âWe got the boat off,' he told her. âThe engine wasn't working.
Our guess is that she was carried round the Point by the tide and swept into the rocks.'
He pushed the mug of tea closer to her elbow. He was a local boy and he'd recognised Mathilda's boat at once. As soon as he was able, he'd driven down to the cove and found Isobel frantically telephoning the coastguard. He told her that Mathilda had died of hypothermia and exhaustion and that the doctor had also noticed advanced stages of cancer. Shocked and silent, Isobel had sat staring at nothing while he made tea and attempted to comfort her. All at once she had begun to cry, the tears spurting from between her fingers, and he'd wondered if he should call her doctor or take her to the surgery.
âShe did it on purpose.' Isobel sounded a little calmer, although sobs burst from her uncontrollably. âShe wouldn't have wanted operations and things. If only I'd known. Oh God â¦'
âYou can't know that,' he said uncomfortably. âShe was always going out on her own, wasn't she? My dad said she'd done it all her life. No reason why she shouldn't go last night. Lovely clear night, it was.'
Isobel looked at him. âYes,' she said dully. âYes, I'm sure you're right. Sorry.'
âNothing to be sorry about. Look, I've got to go. I'm a bit late for work. Only I don't like to leave you. Is there somebody you could phone up? I could give you a lift.'
âNo.' Isobel shook her head and attempted to control her trembling lips. âI'm OK. You've been great. Honestly, I'll be all right.'
âWell, if you're sure â¦'
He tucked his chair under the table and she followed him out on to the beach, raising a hand to him as he climbed into his car and disappeared up the track. Keeping her eyes resolutely away from the empty house, Isobel wandered down to the sea. The sun shone in her eyes and a gull cried mournfully as it drifted above her, white wings outstretched. She thought of Mathilda, of the fear that she must have known during the long cold night, and the tears streamed unchecked down her face. She tried to imagine her own life without
Mathilda; without her dry humour or her companionship; without the refuge she had given her against the storms. Now she had no one. Isobel sat down on a rock and, bending her head towards her knees, gave herself up to grief.
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SUNDAY MORNING. THE JUNE sunshine slanted through the arched windows of the chapel, touching the heads of the smaller boys in the front rows and lingering on the bowl of yellow roses placed at the altar. The drowsy peace was briefly disturbed by the frantic fluttering of a butterfly as it beat its tortoiseshell wings against the glass. Abruptly it abandoned its struggle for freedom, dropping down to rest on the stone sill. The scent of the roses drifted faintly on the warm air and the headmaster's scholarly voice was soothingâalmost soporificâas he read the gentle words of St John â¦
âBehold what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us, that we should be called the sons of God ⦠Little children let no man deceive you ⦠He that committeth sin is of the devil ⦠For this is the message that ye heard from the beginning, that we should love one another â¦'
Matron, ever vigilant from her vantage point in the choir, watched the small boy opposite. His face was dreamy and peaceful as he unobtrusively slid his fingers under the thigh of his even smaller neighbour and pinched the bare flesh. The cry of anguish was frozen on his victim's lips as she leaned forward to look sternly at both of them. They stared back at her with innocent guileless expressionsâbut she saw the sharp jab of an elbow in retaliation and smiled to herself.
â â¦My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and truth â¦'
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Matron sighed deeply; thirty-five years in the company of boys between the ages of eight to thirteen had given her a rather cynical outlook. The first twenty years of her career had been at a boys' preparatory school in Dorset. When the headmaster retired she decided that she, too, should make a change and she had come here to this small school on the edge of the New Forest. It was the right decision and she had been very happy. A succession of little boys had passed through her capable, caring hands and, after they left, she continued to learn of their achievements through the pages of the school magazine and their occasional visits. How she would miss them! She looked down into the body of the chapel and wondered how she would cope with retirement. Her glance picked out the familiar head of the History master. She knew without looking how he would be sitting; hands in his pockets, legs crossed at the ankles and thrust out into the aisle, chin on chest. He was unconventional, sometimes outrageous, an inspired teacherâand the boys adored him. She had regulated her love for Tony Priest so that only she knew of it. It was so humiliating to have such feelings when one was over fifty; especially if the object of one's desire was a married man. Yet the thought of leaving him, the school, the boys, was a terrible one. Her closest friend, a widow, assumed that they would enter into old age together at her little house in Winchester; or there was the option of buying a small flat, here in the town, not far from the school. She pursed her lips thoughtfully as she mentally reviewed its advantages. The most prominent of these was its cheapness but also important was the comfort in the knowledge that she would be able to keep in touch with the school; to see Tony Priest from time to time. She thought of the letter she had received yesterday from a lawyer in Plymouth; some distant relative had left her a share in a house. She had never heard of this distant cousin and was surprised that she should have been mentioned in her
will. It had been suggested that she travel to Devon to see the house but really there was no point. On the other hand the money would be very useful indeed â¦
The rustle of hymn books brought her to her feet with the other members of the choir and she felt for the reading spectacles that swung from a chain around her neck. The small boy sitting directly in front of her sniffed juicily and wiped his nose with the back of his hand. Matron poked him sharply in the back and he turned to stare up at her, aggrieved. âHandkerchief!' she hissed and he fumbled obediently in the pocket of the grey shorts of his Sunday suit.
