Startled, the cat leaped back, and was once more subjected to the tingling of electricity. It reached out again, trying the other button.
Now, the area around the cage began to reek of skunk, causing the children to hold their noses, and the cat—only an inch from the nozzle spraying the redolent gas—to jerk reflexively back once again.
Amy, outraged by what she saw, grabbed her book bag from the table on which she’d dropped it only a few minutes earlier and started toward the door. “I’m leaving,” she said. “And I’m not coming back, either!”
Startled by her words, Josh turned away from the cage. “Come on, Amy, it’s not like we’re hurting it!”
“You are, too,” Amy insisted. “You’re torturing it, and I’m going to tell!”
A groan rose from the rest of the boys in the class. Amy turned scarlet, furious at what was being done to the hapless animal in the cage and at the reaction of her classmates as well. “I hate all of you!” she yelled. Then her right arm rose and she pointed an accusing finger at George Engersol. “You’re just as mean as they are!” Bursting into sobs, she fled from the room.
Josh started after her, but Engersol stopped him before he was halfway to the door. “Let her go,” the director of
the Academy said. “It’s all right. Her reaction was a perfectly legitimate response to the experiment. And in a way, she’s right—what we’re doing isn’t very pleasant for the cat. It’s not suffering any long-term damage, at least not physically. But,” he went on, drawing the attention of the class back to the cage, “let’s take a look at what’s happening to its brain.”
Josh hesitated, torn between his urge to go after Amy and make sure she was all right, and his equally strong desire to watch the end of the experiment.
In the end, his curiosity won out. He rejoined the group of boys clustered around the lab table.
On the computer monitor the lines tracing the cat’s brain waves had gone crazy, jagging up and down in a chaotic pattern that clearly indicated its confusion.
And in the cage, the cat itself was frantically pacing back and forth, swiping first at one button, then at the other, each time shying instinctively away from the snarling dog or the odor of the skunk. In the end, it sank down, trembling, unable to continue its futile efforts to escape the unpleasant stimuli that seemed to come at it from nowhere.
At last Engersol switched off the electrical charge, and the cat, breathing hard, slowly began to settle down.
“As you can see,” Engersol told the seven boys gathered around the lab table, “the cat was unable to make a choice. Its intellectual limitations didn’t allow it to choose the lesser of two evils, tolerating either the snarling or the odor, rather than continuing to suffer the electrical shock. Instead, it simply oscillated back and forth, until finally it broke down.”
“Kind of like a computer going into a loop and crashing,” Jeff Aldrich observed.
Engersol nodded appreciatively. “Exactly. Which is the point of the whole experiment. Until we know the physical processes a brain goes through while making a choice between two negatives, we suspect that it will be impossible to program true artificial intelligence.”
“But what do we do now?” Josh asked, still uncertain exactly what they’d learned from the experiment, and with Amy’s words still fresh in his mind. If the experiment was
over, it seemed to him that the torture of the cat had been pointless. All they’d seen was what the cat couldn’t do.
Engersol turned his approving gaze on Josh. “Now,” he said, “the real work begins. We’ve gathered a lot of data, which is stored in the computer. What we do next is begin analyzing that data. We’ll feed the recorded brain waves into the computer and have them analyzed, looking for patterns within what appears to be chaos.”
For the rest of the hour the boys tapped instructions into the computer, comparing the activities of each area of the cat’s brain to all the others. Within a few minutes Amy Carlson’s reaction to the experiment was all but forgotten.
Except by George Engersol.
For him, the experiment had gone off perfectly. Amy Carlson, for whose sole benefit the entire performance had been staged, had reacted exactly as he had hoped she would.
She was unhappy, and she was angry.
The pressure inside her was building.
Jeanette Aldrich stared glumly at her desk in the administrative office of the Barrington University psychology department and wondered if she really was ready to come back to work. The week she’d spent at home, with everything she saw or touched reminding her of Adam and tearing the scabs off the still bleeding wound of her grief, had done nothing to begin the healing process. Indeed, she had found that long days of inactivity only made the pain worse, for with nothing to fill her time, she had found herself doing nothing but dwelling on the loss of her son.
