“How about the little Neptune who clings to you like a barnacle,” Dr. Salvany suggested, smiling at his own cleverness. After ten days at sea, his descriptions had become decidedly nautical.
I nodded agreement, trying to hide my immense relief. It would be no great tragedy if Benito's vaccination did not take here. There were dozens of carriers whose vesicles could be harvested and the vaccine not lost. At sea was another matter.
“We are departing any day,” Don Francisco reminded me. “We must go back to a pair of carriers again.”
My heart sunk. The voyage I had been fearing. The return of my seasickness. And now, the added uncertainty about Benito. What if the vaccine did not take on him? The second in the pair of carriers must not fail.
“You need only bring the boy, as Orlando will serve as our second carrier,” Don Francisco went on. I had been at the point of suggesting José, a sure second, as I had wiped the boy's birth caul from his face and could vouch for every illness and ailment he had suffered. But the captain had already asked that his cabin boy be vaccinated during our land stay, so that Orlando might be free to perform his duties once we set sail. But the boy had come down with something and our director had thought it ill advised to vaccinate him until he was well. “He seems to have made a full recovery.”
Orlando and Benito, two unknown carriers! I turned to go, full of foreboding.
“Stay a moment, Doña Isabel.” Don Francisco's voice stopped me. I was almost at the door, Sor Catalina at my heels. Quaintly, the nuns did not permit me to receive male visitors alone. Whom did they think had been chaperoning me on board the
MarÃa Pita
? Who would protect me from the lusty steward when we resumed our journey?
I turned back. Had our director found me out? He looked weary, they all did, but Don Francisco especially, his face lined and leaner, though he had good color from the browning of the sun. Only the younger Francisco looked healthy and strong. The boy had not even raised a fever with his vaccination. In fact, we were all convinced that the boy had lied, that he was, in fact, immune. But the vesicle had finally formed on his arm on the sixth day and grown apace.
“You have heard, no doubt, of our success here?” Don Francisco questioned me.
I nodded. “We see the crowds daily from these very windows.” I pointed to the half-open casements behind him. “And of course, we have followed your reports closely.” Daily an expedition member would come to the convent to inquire after us, to send Don Francisco's regards, to explain what had occurred that day.
“The five hundred copies of the
Tratado
will not be enough to carry us through. I am having to send to Madrid for two thousand more copies to be printed and forwarded by packet directly to Havana. How many have we vaccinated by now?” He turned to Dr. Gutiérrez.
“Several hundred,” his assistant guessed.
“Several hundred?” Dr. Salvany objected. “Your ocular apparatus fails you, Dr. Gutiérrez. I might sooner number the waves on shore than the multitudes we have saved from the ravages of smallpox. I wager a thousand!”
“There are records,” Dr. Gutiérrez muttered. He was a practical man. No doubt Dr. Salvany's flights of fancy wearied him. But he did not insist on his count, loath, no doubt, to be the one to reduce the expedition's glory with a mere actual number.
“We have vanquished smallpox in Tenerife,” Don Francisco pronounced, ending all argument.
I was glad that our mission had met with this first great success. But it was a bittersweet victory. On shore, I had lost our director to his work. Sequestered in this convent with my boys, I ached for the world beyond my doorstep, though sometimes I wondered if it was not him I ached for. “I wish I could be of more help to you!”
“Oh, but you are of immeasurable help, Doña Isabel. Taking care of all our boys is no small task.” Of course, he was right. Many invisible hands were needed to lay the stones of a great cathedral. And I did not mind laboring without recognition. I needed only him to notice.
“We sail as soon as our good wind blows. The captain informs me it should be within the week. His steward has been busily provisioning the
MarÃa Pita.
” He was telling me nothing I didn't already know. I wondered
why he was choosing to go over such details with me. I glanced at Dr. Salvany, who smiled uneasily and looked away. Dr. Gutiérrez stood behind the young Francisco, his hands on the boy's shoulders as if to fix him there.
“With God's help and Aeolus's wafting, it shall be a swift crossing,” Dr. Salvany ventured.
“May God grant it,” Dr. Gutiérrez echoed more plainly.