Tomorrow, she thought, as he blew with exaggerated ardour into the grubby square of linen, tomorrow I shall write and see what it's all about â¦
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ISOBEL DRAGGED THE SHEET from her bed and the cover from the quilt and bundled them into a pile on the floor. She carried the quilt to the window so as to hang it out in the warm sunshine and stood transfixed, one hand outstretched to open the window wider. Below her, on the beach, was a girl. She was standing quite still, with her back to the sea, staring up at the house. The sun glinted on the short blonde hair and her whole attitude was one of tense expectation. Suddenly she swung round and extended her arms, fists clenched in a gesture of triumph, head flung back, eyes tight shut.
Isobel realised that she was still clutching the quilt to her breast; her hand gripping the window latch. She had the strangest feeling that she was spying but, before she could turn away, she saw a man emerge from the house and stroll down the beach. The girl had heard his approach and stood easily now, her hands thrust into the back pockets of her jeans. Nevertheless, Isobel was aware of a kind of joy emanating from the slight figure. Her own heart beat quickly as their voices mingled with the shushing of the tide upon the sand and she saw the manâwhom she now recognisedâgesture towards her own cottage.
Isobel dropped the quilt and went downstairs and out into the
sunshine. James BarringtonâMathilda's lawyerâraised a hand to her and she was aware of the girl looking at her keenly as she went to meet them.
âGood morning, Isobel.' James smiled and held out his hand. âHow are things with you?'
âI'm fine.'
Isobel liked James. He had recently moved back to the West Country from Oxford and had inherited Mathilda from a retiring partner of the Plymouth law firm where, as a law student nearly fifteen years before, James had worked during his holiday placements. He lived somewhere near Dartmouth and had been very willing to come out to the cove and talk to Mathilda about her quest for her unknown relatives. She had been very taken with him and the three of them had spent several immensely enjoyable evenings together. On one occasion, at Mathilda's request, he had brought his wife, Daisy, and their small boy for Sunday tea.
âThis is Tessa Rainbird,' he was saying. âShe is Miss Rainbird's cousin, several times removed. This is Isobel Stangate.'
The two women looked at each other.
âSo he found you,' said Isobel lightly. âHello.'
Tessa's hand was warm in hers and the golden eyes looked anxious.
âI never knew her,' she said. âIsn't it terrible? I didn't know about her, you see. And I've been down in Devon so much in the last couple of years. Oh, it's such a waste!'
âNever mind.' Isobel was taken aback at her intensity. âShe didn't know about you, either.'
âBut she was
family
,' said Tessa sadly. âI wish I'd known her. And now it's too late.'
âYes.' Isobel winced at the stab of pain which reminded her of her own loss. âI'm afraid it is.'
âMrs Stangate will be able to tell you all about her.' James's voice was comforting. âShe looked after her, you know.'
âWell, up to a point.' Isobel looked at Tessa and felt curious. âDo you like the house?'
âI love it,' said Tessa simply. âAll of it. The house and the cove. It's ⦠Well, it's magic, isn't it?'
âIt's rather special,' agreed Isobel. She was feeling confused. She had been prepared to dislike on sight these relatives who were to supplant Mathilda and turn the cove into a kind of holiday campââbut this girl wasn't quite what she had envisaged.
âI want to live here,' Tessa was telling her, âbut I have to wait to see what the other beneficiaries want to do.' Isobel looked at James who shrugged. âPerfectly true, I'm afraid. If they want to sell it'll be two against one.'
