Authors: Jeremy Robert Johnson
I hesitated on the first fish, tasting too much of it, feeling its wiggle as it halted in my throat. I took mercy on the next two, delivering big molar chomps to their heads before a speedy swallow.
“Is that better, Deck?”
Fish. Yes
.
And it was good to know I’d made him happy. Did he get a food dopamine kickback or pick up the salty sensory input of my taste buds? How much control did these other minds have? I wasn’t ready to start jerking off next to trash fires or murdering people just to feel something.
“That’ll do it?” Dara asked.
Sleep now. Dream sun.
“Yeah. We’re good. Where to next?”
I hadn’t let Dara talk to me about mom, so she couldn’t have known that what was left of her was still at Dr. Tikoshi’s primary lab. I thought it was too risky to return to the site, but Dara’s heat scan said the place was clear and nothing in the surrounding area set us on alert.
“We can get Buddy’s brain if it’s still in there.”
“Buddy had some kind of battery pack around his waist. What if that kept his tank functional? What if his brain’s gone bad? I could poison everything in my pack. I could go mad like him.”
I once ate an egg which had been buried in the ground for one hundred years, and it was the most delicious thing I ever tasted. Modern food is poison anyway. You can’t be so uptight.
Huey was helping. I tuned him out.
“I think Buddy knew more than he was able to express. And he was friends with Robbie Dawn. Buddy could know something that’ll help us find him.”
We went in armed. I felt extra paranoid and exposed once I realized that any shot through the pack might as well be a bullet to my head.
Nothing had changed in the lab, though the smell was far worse. How many buildings sat along 45
th
like this, populated only by final mistakes and rolling fields of maggots?
Dara scoured Dr. T.’s pharmaceutical supply, boosted small vials of antibiotics and perphenadol.
I approached the surgical stations and put my hand on the table where my mother had last been alive.
“Mom.”
Dara came over and put a hand on my shoulder.
“She was here that day,” I said.
“I knew it. I could see it in Tikoshi’s face. But I didn’t want to believe it.”
Neither did I. But now I was here, and it was real, and it was the only memorial Samantha Doyle would ever get.
“She beat him. She was so strong. And she was really…really great at swearing.”
Dara laughed, tears rolling out as she smiled.
“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. It’s not okay, is it?”
“No. It’s not. I owe her so much that I never gave. I tell myself I killed the man who murdered her, but that’s not even true.”
“Doyle, no.”
“I’m still here. And I don’t know how I feel about that anymore.”
“What would she want you to do?”
I knew the answer—Keep shoveling shit. Keep living. Don’t let the cocksuckers keep me down. Try to find the joy in it, where I could.
“She’d want me to see things through.”
With that I walked to the tray I’d seen Tikoshi place in cold storage, knowing that I wouldn’t recognize what was left of my mom. I carried the container to the micro-incinerator and flipped the switch, feeling a blast of dry warmth across my face.
“Goodbye, mom.”
Dara helped me tilt the tray.
“Goodbye, Mrs. Doyle.”
And that was the last of her, in a flash of heat and light.
There was too much left of Buddy and Boudreaux to burn, but the bugs were doing their best to dispose of the remains. We promised to place a call to the cops about their bodies, so their loved ones could find some peace.
Hopefully the families wouldn’t mind that we took Buddy’s brain. It was too risky to stay on site while we contemplated whether or not to risk integration. Instead I sat in the front seat of Dara’s car, barely able to breathe in between Buddy’s box and my pack, wondering how many residual drugs I’d be ingesting with Buddy’s frontal lobe.
In the end, we realized that we were only still alive because of Buddy’s bravery. I thought of the sound of his box crunching into Tikoshi’s face and it gave me no small satisfaction. Courage, then, was the order of the day.
Also: FUCK IT! WHY NOT?
I moved to the back seat, cracked the case, cut loose a quadrant of Buddy’s thinker, and slid it into the locking bay on the pack. I sealed the lid and we waited for the world’s most famous surgical patient to say hello.
“Buddy?” Nothing. Cognitive crickets.
“Hello?”
