Simply Irresistible (23 page)

She pulled out her cell and called her dad. She had no idea why, other than she needed to hear the voice of someone who loved
her.

“Hey, sweetie,” he yelled into the phone, sirens and screaming in the background. “How are you?”

“Dad?” Her heart stopped. “What’s going on, are you okay?”

“I’m terrific. I’m on a set in New Orleans, filming a horror flick.”

“Oh.” Like a dope she nodded, even though he couldn’t see her. His voice helped though, a lot. “Miss you.”

“Well, then come on out here. We could always use another hand.”

The thought was oddly tempting. “I might do that.” Since she’d be homeless soon enough.

They spoke for a few more minutes, and then she hung up without telling him about the mess she’d made of her life.

And her heart…

God, she needed some chips. An entire bag. With a sigh, she drove to the inn, but neither sister was there, and Chloe’s Vespa
was gone. Turning around, Maddie headed to the café and found Tara working the lunch shift.

“Go away,” Tara said from the chef’s window. “I’m snowed under.”

Okay, so that took care of telling Tara now. “I need something warm and fattening.”
To ease the hot ball of anxiety choking the air out of me.
“And if you remind me that my jeans are finally fitting, I’m going to knit you another scarf.”

To her credit, Tara merely nodded. “I’ve got just the thing—Life Sucks Golf Balls casserole. Eggs, bacon, cheese, and veggies
for a healthy touch.”

“But it’s a
casserole.
” Maddie shuddered. “The ingredients will all be touching.”

“Don’t be a child.”

“
Touching,
Tara.”

“Yes, the ingredients are all touching, good Lord, but I’ll put the bread waaaaay on the other side of the plate, okay? Maybe
even on its
own
plate if you stop your bellyachin’. Now sit down and shut up, and I’ll bring it out to you.”

“Fine. But I also need hot chocolate and extra whipped cream.
Extra
extra.” Because whipped cream was a solve-all. It would ease the dull throb of bitter discontent and swirling anxiety in
her gut. She was counting on it.

In a few minutes, she was inhaling the amazing casserole and simultaneously spraying more whipped cream into her hot chocolate
when she felt a shiver of awareness race down her spine.

Jax.

Already horrifyingly close to losing it, she didn’t dare look up when his boots and denim-clad legs came into her line of
vision. “How?” she asked, nose deep into her hot chocolate. “How do you always know?”

“That you’re OD-ing by whipped cream? I didn’t. I have a business meeting with a potential client.” He nudged her over and
slid into the booth next to her. She
felt his long, searching look, then his warm palm sliding along the back of her neck at the same time as he pressed a hard
thigh to hers, making her want to crawl into his lap and inside his opened jacket.

Instead, she squirted whipped cream directly into her mouth. She swallowed the mass and licked her lips, then happened a glance
a Jax.

Whose eyes were locked on her mouth.

It was interesting, watching him watch her. Her life was in the toilet. Circling the drain, in fact, and he still wanted her.
She hadn’t thought that could matter, or that it could help, but somehow it did. “Thought you had a meeting.”

“He can wait a minute. Talk to me, Maddie.”

“About what?” She shook the nearly empty can of whipped cream. “How I just ran out of my drug of choice, or that I failed
at yet something else?”

Her only defense at letting that last part slip was sugar overload. She read the label on the whipped cream, but nowhere did
it say that mainlining this substance might cause low self-esteem and diarrhea of the mouth.

He took the can from her fingers. “What do you think you failed at?”

Life.
She closed her burning eyes and swallowed past a thick throat. The beginning of a headache had turned into an entire percussion
band sitting on her right lobe. “I need some chips,” she whispered. “Layered in greasy, salty goodness. It soothes being rejected.”
Downing her hot chocolate, she went to stand, but Jax grabbed her wrist.

“Rejected?”

Rejected. Stomped on. Decimated… “You have a meeting.”

“I do,” he said, but didn’t let go. She tried to tug free, but he reeled her in, then lightly kissed the corner of her mouth.

“Whipped cream,” he explained.

