stop? Royal? What do I
do?” I white-knuckle the steering wheel like no one’s business.

He laughs. I’d slap him, but I’m busy holding on like my
life depends on it.

“Left on the clutch, right foot gentle on the brake. Give
yourself plenty of time. Come to a slow stop.”

He reaches for the radio, and I momentarily release my grip
on the wheel to swat his hand.

“I don’t want music yet. I’m not ready.” I realize that I
sound like a baby, but I’m driving this two-ton, stick-shift, beast of a truck,
and I don’t think I’m to the place where I can sit back and listen to music
like we’re on some kind of joy ride.

Royal lifts his hands. “All right. No worries. Just trying
to get you to relax.”

I follow his directions and bring us to an easy stop. We’re
at a highway intersection now. A semi barrels from the east.

“Where should I go?” I ask.

“Anywhere you want.” He lowers his window, and a burst of
mild summer air flows through. I didn’t realize how stuffy it was in here until
now, so I do the same.

I take a deep breath, shift into first, and concentrate on
not popping the clutch so we don’t become road kill.

He’s so patient with me. And he trusts me with his truck. I
don’t know many guys at school who’d be this cool about letting me learn with
their only mode of transportation.

Every high-schooler in Rixton Falls knows that vehicles
equal freedom.

I could easily wreck this thing, and Royal doesn’t make
enough money doing seasonal landscaping to be able to replace it. His current
foster family doesn’t have the means either, not that they’d be obligated.

“Thanks for trusting me with this,” I say, releasing the
clutch and pressing my toes against the gas pedal. This might be the only time
in my fifteen years that I’ve ever thanked Royal Lockhart for anything.

We ease forward, crossing the four lane highway and heading
north.

“Demi, watch out . . .” Royal grabs the steering wheel and
jerks it in his direction as a fuel truck whirs past us so fast that it shakes
the cab.

I jam my foot hard into the clutch and brake and bring us to
a violent stop in a cloud of dust on the side of the highway.

“I’m sorry. I . . . I didn’t see it coming.” My words shake,
and two fat tears drip down my cheeks. “I don’t want to do this anymore.”

“Demi.”

Ignoring him, I pull on the door lever and climb out. He
meets me halfway, at the tailgate. I cross my arms. He’s going to try and talk
me out of it, but my mind’s made up.

“I don’t like stick shifts,” I say. “I’ll just wait until my
parents get back. Mom can teach me in the Suburban.”

My chin trembles. He stares at me. I’m not sure how he stays
this calm when two minutes ago, I almost got us killed.

I squeeze my eyelids so tightly they hurt. I wish I could
crawl into a hole and never come out. I wish Royal never would’ve offered to
teach me how to drive. I wish—

The warmth of his hands encapsulates mine, and I pull in a
startled breath, opening my eyes.

“Demi, it’s okay. Everyone has to learn somehow. You master
this beast? You can drive anything. Automatics are for pussies and fraidy-cats.
You’re fearless. I know you are. I’ve seen it.”

His hands leave mine and slide up my arms, leaving a trail
of tingles. I try to swallow, but my mouth is dry.

“Remember when we were kids, and we were playing in that
creek, and Delilah got bitten by that snake?” he asks.

I nod.

“Everyone else took off running, and what’d you do? You went
back and smashed its head with a rock.”

I laugh through my nose, my damp eyes blinking.

“That thing didn’t stand a chance when you were done with
it,” he adds.

Though it’s been years, the most vivid part of that memory
is the fact that Royal chased after me. He let me do what I had to do, and he
made sure I wasn’t alone.

“So tell me, former child snake killer,” he says. “You going
to get back in there and practice some more? Or am I taking you home now?”

I wipe my drying tears on the back of my hand and stuff my
pride down deep.

“Yeah. Fine.” I sigh. He lets me go, and we linger for a
moment. “Stop looking at me that way. It’s weird.”

“How was I looking at you?”

“I don’t know. Like . . .”
Like you think I’m pretty.

Derek would
murder
him if he made a move on me.

The sky behind him morphs into a deep shade of stormy blue,
and flashes of lightening precede a distant rumble of thunder.

Quick, tiny droplets of water ping against the metal bed of
his Chevy, and the rain begins to kiss our faces.

“Get in,” he nods toward the cabin.

I move toward him, making my way to the passenger side, but
he stops me with a palm on my shoulder.

“Whoa, whoa, whoa. You didn’t think you’d get out of driving
just ‘cause there’s a little bit of rain, did you?” Royal smirks. “This is how
you learn. Get in. You’re driving us home.”

Halfway home, it occurs to me that Royal saved my life
today.

Maybe I’ll try to be nicer to him from now on.

Just a little.

***

Demi, Age 17

{two years later}

“Why are you sitting here in the dark?” Royal’s voice
startles me at two in the morning on a Saturday.

“I thought you were downstairs with Derek?” I sit up on our
living room sofa, and Royal plops down beside me.

“Derek’s passed out,” he said. “And I can’t sleep.”

“You too, huh?”

“I never sleep. Can never get comfortable,” he says. “I’m
like fucking Goldilocks or some shit. Each bed is too hard or too soft. Haven’t
found the right one yet.”