Trunk Man? This is strange. I was nowhere for so long, but I think I found my way back to the future mist.
Where was all the regret, fear, and neurosis of the others who’d been integrated? Had Buddy and Huey’s training time in dissociative states prepared them for a life as free-floating consciousness?
“It’s great to hear your voice.”
I can’t see anything
.
“I know. That can be scary. You should be able to see memories, at least, if you imagine you have eyes. I’m going to make a hallway for you in here. It will be your place.”
Awesome. Hey, I have so many pets. Can I have a falcon in here?
“Sure. Also, I should tell you that yours is not the only hallway. There are eleven others here. Dr. T. is one of them, but we had to lock him up.”
Oh, good. He’s the worst. His voice gives me the heebie jeebies and his hands are like crazy fighting birds.
“Agreed. So if you find a hallway that’s closed by a huge stone door, leave that closed. In fact, it might not hurt for you to spend some time thinking about that door having an extra lock with your name on it.”
Will do, Trunk Man. Hey, my falcon Balthazar is made of purple fire. That’s fucking great!
Was that formed from a memory? How did he remember…
Oh, yeah. Drugs. Subjectivity. All that. I decided to leave it alone before Huey popped up and called me percepticentric.
“I want to meet all your pets, Buddy, but first I was hoping you might be able to help me with something.”
Shoot, Trunky.
“I really need to know something about your friend, Bobby. Where does he usually stay when he comes into town for a show?”
Dara and I had pictured Robbie Dawn holed up at the Haversham or Bunk West or some private penthouse with its own production studio. I imagined lobster served on silver platters with Robbie’s name spelled out in cocaine around the border. Concubines. Eunuchs. Portuguese ventriloquists you could pelt with fruit.
You know—rich people stuff.
But Buddy said that Robbie eschewed the celebrity trappings when he could, calling off security and crashing with friends out in the Brookton district. Staying in touch with the little people. Keeping it real.
We drove by the craftsman home where Buddy said Robbie would be staying the night. I recognized a vintage Jaguar in the driveway, bright yellow paint shining high gloss in the last vestiges of dusk light. How many vehicle swaps did Robbie and his security detail have to execute to get him out here without tabloid drones hovering? He’d ridden in that car with Brazilian supermodel Beatriz M. in the video for “Let Me Toss It.”
“That’s his.”
We parked two blocks away and popped out masked and packing. Dara slung her new rifle over her shoulder. My gun no longer felt heavy and unnatural. Despite the mask, I felt like I could see better in the dusky light than I had in the past. If I’d felt Deck’s hunger, was it possible that the animus ciborium was effecting my body in other ways?
Can you not see the potential of what’s on your back?
Dara ran a few steps ahead of me, gliding, light, in her element. I did my best to keep up and tried to find a smooth stride where my data cord didn’t pull down with each step. As we reached the lawn I saw a quick flash of light from a guest bedroom window above the garage.
Direct approach before full dark. Idiots. Drop and veer left.
The bank’s assassin was unimpressed by our tactical choices, but I thought he might be right. I swerved left and yelled to Dara to drop. She responded instantly and hit the wet grass rolling. I hesitated because I didn’t want to risk landing on my pack. It was rigid, but I wasn’t sure it would hold under my full body weight.
When the voltage darts hit my chest, I knew Buddy had been wrong—Robbie had definitely retained security.
White light/legs gone/jaw popped. Shaking on my side.
Make it stop/No/It hurts/Too hot.
Everyone had an opinion on the issue.
Dara lay flat, her new rifle swinging up toward the window. She pulled the trigger and there was a soft “fwump” sound and then the window shattered and there was an aerial pop like a small firework concussing.
No motion in the window. A man moaned. Thin white curtains billowed out, flecked with red.
Frag rounds. Nice shot for a broad, too. Head in now. If the guard is still alive, he might make it to communications. Better to extract your target and interrogate elsewhere.
The bank assassin’s utility value almost made me forget the whole “tried to kill me/murdered foreign sex workers for fun” aspect of his personality.
Dara ran over and brushed the voltage darts from my chest with the back of her hand. She tucked her arms under mine and helped me stand on wobbling baby deer legs.
