Adriel’s Moon waxing
H
e wandered the streets of the city, walking among the empty markets, until he saw the first pale hint of daybreak in the eastern sky and heard the dawn bells ringing from the city gates. Only then did Grinsa make his way back to the Sanctuary of Bian.
The Qirsi had tried to tell himself that it was the assassin he had wanted to avoid this Pitch Night, that after years of seeing Pheba on the last night of Bian’s Turn in the cold of the snows, he didn’t fear her spirit anymore. But he knew better. The assassin had earned his death. By offering blood for the man the night he entered the sanctuary, Grinsa had done more than anyone could have expected of him. Even now, though, after all this time, after loving Cresenne and feeling the anguish of her betrayal—especially after all that—the mere thought of seeing his dead wife pained him so that he felt a blade had pierced his heart.
He felt ashamed of his cowardice, not so much for Pheba as for Meriel. Living in the sanctuary, the prioress faced her dead every turn. Not just Pheba, but her parents, and the child she bore unjoined before she came to the sanctuary, who died in his infancy. If she could face them each turn, a voice within him demanded, why couldn’t he face Pheba just this once? To which another voice replied simply,
Because it hurts too much.
Returning in the growing light of day, Grinsa had thought to find the sanctuary still, save for the cleric posted at the gate. But upon stepping into the main courtyard, he saw someone standing at
the entrance to the shrine. It had to be Meriel, he realized, and he hurried toward her, wondering if something had happened to Tavis.
As he drew nearer, she held a finger to her lips, then slipped quietly into the shrine. Grinsa followed.
She had stopped just inside the door and was looking toward the far end of the temple. Following her gaze, he saw someone lying on the floor just before the altar.
“Is that Tavis?” he asked, taking a step forward.
She placed a hand on his arm, stopping him. “He’s fine,” she said. “He’s just sleeping.”
“How long has he been there?”
“Since before the midnight bells.”
“Did Brienne come to him? Did you see her?”
The prioress looked at him. “I never see someone else’s dead. None of us do. It’s not the Deceiver’s way. But she did come to him. I heard what he said to her.”
“And?”
She faced the boy again. “I believe he is innocent. He shed tears for her and spoke to her of his love and his sorrow. He’s no murderer.”
Grinsa closed his eyes, knowing a moment of profound relief. Since leaving the Revel for Kentigern he had had his doubts about the boy. Usually he trusted his visions and the images he brought forth from the Qiran, but in this instance there had been so much else to consider.
“You weren’t certain,” Meriel said.
He opened his eyes and saw her grinning at him.
“The way you spoke to me the night you came here, I wouldn’t have guessed.”
Grinsa smiled as well. “I’m glad I was so convincing.”
“His innocence does nothing to change the fact that he’s rude, inconsiderate, and spoiled. You’ll have a difficult time caring for him, if that’s your intention.”
The Qirsi nodded. “I know. But our lives are linked for some reason. I don’t know why yet, but I think it must be important. I have no choice but to remain with him, at least for now.”
“Then there’s something more you should know,” the prioress said. “From what I heard of their conversation, it seems that Brienne was able to show the boy an image of her killer.”
“
What?
Is that possible?”
“I’ve never heard of such a thing, but then again I’ve never had one of the dead who was murdered so recently appear to someone in my shrine.” She shrugged. “After all these years of serving the Deceiver nothing surprises me anymore.”
“Extraordinary,” Grinsa said softly. “Do you know what the killer looks like?”
“No, but the boy recognized him. It seems he was a singer in the Revel.”
The Qirsi nodded, drawing a puzzled look from Meriel.
“You expected this?” she asked.
“I suppose in a way I did. The assassin I killed in Kentigern Wood also sang in the Revel. They must have been working together.”
“So you might know this man as well.”
“Possibly.”
He stood staring at Tavis for several moments. After his silent encounter with Fotir in the tavern the night before, Grinsa had resolved to leave Kentigern as soon as possible. He had heard talk in the city—in the wake of the boy’s escape, it was said, the duke of Curgh and his entourage had been imprisoned in the castle. Seeing Fotir with Aindreas’s first minister, Grinsa had thought he had reason to doubt the stories. But then he saw how the minister from Kentigern pushed Javan’s man through the tavern, and he knew that it must be true. No doubt the men of Kentigern were still searching for Tavis, and at this point, it was impossible to say what they’d do if they recaptured him. After leaving the Silver Bear he had even gone so far as to make arrangements with a Qirsi merchant he knew. The man was willing to offer passage to Tremain for both Grinsa and the boy. They could be out of the city before sundown.
Now, however, he had something new to consider.
He faced the prioress, fixing his eyes on hers. “Would you be willing to tell the duke of Kentigern what you’ve told me?”
“About the assassin?”
“Yes, that,” he said. “But also your belief in Tavis’s innocence, what you heard of his conversation with Brienne. All of it.”
She held his gaze, pressing her lips into a thin line. “By telling him these things, I admit to harboring the man he believes murdered his daughter. There’s no telling what he might do to me or the sanctuary.”
“Two nights ago you said that the sanctuary can’t be violated, that even Aindreas understood that.”
“Yes, I did,” she said. “And then the boy reminded me that Aindreas had already risked war with the future king over this matter. To be honest, I don’t know anymore what the duke would do. But there are few things as dangerous as a man bent on vengeance.”
“Tavis is innocent, Meriel. You know that now. Aindreas needs to be convinced of it as well. He’s holding Javan in the castle, and he’s hunting for Tavis as if the boy were an animal. With each day that passes Eibithar moves closer to civil war. And the more I think about it, the more I think that’s just what Brienne’s killer wants.” He looked around the shrine before facing her again. “I don’t want to see anything happen to this sanctuary, and I certainly don’t want you to be harmed. But there’s too much at stake here for you to keep silent.”