“We have been sorely crowded on the
MarÃa Pita,
” Don Francisco continued. “As my colleagues will surely tell you”âhere he indicated Dr. Salvany and Dr. Gutiérrez with a nodâ“we had planned on the
Sylph,
a much larger ship at four hundred tons. But the repairs would have delayed us another month or two. We would still be in La Coruña to this day.”
A long road was being paved, leading, no doubt, somewhere I did not want to go. I waited in silence as our director belabored the subject of our ship's small size, our crowded accommodations. Perhaps he was preparing to move me back to the orlop deck with my boys. The first mate, Lieutenant PozoâI had since learned his nameâhad kindly hung a hammock with the crew in order to release his cabin to me. Ceding it for ten days was one thing, for the forty days or so of our crossing another.
“As you know the merchant ship, the
EspÃritu Santo,
sails soon for Cádiz, and from that port many vessels depart for La Coruña.”
“Indeed, I am writing our friends in La Coruña,” I mentioned. “We were informed of the ship's departure.”
“Many of our Sisters have family ⦔ Sor Catalina began, but halfway through her sentence, she stopped. Three pairs of male eyes had turned in her direction. Her small voice trailed off before such immodest attention.
Don Francisco waited politely for the young nun to continue. But Sor Catalina could not summon the courage to go on. She was among the shyest of the nuns. I wondered why she was ever put on door duty.
“The
EspÃritu Santo
is a fine ship,” Don Francisco explained. A slaver, it was returning to Spain for repairs after years transporting human cargo from Africa to America. “We are thinking of sending back the boys who have already been vaccinated. It would only amount to sixâ”
“No!” little Francisco cried out, wresting himself from Dr. Gutiérrez's grasp. To have come so far and behaved so well, only to be denied the
adventure he had dreamed about. “I will not go back,” he defied the three men before him, looking from one to the other for a champion, his eyes bright with tears.
I was glad for his outburst, for it mirrored my own sentiments. Had Don Francisco forgotten the agreement he had made through me with Doña Teresa? The boys were to remain
together
under my care.
“I don't have to go back, do I, Doña Isabel?” the boy appealed to me.
I reached for him, but he pulled back, perhaps fearing any caress would turn into restraint. He looked around wildly like a trapped animal, searching for an escape. The men stood by, baffled by his reaction. It was Sor Catalina who stepped forward to try her hand with this little creature shouting at his elders. “There, there,” she soothed him, gingerly touching his hair. Oddly enough, the boy accepted her comfort. “You can stay here with us,” she added, nodding to confirm her special offer.
That was not what Francisco wanted to hear. He pulled away from Sor Catalina and wept a child's tears.
“A man does not cry,” Dr. Gutiérrez reminded him, and though, I, too, had used this argument often, I now found myself rejecting it. Break a man's heart and he would weep as surely as he would bleed if you cut off a limb. Had I not heard the African men on Sundays wailing horribly when they were parted from their wives and children?
And now my own heart was crying in silence at our director's deception. But had I myself not deceived him about Benito and misled Doña Teresa about my participation? How could I think to save the world and not begin with my own salvation?
I looked from Dr. Gutiérrez to Dr. Salvany, then turned to Don Francisco, the most difficult to defy. “That was not our agreement.” I tried to sound firm, but my voice was quivering. “We are a family. I cannot allow the boys to be separated.”
“But they have served their use,” Dr. Salvany spoke plainly. The truth was so obvious, it did not merit a metaphor to embellish it.
“And what shall be done when they have served their use midocean? Perhaps we will toss them overboard like the peel of so much fruitâ”
“How could you think so, Doña Isabel!” Dr. Salvany's hand was at his
heart, as if wounded by my sharp remark. Indeed, I had seen our director wince at my accusation. “Why those boys are our divino tesoro,” Dr. Salvany protested. “It is only that, as our director has mentioned, we are so crowded on the
MarÃa Pita,
and we have a long distance still to go.”
“No harm will come to them,” Dr. Gutiérrez added, his voice sharp, his look impatient. No doubt he thought my opposition out of order, not deserving of the consideration they were giving it. “The captain of the
EspÃritu Santo
will be sure to put the boys on a ship bound for La Coruña.”