So this morning she had come back to the office, where things had not been much better. Everyone she met, it seemed, was treating her with kid gloves, either making no mention of Adam’s death at all or being oversolicitous to the point of making Jeanette feel like an invalid.
Everyone, it seemed, wanted to help her.
Someone had made her a pot of coffee that morning, someone else had produced the morning doughnut from the student union.
Jennie Phelps, the teaching assistant who had filled in
for Jeanette last week, had insisted on staying, at least for today.
And from almost everyone there had been the exact same words. Uttered in a hushed whisper, after the speaker had drawn Jeanette into a secluded corner, the question never varied. “How are you, Jeanette,
really!”
As if each of them, through some mystic right Jeanette couldn’t comprehend, expected her to share her private grief, to admit to the speaker alone that she was on the verge of a nervous breakdown, or felt like killing herself, or didn’t think she could survive Adam’s loss.
Each of which, at one moment or another, had been quite true, but none of which she felt was anyone’s business but hers and Chet’s. To each whispered inquiry, she’d replied with an answer as invariable as the question that was posed.
“Really, I’m fine. The best thing is for me to get back to work and start living my life again.”
The words, of course, were as empty as the way she felt, but they at least seemed to satisfy her interrogators, each of whom smiled with relief and assured her she was doing the right thing.
Now, with still an hour to go before lunch, she surveyed her cluttered desk, wondering what she could do to clear off the most clutter in the least amount of time.
Her eye fell instantly on a stack of half a dozen master’s theses that had trickled in over the summer, all of which were now waiting to be Xeroxed and distributed among their authors’ jurors.
Just the kind of idiot work she felt competent to do. And the steady, rhythmic sounds and motions of the copier had always been a soothing sensation to her, something she’d used to calm her nerves in the midst of hectic afternoons when students and professors seemed to come at her from every direction.
Scooping up the stack of theses, she retreated to the small room off her office where the copier stood waiting, its control panel glowing reassuringly.
Slipping the first thesis out of its ring binder, she dropped it into the feed tray, pushed the buttons that would
order the machine to make and sort five copies of the document, and hit the start button.
The machine came to life, whisking the bottom sheet off the stack, feeding it onto the glass, then running five copies of it before spitting the paper back out again, now on top of the stack.
All Jeanette had to do was stand there, in the unlikely event that the machine chose to crush one of the originals or choke on a piece of copy paper.
The first thesis went through in five runs of thirty pages each, and when it was complete, Jeanette collated the stacks of copies, leaving them next to the binding machine, whose operation was another nearly mindless task that she thoroughly enjoyed.
And would save for after lunch.
She continued on through the stack, making five copies of each thesis, and eventually came to the next to the last one. As she set it on top of the copier in preparation for feeding it into the machine, her eyes fell on the title, and her breath caught:
The Gift of Death:
A Study of Suicide
Among Genius Children
Her hands trembling, she turned the title page and glanced at the précis of the thesis.
Her eyes swept over the words, which told her that the student who had authored the thesis had spent the last year carrying out research on the psychological evaluations of gifted children who had taken their own lives. The purpose of the thesis was to construct psychological profiles that could serve as an early warning system to identify suicide-prone children before it was too late.
Her hands trembling, Jeanette flipped quickly through the thesis.
She paused at a chapter heading halfway through:
Barrington Academy: Six Case Histories
As she began reading, she felt a chill in her blood. Was
it really possible that six of the Academy’s students had killed themselves in the last five years?
Except that it wasn’t six.
It was seven now, for the research for the thesis had obviously been completed before Adam had died a little more than a week ago.
Jeanette stood quite still at the copier, a strange hollowness forming in her stomach.
She had to read the thesis, had to know what this graduate student had discovered, had to know whether, if she’d seen the thesis even two weeks ago, she might have saved her son.