She drew a shaky breath. She wanted him, bad, but even that wouldn’t soothe the ache from knowing her dream was in its death
throes. “I think your client is waving at you,” she whispered.

He turned and eyed the man two booths over trying to get his attention. Jax nodded his head and held up a finger, and then
turned back to Maddie. “Talk to me,” he repeated firmly.

“The bank turned us down for the refinancing.” Just saying it out loud made her want to be sick, but that might have been
all the junk food she’d consumed. She shot a guilty look in the direction of the kitchen. “And I still have to tell Tara and
Chloe, but we should cancel the new interior doors we ordered. Obviously, we need to put in the new windows when they come
and fix the roof to sell, and I’ll finish the painting, but little else. And your client’s about to fall out of his chair
trying to overhear us. You have to go.”

“Maddie.”

Oh, God, that low, husky voice filled with all that empathy was going to break her into a million little pieces.
Not here,
she told herself sternly.
You will not fall apart in a public place again.
Besides, this time there was no one to dump coffee on.

“Gotta go,” she choked out. She’d used up all the fake strength in her arsenal. She needed to reboot, that was all. Pulling
free, she got up and walked out.

•   •   •

Back at the inn, Chloe’s Vespa was still gone, so Maddie headed directly into the marina office. If the ship was going down,
the books were going to be balanced when it did.

Less than a minute later, she heard the marina building door open and shut, and then the slide of the lock, and she looked
up into Jax’s caramel eyes. Her heart skipped a beat. “What happened to your meeting?” she asked.

“Suddenly cancelled.”

By him. God. She was costing him work left and right. “Jax—”

He came around the desk and leaned back against it, facing her, with his long legs stretched out in front of him. “You can
try to get a revolving line of credit as a second mortgage. Or try another bank. Or your current lender, who’s far more likely
to—”

“If we go to the current lender, they’ll know we’re in trouble.”

“Maddie, in this market,
everyone’s
in trouble, not just you. This doesn’t have to be over.” His voice was low and serious. “I can help—”

“No.” She swallowed hard and shook her head. “Thank you. It’s incredibly kind of you to even think it, but—”

“Jesus, would you stop trying to figure this out all on your own? You’re not on your own, not anymore, not unless you want
to be.”

Suddenly uncomfortably aware that he’d never gotten frustrated with her before, she stared at him.

He stared right back, unwaveringly. “Maddie, remember when you listed all your faults for me?”

“Jax—”

“
Do you?
”

“Yes,” she said tightly, hating that her stomach had knotted at the first sign of his frustration. He wouldn’t hurt her, she
told herself. He’d never hurt her.

“I’m going to guess you’re still using a nightlight for the closet monsters. And I know you still don’t like your food touching.”
He cocked his head. “What else was there?”

“
The Sound of Music,
” she said, then rolled her eyes. “And the burping the alphabet.”

“You forgot one.”

She’d forgotten many. On purpose. But hey, if he wanted to think she had only one more fault, she wasn’t about to dispel that
notion.

“You forgot that you’re the most mule-headed, stubborn-assed woman on the planet.” Crouching at her side, he put his hands
on the arms of her chair and turned her to face him. She saw that his frustration was with the situation, not her, that he
was indeed looking at her with warmth and affection.

“I can help,” he said. “By extending a second loan, or helping you apply to another bank.”

His offer tightened her throat so that she could barely breathe. “I don’t want to think about that right now.”

“What do you want to think about?”

“Maybe about inhaling some chips.”

He nodded, letting her lighten the mood. “Except that might clash with all the whipped cream.”

“True,” she said. “I could work on another crooked scarf.”

Holding tight to her chair, the very sexy, gorgeous man shook his head, and she worried that he was going to force this conversation
that she didn’t want to have.
But she shouldn’t have. “I have something better,” he said very quietly, his eyes heated.

Everything within her quivered at that. He was close enough to block out the sharp fluorescent light with his shoulders, shoulders
that were broad enough to weather whatever burdens came his way.

And hers.

And he could make everything go away for a while, help her let go of all that was wrong, and embrace the one thing that was
right.

Him.
He
was right, she thought, staring at his hard chest. It would be warm to the touch and strong enough to offer comfort and safety
while making her feel desire.

