Secret Worlds (252 page)

“If you are half as intelligent as you say I am, you’ll agree that
rules
is just another deflection of my question. Why can’t you tell me who I was?” The professor voice was the only one that would do in this circumstance.

“Fine. I’ll explain. But the rules
are
important. They’re the only way we keep our society secret from the mortals. They need to be followed.” He gave her a hard look to make sure she understood.

Diana was all too familiar with the consequences of not following rules, so she nodded.

He nodded back and said, “Reincarnates usually experience a catalyzing event that returns their memories. The appearance of your tattoo was a small event that sent you to us, but you still haven’t experienced one that will allow you to understand who you were. I could tell you that you were Queen Victoria, but it wouldn’t do you a damn bit of good because you wouldn’t have her memories. You’d have no idea what your task is. It could even divert you from the proper path if you went chasing off after loose ends. You were reborn for a purpose, and for you to misinterpret that purpose would lead to dire consequences.”

Dire consequences?
As in, more dire than being attacked by monsters and kidnapped by a previously unheard-of magical organization?

“Gather your things. I’ll meet you in the hall outside in two minutes.” He spun on his heel and walked out.

Cadan paced in the hall, clenching and unclenching his fists while he waited for Diana. They needed to get the hell out of here so that they could leave Edinburgh and her pursuers, yet the idea of being in close proximity to her had his heart sinking and his cock stirring.

What had that been in there? Seeing Diana, being near her, had felt like drowning. She’d made him
feel
, and he wanted to despise her for that. He’d worked so hard over the years to cut off emotion that he didn’t know how to fucking deal with it anymore. Who the hell could live as long as he had, alone, and keep feeling and expect to stay sane?

The door creaked behind him and he turned, heart thudding just a little bit harder. The small, black overnight bag was slung over her shoulder.

“Where are we going?” She sounded calmer, more collected. With her glasses perched above a straight nose and the intelligence shining behind her eyes, she looked like a 1940s librarian. The kind from a pin-up calendar posted above a bunk on a WWII battleship. He hadn’t known he had a fetish for sexy librarians.

Shite
. His self-control was going to be a problem. Staying away from her, keeping himself focused, was the only way to ensure her safety…and he was already failing.

“We’re leaving Edinburgh. It’s no’ safe for you here.” There were too many Mytheans in this city, and he was afraid that some of the more dangerous ones already knew she was here. She’d been a soldier for good in her first life, and the underbelly of Mythean society wouldn’t want her fulfilling her destiny.

“Come on, I’ll take your bag.” He reached for it.

“I can carry it.” She clutched it closer and glared at him.

“Sure you can, lassie. But I’ll be taking it all the same.” He grabbed her bag, ignored her protest, and turned to head down the hall. Her light footsteps quickly caught up.

“Is that your idea of chivalry? I can carry my own damn bag.” She scowled at him.

He supposed it was, though normally he was smoother. He never had any trouble with other women. But this one...

“And quit calling me
lassie
. I’m not your lassie.”

“Never said you were. Lassie.” He didn’t know why he baited her. To see her reaction, probably. Was she as volatile as Boudica had been?

“Whatever. Why are we leaving?” she asked. “Shouldn’t I stay here to discover who I was in my past life?”

He glanced at her. She moved gracefully even as she hurried to match his longer strides. The sight of her, fresh from her shower with a thin sweater clinging to still-damp skin, confirmed that she was shaped like a woman from his fantasies. She was smaller than he liked, true, but she made his hands itch to touch her again. Returning to Arthur’s Seat for her bag had been worth it just to see her in that sweater. He’d wanted her to have her own things, something to comfort her, but the sight of her now reminded him of last night. There, in the shadow of the mountain with the moon hidden by clouds, she’d felt like a goddess beneath him.

“Well?” Diana’s voice pulled him out of the memory. “Shouldn’t I be here if I want to learn about my past?”

Gods, he needed to get his mind back on the here and now. “So, you agree that this isn’t all a giant hoax?”

