SAVAGE LOVE (A Back Down Devil MC Romance Novel) (43 page)

“
No,
this is bullshit,
”
Gaige
said. He held Emily out by her shoulders.
“
This
is fucking bullshit. Nobody is going to make you live in fear.
”

“
Too
late,
”
Emily said as she
forced a tearful laugh of disgust.
“
I
can
’
t stop thinking or
seeing or
…”

Gaige put a hand to Emily
’
s mouth and he growled. He
slowly slid his thumb along her lips. Emily saw the intensity in his eyes. She
had started to cross a delicate line, challenging Gaige
’
s ability to protect her.

“
If
you don
’
t fucking trust me,
then you need to go. I
’
ll
have Blaine take you home and I
’
ll
keep someone near you. But I
’
m
not going to listen to this. I
’
m
sorry for what happened today but that
’
s
our business. People want to hurt us, kill us, all because of who we are. We
fucking deal with it. Same goes for you, if you
’
re
going to be here with us.
”

Emily nodded.
“
I
’
m
so sorry
…
I ruined this
…
with us
…”

Emily
’
s
head was still spinning. Her body tingled with a pleasure filled warmth, thanks
to Gaige, yet her mind kept finding ways to ruin it.

Gaige finally pulled Emily close
and held her tight. She continued to cry, unable to control herself. This was
going to take time, whether she had it or not, that didn
’
t matter.

When Gaige released his hold on
Emily, he sat on the edge of the bed. He put his hands to his face and took a
deep breath.

“
I
wish I could tell you it gets easier with each bullet. Each death. But it doesn
’
t. I
’
m swinging fists to stay alive. It
’
s not about looking cool and
having fun. This is what I have to offer the world.
”
Gaige sighed and ran a hand through his hair.
“
I lost the care to cry a long
time ago, so I
’
m sorry if I
can
’
t sympathize with you,
Emily, but that doesn
’
t
mean I don
’
t care about
you. Because I do. Fucking hell, beautiful, I care about you. You have the
comfort of my bed and my arms. My two wheels to take us away when we need to
ride. It
’
s my world and I
want you in it. But you have to fully trust me and you have to trust the club.
There
’
s going to be bullets
and blood, Emily, I can
’
t
control that.
”

Emily wiped her eyes and slowly sat
down next to Gaige. The seriousness of the conversation didn
’
t make Emily feel any more
sober. If anything, though, it her Emily feel closer to him. Falling for him
meant falling hard and fast. Falling for him meant pain.

Emily laid her head on Gaige
’
s shoulder. He reached and
touched her cheek.

“
I
can
’
t believe you
’
re so fucking drunk right now,
”
Gaige said.

Emily laughed.
“
Blame Blaine.
”

“
I
do. You
’
re lucky you didn
’
t end up in his bed.
”

“
I
think that
’
s the scariest
place in the world.
”

“
Yeah,
probably.
”
Gaige turned and
looked at Emily.
“
I will
kill Max for you. But I have something else I want to tell you
…”

“
What?
”

Gaige
’
s
face was stern as he looked at Emily.
“
You
’
re going to be there. You
’
re going to see it happen.
”

Emily wasn
’
t sure how to actually process those words. She
felt dumbfounded. She blinked and a stray tear fell from her eye.

“
I
’
m going to
…”

Gaige nodded.
“
Yes. I
’
m going to show you that Max is dead. I
’
m going to prove my promise to
you, beautiful.
”

“
I
believe you,
”
Emily said.
“
I don
’
t need
…”

“
You
do,
”
Gaige said. He took
Emily
’
s hand.
“
I want you to look into his eyes
and see the fear he made you feel, because when his life ends, so does the
fear. For good. Got it?
”

Emily slowly nodded. This man was
going to kill someone for her.

“
Now
fucking kiss me,
”
Gaige
said.

Emily moved to Gaige and kissed
him. Hard. Fast. Drunk kisses that were filled with passion and emotion that
Gaige may not have understood, but Emily did.

She was in love with him.

twenty.

Gaige lined up the eight ball with
a cigarette hanging from his mouth. Blaine stood at the corner pocket, slowly
unzipping his pants. Gaige smiled and shook his head.

“
Does
nothing for me,
”
Gaige
said.
“
Or to me.
”

“
Fine,
”
Blaine said.

Gaige eyed Blaine as he snapped his
fingers at a
reliever
on the couch. She took her shirt off and turned
around, cupping her bare breasts. She walked to the pool table and bent down.
She pinched her own nipples and tried to tease Gaige with a show.