âI can't bear it.' Tessa screwed up her eyes as though she might burst into tears but laughed instead. âSilly, isn't it?'
âLove at first sight,' said James sympathetically. âOften painful. Want another look round before we go?'
âYes, please,' said Tessa at once. She hesitated but James knew what was in her mind.
âI'll leave you to go round alone,' he said. âI'll have a chat with Mrs Stangate, if she can spare the time.'
Tessa's face lit up. âGreat!' she said. âShan't be long.'
âTake as long as you like,' said Isobel, who had every intention of pumping James for information. âCome in for some coffee when you've finished.'
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TESSA WENT SLOWLY FROM room to room, touching the furniture and ornaments with gentle fingers and reading the titles of the books in the bookcases. Her plan to buy a cottage and live on the moor had been abandoned instantly as soon as she had entered the house. The rooms were full of trembling pearly light and the sound of the sea was like distant music. All was just as Mathilda had left it. Isobel had tidied the rooms and went in daily to dust and air the house but
there was an atmosphere of friendly welcome, as though the owner had just popped out and would be returning at any moment. Tessa opened the windows in the study and went out on to the balcony. It had shocked her to learn that she had had a relative of whom she knew nothing; a woman with the same name as her own, with whom she shared a common ancestor, someone of her own flesh and blood who had lived in this magic place.
She leaned on the balustrade and watched the great white sails of a yacht filling with the gentle breeze that ruffled the turquoise sea. On the horizon a tanker appeared to be stationary, painted against the shimmering sky, its great length rendered toy size by distance. The tide washed gently in, hardly seeming to encroach upon the shore, and the sun shone on the stone of the old house and warmed Tessa where she stood in desperate longing.
I want it! she told herself silently. I want it.
She remembered James explaining the terms of the will. There were two other relatives involved so that even if they loved the place as much as she did there must inevitably be certain complications.
âIt might be difficult,' James had said thoughtfully, âall mucking in together, if you see what I mean.'
âMaybe,' she said hopefully, âmaybe they'll just want to come for holidays or weekends or something.'
James was silent. Tracking Tessa down had not been easy and her reactionâin light of her own lossesâwas not particularly surprising. He forbore to point out that almost invariably his instructions in these cases were to get the property sold as quickly as possible and split up the proceeds. After all, there was no question of Tessa buying out her fellow legatees. Despite the fairly primitive conditions in the house, its position alone ensured a high asking price. Properties of this nature were rare and it would be snapped up quickly. He realised that she was watching him, willing him to agree.
âWe must wait and see,' he'd told her gently.
Tessa thought about Isobel. She had the right to stay on in the cottage
as a sitting tenant. James had explained that sitting tenants sometimes made a place difficult to sell ⦠A cormorant skimmed the water, flying south with steady wingbeats. The tanker had disappeared below the horizon and the yacht had sailed round the headland towards Salcombe. Tessa went downstairs, locked the door carefully behind her and crossed the beach to the cottage.
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âI ALWAYS THOUGHT it was a crazy idea,' Isobel was saying. âLeaving it to three people. I mean, why not just one? It's bound to cause trouble.'
She thrust the sugar bowl at him, glaring at James as he maintained a judicious silence. His brief description of Tessa's background had filled her with a maternal concern and she felt cross that the two other as yet unknown relatives would destroy the girl's prospects before she could enter into them.
âHonestly!' she exclaimed. âIt's cruel, isn't it? To see this place and fall in love with it and then be unable to hang on to it! Poor Tessa. I really feel for her.'
James sipped his coffee. He was aware that it must be just as hard for Isobel to have lost her own security and, more importantly, her friend. He suspected that Isobel's anger at Mathilda's will was indirectly aimed at Mathilda. She couldn't forgive Mathilda for dying, for leaving her. James knew how close the two women had become and how important it was for Isobel to have someone to look after, to love, to worry about. It seemed that she was about to transfer her allegiance to Tessa.
âDon't sit there looking so smug!' cried Isobel. âSorry.' She caught herself up and sat down at the table. âI have this terror, you know, of these relations turning the cove into a kind of up-market Butlins.' She folded her arms on the table and shook her head. âI miss her so much,' she admitted.
Her mouth turned down at the corners and James thought briefly of his own small son when he was hurt or frightened. Just so did he
lookâalthough a comparison between a two-year-old boy and a forty-something woman was faintly ridiculous.