“Like you said, I have to accept this. I’m not an idiot, and I don’t have many other options, do I? I want to know why monsters are stalking me, why this tattoo has appeared, and why I’ve been having the same dreams my entire life.” There was frustration in her voice, but also something more he couldn’t identify.

“Dreams?” He hoped his dread wasn’t evident in his voice. How much was she remembering?

“Yes. It all makes a terrible kind of sense. I’ve had these dreams forever, and they’ve always made me a step shy of crazy, especially during my childhood. It’s like I know myself, but something is missing. Like I’m living a second, horrible life when I’m asleep.” She shook her head. “God, it’s hard to explain.” She hesitated before speaking further, as if unsure she wanted to tell him. “I’m dying. It’s cold and dark.” She shuddered. “Damp.”

His arms ached to wrap around her, to protect her. The way he hadn’t so many centuries ago.

“I’m in the arms of the man I love, but he’s betrayed me. I don’t know why or how, but I think that’s the key.”

Betrayed her? His jaw tightened. Her soul was still angry after two thousand years? But the love she’d spoken of hadn’t been past tense. “In the dream, do you still love him?”

“I don’t know. It was complicated. But if I did, he’s long dead, isn’t he? My dreams take place more than a thousand years ago, at least. If we’re leaving Edinburgh, how am I supposed figure all this out? Are we going to another university, one with a library? Other scholars?”

They passed through the grand front doors of the building and stepped out into the muted sunlight filtering through heavy gray rainclouds. The cobblestones of the courtyard gleamed dully, a sheen of rainwater darkening them. It was unnaturally silent, with only rustling oak leaves breaking the silence. The smell of wet leaves and grass gave the morning an earthy scent that always reminded him of the calm before a battle.

“Nay, we’re going to my home. It’s known only by a few. Anyone tracking you won’t be able to find you.” And he could keep her from figuring out what her task was so that he could accomplish it for her. The sight of her this morning had only confirmed that she didn’t have a chance of surviving it.

He opened the passenger door of his car for her and she slipped gracefully inside. His gaze followed her. He needed a bigger car. She’d be sitting far too close.

He skirted around the front of the car and slid in under her watchful gaze, then turned the key in the ignition. The engine purred to life. It was far more powerful than the body of the subtle sedan suggested it would be. After centuries of living without modern conveniences, he appreciated them all the more. Particularly cars. Traveling by horseback was too slow. He might have saved Boudica had he been able to move more quickly than his horse allowed. But then they would both be dust by now.

They passed through the elaborate gates of the Immortal University and headed north.

“Are you hungry?” he asked. “We can stop at a café on the outskirts of town if you want breakfast.”

“No. Food is the last thing on my mind right now.”

“Aye, all right.”

They rode in silence for a few minutes until she asked, “If we go to your house, how am I going to figure this out? I need to start researching. Do you have the resources that I’ll need?”

“Like what?”

“Books, of course.”

Books, right. Those must be the resources she’d mentioned, but he was having a hard time paying attention to her words when she was so close to him. From the exasperation in her voice, she was noticing.

“How am I supposed to learn about history without books?”

“Ah. Such a scholarly lassie.”

She arched a brow. “Well, I am a professor.”

“Aren’t you a bit young to be a professor?” He looked sideways at her, skepticism plain on his face.

“No. I’m not tenure track yet, but I will be soon, if my promotion goes through. It’s possible to attain a professorship before you’re thirty in certain fields. If you work hard enough, that is.

Impressive.
“Well, I’ve a library at my house. You’ll have access to the books you need.” He had a large collection—two thousand years of solitude resulted in an impressive collection of reading material—but he’d be hiding most of the books about Boudica before Diana could look at them. He didn’t know what kind of information she might find about her upcoming task, but he wanted to find it first. “Do you really expect to find the answers in books?”

“I don’t know. But I’m not just going to sit around and wait for another
catalyzing event.
”

“Nay, I suppose that doesn’t sound very appealing.”