The very same captain who was trading in human misery. What might he do with six hapless boys, whom no one would hold him to account for?
“We shall all be on that ship together then.” I might have been agreeing with them for the soft tone of my voice, but there was iron in my will.
“You would be defying Don Francisco,” Dr. Gutiérrez reminded me. “Defying our king!” he added, no doubt ready to manacle me right then and lead me to the gallows.
“The contract would have been breached already and so we could not be held to it,” I countered.
“That is not so,” Dr. Gutiérrez persisted. Had he not read the proclamation? Certainly he had heard it read at our departure ceremony at La Coruña. No doubt, his was a blind loyalty to his director and teacher. A woman could be bullied; a woman could be pushed aside. “Our director was named director to lead us. If he sees the wisdom of a certain action, we must comply.”
Indeed, I had set out with every intention of complying. After all, I had come in awe of this same man. I had helped him convince Doña Teresa and risked my boys in the bargain. But in spite of my desire to please him, I was diverging from the path he was directing me to take. What had been only a pretext for my coming had become my purpose. I could not abandon my boys. I could not allow them to be abused. “I shall comply in all things with our director.” I addressed myself to Dr. Gutiérrez, as if Don Francisco were not there. “Always and when my boys are not put in any danger.”
Dr. Gutiérrez could think of no further argument. He looked to our director for help. “She must obey,” he stated blankly. But his voice was less sure than before.
I could feel the color rising in my face, my legs turning to butter in the heat of the day. My courage would have failed me had I not looked up at that moment and caught Don Francisco's eye. The cold sternness I had expected was not there; in its stead, I discerned a kind of respect; I would almost say, a touch of admiration, which encouraged me to plead my case to him. “As you said, Don Francisco, there are only six boys in question: four of them are scarce able to feed and dress themselves, no less to travel alone, and the other two are old enough to be of help to me on our expedition.”
My little Francisco nodded readily. “I have been helping, haven't I, Doña Isabel?”
“You have been indispensable!” I drew out the word as if it were a proclamation.
I doubt the boy knew exactly what the word meant, but he could tell he was being praised. His tearful face broke into a wide grin.
“Six will scarcely take up two berths. Little Benito can sleep with me. And sir,” I added, addressing Don Francisco. I took a deep breath and confessed the secret I had held in my heart for months.
No one said a word. In the silence we could hear the crowd milling in the square. The hearty greetings, the laughter seemed so at odds with what was now to be decided in this room: my fate.
“So you cannot vouch for the boy?” Don Francisco finally spoke up. “He is not your son?”
I had only presented Benito as my own so that if he were not selected as one of the carriers, he might still go with me. There had not been enough time for me to adopt him in La Coruña. Upon my return, or in New Spain, I would institute the proceedings. “He is not my child, but he is my son,” I explained, “as they are all my sons.”
Our director and his assistants had come quite determined to carry out their plan. They had not anticipated the opposition they had encountered from the quiet, accommodating rectoress.
“We have been quite crowded on board, as you say,” I went on. “And I know our mate has been most inconvenienced by ceding his cabin to me.”
Don Francisco held up his hand in contradiction. “That is not it, Doña Isabel.”
“My place is with the children,” I persisted. “Had I not been so ill, I would not have abandoned them.” I was determined not to accept any further favors. But the thought of the lewd steward only a thin partition away from where I would be sleeping qualified my determination. “Perhaps some other spot can be found for me on the ship.”
I had a spot in mind. Soon after our arrival, and before the outing to Oratava, I had returned to the
MarÃa Pita
in hopes of retrieving Doña Teresa's treats. Those cases, which I had marked with my own hand, had not been delivered, along with our chests, to the convent. I had brought several of the older boys along to help me carry them back. Our captain was ashoreâfor which I was secretly gladâbut his first mate, Lieutenant Pozo, had been left in charge. Correct and stern while sailing, the mate seemed to be rendered powerless by being becalmed in a quiet bay. And by the presence of a woman inquiring after some missing items. The steward was summoned and it was soon clear that some thievery had been going on. Candied almonds, dried fruits, sugar balls?