Focused on the eight ball, Gaige
shot and the ball hit and sunk with ease.

“
Game,
”
Gaige said.

He tossed the pool stick to the
table and took the cigarette from his mouth. He grabbed his beer resting on
another corner pocket of the table and drank from it.

“
Fuck,
bro,
”
Blaine said. He put
his arm around the
reliever
and pointed to Gaige.
“
You
’
re in love, bro. That
’
s
what this shit is.
”

“
Say
that again?
”
Gaige asked.

“
I
’
ve got a fucking sexy bitch
here, shaking her tits, and you manage to make the shot. What the fuck is that?
”

“
Focus,
”
Gaige said.

“
Fuck
that. You
’
re pussy whipped.
”

Gaige opened his mouth and from the
corner of his eye he saw Emily at the bar next to Nate. She was sipping a beer.
He smiled when he saw her.

“
Look
at that face,
”
Blaine said.
“
Pussy whipped.
”

“
I
have a pussy you could whip,
”
the
reliever
chimed in.

Gaige laughed and watched Blaine
grab her by the mouth and smile.
“
Yeah?
You want me to take care of that pussy?
”

They retreated to wherever they
were going. Gaige leaned against the pool table and finished his smoke and
beer. He couldn
’
t keep his
eyes off Emily. Yeah, she was fucking beautiful. Yeah, he really felt for her,
but he wasn
’
t fucking pussy
whipped. That wasn
’
t Gaige
’
s style. Not now and certainly
not ever. So why did he suddenly want to kill for her?

Gaige finished his beer and left it
on the pool table. Someone would clean it up for him. Gaige walked to Nate and
gave him a shove. Nate and Emily looked back at Gaige.

“
Need
to talk to you, bro,
”
Gaige
said. He looked at Emily.
“
Stay
here.
”

Emily nodded.

Nate stood and Gaige started to
walk. He led the way to the meeting room. When he opened the door, the table
was empty. To think about the lives spared and the lives taken based on the
decisions that had been made in was intense.

Gaige leaned against the corner of
the table and crossed his arms.

“
We
need to fucking take care of this now,
”
Gaige said.

“
Take
care of what?
”
Nate asked.

“
This
Eight Under problem. I can
’
t
let this go right now. Not after they tried to shoot us. They gunned down one
of their own like he was nothing. That
’
s
dangerous territory for a crew.
”

“
They
’
re assholes, man,
”
Nate said.
“
That shouldn
’
t surprise you.
”

“
This
Vinny guy needs to go. He
’
s
the one who pulled that trigger
…”

“
Fuck,
”
Nate said. He took out a smoke
and lit it.
“
You
’
re so worried about this because
of Emily.
”

“
Fuck
yeah I am,
”
Gaige said.
“
She
’
s afraid and it
’
s
not fair.
”

“
We
have a plan. Miller is waiting for a call
…”

“
I
’
m going there,
”
Gaige said.
“
I
’
ll
go alone if I have to.
”

“
Go
where?
”

“
Eight
Under compound. Settle this shit. They have to know what he did. And if Eight
Under was in agreement of it, then we have a war on our hands. If it wasn
’
t agreed upon, then we are doing
them a favor by taking him out.
”

“
Christ,
man,
”
Nate said.
“
You want just the two of us
riding up on that shit?
”

“
We
’
ll take Blaine,
”
Gaige said.
“
He
’
s
fucked up enough to trust this.
”

“
What
about me?
”

“
You
’
re the closest thing I
’
ve got to a real brother, Nate.
You know how my mind works.
”

“
Right
now, bro,
”
Nate said with a
smile,
“
you
’
re acting like a man in love.
”

“
Fuck
you.
”

Gaige pushed from the table and
went to the door. He touched the handle and stopped. He let the silence in the
room settle for a little bit before speaking again.

“
I
can
’
t let her go,
”
Gaige said.
“
Call it what you want, man, but
I can
’
t let her go. I can
’
t relax knowing she
’
s worried. I want her to
understand all of this. What we do. Why we do it. I want her to see it
…
and to see if she can survive
it.
”

Gaige opened the door and Nate
whistled. Gaige turned. Nate took a deep drag of his smoke. He exhaled with a
smokey sigh.