Would probably help if he’d ever had a bed of his own.

“So what are you going to do?” I ask.

He shrugs. “Came up here to check out the Rosewood fridge.
See what kind of leftovers Bliss has all Tupperwared up in there.”

Royal doesn’t move. Apparently, he’d rather sit here with me
now than rummage.

“There should be some leftover lasagna,” I say.

“Cool. Bliss makes good food.”

“Yep.”

The living room curtains are pulled wide behind us, and the
half moon in the sky provides just enough of a glow that I can make out the
outline of his face in the dark. Not only can I tell he’s looking at me, I feel
it too.

I squirm and play with a loose thread in the throw pillow in
my lap.

“Go out with me, Demi.” His voice is slightly more than a
whisper, and his question is a paddle shock to my heart.

“And why would I do that?”

“I’m graduating in May,” he says. “And we’ve never been on a
date.”

“You’re like a brother to me. Ew. That’s gross. I would
never. And Derek would kill us.”

“Psh. I’ll deal with Derek.” He inches closer. “Don’t act
like you’ve never thought about it. I have.”

My body burns from head to toe. I don’t know how he can be
so straightforward. Most guys at school are vague. They play mind games, or
they’re too chicken to make the first move.

“I can honestly say that I don’t look at you that way.” I
clear my throat and look away.

Liar, liar,
pants on fire
. I’m going to hell. I am
so
going to hell.

I stare ahead at a family portrait of smiling Rosewoods
hanging above the fireplace mantle. I’ve always thought Royal should be
included in those. He’s more or less one of us—maybe not by blood, but
blood doesn’t always make you a family. He’s been to three-fourths of the
Easter dinners at Grandma Rosewood’s house over the last few years, and I’m
pretty sure that she likes him more than she likes Derek sometimes. Every time
she comes over, she brings his favorite oatmeal raisin cookies, and they sit
outside and chat on the front porch rocking chairs like they’ve known each
other their whole lives.

Grandma was orphaned by nine and adopted by twelve, so I
think that’s why she holds a soft spot for him.

Royal snickers. “Come on, Demi. I don’t believe you for one
second.”

I roll my eyes. “Really not interested in becoming a flavor
of the week.”

He licks his lips as they spread wide. “That’s cute that you
pay attention to my social life.”

Kind of hard not to notice when he’s strutting down the hall
like a peacock with a flock of spray-tanned cheerleaders hanging off his
baseball pitcher arms.

“One date,” he says. “Per week. For two months.”

My face scrunches. “What? No. That’s dumb.”

“Just trying to prove that you wouldn’t be a flavor of the
week.”

My eyes roll, and I fight my smile like my life depends on
it.

“Fine. One date,” he says. “Per week. Until you decide
you’re sick of me.”

“Which would probably be after the first date, if I’m being
honest,” I lie again. Pretty sure the devil’s reserving a special spot in his
fiery furnace with DEMI ROSEWOOD etched across it in flashing neon lights. “So
it’s pretty pointless to even entertain anything involving you and me.”

“I don’t think it’s pointless at all,” he says. I glance at
him. He’s not smiling or teasing, for once. “I’m seriously asking you out on a
date, Demi.”

I exhale and slink back against the sofa, twirling a dark
strand of hair between my fingers over and over, the smooth, soft strands
distracting me from this moment.

We sit in silence for a minute or two. Once again, Royal has
the patience of a saint that runs perfectly perpendicular to his lips made for
sin.

“Derek’s going to feed your balls to the dog. You know that,
right?” I lift my brows and purse my lips to keep from smirking.

“Nah. Derek’s cool. He’ll get over it.”

“Not if you hurt me, he won’t.”

“If anyone’s going to get hurt here, it’s going to be me.”

I scoff. “Why’s that?”

“’Cause I’ve waited years for a date with Demi Rosewood.
Pretty sure it’s going to be epic. Pretty sure I’m never going to want to let
you go.”

“Stop being weird. I don’t like it. Go back to being . . .
you
.”

I yawn and rise, tossing the throw pillow back on the seat
behind me. Reaching over, I ruffle my fingers through his messy chocolate hair.
If I treat him like a puppy, maybe I can ignore the fact that my heart’s
beating a hundred miles per hour and my lips are tingling at the thought of
touching his.

“I’m going to bed,” I say in a too-cool-to-care tone.

Royal captures my wrist and pulls my fingers from his mane,
rising slowly. Our eyes catch in the dark, and I wonder if he can hear how hard
my heart is beating now that we’re standing so close.

“Friday night,” he says. “I’ll pick you up at seven. We can
go into the city. Do anything you want to do.”

“I don’t want things to be different between us,” I say, “if
we go on this date.”

“You know what I’ve noticed about you?” he asks.

“What?”

“You’re always waiting for the other shoe to drop. No matter
what, you’re always expecting the worse. Always on edge. Always waiting for
something bad to happen.” He cups my face in his hands and tilts his head,
studying me. “Everything’s always going to work out. And I can say that, ‘cause
I’ve been through some shit, and I’m barely eighteen. You have a beautiful
life, Demi. Perfect friends, perfect family, perfect house. Bad shit doesn’t
happen to people like you.”