She let out a little laugh. He felt a burst of pride at the sound, then crushed it.
Idiot.
She wasn’t his, couldn’t be his, and it didn’t matter if he could make her laugh.

Though the interior of the car wasn’t warm, he turned up the air to cool his overheated skin, but it made her scent drift toward him. Clean and bright. He clenched his fists on the wheel and shifted in his seat. The familiar roads passed in silence until they were well out of sight of the university. He could barely restrain himself from peppering her with questions about her life.

“Where is your home?” she asked.

He glanced at her, but she was staring out the window.
Look at me.

Instead, she stared out at the damn mountains. They would be in the Highlands soon, where the hills would turn to mountains and the roads would wind ever higher, twisting and turning amongst the rock-falls and the sheep.

“On the cliffs of the Isle of Mull, overlooking the sea. It’s in the northwest, but we’ll be taking the more remote northern roads before turning west. We’ll avoid Glasgow, though it’s faster. Sitting in traffic with your pursuers on the loose is no’ a grand idea.”

“You think?”

He felt a grin tug at his lips.

***

“So, when we get there, you’ll be protecting me from the monsters while I research in your library?” This all sounded like bad business to her.

“I’ll no’ let you out of my sight.”

“But you said they can’t find the house, right?”

“Aye. It will be harder to find than any other, at least.”

“Unlike mine.”

His head whipped toward her. “What do you mean, unlike yours?”

“The same kind of monster that attacked me at Arthur’s Seat broke into my house. I killed it, but I came to Edinburgh because I was afraid there were more looking for me back in Clayton.”

“You really killed a demon? When did you learn to fight?” He sounded impressed.

“I haven’t,” she answered. “I’d never been in a fight before.”

“Then how’d you do it?”

“I don’t know. I didn’t really feel like myself. At first I was afraid, but then it hit me in the face. And I realized it could kill me. I had to protect myself. I started hitting it with a cast iron skillet. They’re very heavy, you know, well suited to fending off an attacker.”

He chuckled. The sound reached into her and tightened something in the best way possible.

“I eventually grabbed its knife and stabbed it.”
Then collapsed on the floor in a shaking mess. Won’t add that part.

“Well done, lassie.”

She flushed at the compliment.

“That’s one thing we’ll be doing when we reach Mull,” he said. “I’ll be teaching you to defend yourself. You’ve entered a violent world, and you’re going to need to learn how to get along in it.”

Her stomach turned over at the thought of learning to fight, of being in situations that required it of her. But being able to harness her latent skill to protect herself was necessary. Sure, the massive warrior next to her could probably fight off demons with one arm tied behind his back, but he might not always be around. And there were monsters out there.

She swiveled to look at him. “Wait, you keep saying
demon
. Do you mean an actual demon? From
hell?
”

She had
to get out of this new life. Monsters were scary, but a demon from hell was so much worse. Probably because demons proved the existence of both monsters and hell, two things she’d happily believed didn’t exist until now.

“Aye, lassie. From hell.”

“But how are they getting out?”

“Depends on which hell they’re from.”

“Which
hell? As in, more than one?” She swallowed hard, not sure if she wanted to hear this.

“Aye. There’s a lot of them. As many as there are religions that created them. Though mortals have warred for centuries over the one true religion, they’ve got it wrong. Most religions are real. Belief is the key, and if enough people believe in something, it becomes truth. The heavens and hells of different religions are separate, but equally true, realities called
afterworlds
. But they normally doona come into contact.”

“Come into contact? Like people can go back and forth from earth to hell or from one hell to another?”

“Nay, mortals can only get into a heaven or hell through death and they canna get back out once they are there. Some Mytheans can go back and forth.”

“What about the demons that are chasing me? Where are they from?”

“Doona know. I doona recognize their type. They could be escaping somehow from a dead religion’s afterworld that has long since been closed off.”

Oh crap.
A vision of murderers and thieves attempting to escape hell and overrunning earth made her stomach pitch. “How often does this happen? Shouldn’t somebody be keeping control of this?”

“That’s what the university tries to do.”