“
I
’
ll be outside waiting,
”
Nate said.
“
I
’
m
taking your lead, brother.
”

Gaige nodded and left the room. He
walked down the hallway and stopped at Blaine
’
s
door. He found it unlocked and opened it to a typical Blaine scene. The
reliever
who tried to distract Gaige was handcuffed to the bed and propped up doggie
style with Blaine behind her. He was wearing nothing but his leather cut. Gaige
could see Blaine
’
s ass
cheeks flexing as he pumped hard and fast into the girl cuffed to his bed. The
entire bed shook as the woman groaned and cried out.

When Gaige saw what was on the
woman
’
s back, he couldn
’
t believe his eyes. Blaine had a
magazine balanced perfectly on the small of the woman
’
s back. He flipped a page in the magazine and
grunted.

Gage cleared his throat and Blaine
looked at him. Blaine smiled but didn
’
t
stop fucking the woman. Blaine pointed to the magazine and smiled.

“
What
the fuck are you doing?
”
Gaige asked.

The woman looked back at Gaige. She
smiled with pleasure filled eyes.

“
I
’
m reading the articles, bro,
”
Blaine said.
“
Don
’
t worry I
’
m
almost done here.
”

Gaige folded his arms.
“
Fuck, man, we
’
ve got to go. You, me, and Nate
are riding.
”

“
Nice,
”
Blaine said. He thrust hard and
the woman
’
s head hit the
headboard. He slapped her ass.
“
Face
forward and take it.
”

“
Can
you hurry up here?
”
Gaige
asked.

“
I
’
ll come right now,
”
Blaine said.
“
You want to see that?
”

Gaige shook his head.
“
I
’
ll
be outside waiting.
”

Before Gaige could turn, Blaine
smacked the magazine off the woman
’
s
back and then gripped her waist. His teeth were gritted and he grunted as he
started to move faster. Gaige shut the door and then heard a wild cry come from
Blaine.
He was finishing
…

It made Gaige cringe.

He walked through the clubhouse and
minded his own business until he got to Emily. Griffin sat next to her now and
it was exactly what Gaige had been hoping to find. He positioned himself
between Emily and Griffin.

“
I
’
m riding with Nate and Blaine,
”
Gaige said.
“
Business.
”

“
Trouble,
”
Griffin said.

“
Maybe
so.
”

Emily touched Gaige
’
s arm.
“
What are you doing?
”

“
Nothing,
”
Gaige said.
“
I
’
m
fixing problems. That
’
s
all.
”

“
Jesus
Christ,
”
Griffin said.
“
Don
’
t
…”

“
What
I need is for you two to stay together,
”
Gaige said. He looked at Emily and nodded.
“
Okay?
”

“
Okay,
”
Emily whispered.

Gaige looked at Griffin.
“
Can you do this for me?
”

“
I
’
ve got it, brother,
”
Griffin said. He punched Gaige
in the arm.
“
Come back in
one piece, okay?
”

“
I
’
ll be back,
”
Gaige said. He put a fist out
to Griffin.
“
Thank you.
”

Griffin touched his fist to Gaige
’
s.
“
No problem. I
’
ll
keep her safe. You know that.
”

“
I
know,
”
Gaige said.
“
I know.
”
Gaige turned to Emily.
“
Kiss me.
”

Emily came close and Gaige put his
hand to the back of her head. They kissed deep. The taste of Emily
’
s tongue made Gaige instantly
hard. It made his heart race, too, which was something not many women could do.
When the kiss ended he stared into Emily
’
s
eyes and felt a burning throughout his body that he never knew could be real.

Fuck
…
he was falling for this woman
…

“
Stay
with Griffin,
”
Gaige
whispered.
“
I
’
ll be back in a little while.
”

“
You
’
re going into trouble,
”
Emily said.

“
Maybe
I am. Maybe I
’
m not.
”

“
Gaige
…”

“
Beautiful,
”
Gaige said.
“
This is my job. Have a drink.
Relax with Griffin.
”

Gaige kissed Emily
’
s forehead and licked his lips
as he walked away. He set his sights on the door and didn
’
t look back. It wasn
’
t that he didn
’
t want to look back, it was
because if he looked back and saw Emily he was sure he would completely fall in
love with her.

Outside, Gaige got on his
motorcycle and started it. Nate was next to him and nodded. Gaige pointed to
door and a few seconds later the door opened and Blaine came rushing out. He
was still zipping up his pants and hooking his belt buckle. He smelled his
fingers and then gave a thumbs up.

Gaige shook his head.

What a sick fuck
…

The three left with Gaige leading
the thunderous fury of motorcycles. Their eyes were set on killing.