And yet she couldn’t read it now, couldn’t even scan the chapters.
She waited until her hands steadied. When she had regained some semblance of calm, she began copying the thesis.
Instead of making the usual five copies, this time she made six.
One for each of the jurors on the student’s panel.
And one for herself. Though it violated the rules of the college, she would slip it into her purse and take it home with her that afternoon.
That night she would read it, and try to discover how the Academy could have lost so many students in so short a time.
Amy Carlson was sitting by herself at a corner table of the Academy’s dining room, facing the wall, struggling to force down her lunch. She’d ignored Josh MacCallum when he’d tried to coax her to sit at their regular table, refusing even to answer him as she walked past him with her tray gripped in her hands.
After she left the lab, she’d gone back to her room, slipping unnoticed into the house through the back door and scurrying up the stairs before Hildie Kramer or anyone else could spot her. Once in her room, she’d scooped Tabby up from her pillow, then flopped down on the bed, cradling the cat in her lap, petting it and talking to it as if by heaping
affection on Tabby she could somehow make up for the pain that was being inflicted on the creature in the laboratory.
And there she’d stayed until lunchtime. skipping the rest of her morning classes.
But when noon came, she decided she’d better go down to the dining room, even though she didn’t feel like eating. Otherwise, someone—Josh, probably—would come looking for her, and she still didn’t want to talk to him, or anyone else.
So she’d gone down to the dining room, gotten her lunch, but ignored all the rest of the kids to sit by herself, facing the wall and staring at the uneaten food on her plate.
For the first time since she’d met Josh and decided to stay at the Academy, she wanted to go home, to go back to her own room in her own house, where her own cat was waiting for her.
Maybe this evening, after dinner, she’d call her mother and ask them to come and get her. Even going back to public school would be better than staying here, where they tortured little animals!
Amy felt a hand on her shoulder and jumped.
“Amy?” Hildie Kramer said. “What’s happened? Why are you sitting all by yourself?”
Amy stiffened. “I just want to.”
Hildie’s hand dropped away from Amy’s shoulder. For an instant the little girl thought the housemother might leave her alone.
Instead, Hildie sat down in the chair next to her.
“Well, I know something must be wrong,” Hildie said quietly, her voice soft enough so that no one but Amy could hear her. “Dr. Engersol wants to see you in his office before afternoon classes begin. And you didn’t go to any of your classes after the seminar, did you?”
Any licked her lower lip nervously and shook her head. “I—I didn’t stay in his class, either,” she admitted. “They were doing things to a kitty, and I left.”
“Oh, dear,” Hildie sighed. “So that’s why Dr. Engersol wants to see you, is it?”
“I guess.” Amy felt a flash of hope. “Is he going to send
me home?” she asked, trying to keep her voice from sounding too eager.
Hildie chuckled. “Somehow I don’t think so. It’s not that easy to get expelled from the Academy. I suspect he just wants to explain what they were doing, and help you understand that the cat wasn’t really being hurt.”
“But it was!” Amy exclaimed, her indignation flooding back. “He was torturing it!”
Hildie’s brows rose. “Torturing it? I can’t believe Dr. Engersol would do something like that.”
“But it’s true!” Amy insisted. Doing her best not to exaggerate, she told Hildie about the experiment and what had happened to the cat. When she was done, Hildie’s expression was every bit as angry as her own.
“If that’s what happened,” she said, “I think it’s just as terrible as you do.”
“But it is what happened,” Amy cried. “Ask anyone, if you don’t believe me! Ask Josh! He saw it. All the boys did. But they didn’t care. They thought it was fun!”
Hildie shook her head sympathetically. “That’s boys for you. I’ll tell you what. I’ll go with you to talk to Dr. Engersol, and we’ll see what he has to say. And if he’s planning any more experiments like that, you and I will call the SPCA. We certainly won’t tolerate abuse of animals in our classes!”
Amy stared at the housemother. “You mean you didn’t know?” she asked.