She looked away, the muscles in her jaw tightening. “Even if I were to go to him, it might not do you any good. Like his father before him, Aindreas has little use for the sanctuaries. He belongs to the cloisters. In matters of faith, he listens to Barret, his prelate. And Barret will tell him I’m a demon worshiper and an enchantress.”
She was right. As a member of the Revel he had seen how the courts of the kingdom looked upon the sanctuaries. Worship of the older gods was referred to as the Qirsi faith, and like so many things tied to his people, it was scorned. Meriel’s word would carry no more weight with Aindreas than his own. Once more, Grinsa found himself thinking of Keziah’s duke and hoping that she could prevail upon him to ride to Kentigern. Of all the dukes in Eibithar’s major houses, he maintained the closest ties to the Old Faith. His best hope was to wait for Glyndwr’s duke, and to do so as far from Aindreas as possible.
“You may be right,” Grinsa told her. “This may not be the time to approach Aindreas with what you know. But when that time comes, can I count on your help?”
She managed a small smile. “Of course. Bian allowed the girl to show Tavis her killer. He must have had a purpose in doing so. Who am I to defy the god?”
He made no attempt to mask his relief. “Thank you.”
They fell silent, watching the boy sleep.
“I’m sorry I wasn’t here last night,” Grinsa said at last.
“You needn’t apologize to me,” the prioress said. A moment later she added, “Or to Pheba, for that matter.”
“Was it a difficult night?”
“I think it was for the boy.”
He looked at her sidelong. “What about for you?”
She smiled wanly. “I’ve lived in this sanctuary for more than ten years, facing my dead at the end of every turn, and each night during Bian’s Moon. I sometimes wonder if I’m more comfortable with them than I am with the living.”
“Did you tell Pheba I was here?”
“I told her I had seen you, and that you looked well. I didn’t tell her that you were in Kentigern now.” She paused, leaning forward so that he had to look at her. “Even if I had, I don’t think she would have found fault with you for leaving the sanctuary. She knows how you loved her, Grinsa. And she knows how you still grieve.”
He nodded, not trusting himself to speak.
“You have enough to concern you right now. Don’t trouble yourself about last night any more. It serves nothing.”
He took a deep breath. She was right about this as well. “All right,” he managed.
They fell back into silence, though Meriel didn’t allow it to last very long. “So you’re not ready yet to confront Aindreas. Does that mean you’ll be staying with us for a time?”
Grinsa looked at Tavis once more. “No. I think it’s time we left Kentigern.”
“Are you certain? I believe the sanctuary is safe for now, and you’re welcome to stay here as long as you like.”
“Again, my thanks. But under the circumstances, the risks of keeping him here are too great. A friend of mine has offered to take us to Tremain. We’ll be leaving late in the day.”
“Tremain?” Meriel repeated. “I know the prioress there. A woman named Janae. Her sanctuary is devoted to Adriel, so this will be a difficult turn for her, but she might be willing to give you refuge if you mention my name.”
The Qirsi smiled and shook his head. “How many times can a man say thank you? Maybe I need to offer blood again.”
But Meriel shook her head. “I’d wait if I were you. If I remember correctly, Janae wields a thirsty knife.”
His first thought, waking to find himself on a cold stone floor, was that he was back in Kentigern’s dungeon. He sat bolt upright, wincing at the stiffness in his neck and shoulders.
“It’s all right,” came a voice from behind him. “You’re in the sanctuary.”
Tavis turned his head gingerly and found the gleaner sitting on the wooden bench nearest to him.
“You’re back,” he said. “I guess that means Pitch Night is over.”
The Qirsi stiffened for just an instant. “It’s morning, yes.” He paused briefly, as if willing himself to relax. “The prioress tells me you had quite a night.”
Tavis closed his eyes and rubbed a hand over his brow. “Yes, I did.” He opened his eyes suddenly, grasping the full import of Grinsa’s comment. “She saw Brienne, too? She knows what happened?”
“She knows you didn’t kill her, and that you know who did.”
“Ean be praised!” he whispered.
“Actually, you ought to thank Bian, don’t you think?”
The boy grinned. “I’ll thank any god you want me to.” He climbed to his feet, moving slowly and flexing his muscles with care. “So when do we go back to the castle?”
“You mean Kentigern?” Grinsa asked with a frown.
“Yes. My father’s still there, as is Xaver. They’ll want to know. And we need to tell Aindreas as well.”
“I’m afraid it’s not that easy, Tavis. Aindreas has even less use for the Old Faith than your father does. All we can tell them right now is that the prioress and I believe you to be innocent. That won’t carry much weight with Brienne’s father.”
“But Brienne said I was innocent. She showed me her murderer.”
“So you claim.”
“You said the prioress—”
“I said she knows that you didn’t kill Brienne. But that’s all.” The gleaner exhaled heavily. “I don’t understand the ways of the god as Meriel does. But from what she told me it seems she could only hear what you said to Brienne. She couldn’t see or hear the spirit, nor did she see the image of Brienne’s killer. What she heard from you was enough to convince her that someone else killed the girl. Beyond that, though, it does us little good. Aindreas won’t believe her any more than he did you.”
Tavis felt like someone had kicked him in the stomach. “So it was all for nothing,” he said bitterly. “I’m no better off than I was before I saw her.”
“That’s not true. Meeting one’s dead is never easy. If nothing else
you can take from last night the knowledge that you acted courageously. But even more—”
“Pardon me, gleaner,” Tavis broke in, unwilling to listen to such things just now, “but I don’t need lectures from you on the courage needed to face the dead.”