He slid his hands up her legs and settled them on her waist, just beneath her sweater. His hands were big and callused and
felt so damn good on her bare skin.

“You’re tense again.”

“Yes.” She bit her lower lip, but the words escaped anyway. “You fixed me last time. You’re good at fixing things.”

“Yes. Anything you need, Maddie.”

That. That right there was another thing that made him different from the men in her past. He was willing to put her first.
They’d known each other two and a half weeks, and he’d do anything for her, and at the knowledge, a powerful emotion surged
through her. Desperately afraid to trust it, she shoved it aside, forgetting it entirely when he slid his hands up, taking
her sweater up, too, up and over her head.

This left her in just a plain white bra, but when she’d dressed this morning, she hadn’t exactly planned on being seduced.

Jax’s eyes dipped downward, darkening as he took in the soft curve of her breasts, not appearing at all bothered by the plainness
of the bra. This was good. She sucked in her stomach, but he didn’t take his gaze any farther south.

In fact, he lifted his head and looked straight into her eyes. “You’re so beautiful, Maddie.” And then he kissed her.

Yes. Oh, yes, this was definitely going to go a long way toward making her feel better, and when he deepened the kiss, stroking
her tongue with his, she slid her hands beneath his shirt to touch his warm skin. “Here?” she whispered.

“No.” He lifted her from the chair and set her on the desk. “Here.” Eyes hot, he spread her legs with a big hand on the inside
of each of her thighs, then pressed close. When he slowly ground his erection against her, she nearly lost it. She tore at
the button on his jeans and was going for his zipper when he captured her hands. His mouth skimmed her jaw, heading toward
her ear, his hands dropping to her hips to hold her still so that she couldn’t climb him like a tree. “Slow this time,” he
murmured against her skin, letting go of her hands to stroke her body, his fingers teasing her nipples. “We have as long as
we want—”

Yes, but she didn’t want to think. She needed the oblivion.
Now.
Maybe she wouldn’t have thought of getting it in quite this way, but he’d started it, and she was on board. So completely
on board. Again she reached out, this time getting his jeans opened and… oh, yes, her hands inside to wrap around him, so
big and hot and hard—

“Maddie.”

She tipped up her head to say he’d better not be thinking of stopping just as he raised his hand toward her face.

In a completely involuntary motion, she flinched back.

He went still. For a single, horrified beat, she did the same. Then she closed her eyes and thunked her head back to the desk,
swamped by embarrassment, unease, and frustration. “I’m sorry, I have no idea where that came from. None.”

Calm, silent, he leaned over her and slid a hand to the nape of her neck, cupping the back of her aching head, probably checking
to make sure she hadn’t cracked it.

She could have told him the only thing that was cracked was her damn, worthless heart. Horrified, she kept her eyes closed.
She trusted him, maybe more than any man she’d ever been with, so she really couldn’t explain why she’d—

“Maddie, look at me.”

When she talked herself into opening her eyes, he shook his head. “Don’t be sorry. Don’t ever be sorry.”

How could she not be? Because a minute ago she’d been half an inch from getting her hands on him, and now… now he was moving
away from her, easing out from between her legs.

“We’re not doing this.” His voice was quiet. Terrifyingly gentle. “Not like this, not again.”

“Jax—I know you wouldn’t hurt me.”

“No, you don’t. Not yet. But you’re getting there. That’s not why we’re not—”

“
Then why?
”

A muscle in his jaw bunched, as if it was costing him to back off. It sure as hell was costing her; her entire body was humming,
throbbing.

“Because I just realized I don’t want to be your escape. I want more. Yeah,” he said when she gaped at him. “I don’t know
when or how exactly that happened, but there it is.” He looked at her for a long beat, clearly waiting for her to say something,
like maybe she felt the same, but she couldn’t say a word with her gut lodged in her throat. He nodded and handed over her
sweater before zipping up his jeans and turning to the door, where he paused.

She held her breath. Surely he wasn’t really going to walk away. He was going to come back to her, and they’d laugh this off
and agree they were just playing…