“Thanks. Let’s head in. We can extract Robbie and interrogate him somewhere else.”
She nodded in agreement, unable to conceal the surprise on her face.
The front door was unlocked, which was convenient, but it prevented me from finding out if there was anyone in my mind who knew how to pick the thing. If I was going to suffer this bullshit mutant mod, I might as well exploit the situation.
The first floor was clear, though there were dishes in the sink and the kitchen still smelled like coconut oil and curry.
The second floor was also empty. The lights were on in what appeared to be a little girl’s room. Signed Robbie Dawn posters for wallpaper. Plush animals by the sitting window.
We checked under bedframes and in closets, in case someone had heard the frag round and decided to hide.
Nothing.
Back downstairs. Dara spotted it first—a brown paper parcel on the far corner of the kitchen island, sitting next to a bulk pallet of bottled water. She undid the twine which held it closed. The butcher paper fell away. Cash. Banded, fresh hundreds in tidy stacks. Serious money.
I was about to tie it back up and tuck it between my body and pack when the smell hit me—the weird blood and barbecue sauce scent of Hex smoke.
I looked to Dara. She smelled it too. Without either of us saying a word, we walked over to the kitchen sink, wet two hand towels, removed our masks, and wrapped the damp cloths around our faces. Neither of us could afford Hex exposure. Who knew how it would affect me now?
Dara pulled out her pistol and gestured toward a white door in the corner of the kitchen. The door pointed toward the interior of the house, just beneath the staircase we’d taken up to the second floor.
A basement.
I drew my gun and approached the door.
Turn the knob quietly, but once it’s open you get down there as fast as you can and check all corners
.
If they’re armed, surprise is your only advantage.
I rotated the knob and pushed the door in slowly, praying that the hinges were well oiled. Dara and I looked to each other and nodded. We took a deep breath through our cloth masks, and then rushed down.
We needn’t have been armed. The people in that basement assumed their money had given them immunity from our type of intrusion. They had no weapons. Three of them were barely conscious.
Robbie Dawn was still awake. His unblinking eyes and ratchet jaw said he was deep into a Hex bender. Both of his hands cradled a green glass pipe in his lap.
“What the fuck, man? I said no extra security. Y’all are fired as of, like, yesterday. Fucking with my private time.”
Private time: a middle-aged couple passed out on a futon in the corner, breathing slow next to a bed stand filled with pipes/spikes/spoons/vaporizers. A hi-res camera looped live through an eighty inch wall-mounted television. A silver roller rack filled with petite lingerie. A girl of maybe twelve, dressed in a plaid skirt and barely-needed red bra, cuffed by her ankle to the wooden claw foot of a vintage couch. A coffee table just in front of her decked out with Hex in enough forms to ensure that a small girl could be dosed right into the realm.
You know—rich people stuff. Staying in touch with the little people. Keeping it real.
I should have told Dara to go back upstairs. I should have known what would happen.
She walked over to the girl. Covered her with a blanket she found on the floor. Looked into the girl’s eyes and gasped.
“When did you dose her?”
“I didn’t dose her,” said Robbie. “She wanted to do it. She’s a big fan, lady. Groupie kicks ain’t the same. They want a memory. Something special.”
“Her eyes are going. We’ve got to get some blocker into her.”
“You’re not doing shit, lady. This is all some consensual, agreed-upon business. It’s a done deal.”
The money on the kitchen island. Who dosed the kid?
“Y’all need to go. You are seriously fucking up my night.” He meant it. He was a mid-sized, moderately talented man on a couch in his t-shirt and boxers, but he thought he had authority over two people with masks and guns. Because of his fame. His money. His allegiance to the Vakhtang.
Bad gods.
“The key to the cuffs, Robbie.”
“Hell no. Katy’s mine.”
Dara pulled the SoniScrape from her back pocket, pointed it at Robbie Dawn, and pressed the silver button on top.
His hands went to his ears. He flopped to his side on the couch and convulsed. His stomach emptied, the smell of green bile and booze mixing with stale smoke.
She released the button. Robbie’s hands fell from his ears, blood in his palms.